Hello rockers,
Hi how is everyone Doing ?
Okay .. i don't know how to begin to say this so i will just say it .. If it makes sense thats good , if not .. i guess i have too many emotions going around can channel into one ..
I know i have been MIA.. People are asking and pondering.. what happened , why did i put out states about hypocrisy and double standards.
So the first question ..
Did something happen Yes, Something happened, But it was a build up of events. Not a single isolated incident that has led to my absences. Alot of thing have happened.. A lot. and moments i have been extremely quiet .. and always tried to be fair with everyone . But A few weeks i was informed of something which really confused me A LOT and i stepped back and began to Look at the whole picture .. i noticed things happening around .. People would inform of things happening in IF ..and at moment i was so confused idk what to do ..
People always told me .. this is Only online .. not to take it so seriously.. my problem is i do take things seriously.
so now AM i mad at Someone ? No , i am upset overall .. and now i blame myself more then anyone else. And I honestly don't want to talk about what happened , why i am so upset, why i feel hurt and why i feel like an idiot. i am No one's mother or father therefore , questioning people on why they did this or that is not my issue or place.
I am the type of person if something effects me . i don't say a word. until it blows up in my face. once t blows up in my face , i either fight t out or i let it go . This time i am choosing to let it go .. but everyone has their own stand on what is right and wrong.. which is different from mines. I can't fight with where both sides feel they are right.. there is no end to it .
so Now i am left in a situation , where i am upset and disappointed and i don't want to confront anyone , i don't even want to talk about it but mentality its in the back of my head. Therefore , now i am just taking time off to finish my classes and MAYBE afterwards i will came back .. Maybe i will take a self-ban .. at this point . i dont know what is happening and how to deal with it . but i don't have time to ponder how to solve it right now cuz i have alot of coursework to finish ..
Once i am finished with my coursework and graduate afterwards i will figure out what to do..
Alright i think that covers it what i am feeling , loads of confusion and hurt and disappointment.
Take care Rockers. have a Blessed One ! Study and get good grades.
Love
Mia
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
