I sat on the chair of my room to write the dairy... i feel so disheartened to even say them my friends... I remember what she said.. ". . . . . . . . . . . . . . "... i feeled soo guilty after listening that from her mouth...!!! why wont I...??? afterall she is...
no am i even worth to call her that...?? damn no..!!!!! i dont believe it..!!!!! i did that... i did that with her..!!!! how could I...???
I started to write my dairy
*Dairy*
Today was just the same day as usual sweety...all accusing kriya as they got to know about her accident...calling her b**** and all... nowadays its a usual thing na..??? god damn she met with an accident and dey... dey are accusing her..!!!! how low..!!!! i feel pitty to have such friends sweety... i..i just wish that she was here... you know what...??? I want her back..!!!! I cant live without her..!!!!! i just cant..!!!
*Dairy end*
I put my pen back at its place as a lone tear escaped from my eyes..
I stood and went to Rehersal hall...
music started...
i was standing in the middle of the room and started dancing... releasing all my pain through this dance...
Pyar hain ya saza, Aye mere dil bataa,
Tutta kyun nahi,
Dard ka silsila,
Is pyar mein ho kaise kaise imtihaan,
Yeh pyar likhe kaisi kaisi dastaan...
Ya rabba, de de koi jaan bhi agar,
Dilbar pe ho na dilbar pe ho na koi asar,
Ho ho
Ya rabba, de de koi jaan bhi agar,
Dilbar pe ho na dilbar pe ho na koi asar.
Pyar hain ya saza,
Aye mere dil bataa,
Tutta kyun nahi,
Dard ka silsila...
I danced rembereing what she did on pre valentine's night... how her heart broke to do that..!!!! the reason why she did this..!!!! every single thing..!!!!!
Kaisa hain safar, Wafa ki manzil ka,
Na hain koi hal,
Dilon ki mushkil ka,
Dhadkan dhadkan bikhari ranjishe,
Saanse saanse tuti bandishe...
Kahin to har lamha, hothon pe fariyad hain,
Kisi ki duniya, chahat mein barbad hain...
Ya rabba, de de koi jaan bhi agar,
Dilbar pe ho na dilbar pe ho na koi asar
Ho ho
Ya rabba, de de koi jaan bhi agar,
Dilbar pe ho na dilbar pe ho na koi asar
I remembered how we both acted infront of eachother... our fights... the cute moments v shared... i miss them.!!! sigh* and will always do..!!!!
Pyar hain ya saza, Aye mere dil bataa,
Tutta kyun nahi,
Dard ka silsila...
Koi na sune,
Sisakti aahon ko,
Koi na dhare,
Tadapti baahon ko,
Aadhi aadhi, poori khwahishen,
Tuti futi sab farmaishe...
Kahi shaq hain, kahi nafarat ki deewar hain,
Kahi jeet me bhi, shamil pal pal har hain...
Ya rabba, de de koi jaan bhi agar,
Dilbar pe ho na dilbar pe ho na koi asar
Ho ho
Ya rabba, de de koi jaan bhi agar,
Dilbar pe ho na dilbar pe ho na koi asar
I remembered when she came back..!!!! how all accused her and she left crying like hell..!!!! how she met with an accident..!!! no it wasnt an accident..!!!! it was murder..!!!!!! they forced her to do this... they forced my...
Pyar hain ya saza, Aye mere dil bataa,
Tutta kyun nahi,
Dard ka silsila...
Na pucho dard bando se,
Hasin kaisi Khusi kaisi,
Musibat sar par reheti hain,
Kabhi kaisi kabhi kaisi.
Ohhh Rabba Ohh
Raabaaa Ohh oo ooo
Rabbaaa ho o o
Ho o o o o o Rabba
i danced remembering how i got to know the truth...how v both cried in eachothers arms...!!! the last tym she cried before taking her last breathe...!!!!
*Next Day*
I went to St. Louis and directly went to vp sir's cabin...
I heard my friends stopping me but i just cant..!!!
I entered
I - i want to leave...!!!!
Yes im leaving St. Louis... i cant live with these *********
All were shocked..
VP - any reason..
I - personal matter..!!!
VP - kk
This was the last day of mine in St. Louis...
As soon as i stepped out all started to question me as to why and all..!!!
I just said one thing
"You know what guys she told me that she left for her friends..!!! she said that she can bear loose her love but not friendship... but i bet she never had a friend over here..!!! not even you swayam... and love... huh she was wrong..!!! she fell for that person who never loved her..!!! i feel pitty for my sister guys..!!! you all dont deserve her..!!!!"
yes im sharon...!!!! sharon rai prakash...!!!! it hurts me a lot to see them..!!!
since the time kriya joined st. louis we both acted infront of others..!!!
reason..???
just coz our parents got seprated but v..!!! na v r d best of sistrs and can never live without eachother..!!! i loved to spend time with her at night..!!! just miss those day..!!!
yet i can never get those days back..!!! she died..!!!! just coz of them..!!! I will never forgive me..!!!
this was not only the last day of mine in St. louis but also of my life..!!!
Im coming sissy..!!!
I went to hill top and sucide..!!!
umm how was it..???
good???
Bad???
Worst???
Best???
Jaisa bhi ho do leave ur views 😳
Edited by abhiyakreya - 13 years ago