Chapter 20

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Realization and heartbreaks.

 

It was a fine morning for Team ETF. They were close to solving a high profile case, and all were doing very good job. The chief was feeling very proud of his team.when he thought he can relax now, his phone rang.

''Shit.'' He muttered, his eyes fell on the caller id.

''hey, busy?''  the voice asked. It was Shaina.

''nope. Everything fine?'' he asked, not sure if he wanted to know.

''umm…actually….can we meet?''  she asked hesitantly.

His heart started to beat frantically. He wanted to cancel it, but he knew he have to face it. ''30 mins mein milte hain, ok?''

''ok. See ya.'' She hung up.

 

After some one hour, the two best friends were at their favorite hang out place, near Sameer's house.they are here from exactly half an hour, but none have uttered anything till now.

Suddenly Shaina started, ''ok that's it. Enough.'' She turned directly at him, a confused and scared man beside her.

Rathore's worst nightmare was coming true. Ever since he realized that she loves him, he had thought again and again if one day she confess it, what would happen? Will their friendship end? And moreover, he hated emotional outbursts. He was scared of a crying shaina.

''I know that you know I love you, and holi waale din I confessed. So?'' she asked, saying it all in one breath.

''huh?'' was all he could managed to ask.

''oh god. I confessed, so whats your answer?'' she demanded, very hard trying not to cry. She was on the verge of tears.

''dammit! Its coming now…'' he thought helplessly, eyeing that tears. He took a deep breath and said, ''well, umm…Shai….actually…''

''oh just cut the crap dammit! Tell me the answer.'' She shouted, then nearly pleading, ''I can handle anything, I promise.''

Rathore took a deep breath, and said,'' you mean a lot to me.but I don't think I love…..''

And it started. Ganga Jamuna Saraswati…whatever you call it, started to come out of her eyes.and Rathore took her into an awkward hug, not so sure that he should do this.

''what the hell….i did it to her and I am consoling? Great.'' He thought.

After like an eternity, she stopped crying.she wiped her tears and cleared her throat.

''I guess I knew your answer.'' She said in a broken voice, and Rathore wanted to punch himself.

''I am so sorry, shai…'' he started.

''why on earth you are sorry? Its me…I am a fool.'' She ran her fingers in her already messed up long hair, and said, ''I always knew that you don't feel anything for me. But I am a moron, to be honestly. And that bhang…that was the worst idea. And I could'nt kept my mouth shut. Just fabulous.'' She stopped, tried to breath properly.

Rathore mouth oped in a perfect O shape. He don't know in which direction this conversation is going. ''Shai… err… are you fine?''

She looked at him, and he flinched to see the amount of hurt in her eyes.'' I will be ok, don't worry.'' She looked at him further, pleadingly, ''I know its all messed up, but do you think we can be still friends?''

Rathore's heart became empty. He was scared, first time in his life, ''do you want to end this friendship?'' he shouted.

''no, no, no you silly. But I thought you wil….'' She explained.

''Shai, you are the only person that is left in my life.please , dont….'' His voice choked.

Shaina looked at him, and smiled, a sad wala smile. Then she composed herself and turned into her usual self, ''and I also want you in my life. I would rather like to have you as a friend in my life than not to have you at all. And besides…'' she stopped , and placed her hand on his shoulder, ''mujhe tumhari lat lag chuke hain. Aur yeh lat ka chutna thoda nahi, bohot mushkil hain.'' She smiled.

Sameer was very relaxed after hearing her words. He hurriedly hug her, like she was going to vanish. He broke the hug and said, ''thank you.''

''you are most welcome. Arre, ab mujhe ice cream khilao yaar. Mera dil tuta hain. '' she tried to make a joke of her heartbreak, but could'nt keep the pain away.

 

After giving her lift in her house, Rathore moved ahead for his office. The recent passed moments flashed in front of him.

It is all ok now, but why is he feeling so low and empty? And why the hell he is keeping the friendship now? It will hurt her so much….but he is very selfish this time. He needs her, though she loves her and he not and it will hurt her, still he needs her.

Dammit!! When this friendship become so messed up and complicated? They were perfect, but why….and when? And why I am feeling guilty that I don't love her and still want her in my life? What the F**ked up thing it is…he thought angrily.

And why her tears were hurting him? Why his heart was empty when he thought she will end this friendship? And why he is feeling though in his mind they are just friends, still they are much more than that?

Sameer Rathore, the man, who was completely aware of everything, was not aware of his heart anymore. He was confused and angry at himself, and needs a definite push to realize his feelings.

 

 

Not so far from all this complication-

 

Riya was researching about a man, who was relating with the case. She searched about it and waited for the printed papers to come out. And when she took it all and started to check it, she got a shock.

There was a paper , mentioning about ACP Arjun Suryakant Rawte's wife 's murder.

''shit.'' She thought, and before she could even think of something, the paper was snatched away. She turned and witnessed a ready to explode Arjun in front of her.

''what the hell, Mukherjee? Tum yahan kaam karne aati ho ya hum sab ke personal life ke bare mein jaan ne?'' he screamed at her, and she flinched. He showed her the paper, ''yeh sab kya hain? Suspects ke bare mein research karne ke liye kahan than a? to phir yeh sab kya hain?''

He tear away the paper, and dangerously threatened her, ''dobara agar mere personal life mein jhaak ne ki koshish ki, to mujhse bura koi nahi hoga. Samjhi ya samjhaoon?'' he stopped, looking at an sorry but getting angry Riya. ''door raho mujhse.''

He was about to leave the room, when he heard her voice. ''stop.''

He turned angrily, ready to explode again.

Riya had enough of this man's nonsense. He always underestimated her, but today was the limit. Why on earth she will try to know about him? She is not like the people who put nose in everyone's life.

She went in front of him, looked directly in his eyes, ''aap samajhte kya hain apne aap ko? Aapko lagta hain sab sirf aapke hi bare mein jaan na chahte hain? Aur koi kaam nahi hain kisi ko ? aur who paper galti se print ho gaya tha, mujhe koi shauk nahi hain aapke, ya phir kisi aur ke life mein jhaakne ka, samjhey aap, ya phir main apko samjhaoon? She said it at once, and ran out of the room.

After some time, sense came back to Arjun's mind. He mocked him, ''tum jaisa gadha maine aaj tak nehi dekha.usse itna sunane ki kya jaroorat thi?yeh baat tum bhi jante ho, ki use sirf galti ho gayi thi.ab jao aur jaa kr maafi mango.''

He glared at his sense, ''what? Main ? maafi?''

He glared back, ''kyu, tum kahin ke mahapurush ho kya? Ab nakhre band karo aur jaa kr sorry bolo.''

Later at the day, when Riya was busy sipping coffee, Arjun came to her.

''Mukherjee, who…main…'' he mumbled.

As soon as she heard his voice, she thought she owed an apology. That was rude, and she was angry. But she still should say sorry for all that words.

''actually, sir, I am really sorry. Mujhe aapse aise baat nahi karni chahiye thi. but trust me, maine jaan bujh kr who paper print nahi kya.''

Arjun was touched by her words. He thought she is badtameez and all earlier but she is really a good human by heart. He also said, '' I am also sorry. Mujhe tum par chillana nahi chahiye tha.''

She smiled, ''its ok.'' He was about to turn, then she said again, ''sir, aapko to case ki har choti baat dikh jaati hain, par apne  aas paas ke logon ke dil ki baat nahi dikhta?''

He turned, little confused. She said again, ''mujhe pata hain kyu aap ko itna gussa aya. Aapko lagta hain koi bhi aap ke dil ka haal nahi samajhta. But trust me, yahan par hum sab samajh sakte hain.kyu ki sabhi ne apne apno ko khoya hain.'' She stopped and said, ''main apko lecture nahi de rahi hoon, its just you are not alone in this.'' She stopped, not sure to say anything more. She left the room.

Arjun kept thinking her words. A small smile came in his lips as the words kept ringing, ''you are not alone.'' Don't know why, but the words healed him.

 

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