it didn't hurt anymore!!!!!

I don't know I watched today's episode by keeping my emotions aside or what.But it really didn't hurt me as expected when RAMAN telling all bed word to ISHITA and proposed shagun.
Surprised!!! I am.then I thought I already ruined my mood on Sunday when the olv came out that's why all hurting thing happened on that day only and I m spared today.or new olv help me from overcoming the hurt.whichever it is ,I m happy.
I was dreading to watch today but thank God I watched so I came to know the trick to keep myself safe from any heartaches.
RAMAN dialogue I don't think so ,from now on ,will hurt me.as his dialogue already reached its bottom line of worstness.
He said what he can say to ISHITA-

Tum ma nahi ho
Tum sauteli maa ho
Tum sauteli maa kahlane ke layak bhi nahi ho
Tum bhaanjh ho
Tum manhoos ho
Tumhe jinda gaad dunga
Tum mere bachhi ko kha gayi
Tumne mujhe aur bachho ko dhoka diya
Tum Mar kyun nahi gayi
Tumhe nahi bachata to achha hota
Tum ne mere ya parivar ke karib aane ki koshish ki tu iss bar Sach me tumhari maut ka matam manaya jayega.
Shagun ne kam se kam mujhe dhoka to nahi diya
Shagun sagi maa HAI
Shagun aur mai itne saalo se sath rah rahe HAI

Bla bla bla bla bla.
Give me a break yar.
Now I don't think so isse bhi gire hue aur low class dialogue ho sakte HAI.
So we will have repetition of these only time to time.(or YHM cold hearted dialogue writer may have some more z class dialogue in their mind, then I can't say)
Hence I m make peace with these lines and won't tearup after listening it(unless m in bad mood already and KP N DT bring my tears out from no where)

Ohk ye to thi RKB ke dialogue ki daastan.
Now his act which can go down the belt if CV want and which surely will make me cry bucket.
If RAMAN try any stunt of being lovey dovey with shagun infront of ISHITA, then surely I will kill hiim.coz I can tolerate foul language but not foul action. Whenever sharam scenes I watch I feel like puking.
I don't know they were couple N having biological children but it feel like a sin to imagine them together.
Aaj bhi jab me old episodes hot star pe dekhti hoon.I simply avoid surrogacy track.I can't even afford their phone talk scene " tera mujhse HAI pahle ka nata koi" I now hate this song coz of them only.

So don't know how much I can restrain myself from the hurt but will keep trying.