Arjun OS-His Silence

31st March ' His Silence

The cordial relationship between Sam & Me which we had built by working together for past few months finally had its first crack.

Sameer was not himself today and I knew it and of course I was the reason behind it also .The confrontation in the temple yesterday would reopen our old wounds but both of us couldn't help but reflect it our work today .Every time we crossed paths I could see the hate and the pain in his eyes and masked mine with indifference. Over the time we had managed to keep our differences aside and work as a team but Roshini shard got us back to square one

He was unusually quite throughout the day , the ongoing battle which he has with his heart never seem to rest , after all Roshini was as important to him as to me and due to my mistakes we both lost her .All throughout the day Shree & Chotu were with me and I missed to see him .We used to fight , argue and even shout over our difference of opinions but none of this happened today .Neither did he say anything to me nor did he counter act on anything .He was just processing all the information all through the day not a word but silence all directed to me and all because of me . I missed his fights, his questions to my decisions, his arguments everything .It was the only way that could tell my heart that he was there for me. He still was my friend but yet there was distance between us which grew by some more since yesterday. I could take his anger but not his silence. His silence kills me

I didn't believe my ears when he said that "Tum sahi keh rahe ho Rawte". I had no idea what had got this change but it was the first sentence he had directed toward me since the beginning of the case .Today of all the time he had accepted my decisions without any issues or questions .His Anger had reaffirmed my faith that he still thought me as a own but his clear acceptance shook me .It was like the way he used to accept with Ayesha /Shree or Chotu .I didn't know that should I be happy for this or sad that he was professional. He seemed like I was just another member of his team and nothing to him. His silence spoke today, if my heart was full of guilt of my deeds his had pain and anger.

Anger & Pain are two such strong emotions and he was going through, Pain of losing me and Roshini and Anger at my deeds. How much I want to I can't relieve him of any of it but I can't. He has to live with both as I have to live with guilt .Roshini had binded us together and with her gone both of us were left on our own I know that Roshini would be angry seeing both of us but one day perhaps I would be able to get my friend back and we both would be able to revenge her and then I could finally rest in peace.

How much I try I can't get my friend back nor can I get my Roshini back but we both together will definitely avenge Roshini

Arjun Suryakant Rawte