Trials Of Fire Ongoing G

Epi 138 Ch 68 Advay can't find Chandni "What If I Lost You"

Darsh had been discussing Haider’s further treatment till wee hours of the morning. Finally, he had returned back to the apartment and entered stealthily. While going to his room, his feet halted for a moment outside Pooja’s door.

Will she be awake now? I suppose not. It’s so late. And I myself told her to go to sleep.

He moved silently further. His mobile pinged even before he entered his room.

“Have you arrived home? Everything OK?”

“Yes! I returned. Everything fine. Why are you awake?”

“Were you truly expecting me to fall asleep when you weren’t home?”

“No. Not really.” He chuckled at her conscious reference of home. She was behaving like olden times, possessive and bossy and it seemed so damn familiar, almost like a routine, “But please go to sleep now. You need rest.”

“You, too! GN!”

Darsh simply couldn’t understand why his mood got lifted from initial gloom; Why he suddenly had a gay happy feeling?.......... It was so much Pooja. She would wait up for anybody in the family not coming back; so why should he feel any special, but somehow it did!

In his room, Darsh happily listened to music while he ate the box dinner. It was cold, it was not very fresh anymore but still it felt tasty on his tongue. Why?

Some questions you must not ponder on; because there are no answers. Questions only give rise to more questions. Darsh focused on the music.

The sun shined bright in the sky as Chandni and Advay walked together. With the smart clothes and sunglasses, she looked smart, modern and confident….. Advay loved it. Of course, he loved her in every look of hers, no doubts.

Chandni enjoyed the tranquil sunny feeling of walking with her husband. Somehow, it brought back the memory of golden shimmering calm waters of the Ganges every morning. It had always brought peace to her mind every morning while in Allahabad.

Chandni gave her husband a surreptitious look through her glasses. The sunlight poured over him, accenting the clean slash of his scar just above his mesmerising chocolate brown eyes and bathing his features in golden warmth.

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Did he feel the change, same as hers? Something had changed last night between the two of them. Chandni felt liberated in a way, having lost her inhibitions around her own body when bare. Somewhere a paradigm had shifted……as if the girl inside her had suddenly morphed into a woman…….Someday, who knows, she thought wistfully, I might even enjoy a drink with him.

Life was all about perspectives….His perspective with life and especially his being a Mahant was vastly different; but it was not wrong. He was so true in his heart that it humbled her……

But then, his anger was also equally true! However complacent he looked now, one could never tell when the anger would take the hood up again. Narayan always resided with the Shesha hood permanently open above him ……Dev was her Angry Mahadev with the Shesha hood above him……..Narayan and Mahadev combined... She chuckled to herself with the image.

“What’s so funny?”

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Of course, he would notice the smallest thing about her; but she could not share her thoughts at the moment.

“After having spent so long without any clothes on the body, suddenly these clothes feel foreign on me.”

“You mean, you prefer traditional ones?”

“No, not like that!...... By foreign I mean, I was more comfortable without anything with you.”

Wow! He had bought for her some smart clothing outside; but his katto was really getting bold on the inside, too…or perhaps evolved. He was happy; his girl was becoming a true woman….But would it entail her becoming independent, too? A disconcerted feeling came over him and he couldn’t understand why.

The only way to push away the troubling feeling was humour.

“You intend to get naked now? Here in open?”

“Oh Shut up, Dev! You’re incorrigible!” Colour rose in her cheeks.

He threw his head back and roared in laughter. Someday, he would enjoy that moment!

“CccccccccccccccM!” Aadi shrieked loudly running into Advay the moment the couple entered,“Where did you disappear leaving me alone?”

Advay’s happy face fell immediately with guilt. Aadi’s happiness was his heaven and earth. A fierce love expanded in his chest making it explode.

“Now, Aadi! What has Miku Mama been teaching you since last Diwali? You must learn to share your CM. And you weren’t left alone for sure!” Pooja rolled her eyes at Aadi.

“But I missed him.” Aadi whined.

“Tell me, how can I compensate you?” Advay felt much relieved at heart once Pooja came to his rescue.

“I want an ice cream.”

"OK, everybody we go and have ice cream.”

“Nah! I am out. I need sleep.” Pooja yawned with lack of sleep.

“Me, neither! We have just reached here; I am not going out again.”

“What’s this? The ladies gang ditching us?” This time Advay rolled his eyes, “No excuses, come on!” Advay pulled a reluctant Chandni by her arm.

“Chandni, go with him now….. He is not ready to let go of your company, yet!” Pooja couldn’t resist teasing the happy couple.

“So Super Adi, what flavor do you want?” Advay’s tone was indulgent as they approached Ice cream shop around the corner, “One scoop, enough or do you want double scoop?”

“CccccccM, why do you even ask? I’ll take one scoop of each of the flavor…..then I will decide; which one deserves a double scoop order from me.” Aadi spoke pompously making Advay laugh.

“No Aadi, not done! As such the air is cold, you’ll have just one scoop of any one flavor you choose…..Nothing more than that!”

“But sweet CM, look at me. I am superAadi, ek se mera kya hoga?”

(How will just one suffice?)

“Aur Jyada khaaoge tab kya hoga? You’ll fall sick and lose all your holidays.”

“CM, why are ladies so pessimistic, always? Just tell Maami, I am Super Aadi. Nothing happens to me!”

“Big deal! Who had fallen sick back at home?”

“You know Sweet CM, I was bluffing.”

Advay stood happily watching the happy banter between the two. He enjoyed seeing who would win this battle now.

“But I am not bluffing, Aadi! You get a single scoop, that’s it!” Chandni raised her voice sharply.

Seeing no intervention from CM to support him, Aadi got exasperated, “When you and CM disappear, you don’t say only one single time, you both disappear again and again.”

Advay raised his brows at Aadi’s accusation counterattack on their ways as couple; while Chandni got flustered as to how could a child make such an adult remark.

“Oh CM, why did you have to bring her along every time? It’s good in just men’s crowd sometimes, you know!”

Oh My! Now that was a statement suitable more for a real grown up, not expected from a child of his age. But then Aadi had always been wiser than his age. He was kind of capable of destroying a grown up Advay’s plan and invite his colony friends for Muhdikhai Rasam.

He had changed sides now because his Ice cream fetish was not supported by Chandu. Advay knew saying anything to Aadi to make him understand would only result in further antagonism. Somehow, Advay’s chosen silence exasperated Aadi further and he crossed across the road in tantrum.

Things happened in a blinking moment. Both Advay and Chandni were calling out loudly to Aadi to return back and suddenly from around the corner came an angry mob creating a riot in the area. Both noticed the angry crowd the same moment and their eyes widened in fear.

Reflexively Chandni yelled, “Devvv, go get Aadi”

“Stay here!”

Advay yelled as he ran across the street to reach Aadi picking him before he was mobbed down by the angry crowd moving like a high tide and taking him inside another shop for safety. The same minute, the security covered Aadi and Advay.

There was total chaos on the street. The angry mob threw stones at glass panes of shops. Put fire to everything that was on the road.

Advay passed Aadi to security guy, “Home straight! And from behind of the shop, before this mess spreads there.”

In a second, the security guy moved swiftly to the back of the shop and Advay plunged in the angry crowd without a single care of his own safety. Anger rose inside him as his eyes desperately searched for Chandni through the heaving crowd.

People clutched at him mercilessly, wanting to throw him away, beat him up……Some woman in the crowd tried seeking his attention, “Advay, darling”…

The woman desperately pulled him away to safety……He didn’t give a damn, though she was an old acquaintance helping him out! He felt like snarling and throwing her off, wanting only to see a familiar head of dark lush hair.

But Chandu wasn’t to be seen.

The woman held Advay firmly, till the mob moved forth and then Advay threw away her restricting arms and ran across the street. He checked in the ice cream shop, but they hadn’t seen her after the mob came in.

Advay ran to the back of the shop in frenzy but she was not be seen. He rushed back distraught and checked down the street but she wasn’t there either in any of the shops. As such, everybody had become too frantic to give him any correct information and then he just kept frantically running.

He took out his mobile and called her but it just rang. Advay traced the phone location immediately and started running in the direction, but it turned out to be the direction of the angrily moving mob.

With that a slightly sickening falling sensation entered his gut. The sensation of cold, clammy panic. ……That made something hard and cold lodge in his gut…….. The names Jimmy and Chhadha!

Where had this sudden angry mob come from? Was it a move to kidnap Chandni in retaliation to his meeting? Everything blurred before Advay’s eyes. No! This couldn’t be happening. Still blinded, Advay started running towards the house. He would take his gun, collect his resources and bloody shoot down the guys who dared to even look at Chandni.

He was on the door when his cell rang, it was Pooja. Advay slammed open the door with a resounding force terror gripping his heart.

Chandni! Yes, it was Chandu there! Surrounded by family. How had she reached here?

Everything went crazy in him making him insane in anger; while the family watched dumbfounded. There was no question that the violence in Advay’s nature rose from some deep mysterious physical well. As they watched, they could actually see the blood rushing through his veins, bulging them to find its way out in angry eruption in his eyes.

Miku stepped in Advay’s path as he charged towards Chandni, “Nahi, bhai” He would not let any harm come to his sis in law from his brother's anger.

(No, Brother)

“Tu baaju mein hat ja, Miku” Advay spoke in a quelling tone as if his voice alone could push away Miku.

(Step away, Miku)

A physical fight was to ensue between two brothers, when Pooja pulled Miku aside with a frantic strength. “Miku, ruk mere bhai, ruk ja!”

(Miku, my bro, halt please)

She was trying desperately to control the situation. Either Miku didn’t comprehend or wouldn’t accept that it would be like trying to arrest the momentum of a runaway locomotive. Advay was exactly that now!

Over six feet of coiled muscle towered over Chandni. Dark brows drew together in a fierce frown, and angry sparkling whisky brown eyes held her spellbound for a moment. Anger, frustration and love all congealed together and radiated from Advay’s body as wave of raw, primitive energy. Her breath caught in her chest as the blazing hands of his anger gripped her heart.

He hauled her to her feet and suddenly everything felt better. She wanted to be afraid, but her body, her spirit defied and dared him to engulf her completely. Horrified by her own response, she took a step backward trying to put distance between them. Advay denied her the distance by stepping forth and closing the distance.

His anger spiralled again, .........And it would do serious damage. Red hot feelings scalded everything it touched. Pure, white-hot fury locked his muscles tight.

“Why the hell did you leave from there? Tumhe Kuchh Ho Jata Toh?........ What if I lost you?”

His voice choked with fear as the unthinkable hung between the two lovers.

Her eyes widened, and she flinched as if she had been struck by a metal dart. She remained composed, however, taking a deep breath and releasing it in a controlled flow. She couldn’t push his hands away; but she pushed him away with the anger in her eyes.

A tempest on the ocean, the waters restless, turning, tossing, pitching, rolling, heaving in terrifying waves, crashing on the shore.

The shore reflecting the same unrest, shaken, torn, asunder. In her own reflex anger, Chandni pulled away from his grip and tossed her head like a stallion just out of the racing gate……A visceral clash that was palpable almost!

“I am no fragile glass doll!...... Remember that and stop treating me like one!” Irritation made her voice witheringly curt.

That moment, she was Kaali incarnated!

An uneasy silence, while everything turned in a chaotic pulse beat to driving urgent concern, worry. Both stared in each other’s eyes and knew the other glimpsed every naked emotion which they struggled to control….Confusion. Defiance. Desire!

Unable to contain her emotions, Chandni turned and walked away.

As Advay watched her, he was nearly overcome by the urge to pull her back in his arms and somehow make his universe right! Instead he remained frozen while she walked away from the whole angry mess wanting to put distance between them.

“Chandu—” he muttered.

“AD, stop!” Strong, firm arms restricted Advay in a rough voice.

Chandni ignored Advay and left, squaring her shoulders as she walked away to the stairs to their bedroom. Advay clenched his hands into aching fists while his gaze followed her. After several seconds, he forced himself to glance at Darsh. His old friend was staring at him not with hatred or anger, but with something like reluctant compassion.

There was a calmness about him, a quality of relaxed tolerance that helped to blunt the edge of Advay’s temper a little.

“Come, let us go for a drink. She needs time.” Darsh pulled him away.

“No DD! Look at her…so recalcitrant! First she does this and now….let me go.”

Chandni’s words, obstinately defying authority and discipline, had registered and Advay was trying hard to remain sane while everything was still going crazy in him.

“NO! At this moment, she needs time and you need a drink, trust me!”

There was no man on earth whom Advay trusted more.

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Well, friends! A total turn about after Diwali!

Chandni feared that Advay's anger is always there, right behind him and I feared after the memory of last Diwali night in previous episode, that something or other would happen the next morning..... And it did!.........Though completely different, yet very much related.......the same Aadi Pooja, Advay Chandni situation!

Advay's anger coming out of the fear, "What if I lost you."

Remember the IPK1 episode of broken bangle?....... One of my most loved Barun's piece of angry emotions! Just couldn't let go of his expressions!

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Now what happens between these two? Pls go back to Diwali episodes and start guessing.

Chandni goes out in a storm after her fight with Advay

Aadi is a pretty smart child right from the show days; but is he turning into a little problem child with increasing tantrums owing to his insecurity around his loved parents?

Keep reading!

Barun always reminds me of Amitabh Bachchan!

The red cheques is Barun's chosen style in many places like very early pics of his used here, TGDIF, Derma, 22 yards. So I'm using all possible pics from different shows capturing his expressions.

But you know, much before Barun, who had used red cheques?