Akya SS-Ananya's diaries-Updated Part-14 & Epilogue Page-11& 1

Ananya's diaries--Part1:

It had been an extremely tiring day at work with Inde Airlines since some VVIPs were supposed to have some charter flights booked with the company for the SAARC meet and Ananya did not even have time to have her lunch. Ananya did not bother about food anyways as it has become a chore for her. Life itself was a chore for her now but she knew that she needed to carry on this as a duty for her twins who were barely 1.5 years old. As Ananya sat at the window kissing her little ones goodnight ,she stared at the moonless night which devoured the city in complete darkness. It seemed to reflect the story of her life, her life without Akash. It has been an year now that Akash had gone from Ananya's life and her little twins.

Akash and his killer smile which never left his face and the smile Ananya had fallen for now adorned the huge photo frame that hung in the main hall of Akash home. Everything remained the same way as he had left , his music CDs, his video games , his shirts, his watches, Ananya did not allow anyone to touch them or make any changes to them apart from cleaning and dusting the place. She felt a part of him lived with her with these and she used to hug them at the dead of night when nobody would be around and would cry to her heart's content and wish for Akash to come back.In between her sobs one could hear the faint hushed heart wrenching plea "Akash please ppplease come back. How will I live without you". Her cries would rebound with the empty walls of the house and finally tired she would sometimes sleep hugging his shirts on the cold lifeless floor till Savita tai would come and wake her up. Savita tai had been with Akash since his college days. She was more like an elder sister to him rather than a maid and Ananya had treated her the same way .After Akash had left her ,Ananya's family wanted her to move in with her kids to their home but she did not budge. How could she leave the bungalow that over the last 2.5 years Ananya and Akaksh had made their home ? Everytime Ananya took Akaksh name she would feel him in this home, his smile , his warmth, his smell had encased this home. She stayed with her two toddlers, her twins-Aryan and Araina alongwith Savita tai and her husband Ramesh dada. For Savita tai and Ramesh dada Akash and Ananya were like son & daughter they never had. After Akash left they had been more caring of Ananya and her little ones.

Part-2

Henceforth, as I continue this story it will be from Ananaya's POV as she writes her diary and feels like she is talking to Akash.

Her diary each day started with the connotation "My love"

Today, I saw a new a facet of Capt Vikas Rathore.You remember how snobbish he used to be when we both used to fly together and how he used to hate all attention that I used to get as the first lady pilot of Inde Air. He continues to use his favourite phrase "Mein bolne ka andaz pakarta hoon" but his behavior towards me has changed a lot. Today there was an emergency in one of the Inde Airlines flight and he had contacted the ATC. It seems the staff there today were not quite experienced to handle the situation. He had asked them to contact me since he knew I would be working and I was put in a conference alongwith ATC to handle the emergency. Akash, you would be happy to know that my inputs worked and the aircraft landed safely and the best part was when Capt. Rathore personally thanked me in front of everybody. When we had all congratulated each other, he requested me to fly with him again. That was a big surprise since I remember he has specifically requested Mr.Sen that if I fly with him again he will resign or join a rival company.

Capt Rathore used to always tease me when you were not around especially but I had my answers always ready for his retorts. Do not smile like that, you used to have fun at my expense, smiling away in a corner as I took on Capt Rathore for serving you coffee. Akash you remember the day I had been on leave for my mom's birthday. I was away for 4 days when we met after my leave, both of us were feeling like we were seeing an oasis after been in the desert for days. We could feel it in our actions and eyes that we wanted each other desperately but could not express it in words. To stop the whirlwind of emotions we both did not speak much to each other in the cockpit apart from official communication. We kept stealing glances at each other and kept thinking how to start the conversation and confess that we missed each other. Finally when the flight had landed and the staff had deplaned you had caught me from walking out and closed the door. I remember the way you had caged me between your arms and you had come close to me, so close that and I could feel your breath on my lips , you had finally said "I missed you Ananya." I had butterflies in my stomach hearing that husky confession and then finally you had kissed me. I was so consumed with the vortex of emotions when I felt your warm lips on mine that I could not react and you had thought I was angry and was backing out. Thank God!! I did realize that on time and I had pulled you to me and kissed you back. Finally when we were breathless you had rested your forehead on mine, smiled your sexy, killer smile and said "so you also missed me and missed pretty bad". I had blushed badly and you had told me "If you keep blushing like this whenever I kiss you, I will have to keep doing it in a cyclic motion and we can never deplane sweetheart." That day we just wanted to be with each other and explore the crevices of our relationship. We were quite sad that my return flight was with Capt Rathore and you had a stopover in Aurangabad for the night. We wanted to make the best of the time we were together and we headed to the nearest coffee joint to bathe in the joys of our new found relation but the great Capt Rathod in his all sarcasm shouted at me "Oh First Officer, if you are so interested in romancing I guess you better take couple of day off or rather leave the job. Do you remember that you need to report to a flight or do I keep the passengers waiting since you are on a date". You were so angry that you could have blown his head off if I had not stopped you. On other days I would have got embarrassed but that day was special for us so I had marched right to him and said " My reporting time is still 1hr from now. Before that I romance, trek, jump from a building its none of your business and if you poke your nose in between its called interference in my personal life and I can drag you to a sexual harassment tribunal for the same".He was stood still for two minutes at my outburst and then turned and walked away much to my surprise That's when you had christened me "seductive little tigress".

One thing about him was although he had his occasional tiffs with you Akash, he admired and liked you. He might have a little chauvinistic characteristics but he is a genuinely good guy.After our marriage he used to treat me with respect always as your wife although occasional jibes at me continued but they were much less and subdued. Now with you no more being there he is a completely changed man.He took me out for a coffee and was trying to convince me to fly again. I did not know he had this opinion about me although he used to be looking for ways to put me down always. He said today "Ananya you are a very good pilot ,you have everything that will make you a renowned name in this field. Why don't you try fly again, if not yourself but for Akash. I am sure he would have loved to see you flying ." I know Akash you will be very angry with me for stopping flying but seriously I did try .I tried my level best to get back to normal, to try again but whenever I enter the cockpit , the vision of you sitting beside me unsettles me. Our love story started with our fight in the cockpit, till you proposed to me inside the cockpit. You remember how we had fought the first day and you had later told me that the second time as a Captain when you flew with me you were in love with me. I just could not believe that you had been in love with me for so long and I had never noticed till our Jaipur flight when I saw first time something different in your eyes. The cockpit is witness to our love, our fights, our insecurities, our understandings and misunderstandings. One day after you were gone there was a problem with auto-pilot and the flight was losing altitude, the ATC was literally shouting on the radio but I was lost in your thoughts. If Capt.Shekhawat had not come back at the right time the flight would have crashed. My God!! Akash I can't even think what would have happened and I knew I have lost my confidence and would probably never be able to fly again.

I felt bad but politely denied Capt Rathore but I think he understood my dilemma and said he would want me to rethink about it. He said if any day I want to come back, he would help me regain everything as it was before. I don't know if its sympathy or he genuinely misses you but couple of times my interaction he genuinely misses you and me as well. He has told me in many ways, that although he might have said things but the intention was never to hurt and he missed the thrill of flying with good pilots like both of us. I cannot believe that it's the same person who did not even think twice before he made me sole responsible for the death of the passenger onboard. He did not even think that I could have lost my job and landed in jail but as usual you were my knight in shining armor leapt from the clouds to take me along away from all worries. Although its nice to see Capt Rathod has become a support but Akash I am tired of doing everything on my own, tired of living this life alone, tired of doing this ground handling job...please come back. I want to hold your hand and fly again and fall in love with you and the cockpit again.