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Decided to just write today :) Hope you'll understand and like it! Please leave a comment! :)
Subi! :D
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Wrecked.
Used.
Alone.
Hurt.
Betrayed.
Love.
Loss.
It's ironic how many times these words have gone through my brain. What's more ironic is how I had never imagined I'd relate to them.
I was head over heels in love with her. Would it really hurt, just for a minute, for her to feel the same way?
She was like an angel that had walked into my life, leaving me breathless. For just a minute there, all those dreams about "true love" and "destiny" overtook me. Until, I was shaken up, ostracized.. and all those dreams vanished with the snap of his fingers and sent me plummeting back to reality. Which was- ?
Hi. I'm Siddhanth Modi. I'm a doctor, a pretty decent guy, a devoted husband and a divorcee.
What a pathetic introduction, right?
If you really want to know my secret, Riddhima- it's this. I just want you to be safe. Want you to be happy. Want you to know that someone cares. And what's sadder? You still have that inexplicable power over me.
I wish I hadn't met you Riddhima. I wish I was still the confident guy I once was. Because you have made me doubt my capabilities, get bruised by my fears. You've made me someone I didn't want to become.
I was young, I was stupid, I fell too hard, too fast. I fell in love with you and you knew you were my first love. You had my heart and soul. And you took advantage of that.
I've realized now that the people who laugh and crack jokes the most-- are also the people that suffer the most.
Because laughter isn't only the best medicine, it's also the best disguise.
I should know, of all people.
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