Originally posted by: Pocahontas
It was almost as if Sid was trying to make sense out of a complicated map but it was giving him no answers. And as if that wasn't enough , Stella's punch in the gut words suggesting that Riddz preferred to trot of and be with Armaan instead of listening to her husband , and Sid's own endless waiting for Riddhima at the terrace when she did not even bother to inform him that she was going to Lonavla - all this piled into a large intolerable emotional heap slumped down Sid's shoulders and his heart.
This is where we acknowledge, yet again, that the CVs main aim is to create misunderstandings between the characters....it became official a while ago, but really now first we had misconstrued assumptions even where there were one to ones between the characters. It seems that our technology and the fact we are in the 21st century has failed us today. Really, the exemption of a text or phone call?? In a day and age where we have facebook status and twitter updates on the most minor issues regarding our day, in a world where we have Sanjeevani and the doctors themselves maintain contact with one other by use of a pager....in that world, how can it be possible that Riddhima was incapable of informing Siddhant. Riddhima might be angry at Siddhant but considering how much she was contemplating and almost went to see Sid, you'd think she would pass on a message....
Why fret over such issues, the CVs are writing the fate of the characters, jo hona hai wo to hoga hi...euch.
Thread-by-thread, Sid is crumbling now. Earlier,he was crumbling like an ice block - numb. And now, he is crumbling like a burning piece of coal - totally on fire.
Love this, Sid has reached a stage where pre-divorce drama, he was merely a person not considering his own interests and wanted to do his best for another. A selfless good deed, the martyr but at a cost that was priceless in the end, just Riddhima's happiness. It was his love which blinded him into putting what he thought Riddhima wanted before his own desires, hence we had soft emotions generating from Sid, soft spoken words, mellow expressions the works. However, the signed papers changed everything. He realised he didn't want to separate from her, the reality came before his eyes and he understood the pain from just the idea of not having Riddhima in his life. Note how the change was evident almost immediately when he went to confront Riddhima and thus 'Sexyface' returned. Harsher tones, furrowed expressions, and generally bold, passionate gestures, even if they were driven by anger.
Now, that Sid had begun to hope that Riddhima and him have a chance to save their marriage , that they could make a fresh start .........the lonavla fiasco has happened. For the first time in ages , Sid was beginning to open his heart , he was beginning to hope that this marriage can indeed have a happily-ever-after fairytale fate if he and Riddz tried , he was putting up with Riddzie's ice queen act , being patient with her and he did manage to convince her to speak to him .... and Riddz , inspite of all her anger and her wounded feminine pride had given into Sid's genuine words and she was ready to speak to him.....
But as luck would have it , SR can never have it easy - a hurricane had to come and it came . And that same hopeful, sweet and adorable Sid feels mocked by fate , rejected by his wife and stands at the threshold of a psycho-emotional transition where he is convinced that Riddz indeed chose Armaan over him and did not deem it fit to even inform him while he kept waiting like a fool. He feels disheartened that it is only him who is trying to save this marriage while his wifey is just not interested and is making it clear. And to add to that the jealousy pangs of the husband in him , the insecurity and the feeling of being unwanted raising his head in him......all these are signs of an emotional breakdown that will show up as ripped vulnerability veiled by a vile temper or absolute numbness.
For Sid, it was always the marriage that he thought was keeping him and Riddhima united. Without the marriage, he feels he can't compare to what Armaan and Riddhima mean to one another. He has always demeaned himself as a human, as a support to Riddhima in comparison to Riddhima. Despite Riddhima's many revelations, although inconclusive, Sid has never believed in himself but just counted on the 'lawfully identified relationship' between them of husband and wife. Even when he considers speaking to Riddhima to resolve their problems, he feels he needs to become her "friend" in the form of her husband, rather than her "other half" in the form of her husband. As a result, the shock is understandable when he feels that even the marriage is not something which was strong enough to get Riddhima to stay.
What Riddhima is going to do about it , i have no idea at all. Sid is giving up on her having tried the best that he could and Riddz' small , innocent but absolutely careless mistake is going to cost her much more than she has bargained for.... add to that the precap fiasco, i don't want to even go there - it is going to make Armaan awkward, Sid FURIOUS and Riddhima all dukhi (sad) heroines rolled into one. DAMN!
(I made a poll on the issue), but just to share my own personal predicition. Sid stated in the BB Court "main tum par shak nahi karna chahta Riddhima, lekin....". I believe that as new found sickening twist, the CVs wish for Riddhima to experience contempt towards Sid for doubting her integrity. The way her reaction will be executed is anyone's guess, will she be angry leading to more moods and huffy 'arms folded across chest' resentment of one another, or will she be a disappointed rondu with the "aaj tumne bhi mujhe akela chod diya...tumne bhi mera dil todiya" repition? Only time will tell....but really when o when will be relieved, I'm dizzy due the number of times we've gone round in circles. It's not an easy decision for the CVs as they didn't comprehend the triangle but it is their problem, they need to sort it out fast. Nahi to agle saal tak yahi track chalta rahega whilst YuNa will probably be depicted as a dada dadi to grandkids!
And here you realize that on that day Riddhima had expected Sid to tell her that he doesn't want this divorce at all - she had expected him to explain it to her that how did divorce come into question at all- but no, Sid had further wounded her by demanding signatures - and she vividly remembers the physicality of that fight - how fierce Sid had looked and how defensive she had become......If he did love me at all TJ, those divorce papers would have never showed up and Sid would have come to take me back home, not to flutter those papers in my face and tell me that he did not need me anymore.....
Riddhima is a typical woman and words do infact speak louder than actions...but only certain words in this situation. There is so much confusion between the characters, they always test one another to trigger some sort of emotion. I remember when Riddhima was standing in the changing rooms watching Sid in the mirror and upon his enquiry she had told him that she is trying to read him as she couldn't figure out how he was able to hide his feelings so well. The same applies here. Riddhima wanted to trigger Sid's real feelings, eventhough he sent the papers she would act in the affirmative "Main apna faisla nahi badloongi". She was right to be angry which is why she wanted Sid to beg her to change her mind cause he made a mistake and didn't mean to send the papers, not even apologising mere acknowledgement would have satisfied...but of course that didn't happen!
And as little TJ talks about Sid's promises, an emotionally pent up Riddhima takes out her frustrations and angst against Sid on her. No TJ! Sid never keeps any of his promises .......He promised to love me , take care of me , look after me , be with me for seven lives when he married me , he promised to keep me happy and look! Look what he has done , he is leaving me in the middle of a no man's land. Of course , she could not say all these things to that child but that is what she meant when she fired up at the mere mention of Sid's promises....
Riddhima is so distressed that not once did she feel guilty at shouting at TJ. Apologising would mean that she didn't mean to say those words about Sid and it was a mistake, she was mistaken. But Riddhima doesn't believe that for a second. For her, it is all Sid's fault and if by shouting at TJ the truth had been revealed to the poor child, then so be it. Another person who had been enlightened and freed of the dreams and promises Sid had woven and presented before their eyes.
And as the hurt and distressed TJ walked away, tears rolled down Riddz' eyes - tears of a woman hurt, broken and supposedly rejected by the very man who taught her to hope, love and live again......No, Sid is not here but mention him to Riddz and you will see him standing right next to her. And whenever Riddz reacts like that to Sid , his name and his presence, i recall her words to Naina regarding Sid " Kya main Sid se pyaar karti hoon? Shaayad nahiin. Par kai baar lagta hai ki shaayad main usse pyaar kar baithoongi. " ( Do I love Sid , really? Maybe not. But I think I will fall in love with him)...... and perhaps Riddhima is slowly walking towards that answer..... answer to her own question.
Perhaps, from now on, it is Sid's journey towards faith in Riddhima and Riddhima's journey towards love for Siddhanth.
Aww, that last sentence is too cute, hai Pocu I don't even know what I want them to show now...I feel that your post keeps me connected to the characters and I am able to perceive them from a different light. Yet, the simple fact that there is so much unspoken between the two characters that infuriates me, I fail to remember what they epitomise together as a couple...and it is really annoying.
I eagerly anticipate the light at the end of the tunnel.
Ooo, underlined parts I honestly loved from the bottom of my heart, I was speechless at how well you had expressed your thoughts that I could do nothing but underline! 👏
Lovely jubbly! Gorgeous post, love, luck and blessings to you baby! xx
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