**Tera Sukkon Ya Junnon Tera-Rantara FF**[Thread-1] - Page 70

Originally posted by: pampz

chap 21 and 22

seriously Ria now after reading both the chapters i just cant form a full sentence to compliment u and ur write up. tell me Ria how much deep u hv dived in Antara and Raghu's character that u can draw such perfect flawless overwhelming mesmerizing stuffs in ur updates...????

Yaar tu naa... main kya kahoon... 😆... Teri har reply mujhe blush karwa deti hain...😳

I don't know what i pen down all the time.. I JUST LOVE RANTARA TOO MUCH yaar.. Aur jooo bhi likhti hoon bas woo pyar se hi nikal atta hain... ab acha hain bura hain yee tumlogon koo pata..😳

Ria am awefully awestruck feeling n sensing the sheer depth n maturity of both the characters. am totally blown by the raw intensity n sharp turns of ur awesome wonderful story. Am truely overwhelmed.

Is that so.. thank you ji...😳

the way u hv drawn Antara ...i can feel her every emotion behind her each action ...just mindblowingly wonderful painful truthful n extreamly real.

U know really well that how much i feel for that charecter... too uski feelings naturally aa jati hain mujhmein... But sometimes it's really painful to write that kind of stuffs.... But i have to justify the storyline..

whn i start to tak about ur Raghunath in ur story ...i must admit its u ...ONLY YOU Ria who has made me fall in love with him more n more ...deeply truely n dangerously with every passing day n moments.

Ohh jii bas karo abhi!!!😆

the awesome manner style and aura u create for Raghunath ...its just beyond perfect n supremacy...i really dont have words to praise you whn i read his emotions ...his actions ...his unpredictability ...his raw lethal dangerous deeds ...his life n his life style and ofcourse his unparallal inosense n purity blended with his raw fatal charm. i am in love with Raghunath more n more in ur story ...n yes i love Antara too.

Pampu... the words you used for raghu naa...its totally blew me off... in case of ur updates..or may be ur reply... its really true yaar.. no one can define raghu like u.. u are the lone holder of that trophy here... i just loved the word u used here for raghu,,, specially this word.. 'his raw fatal charm', A magnetic charm which no one can escape!!... truly appropiate of him.. and if i am even one percent successful in justify raghu's character then its only because of u and ur analysis.. u don't know how much u helped me all the time.🤗

i wanna share one more thing here in ur story u hv developed one more thing within the readers...it is much more noble n stronger than love ...that is the trust for both the characters...

Thanks... i am truly over whelmed...🤗

bravo Ria 👏👏👏

luv you so much ...

wishing u goodluck happy health n fantabulous writting alllwaysss...😃😃😃

Chapter 23

Taras gaye hain hum kuch sunne ko lab se tere
Pyar ki bat na sahi koi shikayat he kar do!!!!!

Part 1

Antara's POV...

"Ruksana... Tum mujhe yahan kyun lee kee ayi?!" I asked ruksana with worried voice as she led me inside. "Bhale hii yee dayan kaa kila hoo... Par tumhe pata hain, yahan ek Pari maa bhi raheti hain.. Jisse hum sab bahut pyar karte hain!" ruku grinned as she said those words. I became confused that what she was talking about. We came inside and walked through the passage beside that huge visitibg hall. I remembered the drama of that day when Daya Mai called me. I couldn't afford the small giggle came out of me. "Kya huya?! Bari hasi aa rahi hain." Ruku asked me. "Kuch nahin!!" I said. "Hmm.. waisey bhi iss gunsun, mayus si haveli mein aisa kuch bhi nahin hain jissey dekh kar hasne kaa man kare. Sab bas aise... lakri kee sipahi kii tarah bina awaz kiye yahan se wahan ghumte rahete hain..Jaise kii koi putla hoo!!" ruku said making a face. I giggled again. "Haso mat... sach kahe rahi hoon! Kuch din dekhoge too khud smajh jaoge.." ruku huffed. "Acha??!!?" I rolled my eyes and she giggled. As we moved near the corner I heard some sound of two woman voice from an open door. "Loo fir se suru hoo gaye yee dono." Ruksana stroke her head. As we moved closer, the sound of quarrel became clear. "More or less... Mujhe kyun scolding kar rahe hoo... mujhe kaise pata hoga kii woo water kaa patila mere feet pe girne wala hain." a nosy voice probed followed by an angry elderly ladies voice, "Haan... Ab baithi rahe aisi mooh fulake." I recognized the voice and automatically a smile crept on my nouth. "Arey... ayi... aap kya chahte hoo ki main more or less... Iss brake gear huyi leg see langri dance karoon stage pe... tab too program flop!" the nosy voice said again. "Too tere jagah pee kaun nachega?! Bhoot?!" that elderly voice again hit my ear. At that moment, ruksana entered inside with me, "Chalo ajji... hum sab kii problem kaa solution lee kee aa gayi main." she said chirpily as she entered inside the room. Ajji was inside the room with another middle aged woman. they both were seating on the bed. That other woman looked weird with so much makeup and jewelry. There was a huge bandage on her left ankle which indicated that she had gone through some accident earlier. They both looked towards us woth startled face but as soon as ajji observed us her eyes as usual gleamed with that childish glow which I sw before. "Arey Radha Rani... Tu idhar?!!" she said with her huge happy grin. I smiled back to her. "Kaise hoo aap?!" I asked. "Too aap logon nee pahele hii ek dusre see jaan pahechan kar liya... Kya ajji, kitna grand entry liya tha humlogon nee... socha tha apni nayo saheli kii kamal kaa intro doongi... aap ne sara plan garbar kar diya." ruksana pouted at my side. "Arey chtpati... tere koo pata hain naa main kitna famous hoon yahan... jaan pahechan hoo hii jati hain sabse." Ajji said in dramatic style that both of us giggled. Then I looked back to ruku and asked her, "Too yee hain tumhari Pari maa?!". Ruksana smiled, "Haan jii... aur kaun hoo sakta hain bhala?!" ruku forwarded towards ajji and sat beside her giving an warm adorable tight side hug. "Bas bas... ab aur maska mat maar... waisey hii doctor nee jyada maska khane see mana kiya hain mere koo." Ajji said in her chirpy voice. I was enjoying the bond between them with a smile and almost forgot about the broken leg woman at the side. "Arey more or less tum too wohi hoo naa.. Matkifor wali larki!!" as the third voice spoke. All of our eyes moved towards her. "Maan naa parega... Kaise fat see ayi aur uth gayi utne upar matki torne... Tumhe dar war nahin lagta kya?!!" she asked with wobbled eyes. I felt a bit shy. "Nahin aisa kuch nahin hain..." I said coyly. "Ajji yee matki for kaa case kya hain?!" Ruku asked ajji. "Arey woo too bari lambi kahani hain... kabhi fursat se batangi. Pahele yee bata chatpati... tu iss radha rani see kaise mili?!" Ajji asked. "Ajji kahene koo too woo bhi bari lambi kahani hain...Jab aap firsat see apni kahani batayengey tab main bhi aap koo bata dungi!!" ruku said winking. "Kya?!! Meri billi mere koo hii mwiaoo?!" ajji rolled her eyes comically. Ruku smiled and said, "Waisey ajji... aap nee meri saheli see mulakat too kar liya par kya aap koo uska ek secret pata hain?!" Ruku's eyes gleamed as she said those words. "Secret kya bey?!!" Ajji frowned looking towards me. I was silently standing at the side of bed admiring their cute chitchats. "Yahin ki... Yee kathak dance karti hain... aur woo bhi bahut acha?!!" ruku said looking towards me. "Kya?!!!!" Ajji almost jumped on the bed. Her happy eyes gleamed like a little child. "Tu kathak jaanti hain?!! Mere koo pahele kyun nahin kahan?!" she looked so enthusiastic all of a sudden. "Arey ismein bata nee wali kya baat hain...waisey bhi... Utni achi bhi nahin nachti hoon main." I said coyly. "Antara tu ab bas kar haan..." Ruku almost scold me, "Pata hain ajji, states mein first ayi hain yee... Aap mujeh bataiyen. States mein first ane wali larki koi aisi waisi hoo sakti hain kya?!" ruku informed ajji. Ajji looked towards me with impressed eyes and I was really feeling sigh. I was not that type of girl who was used to talk around about myself. True I was not that much naive or chuimui type who used to shy at each and every word. But still when someone used to praise me much it really made me embarrassed. "Kyun ree radha rani?! Tu too kaheti hain tu acha nahin nachti.. to first kaise aa gayi... aur woo bhi states mein?!" ajji asked with a frown. "Ajji woo too do saal pahele kii baat hain naa... tab practice bhi thi... Par abtoo bahut din hoo gaye kathak chore huye." I said. "Kya?!! Tune kathak chor diya?!!" Ajji asked in unbelievable eyes. "Haan ajji... suno iski baat... Kahe rahi hain kii Mumbai ane kee baat time nahin milta iss liye woo apna dnce continue nahin karegi... Iss liye aap kee pass le kar ayi... ilaaz kee liye." Ruku informed. "Ruksana!!" I pouted. "Mooh mat bana apna... Dekho naa ajji.. Kaheti hain kii fir kabhi dance nahin karegi!! Abb aap hi issey ssamjhao." Ruksana said towards ajji. "Eee sun..." ajji called me twitching her fingers. I smiled and came near her. "Baith idhar!!" she ordered me to seat at her side and I did so. "Kyun re?!! Tu dance kyun chorna chahti hain?!!" She asked me with authority. "Ajji woo... Bas waqt nahin milta hain... Pura din office mein raheti hoon. Ghar mein an eke baad bhi office ka kaam karna parta hain... Too..." I said in low voice. "Sans lene kii too fursat hain naa?!!" ajji asked twitching her lips. "Aap samajh nahin rahe hain.." I tried to made her understand. "pahele mere sawal kaa jawab de..." ajji asked me again. "Ajji..." I said in a bit miffed voice. The old lady seemed really stubborn, but as well as loving. "Arey pagli..." She said in loving voice. "Naach, gana... yee sab bhi too ek saans lene jaisa hii hota hain. Log yee sab kyun kar te hain?! Taa kii din bhar kaam kar kee woo budhe naa hoo jayein..." ajji made an comical face and I laughed along with ruku. "Arey sach kahan... Yee ruksana bhi too dinbhar parlor mein kaam karti raheti hain.. Fir bhi har saam koo daur daur kee ati hain idhar dance sikhne... Aur ab see tu bhi ayya karegi samjha kii naii?!!" Ajji said fingering to me. "Arey aap log yee kya kahe rahi hain? Main aise kaise.." I tried to deny but it seemed like they wouldn't listen. "Eee sun... yee aise... kaise... Yee sab soch nee see kuch nahin chalega.. dance too tujhe karna hii parega... mere kooo dekh... iss umar mein bhi music sun kee payar thirkne lagte hain... aur tu kahe rahi hain kii tu dance chor degi... bilkul nahin." Ajji said frowning. "Dekhiye... Dance chornee kaa man mujhe kabhi bhi nahin tha... par meri halat hii kuch aise hain ki main..." I sighed. How could I make them understand. Singing and dancing were my passion. I never thought that I had to leave them. Even during my study pressure I continued with them. But the time was changed. Everything was changed. I was not that chirpy girl anymore. Singing and dancing was something which connects me to my soul, gave me the feeling of getting all happiness in the world. Whenever I used to dance all alone in the huge hall room of our collage I felt like flying. Whenever I used to touch my favorite guitar and sing along, I could feel the sound of harmony through my veins. they were not just my hobbies, they were something connected to my life force.

But that day was long gone, that happiness was long gone, the peace of soul was nowhere could be seen which would ran through my vein and made my fingers caress over the guitar cords, leading my ghungroo tied feet to my dream virtual flight.

"Antara tu chup hii kar haan..." Ruksana's voice said from side. "Aap fikar mat karo ajji... main har roj issey le aungi yahan... apne sath... main too kahe rahi hoon ki ane wale functions mein issey rasika kaki ki jagah pe lee loo... tab too sab kuch fix hoo jayega.." ruksana proposed. "Haan, yee sahi kahan tune." Ajji said. "Kya function?!!" I looked startled. "Haan agle mahine humara dance group ek NGO kaa function attend kar raha hain... Lekin proble hoo gayi hain yee ki humari rasika chachi..." Ruku indicated towards the broken legged lady. "Jo mere sath lead mein thi unka kaal hii payar toot gaya... too ab iss halat mein too woo dance nahin kar payegi... doctor nee bhi kahan kii this hone mein km se kam do mahine lagengey... Too madam jii... Rasika chchi kee place pee aap mere sath dance karengey... Samjhey?!!" Ruku said rolling her eyes. "Kya function?!! Nahin... matlab.. main yun achanak... meri too practice bhi nahin hain teen mahine see..." I denied at the moment. "Dekh antara... bahane bana naa bandh kar... Teen mahine mein itna kya badal jata hain zara bata mujhe... tu kar rahi hain bas..." as usual she was stubborn again. "Ruksana.. Tum kyun aise kar rahi hoo. Main sach mein nahin kar sakti!!" I said pleading. "Kaisi majboori hain haan?!" Ruku frowned. "woo main..." I lowered my gaze. How could I say that.

"Dekho more or less..." Rasika aunty said from my side, "Tumhari mazboori too mujhe knows nahin hain..Par zara meri conditions too dekh loo... Payar mein pura garam pani kaa big wala patila gir gayi hain..." she made a crying face, "Fir bhi mari yee sasu maa kaheti hain kii dance karna parega.. ab main iss tootey payar se kaise dance karoon?" she complained. "Eee sun..." ajji frowned, "Agar man mein icha hoo naa too insaan toote huye payar see bhi nach karne lagte hain. Agar thik see garam tel ki malish leti naa too kuch dino mein ghore ki tarah daurne lagti.. tere doc ki dawayi se jaldi kaam karta hain woo." she said. "Dekho ayii... Main pareshan hoo gayi hoon aap kii roz roz kii tel malish... aap kaa hath too nahin hothaora hain hathora... bilkul jaise woo dhai kilo kaa hath... jab mujhpe parta hain naa tab main hii jaanti hoon ki kya halat hoti hain!" she was almost about to cry and suddenly grabbed my hand, "plese dekho maan jao... agar main ek aur din bhi tel kii malish loon too mere payar kee more or less sari bones cracking- shaking hoo jayenge... Please maan jao..."she almost begged holding my hand. I was stuck in the middle and looked at the three faces who was looking towards me eagerly. I sighed and said, "Dekhiye... Mujhe bhi bahut khusi hoti agar main aap logon kii madad kar pati too. Par mera office ka kaam itna zyada hain ki..." I said in low voice. "Madam.. saam koo do ghante yahan rahene mein aap kii office aap koo resign nahin kar degi." Ruku said. "Chatpati... tu chup rahe main iss sey baat karti hoon..." ajji said and looked towards me. "Dekh antara...yee hum joo function kar rahe hain naa... ye eek NGO kee liye kar rahe hain... jahan bahut sare garib anath bacho koo nayi zindagi di jati hain... unhe paraya jata hain... kapre aur khane diye jate hain. Aur hum joo yee functions karengey naa unn kaa sara paisa unn bacho koo milne wala hain..." ajji informed me. I couldn't utter a single word. "Ab dekh iss langri ki halat.. woo too nahin nach sakti... aur aisi koi abhi hain bhi nahin joo iss key jagah par nach sake... par agar yee function nahin huya too soch unn bacho kaa kya hoga!!" ajji said. I looked towards them dumbly for a while. there was a pin drop silence in the room. "Dekh... agar tujhe itni mushkil hain too thik hain.. humlog tujhe zaabardasti nahin karengy..." ajji looked a bit sad while saying those words. "nahin ajji..." I quickly grabbed her hand. "yee aap kya kar rahi hain... aise neck kaamon mein agar main sath naa doon too bhagwan kabhi mujhe maaf nahin krega..." I said as the smile appeared in ruksana and ajji's face. "mujhe maaf kijiye ajji.. mujhe nahin pata tha kii aap log unn bacho kii madad kee liye yee sab kar rahi hain..." I stopped to take a few breaths and smiled. "Main zaroor madad karungi aap logon kii!" I said. their face gleamed with utter joy. "Chaloo...maharani nee mana too sahi.." ruku huffed. "Par haan... maine bahut dino see practice chor di hain... pata nahin kitna kar paungi ek maahine mein." I said doubtfully. "Antara.,.. yee nach aur gana naa ekdum cycle chalana jaisa hota hain... ekbaar sikhloo too akha life nahin bhulegi..." ajji said, "aur waisey bhi... joo dil see nachte hain naa... Nach uske khoon mein hota hain... bas ghungroo koo paon mein bandh nee ki der hain... mera bhi dekh naa... mere nass mein bhi khoon sidha nahin jata.. aise uchaal uchal kee jata hain..." ajji danced her fingers on her hand and we all laughed.Talking for a while, we bid adieu to them promising to come at the evening for rehearsal. As me and ruksana came out and was going through the passage she probed, "Acha huya kii woo dayan nahin hain aaj yahan... subha subha uska darshan hoo jata too pura din kharap hoo jata." Ruku made a face and I giggled again. "arey sach khe rahi hoon... khud too gaya hain upar see raghu koo bhi sath mein utha kar lee gaya... waisey bhi ussey too lee jana hii tha...uss kee bina koi kaam too nahin hota dayan kaa... uss kee liye hii too uss dayan kaa itna zor chlta hain.." as ruksana informd me I understood that he was not present in the house at that moment. I remembered our bitter encounter yesterday. After that I didn't see him. even I didn't hard his mouth organ last night. Good for me because I really didn't want to see him around. It's too hard for me to suppress my emotional burst inside when he was nearby. It didn't happen in case of daya naik and others. I was so casual when I confronted daya naik last time.

But it was always so different with raghu. His presence weakened me, I didn't know why.

Ruksana continued her blabbers. "Abb uss nalayak koo bhi kya samjhaoon... daya mi nee ussey sarak se utha kar laya... bara kiya... iss key liye apni jaan nichabar karti hain uss dayan pe... Kisi kii kya mazl joo uss kee samne dayn kee khilaf koi kuch bole... kissi koo nahin chorta... kissi koo bhi nahin." I sighed listening to her words. Well that's how he should have been. He was known as DM's most obedient man after all. "Waisey bhi... aisa hii hain woo... kisi see dushmani more loo too uss kii duniya ujar deta hain... aur jissey apna maan loo.. uskey liye too mano apni poori zindagi luta kee de de... dono taraf extreme case." ruku huffed. I was walking at her side silently with pale face. I really didn't want to hear about him. Nothing!! But why I had to listen about him all the time?! ruksana told me that the person whom he consider as his enemy, he doomed the world of that person. I sighed. Perhaps the same thing was going to happen with me. That's why god was giving indication to me of being aware about him. Also he already doomed my world while he put that bomb in the houseboat. "Aur abtoo roj tera yahan aanna jana laga rahega Antara... zara samhalke rahena uss dayan see..." ruku warned. Suddenly a thing flashed in my mind. I would get the chance to visit inside the house each and every day!! God, why didn't I thought that before?! That's exactly what I wanted, to get a chance to come inside the house. And seemed like for the first time, my destiny was with me! As I moved out of the gate, I looked back to the huge naik sadan for a while, where my venture would start from tomorrow.

"Antara... kya huya?... Chaloo!" ruku called me. "haan aa rahi hoon.." I followed her and we moved towards my house.

Raghu's POV...

The cold wind of hillside hit my face and was driving me into sleepy state in the middle of solitude. There was such a silence around in the lone hill area of Lonavla. Not a single sound of man could be heard around the farmhouse set near the foothills. Only the sweep of wing and buzzing moths, might it was called dead silence.

"Abey s**a!!" I squirmed and clamped on my chick where a little mosquito was happily seating and drinking my precious blood. "Abey aas pass koi dekha nahin too apun kaa hii khoon chusne laga... Pata nahin yee bhngu aur mangu kidhar gaye!" I huffed. Mai brought Bhangu and Mangu with us for the safety. Swirling their moustache and loading their rifles when they both sat on the back seat of our jeep before gearing up the jeep, I smirked secretly. I knew when the time would come they would help nothing. As soon as we reached at the place those two so called guards got out of the jeep and went out for hangout and after some moment they were nowhere around. I bet both of them were taking a good nap inside the bush.

Mai visited her farmhouse of Lonavla after a long time. Some people were staying at the place and she came to meet then. She told me to wait outside till she met them. I never used to question or doubt on Mai's order. But for the first time a question rose in my mind. Mai was so reserving sometimes. She didn't allowed me to go everywhere. Just like in that office she went to meet someone... what was his name.. yeah Aman... she went all alone for the meeting. I didn't know what it would bother if I would be there. Even when mai was going inside I insisted to go inside for her safety. Cause the farmhouse was at a really lonely place and if something happened inside no one would come for help. But as long as I was with her, I wouldn't let no one harm her anyhow. Mai just laughed and shoved away the thought. She told me that she knew those people for long time and they wouldn't harm her. But I really didn't know who were there inside. It's been almost one and half hour she went inside.

Lying over the engine of the jeep, I was looking towards the clear sky and thinking about abrupt things. As I remembered about the office incident, it remind about her... Antara! Again that restlessness rose inside me and I tried to shut it up closing my eyes.

"Nahin kar sakte... Mere jakham tum nahin bhar sakte... Woo mere andar lagi hain... mere dil pe..meri atma pe..." A hazel full of complains and hidden tears screamed all the night to me and stole my sleep. I spend the whole night looking towards the balcony of her house, didn't know why. How many times I tried to close my eyes and shove away everything. But I knew I couldn't. That girl had gar more powerful impact on me than I thought. After my mother's death, so many years past and I never felt so empty inside. Something pinched me continuously. Just some conceited meaningless angry words of some random girl. Did those complain really made sense at all? I thought again and again reminding about all the encounters we had from beginning. I tried hard to detect how actually I harmed her?! But I couldn't get it. as if like I was missing something, couldn't see something which was so close to me but hidden anyhow.

"S**a apun nee kiya kya hain?!!" I punched as I mumbled frustrated. The metallic body of jeep really hurt. But I didn't care at all. I tossed my head from one side of another. Why she was doing that?! Was she doing some prank or pathetic joke with me?! But as I remembered the expression of those eyes, I could never believe that it was fake or some kind of silly prank. Her wrath looked so genuine. I tossed my head and my eyes fell on the ground. Just at some distance away there are some unknown wild pink flowers were waving on the slow breeze. For some reason I couldn't move my eyes from them. The flower looked really... pretty?!!! I questioned my own thought. Since, when last time I developed my interest on flowers? With a frown, still I continued to observe them. Their slow moves with the breeze seemed like some happy dance. The flowers looked really happy. The tender pink petals, the glowing droplets on them remind about someone. A smile glorious than anything I ever saw, two beautiful hazel eyes who gleamed with happiness when those tender pink naturally glossy lips shined with that glorious smile, innocent, pure, a smile for which a life is worth!

Why couldn't she smile like that always?! Why?! Didn't she know that how elegant and mesmerizing she looked when she smiled?!... Antara!!... why don't you smile?!

Part 2 at below...plese scroll down to read...

Part 2

Raghu's POV...

"Raghunath!" a deep voice broke my trance and I quickly jumped up to the seating position. I found mai standing at the side of jeep looking towards me with her stern gaze. I quickly jumped down and stood in front of her feeling a bit awkward. Mai didn't say a word and continued to observe me with cold gaze. "Woo mai aap kab ayein?!!" I asked scratching my head. I was feeling uncomfortable to meet her gaze. Her narrow gaze seemed like observing me deeply and trying to invoke my mind. "Panch munite hoo gaye yahan ayein huye..." She stated in her stern voice, "Par tune mujhe dekha nahin..." she said. "Woo.. maaf kijiye... apun kaa dhyan nahin tha... woo..." I said in stumbled voice keeping my gaze low. "Hmmm... woo bhangu aur mangu kidhar hain?! Humein jald nikalna hoga.. nahin too mumbai pauchne mein der hoo jayegi." Mai said. "Haan woo.. idharhich kahin hongey dono... apun phone lagata hain..." I immediately called those two lazy heads. After some moment they both came running holding their rifles. We started the jeep for Mumbai. As we came out from the village's small path and came on the high road, I increased the speed. The jeep rushed through the smooth pitch. That double size Bhangu was seating at my side and he was almost about to sleep again! I knew he would start snoring just at some minutes. Not letting his sleep to affect me, I concentrated back on the road and the other side where the yellow crop filled was stretched to the horizon. As I drove further I saw some little village girls playing on the crop filled. As they saw our jeep, they grinned and waved their hands. I couldn't afford to smile back to them. Those little girls didn't stop and started to rush along the crop filled following the road. I chuckled lightly seeing their odd and impossible urge to catch with the speed of jeep. I didn't know why I slowed down the jeep a bit to keep the pace with them. as I looked back towards those bunch of girls my eyes immediately froze at the spot.

In between the bunch of girls I saw her, wearing a pure white anarkali suit she was rushing and smiling just like those girls. She was giggling with them and that sound was spreading everywhere through the air like some divine pure music. The long white chunri and her black cloud like long hairs were waving with the wind. Holding her hem of anarkali with both hands she was running like a free bird. Her angelic smile seemed fading the sun, the pores of crop fields were caressing her pitch milk skin.

ANTARA!!!

My inner mind screamed as I dumbly looked at the scene. How and when she reached there, I didn't know. My brain had already stopped working as my eyes were hooked to her. In my whole life I never saw something s beautiful like her at that moment. I didn't have any control on my mind. I didn't know where was going with my jeep. I was just observing her opening my mouth. Sun gleamed on the field. Antara stopped abruptly all of a sudden and those girls were still running forward. She directly looked towards me. her eyes sparkled beautifully with naughty gleamed and seemed like hypnotized me for a moment. She suddenly broadened her mischievous grin and turned away showing her back to me. then she started to run on the opposite side, far away from me. As if like some invisible hand squeezed my heart painfully bleeding out. My throat went dry as my chest tightened. Where was she going?!! Why was she going leaving me behind?! SHE COULDN'T GO!!! SHE COULDN'T LEAVE ME!!!

With a huge sound the jeep stopped at the mid of the road with huge sound and jerk as I applied the break out of the blue. BHangu, who was totally dozed off at my side almost jumped off and hold his gun. "Arey... kaa hoo gawa bhaiya?!!" he screamed panickingly. I breathed heavily looking at the empty road and moved my eyes towards the crop filled. I got another shock of my lifetime.

Where was she?!! There was not a single sign of her. she was just there at the middle of crop filled. I moved my eyes just for a second to stop the car. She couldn't go out of sight in just that small span. The little girls were all there, but only she was not. My eyes moved restlessly all around the place but she seemed like vanished into thin airs. Slowly I started to understand the fact that she was not there. She coukdn't be!!

"Raghunath... Kya huya tujhe?!" Mai called me from behind. I scratched my head in frustration for a while. "Gari kyun rok di?!" Mai asked again. "Woo...kuch naii mai, bas engine thora check karna parega!!" I quickly said and jumped out from the jeep. Lifting the cover, I stood silent for a moment clutching the metallic rods. What did I saw?! I was sure that it was only hallucination. But why the damn I was hallucinating Antara?!

Antara's POV...

I let out the ghungroos from the box and kept staring at them smiling. For almost three months I didn't wore them in my feet. I felt like they were calling out for me, I could feel the old excitement in the nerve which was lost long ago. The hidden dreams which I graved with my families death was surfacing again.

The little balls of ghungroos sounded a bit as I touched them. like they were complaining me to leave them. I promised that I would never abandon them but I did the mistake unknowingly. What could I do?! I had a very dangerous venue to cover. I had to fight a lethal mind game with some dangerous people around and for that I had to cut down all emotional connection all vulnerability in me. my dreams were my vulnerability.

But after long time, they were again pushing down the wall to come out, to fly high. Even for once. Really, what I had become. not a single dream, not a single wish of happiness, all the day I was only thinking about getting revenge and rest of the time keeping myself busy in office work to forget the pain. I used to share happy moments with mammu, saru darling and rhea. But also in that moment I used to fight with my inner bitterness all the time. their warmth reminded me about mamma pappa and I couldn't even complain about that.

My little forgotten dreams called out again, just for once it wanted to let me go everything. Might be for a smaller period, they wanted to live the life again, to be the girl who dreamed to fly high, to reach the heights of sky holding the wings of her dream.

I WANTED TO LIVE MY LIFE AGAIN. JUST FOR A WHILE MAY BE. BUT I WANTED TO TAKE SOME FRESH BREATH APART FROM ALL MISERY.

I hold those ghungroos tightly near my heart for a while. after some silent moment tears came out my eyes and fell on the metallic balls. "I am sorry!!..." I apologized to it for leaving it. I wanted to embrace my dream again. might be it would be for a while, but I wanted to!

"Antara..." I heard ruku madam's voice from outside. I smiled and screamed, "Aaa rahi hoon...". I quickly came down bidding adieu to mami and met ruksna on the road with a huge grin. Ruku also smiled to me. "Ready?!" she asked me. "very much!!" I said holding my breath. I felt a really great excitement in my nerve as we moved hand in hand and entered inside the naik sadan.

At a middle sized hall room on ground floor some girls of basti from different ages were gathered. I knew mostly all of them. they all smiled as they found me. I felt a chill in nerves as I saw them practicing the steps making groups. I used to practice with only megha and aliya. I was not used to learn in some large stage. ajji came forward with a smile and caressed my chicks. "Too anna hii para akhir mein?!!" ajji asked with a naughty frown. "Kaise nahin atti ajji! Dubara jine kaa mauka mila hain. Kaise chor doon!" I smiled widely. Ajji smiled wider and hugged me. she introduced me to all of the girls and informed them that I would be replaced at rasika's place. All of the, greeted me with warm heart. "Antara... tu pahele kuch der tak dekh lee... fir samajh naa ayein too mere koo bata dena.." ajji said. I nodded and went to put on the ghungroos with ruksana. As I tied them around my feet a huge wave of excitement rushed down from my tows to head. I felt the chill after such a long time. as I moved towards the dance floor I again found that girl in me who was long lost. The chirpy full of life antara kaul, a girl full with so many dreams and little wishes to fulfill!

It didn't take much time to catch and match my steps with the others. I was with ruksana in the lead and other girls were at a bit backside. Ruku and ajji helped me to understand the steps. Also the girls were being so helpful. I was a bit conscious at the first but as soon as I caught the steps I drove into the dance.

And when I started to feel the vibe awakening in me, I again set myself into the virtual flight feeling the music in my heart and giving the, life with my posture, my expression and my leg's swing. It was not just a dance for me, it was like watching light again after coming out from a dark den, breathing into the fresh air once again after suffocating in a closed room. Thus it felt in my nerves, my new life.

Raghu's POV...

It was evening time when we finally stepped inside the the naik sadan. As we moved inside the sound of music and ghungroos hit our ears. With irritating gaze I looked towards the room where ajji usually held her dance classes. How much I tried to make her understand, she wouldn't let go her craziness of dancing. I sighed and looked towards mai. She was standing some steps above from me on the stairs and looking towards the dance room with a sly twitched smile. it was almost impossible to understand seeing her face that what was going in her mind. but somehow, the cold gaze if eyes flickered a bit abhorrence. Silently, she moved up leaving the place. I was also about to move towards my room as the sound of ghungroos always get into my nerves. But I was feeling so thirty. So I decided to go to kitchen to have some water. So I had to bypass the room. With a irritated face I was bypassing the room when some unknown force made me glance inside the room and the glance was enough to root me at the spot.

There she was, standing at the middle lead position with ruksana and dancing with the beats with that same glorious smile which I observed in my hallucinating dream just some hour ago in roadside. I stood there with dropped jaw and wide eyes for a while. for a moment I felt like I was imagining her again. I jerked my head to see if she was still visible. No she was still there. I pinched myself so hard that I was about to scream. Jerking my hand I shoved away the pain and looked inside the room again scratching my head. Still she was there! after some moments I was finally convinced that I was not dreaming that time. Antara was really there, dancing with those other girls.

She could even dance!! That's really some kind of... Wonderful! The girl had so many hidden talents!

No one noticed me near the door of the room as all were engrossed in dancing. I was about to left the place but heavens know why I couldn't. I stood there silently leaning on the door frame gauzing her. as I observed her with all the moment, a slight smile appeared in my lips.

Her every move, every posture, every swing of legs in one word was brilliant! I didn't know much about those dancing thing. I barely watched them before but as I watched her, I understood the beauty at that instant. Her magnificent smile was intact to her face. her eyes were sparkling like children and seemed lost in some beautiful dream. That's what I really admired about her. I watched so many girls trying to attract people around with her seductive indication and wink through dance. But she danced like if no one was watching her. she was so lost in her own world. when she swung around her with so much force and her long spires moved with beautiful synch I just could look at her with wide open eyes.

I didn't know when the music ended. Still I was standing there, watching her. with a jerk, she opened her long spires and rubbed the sweat drops which were glowing on her face. she was talking to ruksana with that huge smile on the face. She didn't even notice the person standing at the door observing her for a very long time with stunned eyes. At that moment, a voice hit my ear. "Chintu??!!! Tuu idhar?!!" ajji's voice spoke and still I was watching antara like an idiot. Heer expression changed all of a sudden and a frown appeared in her smiling face. following ruksana's gaze she looked towards the door and find myself gazing directly towards her.

The smile was gone instantly and the pale sadness captured her magnificence. She gasped at first as our eyes interacted silently with each others with unknown words. Slowly, the warmness into her hazels hid itself into the cold stiffness and emotionless darkness. Her feature stiffened at that moment. But like every time, she didn't remove her gaze from me. Rather than kept intact her cold eyes to me. I sighed heavily as I understood that I couldn't be able to see the smile again. I moved towards ajji and other;s who was observing me with dumb gaze.

"Abey yede aaj tuu idhar kaise tapak para?!" Ajji asked towards me with a frown. "Woo apun..." scratching my head I tried to find an answer. I glanced towards her. With her little firm gaze she was gauging me with her hazels. Her un arranged hair locks were still scattered over her forehead and her dupatta was slipped a bit from her neck revealing the milky skin of her neck. The little drops of sweats were still playing over her forehead and neck which caught my attention. "Oye?!! Kaun sii duniya mein ghum hoo gaya?!!" Ajji's loud voice again broke my trance, "Kya ghoor rahan hain bey?!! Chal abhi... baad mein anna." Ajji said in orcering voice. I just nodded blankly and last time glanced to antara befor going. As I looked towards her, she sighed and moved towards the corner of room removing her gaze from me. with another big sigh, I left the door of the room. my thirst was long gone so I decided to go back to my terrace place and take some rest. My head really looked wobbled.

"Acha ajji!!.. main chalti hoon!!" I heard a loud voice from behind which immediately stopped my feet. I twitched my head back but she was still not out of the room. I didn't know what my abrupt mind thought at that moment, I stood there waiting supporting a column.

"Antara ruk naa.. dono eksath chalengey..." I heard ruksana's voice. "Nahin ruksana.. jaldi ghar jana parega!! Mami kee sath bahar jana hain!!" antara's voice spoke again. "Kaal issi time pee aa jana.. agar nahin ayyii naa too utha kee lee ayunga..." I heard ajji warning her. "Arey nahin ajji... aap kii kamar toot jayegi... aap koo hospital jana parega.. uss sey acha main khud hii aa jaungi!!" her naughty voice spoke. "Chal badmash!..." as ajji said those words, antara rushed out of her room giggling naughtily. God I never saw her smiling like that, so freely and casually. She stood there for a while holding the wall and tried to control her laugh burst. My breath had almost left me and my chest felt tightened as I was watching her. she still didn't noticed me. Taking a big sigh she moved forward with a smile and wandering dreamy face. The sound of ghoongroo hit my ear. Strange, I used to get annoyed with the sound but I was still bearing that. antara was all lost in some happy thought as she moved forward through the passage with that happy smile. suddenly she started to swing around and move forward. Shit!! What was she doing?! She would slip surely on the floor. but she didn't seemed cared at all. At the next moment, her swinging feature moved near me and collided with me heavily. Her bag fell down from her shoulder. And she looked towards me with startled eyes.

She observed me for a while with silent eyes. there was amusement at first. Slowly the amusement changed into some painful expression. The same heart wrenching pain I watched yesterday when she was accusing me. Her expression looked so vulnerable and broken. And I again started to feel the pinch in my heart. My lips parted to say something but honestly nothing came out from my mouth. her painful eyes made me dumb. She broke the connection removing her gaze from me. in front of my silent eyes, she bend down and collected her things quickly. Without giving a single glance to me she moved forward bypassing me. I remind about the scene from my dream in the crop filed where antara was leaving me forever. My jaw got hardened at the moment as I remembered the scene. Why she left me in that confusion and restlessness all the time. why didn't she just let out everything and tell what was her actual problem.

"Urr nee kee liye engine garam kar rahi thi?!... Hnnn!!" I couldn't stop myself to compliment mockingly on the swinging steps she was doing before our collision. I turned back and saw her standing at the passage like an idol showing her back to me.

Slowly she turned back to me. That same pale face and painful eyes, so vulnerable, innocent and had so much to say which I couldn't detect. The eyes which could melt even a stone with that gaze.

"S**a! Kuch too bol... aisi goongi bane mat rahe!!" someone said from my inside.

She didn't responded at all and turned away again. I thought she would go away. But at the next moment she said something which shook me to core!

"Jis panchi kee pankh hii jal gaye hoo woo kaise urr sakti hain... woo too bas puri zindagi... asmaan mein urr nee ki sapne dekh sakti hain... par fir kabhi aasmaan choo nahin sakti!!" as her broken chocked voice slowly pronounced the sentence I stood there dumbfounded widening my eyes.

Antara sighed and without looking towards me, she moved forward with heavy steps. I was so stunned by her words that I didn't make a move to go forward or say something in defense. Her words and the tone she used almost paralyzed me. She didn't freak out like all time, but that toe and words made me understood that her pain was so much deeper than I thought before. She moved out from the house and I as usual left behind following her with my eyes till the moment I could.

mitthu jii... ajesha i will reply back all of ur coments later... i am quite tired right now... till then hope u enjoy this and love 2 all...