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Sacred desire ….

She was sitting in front of the mirror .. getting ready … for her WEDDING … what the hell ???? her beeji or the so called great rajmata came up to her bring her a new lehenga …. She didn't even want to look at her face ….

"Aap tayar hokar aaiye rajkumari …. Sab aapka intezaar kar rahein hain … "

She said as she walked out of her room … slowly she stood up and walked towards her bed where her new dress was kept .. it was red and white lehenga with off shoulder blouse … which could be called more appropriately as strapless bra …. A disgust feeling roes in her as she looked at the dress … that matched the disgust feeling she had now for every one … including her maa …. She threw the duppata of the lehenga she had wore away from her body near the bed…and with the duppata that her maa had given the love for her mother was replaced by anger ….. and then she pulled the string of her skirt …. As the white one replaced the green skirt her love's favorite color , all feelings for her love also were replaced by a brewing hatred … for he was also silent downstairs … She tore her blouse in to two pieces and then her bras … for she had wore it for him…. He had wanted her to see in a green lehenga with black lacy inner wear …. Any piece of garment or feelings for him was now unacceptable for her … as she wore her white off shoulder inner and upon that white blouse she laughed a evil one ….

White .. in hindu tradition only widows or in a morning house these color was wore and she was wearing it for her wedding ….

He wanted to see in these short excuses of dress ??? then she will show him that she was not a puppet and she is not going to show her body to every one waiting outside … she looked for something to cover herself and then she saw two different duppatas … one was for her lehenga and the other one to cover her head …. She took the second one and covered herself securedly in it … although it was transparent but modest than most … for it was total red one …..

A knock sounded in her door .. she opened it to see her bua standing there …

"agam ne aapke liye yeh gehne bheje hain … " she said as she gave her a plate covered by a thick cover …. "humne kuch dressers ko … "

"koi jarurat nahin hai bua ji .. him khud tayar ho jaenge " she said as she took the plate and closed the door …. Keeping the plate when she opened the cover she saw few necklaces and bangels with all the necessary items in it .. and along with that a note ….

Aapna saugandh yaad rakhna rajkumari nimrit ….

Of course how could she forget it .. it was for all that stupid promise that she is now suffering … sitting in front of the mirror she opened her hairs that she had done for him…. Tying her hairs in a half bun , the rest of the hairs were tied in a braid … few gold clips were put in her bun while others in her braid …. She wore the necklaces knowing that they were like the rope to tie her …. Her bangels felt like her handcuffs .. but still she got ready and at last put the duppata on her head ….

She opened the door and stepped out of her room ….

There were different reaction from different persons …. But she hardly cared … while the rajmata was upset as she had choose a simple attire … her maa was sad as she couldn't do anything for her daughter … they were just about to say something when a maid came there and said to them that the groom and the gusts were waiting for the bride … her mother and her bua took her outside … and she walked on to the mandap and stood in front of her to-be husband … he put the varmala on her and as she was said she put on him .. but during the whole time let it be the varmala or during the phereas or during anyother time she was not in the present world …. She was some where far from here … media was busy taking the pictures of mr.and mrs.mallik … for it was a surprise for all about the bride .. as on the cards it was written

Mr.mallik weds rajkumari sodi …..

But even it was a surprise for her …. Suddenly she felt someone touch her fore head and she looked up to see agam filling her mang with sindoor and then he brought a bery elegant dimond studded mangalsutra to tie around her neck and then he wishpered …

"aap bohat khubsurat lag rahein hain nimrit ….."

Of course she would look beautiful to that man .. for he liked girls who wore less and less … bloody leech …. She knew that agam liked what kind of dresses for her sister always wore such ones when she went to meet him …. She wanted to kill her sister for walking out of the marriage on the main moment … god knew what was going in her mind when she didn't turn up and only a letter was found in her bed …. They were in a relation for 6 long years for god's sake !!!!! and now she had to sit in her place and marry ….

How much she hated things now …..

If only …. She could …..