Part 19-
Hello my friends, again I am here to update the next part
And it is much waiting part ,as hopefully I am able to reveal the past of Raya..but for full past u have to wait 4/5 updates ..
So till then bare me with my updates..
Ok ok no more talks ..direct to the update
And plz don't give me tomatoes..brick brack..i know it is going to be bad now..and this part is without any editing ..though I did never ..but when I wrote this part I was feeling so emo. To imagine Priya in this..thats why no idea what I wrote..
After this incident Ram and me did not share any talk ..as Ptiyadarshini left the place in a awkward manner and the lab assistant starred at us very keenly ..as he is not the first witness of our love now..at our college days often he find us at road side, one day he asked Ram too about our relation ..but Ram was so odd to confess it in front of those people who r not matter in is life ..so he did not sa this that time but today
Ram: aap aise kyun dekh rehe hai.
Assistant: nehi soch raha hu ye wohi ram haina jo kisiko kuch batana nehi chahata tha..
Ram: tabki baat kuch aur thi..aur aabhi Priya meri patni hai ..so I cant bother to declare it in front of world ,that I love her ..but she loves more than I do..
I am feeling guilty that time so I cant talk further ..
At 5 PM
I was waiting at our college gate for my car ..and more over today I want to go to my RAM very badly ,I want to love him..
A black BMW halt in front of me..i am very much sure the owner is none other than my Ram. Sided the front glass and asked
Aaj kya Kapoor Mantion jana hai ..nehi to mai hi Sharma house chod deta hu..it is very much clear that he is angry on me ..but more over he is hurt ..which hurts me a lot..
What ever happen I could not ,can not and will not see him sad ..
Priya: nehi main aapni ghar hi aaj jayungi..
Ram is stunned with my ans ,
I take my position beside him,and said.
Kya huya ,,,main aapni ghar hi jana chahti hu..aapne pati k sath ,humari Kapoor mantion me.
The journey is quite well..not very much..but I am enjoying as Ram is beside me..
After the dinner ,we are in our bedroom. Ram already is in bed trying to sleep..but cant ..something must be bothering him..
I am busy to comb my hair..but his uneasy ness catch my attention towards him..i go to him..sit beside him and keep my hand on his forehead.., Ram removes my hand..
Keeping my head on his chest I ask him
Kya huya aapko ? nind nehi aa rehi hai..
Ram: tum yenha se hato tab to aayegi..
Caressing his chest I give my reply..
Gussa ho aabhi bhi plz..baby ..
Ram: Gussa kyun? Galti to meri hi hai na ..main hi to har time dhoka deta hu tumhe ..
Plz Ram ,maine ye kab kaha ?
Ram: nehi ye to nehi kaha ..par kya kaha tumne ..meri zaroorat puri karne ki machine nehi ho ..tum? kya lagti hai Priya tumhe ? meri zaroorat kya hai? Jo tum sochti ho agar wo hi agar mera zaroorat hota to uske liye ..tum kyun ..bohut option tha mere pass ..but u know meri zarurat tum thi ..tum ho..aur bas tum hi rahogi..not for that purpose as u think..only fo my soul,my heart..not any physical need.
I am sorry RAM ,I did not want to hurt u by saying that ..i am really sorry .. u know I did not mean a single bit of sentence , I am sorry..but I was feeling insecure Ram phirse agar aisa kuch huya to main mar hi jayungi..aur himmat nehi hai mujhme ..
I could not complete my sentence ram sealed his lips with me ..after few min..we broke for much needed air and ram kept his finger on my lips and said .
Shona I know I did a wrong..sayad jiske liye tum kabhi bhi maaf nehi kar payogi ..par aab jo bhi ho jaye is Ram kabhi bhi tumhe nehi chodne wala hai..jab tak saans hai ..tab tak tum ho..
Aap meri zindegi ho ram..usdin hi the ..bad me bhi ..aur aaj bhi ..aur ye zindegi sirf aapke bharose hi hai ..agar ye bharosa tut gaya to meri zindegi bhi khatam..
Ram hugged me tightly ..and said plz share ur all feelings of those days with me baby .. I want to feel ur pain..as I promised u before I will be beside u all time but more in ur pain..khushi me sath de payu ya na payu ..par dukh kabhi bhi tumhe akeli mehsoos karne nehi dungi main..
I stared at him and said..meri khushi to aapke sath rehne me hai ..to khushi me aap nehi sath nehi denge to wo khushi kya hogi..aur aapke bina hi mere life dukh se bhar jati hai ..kuch bhi situation ho ..aap mere sath ho to koi bhi dukh mujhe gher nehi sakte hai ..
Ram: but I wanna know ur past ..rather our past but in ur way of life ..as yeasterday's also ur life was mine..today and in future too..
26th august 2008-
Pate nehi ram ko kya huya hai ..aj kal colg bhi nehi aa raha hai ..sabse badi baat kal usne firse Drinks kiya ..aur aaj subah confess bhi kar diya ..and his msg was -Priya I know u r going to be my life partner ..mera would be wife banne wali ho tum ..but iska matlab ye nehi hai ..k maere life me interfere karogi tum..plz mind it ..dont interfere in my personal life."
Yes mujhe budi lagi..bohut dukh pouchi mujhe ..but sayad Ram koi problem me hai ..warna mujhse aisi baatein to wo kabhi nehi karte na..
But aaj kal to mere sath baat bhi nehi karte hai ..subah se mai ph/msg ki wait karti rehti hu..no ph..no calls..aur jab mujhe pata hai k ..wo sayad free honge ...then he uses to say me Priya mere ek dost mujhse ph lekara jaa rehe hai ..so I cant call u now..aur koi msg bhi nehi vejna plz..
Aur main ph karu to rcv bhi nehi karte hai..
But aaj Neha di ne kaha uske no se ph karne k liye ..i was sure k tabbhi wo ph rcv nehi karne wale hai ..but I was so wrong he recvd the call and answered as nothing is happened with him
Ram: ha ha neha bol..vikram se fursat mil gayi tujhe achanak Ram ki yaad aagayi..
Neha di nehi ..main bol rehi hu..
When he heard my voice ..he changed his too..
Tum? Tum neha ki ph se kyun ph kar rehi ho..
Nehi aap to meri koi bhi ph caal ya msg ki reply nehi dete hai..
Ram: wo so isliye neha ki ph se bat karne k liye soch li..
I was feeling miserable right then that I could not control my tears .. I started sobbing..aap aaise kyun bol rehe hai . I am sorry I f I disturbed u ..but I am worried bout u ram.what happen with u ?
After hearing my sob ..my ram was back ..yes he is back today..
Priya baby ..i am sorry plz don't cry na ..main thik nehi hu ..aisi situation agayi hai ..i cant tell u,,but I have to..sab batayunga tumhe but after 2days ..plz Neah ki ph use de do..i am calling u on ur no..ok and don't cry baby ..
But only different ws ..whenever he disconnect line he uses to say I love u to me..but today he did not utter not even a single time even he uses to say 143 if may one r surrounding. This is may be a no for others but for us this is eternity ..
But today he did not say it too..and the most imp was he did not call me again as he promised me..he broke his own promise ..ram and promise break..it is just south pole and north pole ..but today it happened..i msged him at evening ..still no replied but the situation for me was changed my mumma comes to know about our relation..she is sad ..she never imagined in her dream that her Priya could say lie to her ..she was also crying .. I am feeling miserable yaar.. iknow I did a wrong..mumma ko sach batana chahiye tha ..but main to sirf pyar kar baithi ..aur aab Ram ki zaroorat hai ..sab samhalne k liye wo hi mere paas hai kar bhi nehi hai .
I am sorry mumma ..i don't wanna hurt u ..not even papa
I just love him maa..u wanted to meet him na..when u will meet with him personally the u will appreciate ..ur Daughter's choice ..he is a gem ma .. he is ..i don't love his status maa. He is so caring maa
But ye ram bhi main ram ki tariff kar rehi hu ..aur ye hai k pagal ladka baat hi nehi kar rehi hai mere sath..sirf jab ata chala k mumma came to know everything just called me once and said he needs time to set up his brain for this meeting.
He he ..lo lo time le lo .aapki Priya ko ..koi lekar chale jayenge tab aana mumma.papa se baat karne k liye ..main bhi kuch nehi kahungi us time
But mumma really I am sorry that I hided this from u..but I know my ram will not disappoint u either as ur son-in law. Chalo aaj k liye bye Ram ki to ph aane nehi wale hai ..lag raha banwas par chale gaye hai..yaar jana hi tha to aapne sita ,mujhe lekar jate na.
Priya Sharma.
I looked at him.. r u sure na u can handle the next.. I cant
He just uttered go ahead
28th august 2008-
Nothing was happened today ..i was helping my mumma as guests are in our house ..
At 12 am ..i was so stressed just msged him
What r u doing .. I am feeling tired and he replied
GN.
Again I msged
What happen with u ?
Nothing ..so jao ..gn
Don't u think ram that u r changed
Yes I am changed ..so r u not happy with this ram..so break up with me.. I want a free life ..need some space
I was shocked with his reply
Kya? Majak kar rehe ho na mere sath ? as I am stressed ..but u know na ram aisa majak mujhe pasand nehi hai ..so plz don't do tis to me
Main koi mazak nehi kar raha hu .. I am damn serious just forget about me.
It was his last sms ..at evening I had to attend some invitation in my nice's in laws house ..
They were surprised to see me like this..as acc to them I am bublee,fun feel girl who is able to make laugh a dead person ..but now I am presented a dead person who still have life but don't know how to smile as my mumma knew about his msg ..and all things ..she said to me
Don't create any scene here .it is indeed ur di's in laws house .
I was not able to control my tears ..i went washroom and let my tears to follow their path..
Ram kept his al phones in switched off mode and Neha di every passed hours msged me that I am solely responsible to ruin this relation to ruin his friends life ..though I don't know why he is taking such decision
My hand is shivering ..all things r blurring in front of me..
Main kya itni budi hu..batao na ..tum to meri dost ho na..to..tum kyun baat nehi kar pati ho ..i wanna know ..plz batao na ..maine to koi galti nehi ki ..apni life me ..humesha dusro k bhalayi chahti hu..to mere sath aisa kyun huya ..plz kuch to bolo..main to ye baat mumma se bhi share nehi kar sakti..kyun huya mere sath aisa Rm ne aisa kyun kiya ..i love u ram..plz aisa mat karona mere sath ..main mar jayungi ram..tum hi to jo mujhe samjh sakte ho..to agar tum iss mauke par mujhe chod kar chale jayoge to main kaisa zinda reh sakta hu..plz ram don't do this with me ..i cant imagine a single sec without u ,,u know na ur Priya ..u use to say na k main tumse .. jyada pyar karta hu..to aapne Priya ko kaise tum itna dukh de sakte ho ..plz ram don't go any where ..main mar jayungi ram..
Plz dear tum bolo na ram ko wo mere sath aisa kyun kar raha hai .. uske bina meri life me to kuch nehi hai ..main aisa kuch nehi karunga jo use buda lage wo jo kehega wohi manungi main..sirf mujhe ram chahiye aur kuch nehi ..plz koi to use samjhao .. plz ram come back ,come back to ur Priya plz...mujhe bohut taklif ho rehi hai Ram ..
Saans nehi le paa rehi hu ..main ..tum hi ho na jo meri thorisi headache hone par sabko ph karke padeshan kar dete the..aur aaj tumhare liye mujhe breathing problem start ho gayi hai..tum hi kehte the na " priya agar tumhare tabiyat thik nehi hai to iske liye koi ph cal aur tumhari voice ki jaroorat nehi padta hai mujhe ..main feel kar sakta hu" so aaj aap mehssos kar sakte hai na ram..aapki Priya ko bohut taklif ho rehi hai ..ram don't do this to me nehi jee payungi main..plz back in my life ram plzz.
I just closed my eyes but felt some hot water on my hand as it was on ram's chest and I read my diary keeping my head on his shoulder ..
Looking up towards his eyes ..it was filled with water ..
I wiped them and said no more today plz so jaiye ..ram hugged me even more tightly never before he did it like that ..not even in our special moment ..
At 4 am I opened my eyes ..there was soundless sleep ..
I have to go washroom so went towards it opened my wardrobe as need something ..but as I was sleepy so I opened ram's cupboard by my mistake
But hold on I got something unexpected things ..yes it was his diary , I know he was not used to with writings but once he showed me it has only our masg with proper time as he wrote all our msg conversation with appropriate time . I checked it .it took me again in our memory land ..but aftr the msg there was entry with date ,,that's mean ram used to wrote dairy.
It is unexpected ..and the date showed 28th august 2008
Mans our break up date..
My sleeps went away even I forgot that I have to attend washroom.
28th august 2008- aaj pehli baar main diary likhne jaa raha hu ..i cant ..main koi diary likhne nehi wala hu..
Ye meri feelings hai ..ya ..priya k sath baat karne ki media mujhe pata nehi ..par now ful time yehi hai.jo meri pyar k sath mujhe jud kar rakhega ..
I am sorry Piya //today I took a grt decision ..but I have to ..i don't know what is ur reaction now..but all I can I feel k tum taklif me ho..aur isliye muhe bhi dard ho raha hai ..tumhe pata haina ..agar tumhe koi bhi problem ho to tumahre ram ko aise hi pata chal jata hai .. priya mujhe bhi bohut cchest pan ho raha hai..iska matlab u r crying like hell .. I am deserve this pain ..bay ..but u don't ..sayad isliye hi ..main ye decision le raha hu ..pa u have to survive ..for me ..for our love ..tumhe chodn ki decision se hi ram adha mar chukka hai ..aur aagr tum aise hal karogi aapni to main kaise jee sakta hu..but u have to na..plz Priya I love u still now I love u like hell ..but main tumhari zindegi badbad nehi kar sakta hu..
I know u never forgive .. idont want too..sayad tumhari nafrat bhi mujhe zinda rakh sake ..but apne aap ko taklif mat do priya ..tumhari pyar dekhunga to main mar jayunga ..
I love u ..will love u still my last breath..
Priya ki Ram
I looked at my man..from the changing room..
Kitna dard wo bhi sehte the ..but kabhi bhi nehi bataya ..par kyun huya aisa humare sath?
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