FF:Three Birds with One Stone- April 19 pg 80 - Page 48

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Part 34

Radha

Midterms: This was one of the times in the year during which I had no life. My time revolved around studying, eating, sleeping, and more studying. The coursework had increased tremendously. I studied six hours the previous day and was doing the same today. I couldn't remember the last time I talked to Vidya in the past few weeks about anything other than asking her for the due dates of certain assignments and the parts in our textbooks we had to read.

Sagar, Vidya, I, and all the others were spending the majority of our time either locked in our dorms or dwelling in the libraries. I hadn't seen anyone have the time even to ask their friends how they were and what was going on. Everyone was just going about with their lives which, in other words, meant studying until they fell asleep. I was cramming so much into my head from my notes that it went to the point of me having an odd dream in which a skeleton was chasing me with a stethoscope in one hand and my textbook in another.

I felt the need for fresh air. My mind was beginning to get hazy and my eyes were burning. I slammed my books shut and a few papers flew off my desk from the force of it. I couldn't care less. I dragged my feet out the door and down the stairs. My muscles were stiff from sitting down for such long stretches of time.

As soon as I was outside on the campus ground, the cold fall wind blew against my face and I shivered remembering I forgot to bring a jacket. I rubbed my hands on my arms thanking myself for wearing something full-sleeved, and looked around. Not a single soul seemed to be outside. Everyone was drowning themselves in their workload. A few students who looked dead-beat just like me were walking about lazily. I wanted to talk to Vidya, but I knew she was somewhere in the campus burying herself in her books, so I knew better than to disturb her.

My feet were carrying me off to someplace without the knowledge or consent of my brain. I felt like a robot walking off to wherever I was commanded to go having no control of the action. When my feet stopped after what appeared to be five minutes I saw that I had wandered away from the campus grounds. I groaned with the realization that I didn't know how to get back to the residence halls even though I was only a few minutes away from them. My sense of direction was about as good as a sheep's, and being in the same college for four years had done nothing to improve it. I thought of asking someone for the route back, but I decided I would walk around a bit more rather than return to my books.

I finally took a good look around to see that I was at the playground at Morningside Park. Some children were sliding merrily down the slides as their parents watched on. Others were on the jungle gym and a few were on the swings. I spotted an empty swing and sat down to watch the kids around me.

Children and I always got along like the best of friends because we had one thing in common. We both were gullible. This was why I'd decided to become a pediatrician in the first place. In my opinion, children were angels sent from heaven. They brightened up my day with their imaginations and contagious smiles. I always wished for a younger sibling, but since I was an only child, I thought of making up for it by centering my time around little kids. And what better way to do that than to choose a career that dealt solely with them?

A few babies were giggling as they fell down on the ground after coming out of the slides. I couldn't resist the urge to giggle with them; they were so adorable. I started swinging myself as my childhood came back to me. I felt more and more like a free bird as I swung myself higher and higher. I closed my eyes and continued to feel my hair whip around my face as I swung back and forth. I missed coming to the park and letting my carefree side take control over me. I sometimes craved to be transported back in time just so I could relive my childhood; a time where I didn't have to worry about my responsibilities or deal with my problems. I sighed sadly and opened my eyes.

That was when I saw him.

He was about three yards away walking with a coffee in one hand and a girl in the other. They both were laughing. I forgot about swinging; my legs lay limp. I couldn't blink. All I was able to do was stare in horror. Memories, memories I had dug away deep in my heart, flashed across my eyes. My breaths were coming out unevenly as if I could not take in enough oxygen. What was he doing here? My mind was screaming at me to run, run before he could see me. But my legs refused to cooperate. I finally came back to my senses and pushed myself off the swing after what seemed like an eternity. He was still walking with the girl and I found it amazing how he was so oblivious to the panic emitting from my mind. How could he not see or sense it?

I took advantage of his unawareness, turned in the opposite direction, and ran. I ran like I was being chased. I had no idea where I was going. Hopefully, by some miracle, I would end up back to my dorm. But what would I tell Vidya if and when she saw the terror on my face? I wouldn't be able to answer any of her questions. I would not be able to face anyone. I managed to bring myself out of the depression and denial two years ago, but I could feel myself slipping into it once more. I could not, would not, let that happen again. I needed to control myself. And for that I needed to be alone.

I stopped running until I saw a bus stop. My face was frozen from running against the cold wind but I still managed to shoved my shaking hands into my pockets. I thanked myself for remembering to put some money in there in the morning. I turned my cell phone off also. As the bus came to a halt nearly five minutes later, I saw that it was going to Central Park. Incidentally, that was the one place on my mind that I felt I needed to get to at the moment. I jumped into the bus as soon as the doors opened and deposited my money. I sat down in the seat farthest away from the front of the bus and commanded myself not to think of anything. I could feel the tears building up inside me.

Fifteen minutes later, the bus came to a stop and, trembling, I stepped out of it and onto the sidewalk. I wandered around until I was in a deep and hilly part of the park where there weren't many people. I spotted a tree atop a low hill where I knew no one could see me, and I could see no one and sat down there. I pulled my knees up to my chest, wrapped my arms around them, and finally let the sobs take over me.

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Priya- Aw thanks for thinking it was sad. Now now don't die... hehe I wouldn't want you to kill yourself for a simple update!

Ravjot- Thank so much yaar. Sagar's such a dumb bum. I don't like anyone sad either but I do hope things get fixed soon.

Suhana- aww don't feel bad! Thanks sooo much for reading!!

Radhika- Haha sorry for updating after you logged off. They'll patch up soon enough.😛 Thanks a bunch!

Nishi- The sadness has just started. Uh-oh hehe. There will be some fun moments but the sadness will always be lurking in the midst of it all. I got mad at Sagar also. He's so random. Thanks a lot for reading!

Mushtari- Nah, he's too stubborn to let her go. Hehe you'll find that out soon enough. 😉Thank you for liking it!

Radika- Yes yes it IS sad but it'll be even sadder later on. But no worries! They shall get back together soon! Thanks a ton!

Amazing update! I wonder what's wrong with Radha.....it seems so mysterious. I wonder who that guy was...Hope everythings ok with her. Can't wait to read your next update. Hopefully I wont have to wait as long😆

u finally updated, now i get to throw a party!!!!!!!!!!!never mind the fact that it wuz after i logged off. who was it, who did radha c??? can u do s or v's point of view next, but then tell who the person was? actually, nvr mind, do wut u want. just update asap cuz i really want 2 read the next part. udpate soon please, that wuz gr8. thanx

Awwwwwwwwww! I wonder why Radha was crying! I hope that she's alright! I wonder what's gonna happen next! Continue soon! Bye! :)

I am confused! Not my fault, you update once a year!

Ooh this guy's definitely not Sagar...she wouldn't be panicked or wonder what he's doing here...Plus Sagar knows better than to hang out with another girl hehe

So Radha and this guy have history...Poor girl! I wonder what happened...

Continue soon...and this time maybe within a few days instead of weeks?😛