It all continues from the ongoing track...marna mat plz...
Rey was in his room, toying with his punching bag, trying to vent out all his pain, anger, restlessness by hitting on it, crying simultaneously...
Today, he wasn't angry on kriya, he was angry on himself, he pitied himself today, how cud he let her come close to him, again...??...he hates her, the most nd most importantly he hates the fact that it's a lie...he can never bring himself together to hate her wholeheartedly...yup, whom is he kidding, kria or himself...??? He loves her, he still loves her nd is afraid that its gonna be forever...
Rey : why? Why cant I do anything with my full heart..?? neither I can love her nor I can hate her...why do u affect me so much kriya...why...??? I don't wanna love u...nd I can never hate u too...
He bent down on his knees, nd remembered the moment when kria was about to faint nd he felt as if...no he cant say...that moment was worst...his heart shrieked wen he found her getting stiffed on him touching her...he knows, only he knows how hard it was for him to carry on that stone face, when all he wanted to do was just holding her like that...forever in his arms...in his heart...
He cried, more nd more, nd was surprised to know that his eyes still has tears in it...he knows that he is behaving much insensitive, he knows that he shud let her speak once to justify herself...but he is afraid...afraid of everything...if she really used him, then he wont be able to hear that again...no he don't have that much strength left in him...this time the pieces of his already broken heart will peirce him throughout the body...nor he can handle if she proves herself innocent...nope..he just cant handle the guilt..the guilt of hurting her, the guilt of hurting himself nd most important...of hurting them...
He wants to stay away from her, as much as he can...but even dat is not possible. He cant resist himself. Moreover, he has to work with her coz of his dosti nd dance...dil is not for him, but the rest 2, never left him alone,whatever the situation may be...
He decides, he will do it. He has to fulfill his dream, but one thing is sure, he wont let her affect him anymore, not in anyway...he wont turn rude to her, nor he wud be soft...professional, just professional
Next day, in the college, rey was firm wid his decision nd he was more than glad...still smthing was changed, bt wat..?? yes...kriya, she wasn't there infront of him all the time..she didn't beg him to hear her just once...but he don't want that... or does he..??? no never..
On the otherhand, kriya was in the RH, smilint with herself...today was the best day after she returned..she danced, with him..Oh! how much she longed for this touch...evn she realized it today while being in his arms. It removed half of her pain. Today she saw him in better condition for the 1st time since she came back. And she know that it was coz of the decision she made last night, not to follow him, irritate him, or beg him for hearing her, just once...no she wont do it from nowonwards. From so long, all she wanted was his happiness, then y she is being selfish now ? she is here to fulfill his dream of establishing his dance academy nd she'll do it only.
Well, is this the only reason ??...nah !!...yes it is..bt one more thing is there...its her, she felt dat she shud be provided with the benefit of doubt...a chance to justify her acts..but they all turned ruthless to her..did they forget everything ?? was her one act much bigger than the all she did for thrm by telling them that its of their own benefit...???
Na, she don't deserve this...atleast not such a bad treatment...
She decided to be professional...if they don't want her, she'll not force herself upon them...3 months of training nd she will go back, away from them, nd this time she'll make sure, forever...widout any guilt...
plz comment nd do tell wthether its ok or not...m very bad in writing so...next part will be up soonš
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