Chapter 18
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CHAPTER 16
Kushi froze when she felt his lips on hers. She clutched the side of her dress tightly as she stood still without responding to the kiss. But she started to relax as soon as she understood the intension of his kiss. It was his way of thanking her. He kissed her so gently that she started to melt in his arms.
She held her eyes closed even after he broke the kiss. She breathed in and out swiftly trying to control her ragged breathing but his irregular yet warm breath which fell on her face made it difficult for her even to gasp. His forehead was resting on hers while he was holding her by waist. "Thanks Kushi."
Her eyelids flew open hearing is soft voice. He waited till her eyes met his and then started to speak. "Thank you so much, kushi. You don't know how much what you did to mean to me. It meant everything to me. First, nani and then she..." he pulled away from her embrace and held the sonograph report in between them.
Kushi watched in amazement as his eyes started to glow with love while inspecting the report. He removed his other hand from her waist to hold the report with both hands and with his gaze still fixed to the images, he asked "kushi, can you promise me something?"
Kushi remained silent until he raised his head to face her. "Promise me that you will take care of her very well." He said rolling his eyes back to the image of his child. Looking at it, he added "she deserves all the happiness and love in the world. Promise me that you will give her both. I know you will but just assure me once with your words." He looked up at kushi while uttering the last sentence before returning to stare at the image which filled his heart with happiness.
Kushi smiled. A mother inside her was screaming with joy for her baby while child part inside her filled her eyes with tears. How she wished her own father was like Arnav? How she wished that she had got her father's love during her childhood! She replied to him "you don't have to worry about her, Arnav. She has got world's best father with her. He will make sure that she gets everything."
Arnav's head shot up hearing her soft tone. She stepped close to him and asked "wont you?" His heart skipped a beat as her two words reached his ears. Her words were simple but only he knew how much it meant to their hanging relationship. It meant she wanted to give another chance to him; to their relationship.
They both stared at each other and he was one who broke their eye contact first by blinking. A lone tear spilled out of his eyes and he felt her fingers caressing it as it flowed down his cheek. She gave a weak smile while he looked at her. She inhaled deeply as if gathering her courage and then gave a soft kiss on his cheek. "Happy birthday, Arnav."
She gasped when his hands around her waist shielded her from moving away from him. She checked his hands around her wondering when he slid his hand around her that too even without her knowledge. She felt him pulling her towards him and smiled when he rested his head on her shoulder. She too hugged him, pulling him closer to her and feeling the warmth that spread from him.
They both stood there in each other's arms for some time. She tried to pull away from him but he didn't let her go and was holding her by waist. Their faces were just few centimetres apart and her skin started to burn feeling his heated gaze. She removed the lock of hair which fell on her face and tucked it behind her ear hastily looking down. But to add to her irritation, it again fell on her face.
She raised her hands again and then dropped it down when he started to do what she intended to do. She looked at him as he carefully removed the hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear. She shivered at his touch making him to glance at her. Her face was flushed, her breathing was irregular and her lips were quivering. He traced his thumb from her cheek to her lips.
She closed her eyes immediately as he began to trace her lower lip with his thumb. She bit her inner part of her lips to stop herself from moaning which didn't go unnoticed by her husband. God, he loved the effect he was having on her and more loved her response to it. There was no other thought on his mind currently other than to take her trembling lips in his. And without any other second thought he did that.
If she says that she was not expecting it then she must be lying. His touch, his gaze already told her everything. She knew that he wanted her now as much as she wanted him. But still she didn't respond to him. She was scared. It was not her fault because every time they came close, she will get hurt. Every time he will leave her in middle hurting her feelings and her love for him expect that one time.
But that was the time she got most hurt. He dumped her next morning to take revenge on her father. She locked her lips tightly not allowing him to enter her. His kiss became gentler. She started to melt in his kiss. But the pain inside her was unbearable. She understood that pain in unavoidable in their relationship. How much they try, they can never get rid of it. Pain has become part of their relationship. Yes, pain is unavoidable but suffering is optional.
Now options are in front of her. She has to make decision. She as choose between less suffering and more suffering. May be it is time for her to move on. May be she should give him another chance. If not for him then at least for herself; for their love. She looped her arm around him and began to respond to him. They both kissed each other, tasting each other after a long time.
She grabbed his hair pulling him closer to her. They both break the kiss in need of oxygen. She was inhaling the much needed oxygen through her mouth when her husband surprised her by taking her lips in another passionate kiss. She sunk in his passion. All the hell broke loose for both of them as kiss got deepened and turned more passionate. She adhered to him not trusting her own legs.
"kushi, are..." he started to ask after unwillingly breaking their passionate kiss but stopped looking at her dark desired filled eyes. He bent little down, then looping his one arm around her legs; he lifted her and walked towards their bed. He laid her first before accompanying her. "Are you okay?" he asked concernedly. She nodded wrapping her hands around him.
She opened her eyes as he lifted his head from her neck. "What?" she asked him as he scrutinized her form. "You were not listening to me, were you?" he asked her in angry tone. She looked at him in surprise and anger. Was she supposed to listen to his mumbling while he was busy laying open mouth kisses on her neck? "Now listen." He said very sure she was not in position to oppose him.
"Thank you." He kissed her forehead. "Thank you for pacifying nani." He kissed her right eye. "Thank you for our baby." He kissed her left eye. "Thank you for giving me another chance." He kissed her nose. He stopped little away from her lips. "i still couldn't believe that you gave me another chance. Why kushi?"
She didn't reply him. He looked at his shirt button with which she was playing. He smiled seeing her fingers tracing the button. She used to do this four months back; playing with his button as if it was more important thing when he ask her something important. His smile froze when he heard her voice. "i hate you, Arnav. I hate you for what you did to me and to my family. But still..."
She rolled her eyes from his button to his confused chocolate brown orbs. "I love you." His eyes widened and he looked at her for a moment. He jolted up from his position. She too got up looking at his totally shattered form. She adjusted the sleeve of her dress which he had slided down few minutes earlier as He closed his eyes in hurt. "Sorry."
She heard him say that and then watched him storming out of their room. This is not the first time he had done this. She felt like history is repeating itself. She rested herself back on head board feeling too weak even to react.
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Arnav paced around his pool feeling terribly bad. Even the cold breeze which was brushing him was not able to cool him down. 'i love you.' Her words were still reverberating in his mind. The way she told it, the way she looked at him when she told it meant only two things to him.
Number one: she loved him with all her heart. Number two: he doesn't deserve her love.
She was so sincere with him while all he did was lie to her. She was pure and unbelievably forgiving whereas he was monster and merciless. After what all happened she forgave him so easily even when he himself was unable to forgive what he did. And as if forgiving him was not enough to make him feel guiltier, she went one step further by accepting him, making him to drown in ocean of guilt.
Why on the earth an angel like her fell in love with monster like him not once but twice? She was completely in love with him again. After four months today he again felt her love. Her love was the only thing which always pulled him to her and her love was the only thing which always made him to stay from her.
Even though the pull towards her was stronger, the thought of hurting her helped him to stay away from her most of the time expect that single night. That night was magical and he was engulfed in her love. He knew he couldn't have avoided her that night even if he had tried. The mistake was on her part. Why does she have to love him so much?
'Why did you fell in love with me again, Kushi? That too when I don't even deserve it.' He thought. He was serious when he promised himself on their wedding day to make this relationship work. He was serious when he said that to Kushi. Kushi had given him second chance and he wanted to use it. But his guiltiness stopped him today.
He was guilty that he couldn't love her in the way she loved him; in the way he wanted to love her; in the way she deserved to be loved. He wanted to move on and start fresh with kushi. But forgetting Lavanya is not that easy for him. He had lived ten years convincing himself that he was in love with Lavanya. It is not easy for him to just throw her out of his life.
At the same time, he cannot take his relationship with Kushi to next level half-heartedly. If he wants to accept Kushi then he must do it whole heartedly just like she did today. It might take him some time but he wanted to start it today. First step is to talk with Lavanya. God, how can he proceed his relationship with Kushi when another girl believes that he will marry her?
He had no doubt that Lavanya is going to get hurt big time. But if not today, it will happen one day. He cannot wait for that one day. He wanted to talk with Lavanya now and relieve himself from guilt. He has done the deed. He cheated Lavanya. And he has to face to consequence. He cannot run away from it further when he knows it not only hurts them but also another innocent soul.
He closed his eyes taking a deep breath. "maa, give strength to Lavanya to accept the truth. Be with her maa. Please don't make me feel guiltier, maa." He prayed to his mom. He will talk to her in polite manner and will explain to her everything. He knew that she will understand him.
If she cannot understand him, then what's the meaning of relationship they shared for so many years? Only thing which made him to hide truth from Lavanya was her psychological condition. He cannot hide it more when he knows it hurts Kushi equally.
He entered the room through French doors, his eyes scanning the room for his i-phone.
He looked up hearing the click sound and watched kushi as she stepped out of bathroom. He waited for her to look at him but as soon as she did that, he lowered his gaze not able to bear her heated gaze. If looks could burn someone, then Arnav Singh Raizada would have turned into ashes by now.
He knew she was beyond angry. The loathing he saw in her eyes made him feel suffocated. He knew that first he has to answer kushi, before talking to Lavanya. but his mind was totally blank and to give himself more time to think, he walked out of the room. She sat on the bed feeling very angry and irritated. What mistake did she commit except to love him unconditionally and forgive him? Was it really a big crime? Why she is the one who always gets hurt?
Rejection! He had rejected her once again. How easily he rejects her love as if it is nothing to him? She had not come here with hope of starting a new life with him. But it was him who said he wanted to start fresh. He asked her a chance and when she gave him a chance, he discarded it as if it meant nothing to him.
With every passing second and with every new thought, her anger on him reached a new height. She was not angry on him for stopping at such moment. But she was angry on the reason which made him to stop. Lavanya. Four months back, she got confused when ever he does like this. She wanted to know the reason for his rejection at any costs.
Now she knew the reason and it makes her feel more terrible. The man she loves with all her soul is in love with another girl. She clutched the bedspread tightly in her fist to prevent herself from crying. She had enough of this crying session. She won't cry anymore. If he doesn't want her in his life, then fine. She also doesn't need him. She will go back to Mumbai as soon as possible.
His phone buzzed disturbing her already disturbed thoughts. When it didn't stop buzzing, she grabbed it in anger. She was about to switch it off when the name flashing on the screen caught her attention. Yesterday's night event brushed her memory which didn't do any help to her fury.
As soon as Kushi attended the call, a loud cheerful voice reached her ears "Surprise! Guess where am I? I am in Delhi, birthday boy!" Lavanya screamed through the phone making Kushi to hold it little away from her. "Excuse me. Who is this?" Kushi asked in annoyed tone.
Her question was followed by little silence before Lavanya started to stammer in doubtful voice. "i am ...i mean this is Lavanya. Where is Arnav?"
"He is not at home. Call later." Kushi answered in uninterested tone and was about to cut the call when she heard lavanya's voice again.
"Not home means? Where did he go? I mean at this time...wait... who are you? Why are you attending his personal number that too at this odd hour?" Lavanya went on stuffing Kushi with series of questions.
"Actually I have to ask you that question! Who are you? Why are you calling my husband at this odd hour?" Kushi sneakily asked arching her eyebrows in amazement. Then she heard some huffing puffing noise from other end. "Husband?...who are you?"
"Kushi." she answered, her voice filled with authority. "Kushi Arnav Singh Raizada."
There was deep silence from other end. Kushi knew that what is happening is not Lavanya's fault. But she had right to know the truth about arnav's dirty games. She couldn't understand what Arnav was trying to do by balancing two women in life. He needs to get punished for playing with girl's emotion. She wanted Lavanya to throw him out of her life just like she is going to do; just like he did to her four months back.
"You are joking, right?" Kushi sighed hearing lavanya's nervous voice. Lavanya trusts him way too much and it is not easy to make her understand. "Do i?" Kushi asked incredibly before continuing "listen Miss.Lavanya..."
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After an hour, when Arnav entered their room, he noticed Kushi sitting on their bed and staring at ground. As soon as she noticed him, she got up and was about to leave the room when he stopped her saying "kushi, I want to talk with you." She looked at him, her face devoid of any expression.
"kushi, i..." he was interrupted by his phone ringing sound. They both looked down at the phone on the bed. He rolled his eyes from phone to kushi as soon as he noticed who is calling. Kushi tried to move out in frustration. She was beyond the level angry. She told so much to Lavanya but still that foolish girl was not ready to believe her. She was repeatedly saying that he will not do that to her making kushi to lose her temper and shout at her.
Arnav held her hand. "Wait Kushi, i said i want to talk with you." He cut the call and threw his i-phone on bed before turning his attention to kushi. He started to speak "i am sorry, kushi. i knew i let you down again..." he stopped again as his phone started to ring. Kushi pulled her hand out of his grip and yelled "attend the call, Arnav. It is very important to you know?"
But he again held her wrist and attended the call. "Lavanya, i will talk to you later." He said and was about to cut the call when he again brought it close to his ears. "What?" he let kushi's hand free maing her to look at him. He looked shocked.
After few minutes, His eyes rose up to meet kushi's eyes and they both exchanged a stare when he talked in shocked voice. "what are you saying?"
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