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Thank you all.Will come and read your posts.here is the rest of the story.
Sid was in deep thoughts ,he is upset for the whole fiasco he created and how stupid I was ,I want to express my love on a platform in the middle of the night.What if some thing happened to her.The thought of it self quivered him.As I got out of the restroom and I feel so shaky ,when I saw my pic I felt like screaming looking in the mirror and first I thought I look like alien.My weight was about 110 but now I may about 98 pounds.Came out of thoughts ,I felt two strong hands lifted me and that Is none other than Sid.I looked in to his eye's,but he was not looking at me.The intense smell of his perfume churned my stomach.I know I will throw any min and he put me down and said sit.By then the smell churned my stomach and I know I will puke,with my expression he got the hint.He put both of his hands in front of me and I puked in to his hands and saw one single tear rolled from his eye.
And I noticed two more eyes watching me but unable to do any thing.At that moment I felt helpless and mera dil piglan rahe hi[ my heart is melting for him]Being Miss Arrogant unable to accept this. I noticed everyone getting things ready and relaized we are almost close to the destination.I heard some one saying in about 20 mintues.I saw Sid calling Shreya and said please feed her.He got some hot idli and spirite. I said to Shreya ,I don't feel like eating.He said you look like group of bones put to gether covered with a piece of cloth .In mind that's why you fell in love with me I want to say that but I could not control my laugh.Looking me laughing,he gave that pouted kind of smile.I was thinking I should name him Mr.Serious but I fell for is charming smile .
He gave the the food and walked away.I can see pain in his eyes.
I ate the idili and gutted it down with spirite.At that moment I decided ,I have to come out of this ,so that I can enjoy the trip.Don't know what is in the store,but had a feeling something bad is going to happen.I notice every one packing things and I saw the blanket engraved with the letters SU are monogrammed.Next to it ,I saw Sid dairy and slipped into my bag. I thought no body saw me but that was Shreya's Plot.Which I found out later.Sid came and asked Sheya where is my dairy.She said it is in the right hands will give it to you once you reach the guest house .The train stopped in Mumbai ,everyone started getting down.Sid screamed saying this is the last stop.So you can come slowly.I was looking for my luggage,Shreya said Sid already has it.
We are in Mumbai finally,we got a porter for all our luggage .But have to walk lot of steps in order to be out of the station. I climbed the steps slowly ,I can feel weakness in my legs. I can hear my heart palpitating and I was gasping badly. I stopped at the landing of the staircase or steps.Jagan came running with a bottle of water and I drank and I said thank you.I can see is face lit like a 1000 watt bulb.
I what to scream loudly and say you are the reason for all this and don't get that ecxited.I blurted that word out and he said what did you say ? I said nothing.I saw Sid coming to me later.He said you are Ok.I said,I am fine.I picked up myself started climbing the stairs.Sid was behind me and Jagan to my side ,little away from me.When I all most reached the last step,I lost control and my body tilted back.I guess Sid guessed this and his walking behind with Shreya.He immediately came to my rescue.I told him I am okay please let me down.Kisi ki bath sune keliye thayar nahi hi.( he is not ready to listen to any one)He took me straight to the mini van,which we rented .He bought some Gatorade and start sipping this and that will keep you hydrated .By the time they reached the guest house it is almost 4 pm.We all took a warm shower and the guys went got some food and we all ate and ready to dose off.I am very curious about the dairy.I want to open and see what he wrote about me? I heard some one knock the door and Shreya went and opened the door.Sid gave the iPod to Shreya and said give to Usha.He saw me from far and our eyes met and he winked and said good night.I went to bed listening to the song,that is the only song on it.It goes like this sleep like a baby ….
I was restless and I couldn't sleep.I saw every one in deep sleep.I took the dairy and went in to the hallway!
First page was very artistic the way he wrote the name,Sidyusha,
Tales of Sidyusha,
He wrote about himself first.
I(SIDDHARTH) born in a upper middle class family to well educated parents.I have one elder sister name Saanchi.After my parents passed away in terrible car accident .Saanchi became my mother more then a sister.Saanchi is 15 years older than me and when my parents passed away I was only 10 years old.By then my sister is married and both of them are doctors.Both my jiju and my sister are college friends and they fell in love and got married later.They settled in hyderabad just for me .We Still live in the same house,where my parents started there lives with us,
When I was in 11 th class,Usha moved in to the same locality,where I was living.Everyday I used to see Usha And Sandya were accompanied by their father.They were not small kids .They were old enough to go back to school by themselves .Later I found out that he is protective and he doesn't like them talking to boys.
That' s how it became a routine watching them from balcony of my Apartment. I can see embarrassment in Usha's eyes.When kids tease her about her dad dropping at school.
One day I saw themselves walking from school.In the last few months,I never saw them alone.Now,I know why she calls him Hitler dad?I used to get all information from gulli.She is Sandhya 's classmate.Both Sandhya and Usha are opposite Personalities.
The next day also I saw only Usha coming from School.It rained right before the kids are out of school.There are puddles of water every where.I see Usha enjoying the drizzle and she looks very happy enjoying the rain.
For the firs time I saw Usha laughing,dancing and got drenched in the rain
It is still drizzling.That day she wore yellow long lehenga with green boarder and green blouse with a green half saree.She tied her hair loose.She looked very beautiful.
You are so beautiful dear!
You look like angel sent from heaven,
Your simplicity captured me,
You are like a moon,
Dancing in the rain,like the stars drenched the sky,
You are my moon,you glorify my day,
Like the moon,stars glorify the sky,
The moon and its glory,
The stars and its glory
My glory is you
And my eyes searching for you,
That's the day I fell for you,
From that day my eyes followed you every where,
There was once me,
Now I look for us to be together,
Right now it is beautiful dream,
No one can change not even your hiltler dad,
I love you Usha!
Tears rolled my cheeks and I don't want to read any more.I don't think I can handle it.But one question I want to ask him .Why he cried when he hugged me ?
Got emotional reading few pages but then decided to read the whole dairy.
The Summer with out Usha ,I am very lonely:
I was kind of surprised to see the words lonely .Continued reading ,
I guess that is the summer after my 10th holidays I went to my grandmas place,
This is hight time let me finish reading the whole dairy and it took me good two hours and cried in between.Why was I thinking to pretend that I hate him to the core? Just to see how much he loves me ? I don't think I need any more proof.
Mystery was sloved! Finally I am at peace,but it will be hard for me to accept him.All these months of misery ,pain can't be taken away in single day.
I am yet close but not too far,
You melted my heart,
But I don't feel the same thing for you.
Love can't be forced ,
It should be felt by heart,
You took maximum advantage of the situation,
Now is the time to reinvent my self ,
And see where I stand in this saga,
Let's take baby steps to become friends,
It is nice,when strangers become friends
But it's sad when friends become strangers,
The first sentence applies to us !
That's what I wrote and signed my name below.
Every one woke up and getting ready for the conference.We all boarded a bus arranged by the organizers to attend the conference.
I was thinking about what he wrote.It was shock to see so many details about me.Which I wasn't not aware.
About summer when I went to grandmas place.He wrote ,he was busy preparing for medical entrance exams .
I couldn't focus,My day used to start with looking at you thru my balcony.Now,I feel empty with out your presence.I know I lost my heart to you and even you were not aware of it.I am just waiting for right time to tell you.Because you came to 11 th and me in 12th.Falling in love,it can happen any time regardless of age.How can I explain to the World?
My love for you is true,my heart cries silently.You are my inspiration to move ahead in life.like a dream I captured you
In my eyes .My eyes will be searching for you!
You are my heart and soul,
I have travelled with time for you,
The road ahead is tough and we will get thru,
I will wait for you for many more lives
-------SID
Days passed in to months and he graduated 12th and got admission in to Gandhi Medical College,
Hyderabad .Me finished my 11 th and then 12th.I did get admission in to Manipal UniversityKnowing that I got admission he also transferd to the same college,I found out Shreya and Sid are best buddies and they know each other for a very long time.She also lives in the same community.
To my surprise I found out a lot reading the dairy.Jagan is Divya's cousin.As I thought everything is well planned.To my surprise the cards I got are send by Jagan.The last card Jagan wrote in is name was never posted.That was the same card Sid gave me in the cinema hall,where he did a very good Job by covering is name. He want to express is love in a very unique way.LoL! On a flat form and I want to kill him for creating such a hoopla.
Jagan and Sid are never friends.In order to protect me from him. He has to make friendship with him.He was true to his friendship.But,deep down he was feeling guilty,he wrote everything is fair in love.
To my surprise Mom knows everything thru Sid and me.But never told me.He planned everything so well but how come he failed in expressing his love.Well,no matter how smart or intelligent one can be there is a possibility you can always make a mistake.
With a sudden jerk the bus stopped and I came out of my thoughts.Shreya said it looks we are stuck in the traffic jam.May be we will be late by 30min.Hope we reach in time for Sid presentation.She was talking but did not realize when I fell asleep.When I woke up the surroundings were very quite and I notice my head on someone's shoulder.I woke up with a jerk.When I looked around there is no one.With out me asking any more questions.Usha,I will explain.You fell asleep and Shreya asked me to rescue her from you and so I did with a smile on his face.Where is everyone,they all left
and I am waiting for you to wake up.What about your presentation? I still have time but I can miss that but I can't miss this.You should have woke me up.How can I? You are sleeping like baby after long time so peacefully on my shoulder and you tucked your arms around my arm and if you don't leave it now ,it may need some massage.I quickly notice me holding is arm and I blushed and let is arm go.I can tell he his in pain and Shreya came making fun by calling Love Birds.So,you missed your presentation and now I can tell Usha did not sleep whole night but was reading the dairy.
To my amazement,how much he will do? I was very embarrassed for the whole situation .We all three entered the building where everyone are running around with plates in their hands.It was buffet and I notice it is lunch time.Then,I realized how long I slept.Feeling very guilty,I took a plate.Shreya said you don't have too and pointed towards the place where Sid was sitting.How is it possible? He was just with me and looking at my expression on my face,Shreya said you are very lucky to have him in your life.Sid has very good friends. He is perfect in everything except that day.At that moment,I want to run and tell him I love you.But,my ego stopped me from doing that.Gave a smile to Shreya and sat with him silently. I did not talk for the whole time.Silence speaks volumes.Everyone pulled there chairs and joined us.It was like a round table conference. I scribbled something on a piece of paper and when I lifted my head i saw two pair of eyes,not Sid but Jagan.I left the paper on the table and walked to wards Jagan and said thankyou.He said you are welcome.The paper I left on the table was in Sid hands.It read like this,
Your smile
It could light up the sky
Every time I look at you
I just don't know why
I just can't help but to smile back
You have beautiful smile!
All I have to do is look up
And there you will be smiling that wonderful smile
It'll cheer me up!
Even though now when
I look at you
I don't just see You,but I see a friend,lover,
I see the one I have come to admire
And that admiration grew bigger and stronger with each passing day.
It shows how beautiful person you are!
It suits you perfectly
You have perfect smile !
You are my World,
I love you ! Sid!
I came running but it was too late by then Sid read what I wrote, I blushed and walked away.
The day ended pleasantly and with good memories made!
That night Usha was very happy and she was not aware that her happiness will not last.The first time you fall in love it changes you forever and no matter how hard you try,that feeling just never goes away...Usha tossed and turned and could not sleep.She was very restless.She want to meet Sid.With those thoughts she walked out of the room slowly and went in to the hall way.Down the hall way there were steps,which led in to different room.Thats where all boys are staying.I went and sat on the steps there I saw a shadow in the garden.I am very brave and not scared of darkness. For some reason, my heart was telling something bad is going to happen.I notice the shadow was moving very quickly to wards me.I just stood quickly by then the Person caught me from behind and said do you love me? I recognized the voice,that is Jagan.I was trying to loosen my self from the clutch of his hands.He held me so tight and pulled towards him and I can smell the alcohol and cigarette,The smell of it made me very nauseous.Those are the two things,I hate the most.I noticed he is not in his senses. I am very petrified by his behavior and don't know what to do? I stayed clam and I said Jagan plesae leave me and let me go.
I heard some voices from back.I thought looking at the crowd.he will leave but he did n't.Then he started blackmailing me saying that I will tell your dad.I am in tears and the way he was holding me I felt like I have
a broken wrist .My hero came at the right time and rescued me.
I just collapsed on the bench and looked at my wrists one of the wrist is bruised. I was so embarrassed for the whole situation .Sid quickly went grabbed some ice,wrapped in handkerchief and applied cold compresses.My Pain was very unbearable and tears rolled down my cheeks.Sid took me in to his arms and was comforting me .
Prior to this trip,I noticed shooting pains in my right wrist.I have tough time doing things like holding a pen,pencil and all delicate things. I just closed my eyes and may be the pain is more aggravated because the way he held me.
I came out of my thoughts.I was just gazing at him and can see is face wilted.I can't see him like this,I want him to wear that charming smile on his face,where many girls are behind him but fell for this simple girl.
Nice story, Tulasi, what a vivid imagination you have!👏
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