Hola
Some of you knew how I used to defend Anu with a zest. I binged show at a go, so basically had fresh mindset and was able to understand connect dots to see where the struggles in setting boundaries, standing for self, resistance towards snapping at Baa, balancing trying to be independent and letting toxic relationships go,are coming from n taking her upbringing, 24/7 trauma for past 26yrs into consideration.
I won't deny the down fall of Anu's ckt was visible before and it was redeemed soon. Before the House Pooja Drama, I was Maan Fan, now I am having second thoughts. Her ckt went straight to gutter from then. I still found hope in the bread crumbs to defend her. From the recent accident episode I got nothing left to defend her. Zero sympathy towards ckt n her fate. I defend with zest and shred someone into pieces with same zest.
I feel horrible for myself as I read this somewhere, can't quote exact words but something similar 'you can't make choices or decisions on emotions as you will end up contradicting yourself, feel bad, blame ' and so on. Can't remember exact quote and I feel I was working on self in life with compassion n mindfulness but lost it all on a freaking fictional ckt. I go by simple rule regarding what I watch on TV, or in movies regardless of theme, genre n language, the thing that is shown happened somewhere to someone at least half of it, makers add more spices n sell it.
I hope things change for better in show n me learn to detach soon
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