Vein Deep
Moniya Thinking:
I regret ever wishing to be a princess... All thats happened is pain and heartbreak. After so many years of hiding my heart from the world i met Akash and how sweet he was to me. But Things are never in my favour. Uday told Mata ji that i was seeing Akash in front of the whole family, and Mata ji fired Akash from his job. Akash left the city due to the embarrassment his family had faced. It's been one year since I have heard from Akash i am happy he left if i ever saw him again the guilt of me being the reason he had been fired, and had to leave the city would consume me alive. I am no longer that girl who wouldn't care about the world i have lost that spark in my eyes I am about to be married to Uday in a month and i don't talk to anyone anymore i don't even talk to maa or unatti. I feel like Unatti betrayed me she didn't want to see uday hurt well her dreams were accomplished i cut all friendly ties in the family. I smile in front of everyone keep my head bowed down and i do what I am told. I have successfully changed because thats what i was expected of to be a maniquin and to act a certain way. I also started hurting myself to keep the memories of akash away. I started cutting myself and i have acquired insomnia. I try so hard so no one can notice my eye bags or the cuts on my body. J knows something is wrong but like usual she couldn't care less about me. Heck if i was Jay i could care less about myself. Unatti tries talking to me but i told her to stop being my friend i told her i regret ever even calling her my sister and i told her to just stop calling me moniya i mean what is the point, its not like I am destined for contentment.
Back to reality *************
Komal knocks on manyata's door. "manyata beta can i come in. Manyata's cold eyes turn towards her mother. "haa maa undar ajao" replies moniya. Komal looks worridley at manyata ever since she stopped seeing her crush Akash she looks almost dead i can tell she has not been sleeping at night she is always exhausted and she lost that rebellious nature of her's that was like a breath of fresh air. Komal breaks out of her thoughts to see that manyata is also starting to look very frail she always has excuses of not eating with the family saying she ate earlier because she was hungry or she has to go to a charity meeting or other excuses like that. I ask her whats wrong but she never talks its like she is not even in the house she is so quite. Not even when J insults her does manyata respond she says sorry and bows her head and leaves. "beta tell me do you miss Akash" asks Komal. " Not at all" respods manyata in a fake cheery voice she forces a smile upon her haunted face and excuses herself out of the bedroom. I feel great sadness for my child she had faced alot in her life but i cannot go against mata rani because she is the one who sets the laws i hope manyata dosent loose herself completely.
