(So i promised i'd be back, as i get some time to catch up, and considering the current track is shaping up to be killer, I'm staying awake past 1am to try and catch up, after university masters applications and babysitting my dad, he's wonderful, but wonderfully messy too! i think I'm going to try and really marathon myself through now, because I'm seriously wanting to bask in the perhaps temporary, but lovely return of golden yhm.)
so here is post:
I don't understand, says Ishita.
Even ishita underestimates Raman's crazy.
When Raman goes to meet Ishita after its announced she will be hanged, looking in retrospect, you can see him formulating. Here, ishita has resigned to her fate, and contrastingly, you can almost read the crazy going on in Raman's head. He's heartbroken, grief stricken, desperate. The makings of Raman Bhalla with a death wish.
And a death wish is exactly what he has. He does something that risks his own freedom. he risks everything, everyone. For her.
He forsakes every relationship, everyone, for her.
And everything he says before he does his I'm evil' acting is true.
He can't live without her he says. If you die, I die.
What about our love?
I love the last question he asks. its so valid. Ishita is overwhelmed by Raman's wish to leave everything and go, she raises the question, what about our kids?
And Raman's return, what about us?
Personally, i love this bit. because its this that got me thinking. Here lies their very foundation of love, and yet also their, mostly his greatest insecurity. And whilst its his biggest insecurity, its also the very reason he falls so madly in love with her. This is what drives these two to be who they are. Yes she love him. Yes he loves her. But once again, the children above all, for her.
But for him, Her, above everything, everyone.
He knows Ishita, he knows she would never just run away, and so the facade of throwing her off is played out. But i love that he makes her try to contemplate it. It represents them. He wants her, safe and sound. She can't take him away from those that need him the most.
This at least runs to the very core of their story i think. Raman at the start of their story has enormous responsibilities. A family, 2 kids and being the eldest sibling. Enters Ishita. She halves his burdens, takes on the mantle of the daughter in law, becomes the mother to motherless child. Then takes on another, accepting him too, to be a part of her heart. My point is she falls in love with Raman seeing the truly broken man, with a trampled heart, made of gold, and does everything she can to relieve him of pain, to share the burdens he carries. And she does exactly that as she seeks to die. she doesn't want to leave with him, because of the kids,. The children he dotes on, the family he cherishes. How can she rip him away from that, just because of her.
In contrast, Raman, as he falls in love with the mother of his child, does so helplessly. and suddenly i think his whole world begins, and ends with ishita. we can see how this translates after the leap, the shell of a man he becomes,and the sheer anger at not being wth her so long; and we can see why he touches extremes to prevent her being ripped away from him at this point. Here is the truth, i think he loves her more than anyone, anything. So his thinking demonstrates one thing. Ishita. Ishita, and only ishita, when he's trying to convince her to go.
But he knows her better than anyone else, he knows she won't go for it.
But this cliff scene was sheer brilliance in my opinion for what it symbolises. it somehow encapsulated the very nature of raman and ishita's relationship. And it demonstrates a man, crazy in love with his wife.
