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Speaking of which, there are two big movie moments in your life, Black (2005) and Devdas (2002) if I'm not mistaken and both involve Sanjay Leela Bhansali; you've met him since?
Oh, yes. In fact, we had a brief meeting for Padmaavat (2018). He narrated me the script.
He offered you the film?
Yes. There was this conversation, and I was doing Manikarnika then, so it didn't go anywhere. But we had a brief narration. Before that as well, he wanted me to do the Ram-Leela song. He is a filmmaker who can leave strong impressions on you, especially if you are a fresh mind.
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Speaking of spirituality, you're just back from a ten-day break, having not spoken a word in that time. How was that like?
Very difficult.
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Why did you need that break?
I was kind of harrowed with the whole Manikarnika experience. My director abandoned the project. All of this came on to me with such a force. I wanted to get into direction. But it didn't have to come like a tsunami, at gunpoint directing in a situation, where everyone is feeling unsure.
When the film finally came out, and came out good, people loved it. But there was so much negativity from the backlog that came with it. I thrive on my confidence. I don't know how to function without it. It's the fuel of my personality. When I feel wronged, taken for a ride, I feel like a meek person. I felt like that.
These people were altogether bullying me. Did you see the horse episode [a clip leaked from the making of the film]? This is mockery. A girl has pulled off these stunts for the first time. And there is this whole system working against it openly? I felt like it was scarring me. I have been associated with a guru's ashram in Coimbatore, and this [retreat] was happening, exactly what I needed.
But as a public figure, you also seem to thrive on this [environment]. Most artistes would want to stay away from cut-throat worldly stuff, but you actually want to pick on someone, and say, "Why is this guy doing this?" Fair?
No. I do that only when I am rubbed the wrong way. I obviously don't have time to pick on people, or find out who's doing what. Also, I am not a judgmental person, and if you see me, I'm very easy-going. But when somebody, on purpose, bullies me or tries to be nasty, then, of course, I have my own way of putting them in their place. And I do that very well.
Googling you before this conversation, the second thing that showed up was, '34 controversial moments from Kangana's life'! Clearly, you rattled people up in a certain way. But is it always because someone rubbed you up the wrong way?
Always. Of those 34 controversies, you [can't] come up with one that hasn't been about people [who haven't rubbed me the wrong way]. Maybe you haven't seen them [do it] openly, in public. Because sometimes people have a way of going behind, and hitting you. But I have always retaliated, openly.
For example, that "silly ex" [comment]... I said it first. But the way he was harassing me for two years... So people are like, 'Oh, where did that [my reaction] come from?' It has always been out of retaliation to people, who have been either secretly harassing/bullying me, or openly so.
Recently you picked on Ranbir Kapoor for the fact that he does not like to comment on stuff which is political in nature, something he said on Sit With Hitlist. He didn't rub you the wrong way?
Of course he did. He said, "I live in luxury."
But he was talking about himself.
These are people who feel absolutely exclusive, saying one has nothing to do with the rest of India. This is the kind of attitude that Karan Johar and gang thrive on. And a lot of negative PR about me has been happening from these people. Maybe you don't know, but I know who gives out news [about me]. That's why whenever I do something; it is to put them in their place.
I am me, and you are you, is where the words 'nepotism', and 'outsider', come from. Because they feel superior to others. We need to question that, and the fact that I also know who had released that horse video. If I tell you the name, you will be shocked.
Go for it.
I'll you tell later. There is a lot of politics in the industry people who are uncomfortable with me coming up, whether it is with Tanu Weds Manu (2011), or Manikarnika, which have [box-office] figures that no female-centric films have seen before. Tanu Weds Manu is still ahead of many heroes' highest grossers. And with Manikarnika, people are saying no hero has ever done action like this.
So, it is frightening many people making them feel, ki hamari bhi period film aayegi, will we be compared? If in your business, journalism, it is not as simple as it looks, then how can it be in mine?
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