.~ A Thousand Years

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@Niyaz_Lover

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Posted: 11 years ago

"Take my hand

Take my whole life too

But I can't help falling in love"

I brushed my fingers through my hair and looked at myself in front of the mirror. Smart? Yes. Handsome? Yes. The Best? Yes. Impressing girls came naturally to me, probably an inbuilt quality. I didn't have to do much to grab their attention. Raghunath Naik, the most popular guy in school and now in college. But the truth was I never yearned for their attention. Yes, I had a couple of affairs during school, brief ones, just for the sake of it. But not one girl managed to get past the walls I had built around himself. . Not that they were at fault. Maybe I was the one who was never interested. If women were like my mother I would rather not be with anyone.

I was never the one who would run after girls. They were the ones who ran after me. That was the cycle. But now, things had changed . I never felt like this. Never. No girl ever challenged me for a battle everytime. But she did. She was the only one who had managed to break that wall around me, who had pulled up the curtains of my heart and...

STOP IT Raghunath Naik!

You are again thinking about her

No, I'll not think about her. She is nothing to me.

But all my efforts to pull myself out of her thoughts were futile, as always. The more I tried not to think about her, the more she came into my thoughts. It was as if SHE was the one controlling me, controlling my mind, controlling my heart... Stop it ! Stop it Raghu!

Antara Kaul.Ye ladki mujhe pagal kardegi!

Just taking her name itself sent jitters down my spine. I was new at this. I was new at this whole spectrum of human emotion. It was impossible to ignore her. How many times had I tried to stay away from her but fate always brought her even closer to me. We always turned out to be lab partners. We always ended up going to competitions together in different colleges. However hard I tried, she was like a magnet, pulling myself towards her. Whenever she talked to me, I could never look away. I noticed every single thing about her. The way her nose flared up at the loss of counter replies, the way she pushed her hair behind her ear with her beautiful fingers.. What? Beautiful? Raghu! You need to consult a psychiatrist.

Frustrated, I looked at one last time in the mirror, took my mobile phone and went out of the room.

I checked my name at the entrance and went inside the college. I looked around. There were not many poeople. I was quite early. I couldn't believe four years paased so quickly. I felt nostalgic seeing the corridors... The place where she tripped and was about to fall when I caught her, the classrooms..the place where we fought so much ended up ignoring each other, the mechanical lab.. the place where our story began.. the place where she sat down every evening and I stared at her, ...I didn't realize when my eyes started welling up with tears, neither did I realize when the hall started getting crowded.

The only thing I could think about was her, Antara. It suddenly dawned upon me that this was probably the last time I would see her. Just a few weeks left and everyone would go their own ways. She would go her way.

I couldn't name what the feeling was nor could I reason myself. But I could feel a deep pain somewhere down my chest. It was strange. The last time I felt this pain was when mom...

The loud music pulled me out of my thoughts and I realised I was not alone. The hall was crowded. I spotted Yo Yo who ran upto me ang hugged me.

"Hello Paaji! This is my 3rd farewell party but har baar itna dukh hota hai paaji sachme", Yoyo said, crying mockingly. I grinned.

"Hi Raghu!", MM called out from behind.

I turned around and smiled at him. He was the closest person I had in this college. He was my best buddy. I was surely going to miss him after all this got over.

"In two days our final exms are going to start and here we are, partying the night out", MM said.

"I don't need to study brother. I can top the exams without even opening the book", I smirked.

People called it overconfidence but that did not change the truth. I was intelligent. I couldn't help it. I grinned mentally.

"The girls are looking pretty man. But I wish the dress code was a bikini instead of a saree", he said, checking out the women.

"Shut Up MM".

He laughed.

"Just kidding bro!".

"Hi Jiggy", MM called out to Jignesh who walked towards us.

" You look different. You look nice", I complimented him.

The brown coat and the tie surely took away some of his nerdy vibes.

"Really? I hope Rukhsana likes it", Jiggy said, his cheeks a light shade of red.

"You have still not told her you like her? Infact there is no need to tell. Its so evident that you both like each other by the way you guys gape at each other the whole time", MM said.

Jiggy blushed again. I couldn't help but smile.

"But where IS your girl?", MM asked Jiggy.

Jiggy looked towards the entrance and a smile crossed his face.

"There is my queeenn", he said.

I turned around. Antara walked inside in a red bordered saree with...I couldn't notice further as my breath stopped.

Right behind Rukhsana was her. I think I forgot to breathe. She was looking ethereal in a blue coloured saree. Her hair was left open with curls by the ends, just as I liked it. One more look at her and I would have died. I quickly looked away, finally letting out my breath.

My fingers curled into a fist as I forced myself not to look at her. I had to get out of here. I had to.

"Hi Rukhsana! Antara! We are here!", MM waved at them.

Oh God Why! Why did MM have to be her friend. Now even if I wanted to, I couldn't ignore her.

I could feel her walking towards us. I could feel her presence right next to me.

"Hi! You look great yaar",she said to MM, as they shared a hug.

That voice was enough to break all the commitments I made to myself right now. Unable to control myself any longer, I finally tuned my face around to look at her. A bout of jealousy crept inside me as I saw her hugging him. The first few times they did this, I literally wanted to pull her away from him. But they were friends. I had gotten used to it. Yet, it was unbearable to see her in another man's arms.

They pulled out from there everlasting hug. Finally.

Jiggy took Rukhsana aside! Ahh! The love birds. Yoyo and MM went to grab their drinks.

And I stood with Antara right beside me. As I mentioned earlier, however hard I tried, fate always pulled her towards me.

The first few seconds were awkward. I thought of walking away, but my legs just didn't listen to me.

Finally she turned towards me. That look in her eyes was enough to play havoc with my senses.

"Hi", she said to me in a small voice, a faint smile on her lips.

Thats when I noticed her clearly. Her eyes looked beautiful, lined with kajal. She had minimal make-up on her face yet managed to look breathtakingly beautiful.

That was it. I didn't care what she thought. I didn't care what anyone thought. I came closer to her and pulled her in my arms. I couldn't bear the thought of losing her, the thought of not seeing her ever again, the thought of not feeling her presence again, not seeing her magical smile again. I gripped her harder. She seemed to fit into my arms perfectly. But the fact that she didn't hug me back hurt me. Probably she didn't feel the same way about me as I felt about her. Probably she was too shocked to react. I didn't know what to think. I just wanted to hold her like this forever. I closed my eyes and the whole commotion in the hall seemed to disappear. It felt like we were alone, just the two of us.

There was no looking back now.

Yes, I was in love.

Raghunath Naik was in love.

Madly in Love with her.

Just then I felt her hands around me, as if answering all my doubts and hesitations. She pulled me even closer to herself. I looked down at her. Her head rested perfectly on my chest and her lips curved into a smile as she closed her eyes. That moment I knew what she felt for me.

Millions and Millions of years would still not give me half enough time to describe what I felt at that instant. It was a mix of happiness, sadness, pain, fear... but whatever it was, it felt good.

Now there was no looking away from the fact that I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with her.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Jaan, don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

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I had written this couple of days before but didn't post it coz not many people read here. Ignore typoes. Didn't proof read.

In case some one didn't get it, its their farewell party...And Rantara were in college together...

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