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Hey there everyone! Here's the second chapter. Enjoy reading. 😊
~ Chapter Two ~
What was he supposed to do? Hug her back? No! He was supposed to be angry. But she was almost crying. "Oh Shutup!" he mentally chided himself. His Sumo was finally there, in his arms when he had been waiting for her all this time and he wasn't going to just let this moment go. It was hard to admit it to himself and he was never going to admit it to her but she was still his Sumo. So putting all his thoughts away, he decided to embrace her but just as he was about to put his arms around her, she pulled back. "Ughhh! What the hell? For how long had she been hugging him while he was lost in his own stupid thoughts?" He thought again, kind of pissed at himself and her too.
"Thank you so much Shravan!" she thanked again, looking directly into his eyes this time, her voice a bit clearer now.
Definitely annoyed by her disappearance first, then showing up all of a sudden, surprising him even more with a hug & a thank you and then letting go before he could even respond, he chose to settle for his cocky self.
"Wo ... " he began, but was cut off again before he could even complete a word of his smartass reply.
"Please Shravan! Aaj kuch mat bolna!" she said. Shravan closed his mouth, remembering that he had almost told her the same thing a few days ago. The only difference was that, his words were an order while hers were a small request. He was all quiet now, waiting for her to continue. Suman needed a chance to thank him properly, to tell him how grateful she was for everything he had done and not that he was silent, waiting for her to speak, she was glad. Unfortunately, that didn't help the fact that although she had so much to say, she didn't know how. She just couldn't come up with the right words and he was still waiting.
"Sum ..." he began again only to be cut short for the third time. "What was wrong with this woman?" he thought.
"I'm sorry!" She said.
"What?" he asked totally shocked. Was she alright? Was he alright? Either she had completely lost her mind or there was something wrong with his ears. Sumo saying "Thank you" & "Sorry" , both in one day, in the same moment, that too to him. Yup. There was definitely something wrong cuz that didn't sound like Sumo at all. Lol, it didn't sound like someone even close to Sumo.
"I'm really sorry Shravan." She repeated the apology. It felt like she was apologising for everything that happened in the past 10 years. "Main ghalat thi. Bohat ghalat. Mujhe lagta the mein sab sahi kar rae hoon. Tumhare ghusse ka jawab maine humesha apne ghusse se diya. Apni ego mein aa kar pata nae tumhe kya kuch kehti rahi. Maine yeh kabhi sochne ki koshish hi nahi ki ke anjane me, apne bachpane mein, maine tumhe kitna hurt kiya. Uss din jab tumne party mein mujhe sab ke saamne ..." she stopped for a moment, "Uss din bhi main ghusse mein chali gayi. Dil toota tha mera. Aur uss din ke baad bhi har cheez ke baare mein sochne ki bajaye maine tumhe kitni asaani se London waapis chale jaane ke liye keh diya. Par ab sochti hoon toh samajh aati hai, ke jiss tera uss din mein ghussa thi, 10 saal pehle maine tumhare saath jo kuch bhi kiya, tumhara ghussa bhi ussi sab ka nateeja tha. Best friend ke naam pe use kiya maine tumhe. Tumhe kitna hurt kiya. Itna hurt ke tum mujhe chor kar hi chale gaye. Uss din peeche se chilla rahu thi, tumhe rokne ke liye par mujhe der ho gayi lekin aaj nahi. Aaj mein yeh moka nahi gawa sakti thi. Aaj ehsaas hota hai ke maine tumhare saath kitna bura kiya. Lekin Shravan, tab itni samajh nae thi mujh me. Main cool Sumo nahi, attention seeker Sumo thi. Sahi kaha tha tumne, main bohat selfish aur baddimaagh thi. Mein toh bas apna akelapan door karna chahti thi. Bas yeh kabhi samajh nae paayi ke tum wohi koshish toh kar rae the. Sahi kehte hain log, kisi cheez ki kadar tab hoti hai, jab woh humse door chali jaati hai. Tumhare jaane ke baad mujhe realise hua ke main kitni akeli thi. Bohat bewaqoof thi main jo tumhari dosti ki ehmiat nahi jaan payi, uski kadar nae kar payi. Aur aaj bhi main utni hi bewaqoof hoon kyunki tumhare waapis aane ke baad bhi main uski kadar nae kar payi. Apni ego ke chakar mein sab kuch bigarti rahi. Pata nahi kaise nahi jaan payi ke ego se barh kar rishte hote hain. Insaan ki ego rishte tabah kar deti hai. Hum kyun zindagi mein kuch rishton ki ehmiyat bhool jaate hain? Woh rishte jo humare liye bohat important hote hain?", she paused, tears now flowing down her face at their own accord.
"Itna sab kuch hone ke bawajood bhi tumne yeh case larda. Humare ghar ko bachaya. Meri family ke liye itna sab kuch kiya. London jana cancel kar diya. Tumhare iss ehsaan ka badla main kabhi nahi chuka sakti. Shayad ab tum mujhe apna dost bhi nae maante ho ge par main maanti hoon aur main bohat lucky hoon ke mujhe tum jaisa dost mila. Tumne dost hone ka poora poora farz ada kiya hai jabke maine ... Jo sab tumne humare liye kiya hai uss ke liye thank you kabhi kaafi nahi ho sakta par phir bhi thank you Shravan. Tumne tab humara saath diya hai jab kisi ne nahi diya. Tum bahar se chahe jitne bhi akroo, angry young man dikho, tum andar se utne hi ache ho. Mujhe pata hai tum yeh kabhi nae maano ge par main yeh janti hoon. Ghaltiyan hum dono se hui hain, par jo tum ne kiya woh sab mere kiye hue ka sila tha. Pichle 10 saal main waapis la kar sab badal toh nahi sakti, lekin maafi zaroor maang sakti hoon. Ho sake toh uss Sumo ko bhi maaf kar dena aur iss ko bhi." she wiped her tears and gave him a small smile.
"Pata hai jab bhi tumse kuch kehne aati hoon, tumhe dekhte hi sab bhool jati hoon. Tum har waqt iss angry bird wali look mein hote ho na. Ooper se pata nae itne lambi kaise ho gaye. Waise darti warti nae hoon main tumse woh to bas aise hi ..." she slowly looked up at him and saw him staring. He was looking at her so intensely. It was as if he was in pain. She could see his slightly glossy eyes. And then his lips turned into a very tiny smile at her last confession. He was still quiet though.
"Shravan, kya hum sab kuch bhula ke pehle jaise nahi ho sakte? I know bohat mushkil hai par kya hum apni dosti ki ek nae shuruwaat nae kar sakte?" she ended whatever she wanted to say with this small question.
Shravan was speechless. What was he supposed to say after all this. This was not what he expected. He could have never expected this even in his wildest dreams. He was shocked? Confused? happy? Elated? Sumo had just buried her ego and gathered up the guts to come to him and say all this. She just apologised to him for all those years. Her words made Shravan realise how wrong he himself was. He had caused her as much pain as she did to him. The point was he never felt good after doing that and now that Sumo had just poured out everything that she wanted to say for long, he couldn't help but feel guilty too. She was not the only one at fault. He had made a lot of mistakes too. He had been so caught up in his ego and revenge that he didn't realise the pain he had caused her. And her small confession at the end, he couldn't help but smile at that. That was so cute! Just then Shravan remembered something and his smile faltered. Everything he had just been thinking faded away. His expression had now turned into a more painful one than it had been before. No. This was not happening! Why was life this hard? But he had to tell her. He knew deep inside he wanted the same thing as her, a new beginning, but he needed time. He needed to think about this. Because forgiving and forgetting wasn't that easy was it? Thus, it was better to tell her now than to get her hopes up.
"Sumo case khatam ho gaya hai ... " He said.
*What? After everything she had just said, this was what he chose to reply with. What was wrong with this guy? Ughhh!* Suman thought.
"Haan Shravan mujhe pata hai par tum mujhe yeh kyun ..." this time she was the one who was cut off mid-sentence.
"Kyunki kal mein waapis London jaa raha hoon." he regretted saying that as soon as the words left his mouth.
Sumo was heart broken. "Case khatam hote hi main waapis chala jaun ga." she recalled his words from before. Her heart was shattered. She did not even try to hide it and the look on her face made Shravan feel like someone had just stabbed him in his heart and was twisting and turning the knife. The problem was, he himself was the stabber.
Sumo was dead silent. She knew he was going to go back to London after the case but it had completely slipped out of her mind. How could she be so foolish? Her eyes depicted that of a person who had just been told that she was going to die soon. Like her life had just been snatched out of her own hands. Like her heart has been pulled out and ripped to pieces. She couldn't speak. She couldn't hear. Hell! She couldn't even see properly through her blurry eyes. She was just looking at him with those moist eyes.
Suddenly, Dabboo appeared from nowhere, calling out for Suman. "Suman didi app yahan kya kar rae ho? Jaldi karo sab bahar wait kar rae hain. Gari main thori na chalaun ga." Sumo could not hear what Dabboo was saying. She hadn't even acknowledged his presence. She was still looking at Shravan, now with a pleading look, asking him not to do this to her, to them. Dabboo held her hand and gave it a little shake. "Suman didi chalo naaa!" he tried again. His little shake brought Sumo's attention to him and she replied with a "Huh? Haan ..." still not knowing what was happening. Dabboo started pulling her towards the door and her feet started moving. All this while she was still looking at Shravan, not wanting to break the eye contact, waiting for him to say something, anything!
Shravan couldn't bear the look she was giving him. She was going away and he couldn't form coherent words to stop her. Her beautiful yet heart broken face was gone from his sight again. He pulled on his hair not knowing what to do. He wanted to go and stop her but he just couldn't make himself do so. Why did he have to tell her that after everything she had just said?
He had got his revenge from her at the party and he was guilty about it after the words but he had been going through such pain for 10 years. Maybe 10 years of hurt had actually changed him. Maybe he wasn't the Shravan she just said she knew he was. No! He was not. He had managed to mend his broken heart once but he didn't think he'd be able to do that if she hurt him again. He wouldn't let that happen. Was he scared? No! He had been weak once and we know where that got him. He just couldn't be weak again. No matter how much it stings right now, no matter how hard it was, it'd all be worth it in the end, better than all the heartbreak eventually. He was just a cold hearted, cruel, heartless, devil now. He threw the files on the floor which he had been holding all that time and his fist connected with the wall beside him. There was a huge thud and a small crack sound. His knuckles were bleeding and one might have been broken but that was nothing compared to what he was feeling right now. He just didn't know what was happening.
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So that was part two. Hit like if you actually liked it and comment letting me know how did you find it? Criticism is appreciated too. There will probably one or two more parts, depending on how much I'll be able to cover up in the next part. A huge thank you to each and everyone of you who took out the time to read, like, comment and appreciate. It really means a lot. Lots and lots of Love!
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