truth is a bitter honey crisped in mistery ?was it well..time says things.mid june -very well he knows the day,when he married a child bride.to him -she looked like a barbie,in a native style.her messy bun and tons of vermillion on her partion , gosh! only her face ,he could see! beneath the huge fabric that covered her!....why is he thinking so much of those today?
because today is 21st june 1928 ,excat 10 years to the marriage,holy 10 years! he was a divorcee ,yet he had not limited himself to truth.imagining bondita in a barrister attire was a usual thing!,but in a bride's attire with nuptial chain and a shy drapping her modesty..holy shit! he woke up from dreams,gasping for breaths and turned to find only old age books in study.
19,excat 19 years she is today!,just a fresh barrister with all the beauty and honour,a girl could posses.her bright skin,fair cheeks,blonde curls...was all that could be seen.born in a bengali family,she was well concerned with all rituals.true to all this beauties,she remains unmarried. she is far from him,from her dear ones,from the warmth of her ma's lap,from all the debates she asked her society. london,a foreign country? NO A place where an Indian girl has to adapt.
brilliant in academics,yet she feels as a fish out of water.once professor nevelson asked her,''bondita you are an exception,of all the lawyers we have! but try conversing more inenglish.you dont excpect us to converse in bengali!..''he laughed
''but you expect a bengali to converse in english dont you?''
he was strucked,in her bravey,her debate and her line.fate,time all made her a bold sassy woman.no someone kind hearted,but with well words.after all, she was tutored by the manoic revoultionary anirudh,as said in India. termed their relation to be a friends,it was exceeding more !...waiting sleepless nights for letters,calls and craving each other was a natural basis.
and it was 30 th july when he met her,near the port of calcutta.time has churned her innocence into a depth of modesty and maturness with a tip of beauty.anirudh roy choudhry,a man born in India, spent his childhood in london,marrying a child bride,coping with her after divorce,supporting all was a great crap. but their life had a reason ,to help others.they truly cared their hearts growing with proximity.yes,he rembered ,the 1st time when the bnarsi drap her saree float in air,sweeping his face with milk and honey.he could smell. with days they became a lover,yess truly!. cofee shops and library was main area of a love dawn to arise.but anirudh would shed off these thoughts regarding her as a child,even after she is a barrister . time moved with pretty confession at heck.yes they confessed.18th july 1932,yess this very day they accepted their hearts without any hesitation.bound by destiny,to be close,they were now forever.thakuma and trilochan both blessed them inspite of all the anger,enmity they possesed.it was december,cold frost was floating across all calcutta.with rituals by brahmo smaj ,they tied the holy knot.the vermillion that adorned her foreline ,made her touch it twice,if it was real?. anirudh encircled his hands deep her waist,enchanting love and only warmth.she would cry,laugh and see whther he was still there,whether this was true?.with time,they became more busy towards works.cases,revolution and their closness was only life.
bondita, fall ill several times,but she continues to ignore.anirudh is still a short temper man ,in his mid 30's,but loves her dearest to anything he posses. every time,she coughs he panics,everytime he suffers an injury,her heart aches.the only proof possed by lover's. they decided to return back to their family.it has been 18 months of a smooth married life.every single child of tulsipur knew about the famous marriage of anidita.there life adventures and fight were published in magazines,potraying a young curious gril with questions and an educated lad with visions. when they reached tulsipur,the native place.there was only joy. and just after another 5 months,she was delight. motherhood - the blissful experince of a woman in her life.the child of him was nurturing in her womb.it was excatly 31st july the next year when anirudh was dining with family and she was blusing
''dear,what happend? You dont seem well''he asked
''well are those who have love and all good around them,As I posses...''she took his hands gently touching her lower abdomen.his eyes sparkled in awe'was it really?' .the touch of his unborn child left a warmth remark to him.kaka ,som,batuk and all others danced in joy.after ages,the mansion will be filled with cute noises!....someone troublig them beautifully.
but as days passed bondita begans to feel more weak,tehre was a time at her 3rd month when she had a baby bump.it was something not odinary,and the doc said,''congrats,they are twins! ''.and her eys lit up with joy.their children- yes their.she laughed crying in joy,she caressed her womb and anirudh holded her.the doc smiled forcefully.''mr.amirudh I think she needs rest,we can talk in my cabin''
''yes?''
''I think I need to be honest.miss.bondita is suffering from a deasese.that multiplies producing toxic protiens.I think we will need to deliver the children pre maturely just after another 4 months.otherwsie they may suffer.And she has may be if god permits,only 4 years to live''
his eyes felt dry of words,his shoulder shrunk ,leaving the imprint of cry.'why god did this? she's a lovely person.she's my heart ! how will my kids live a live motherless,as i lived?...'''
with all thoughts he walked to the corridor and picked her up,'''pati babu,you seem to be in dilemma...I know you must be thiking whther the names be of boys or girl..but let me tell you they'll be a girl a boy..''
he looked in tears at her laugh,''what?dont you know a ma knows what her child would be what they need,so do I''
''hnn,i know...''he kissed her forehead .
after she was asleep at night he called evryone
''anirudh why did you summmoned all of us?''
''kaka we r having twins..''he said
''we all know beta,we are happy indeed...''said binoy
''but baba,the doc said bondita 's body has developed a disease,and she would live till another 4 years after birth of kids.''
''what are you telling ,dear,can this be possible no way.she has to live,she's so young just a 21 years,what about the kids,what about you..what about her barristeree,her dreams..''binoy asked angrily
''the truth forbids the taste of lie''he said with tears
''promise me you all,dont ever let her know these!..i want ehr to live happily...''
they nodded their head.''but with the taste of bitter lie,will it taste honey dear?''said a calm voice behind.she stood there in tears.
''listen,bodnita...''
''how dare you not tell me?speak!...barrister babu,our children will live happily in this world...''she assured his weak heart.
''why durga?this happns,is our clan cursed with richness and love of a ma..my mother died when i ad binoy were of years.subhra,died when anirudh som batuk were kids,and bondita tooo...you can't be so harsh to let all the children born in this mansion motherless...''hearing kaka's words bondita silently cried.
a ma,who loves her child ,will she bear this?at bed,anirudh was yawning ,twisting side by side unable to sleep.''dear,will you fulfil one of my wishes?''
''what wishes,you are with al of us and will eave,I dont belive.nothing will..''
'''ssshh,the silence permits truth!''she said sobbing down ,holding her stomach patting them.
''will you marry after I decease''
he was suprised and angered at this,''great marriage,Dont you forget ,I love you...how can thsi be possible?''
''Dont you know my kids will be motherless,just like you...''she said sharply
''bondita,we will love them ,tehre are all here''he said consolling her
''but where will be a mother's holy love?will rich clthes and jwels fulfil them?answer me...''she hit his chest crying harder
''sssshhh darling,if got permits,you will be togethoer with us,all life'' this last words slipped his tongue,before she slept
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''baba?why questions are menat for a boy?does blood darkens in them and not us?....why is it wrong if i say?''a little 9 year girl sat angrily.
''my princess,is so fury,gosh! you are just lik your mom...now listen,the blood and it's colur both is same,we all are.the only difference is we are habit with these beliefs.when we break this we fly...''he said caring her cheeks
''will I also fly baba?make my wongs ready?anu will fly higher!...''and she ran acrosss the corridor as a kite.''and with ma baba....''she said before going
his eyes were moist,today was the sharad of bondita,excat 10 years before this she left the world.he recollects his old grave memories,when the labor began and bondita was crying,''pati babu?will my kids be ok?tell me...stupid..''
''nothing would happn..calm...''he said laying a kiss.
hours passed to almost a day and she only scremead.and the doc declares one child is born dead ,another a healthy girl.
it took her 4 months to forget all the miseries and love her little angel.she wuld often sing lullababy to her,kiss her waking from sleep.just a mother does. when antara said for 1st time,''ma...''she danced around whole mansion. and this was how blissful is to be a ma...
her little fingers would wrap around her hairs,and anu would tear them and she smiled...with days her health was worse,but she never failed loving her,or to breastfeed her.
the lullaby that she sang was
''Rāta paṛēchē
āmāra bhālabāsā ghumō
mā tōmākē yēmana bhālabāsē tēmani tōmāra hr̥daẏa'ō karē
tārā huṛōhuṛi karachē
āra rājakan'yā ghumiẏē gēla
ōhē āmāra priẏa, rāta paṛāra sāthē sāthē ghumā'ō''
[the night has fallen
sleep my love
mom loves you as your heart does
the stars are yawning
and the princess slept
oh my dear,sleep as night has fallen [2] ]
at her last breath,she pleaded him,''love her,Often I will visit to see if you dont.marry a lady as my anu's ma.never be she motherless....let me sleep in peace.I love you''and her eyes closed with tears dripping his shirt.
it was dinner time as anirudh ate silently with others.rajini ,wife of batuk would love anu as her own,along with sita,her daughter.som never married after her boudi died....''beta,I think you should...''
''kaka dada,won't you tell me stories today?''
''are dear,rajni will tell you,where is she..ahh go with your parima...''
''parima,today manoj das,I want to listen his stories..''
''okay my mithu,come..''she kissed her and carried her along with sita in another arms.
''beta,you must marrry,how will she live all her life motherless?you want same for your daughter?will bahu ba happy after you disobey her!''
''I will..''he said closing the album with last photo of their 1st night.
''A mother for a motherless, a wife for a hopless lover....I wish one could fulfil all these..''he uttered silently wiping the tears of sleeping anirudh.
''just like parvati loved ganesha?Do I have a ma to love me?parima...will i ever?''
''yes beta..now let me make you sleeep,sita hurry up..''
she forced a smile at batuk who was lost in thoughts.....
happy reading!🤗
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