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I have to admit that Gauhar annoyed me at first tonight. The way she chocked while crying over a mug and a photo frame was beyond me.
To me it is like you have the memories safe in your mind and no material thing could come close to those mental memories. I don't write diary because I believe if a memory has vanished from my mind, reading anything related to it won't have any affect on me. I am not much of a photo person either.
But later I realized that it's not important for everyone to share my perspective over the significance of material things attached to memories. My circumstances are very different from Gauhar too. Who knows a photo might become my most central possession if I am locked in a house for months... Kamya is a very strong woman yet I can imagine how ugly things might turn out if even one of her daughter's photos goes missing.
As for the mug, again I don't see the significance but I realize that it can be very significant for a person like Gauhar. More than Gauhar's overtly emotional moment, I was against Tanisha's cunningness. Correct me if I read her wrong. When she was selling the mug, she had a smile on her face and told Andy that "it's Gauhar's cream mug." Meaning, the two knew the mug had a story behind it. Earlier she confided into Arman that she stole many things including "Gauhar's Mug." When Gauhar reacted, she straightforwardly denied having any clue about its significance to Gauhar. To me she was obviously lying because as Gauhar left the scene we heard Armaan saying "I know where she's coming from. The mug belonged to Kushal." If Armaan knew this so did Tanisha. Still she explained herself by saying that she never knew it was something special to Gauhar because everyone in the house used the mug. Tanisha could have appeared much more justified IF she said "I understand that Gauhar links the mug to Kushal but I don't think she should get too emotional about it." Andy to me did a much better job at this. He said that they thought the jacket would be much more important to Gauhar given how she reacted to Sophia chucking it on the floor earlier. Yes, Andy you are right here. Even I would be confused as to what is more important: the mug or the jacket. If Andy chose her jacket over the mug with the understanding that the former is more important to Gauhar, I would say Gauhar has no right to blame him for this and I would be against her if she chose to do so.
Now coming to the jacket issue. An ordinary person like me who's not into fashion and dressing would say why Gauhar why? I mean so what if Sophia chucked it on the floor. I don't think I would react so much even if someone burned my most expensive dress let alone "disrespecting" it by chucking it on the floor. But I am very much capable of breaking anyone's head who messes up with one of my not-so-expensive books. I am a bookworm and overtly obsessed with my books. My three year old nephew has learned that he cannot walk anywhere near my bookshelves. My best friend doesn't borrow books from me fearing that she might end up creasing one of its pages. I cried an entire night because when we were shifting, they did not pack one of my anthologies properly so the cover was partly torn when it reached our new house. I know this would sound so abnormal to an ordinary person but it's an obsession - call it a disease if you like - that I cannot help. So to me it's my books, to Gauhar it's her clothes, and to you it might be something else - or if you are a completely sane person you won't have any such obsession! Comparing our lives, it makes sense why I and Gauhar would have different obsessions. I have been a student for most of my life and now I teach so books are my best pals. Gauhar has always been a model so fashion and clothing are central to her.
My point is we should not be so judgmental when someone else does not share our emotional feelings or attachments. It would have been a problem if in her emotional outburst, Gauhar had harmed someone.
In short, even though Gauhar appeared weird at first, with a little bit of self-reflection I understood, to borrow Arman's words, where she's coming from...
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