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I wrote out my feelings after watching last nights' YHM epi but never got to post it yesterday. I was so shaken by the Peshawar attacks... still am actually. I had trouble getting myself to sleep last night just thinking about what the parents and families must be going through. I'm a psychiatrist by profession... I see people suffering from psychotic disorders every day, and I try to do whatever I can to help them. I wish there was a way that I could help and treat the people that feel no remorse in killing innocent lives. Their minds are hazy and thought is blurred by a psychotic disorder in itself... psychosis of blind faith. In the name of religion, they have lost all sense of humanity. Iss pagalpan ka kash mere paas koi illaaj hota. Kash...
As a doctor, I feel obliged to heal people... any and all people. When I see or hear any news like this, of course I weep with those that have lost. But at the same time, I can't help but think about the people who have sinned too. No one is born "bad". People become this way. These people are infected... they are sick. Until and unless the cure is found, they can't be healed. We need to find the cure... every day in some corner of this world, someone is becoming what they shouldn't... they are giving in to "bad" things... they are accepting sin and loosing sense of morals. The root needs to be found... they need to be healed.
Anyway...sorry for getting into all this...I was just really affected and couldn't post this last night. BUT IT'S OK :) All is good haha... Posting now! Last night's epi was AMAZING. My feelings just came right out! Thank you in advance for reading!
I had stopped watching YHM episodes in their entirety since the whole Shagun-Ashok-MiMi track, because it was stupid and I just couldn't get myself to watch that nonsense. The Raina thing also came in between... and Raman's stupid divorce track... I had basically found it all to be BS drama so I took a break. Only saw a few IshRa bits, when needed. BUT! December 16th, 2014... THIS YHM episode FORCED me to come back! The stupid track has not ended yet... but I HAD to come back... and only ONE thing made me do it: Divyanka Tripathi and Karan Patel - DivAn. This show can be the stupidest shit EVER, and I will still never, ever be able to leave it... only because of DivAn. ACTORS PAR EXCELLENCE!! Unbelievable.
Episode starts with Ishita packing Raman's bags (for a completely unnecessary and idiotic attempt to leave haha). Can I just say...DIVYANKA LOOKS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! MY GOD! Is it just me or is she getting more and more stunning day by day?! UFF! If I was a guy, I would be ALL OVER her haha She is damn hot and sexy!
This scene was so simple, but so, so perfect. Divyanka NAILED it! The balm memories... her showing concern for him living alone. She knows that she can't live without him, but she ALSO knows that HE can't either. And then OMG the cologne!!! THAT WAS SO REAL!! BRILLIANTLY done by Divyanka. Ishita smells not the cologne, but HIM. She takes in the feeling of Raman, and there is instant satisfaction on her face and a smile. She is in LOVE with this man! And he is HERS. Such a simple action, but so very powerful. AHHH! LOVED IT.
And then... she lets out her sweet, painful frustration on the suitcase. The way she says "Ramaannn..." was so perfect! The desperation is so apparent... she needs to express her love!! Divyanka's dialogue delivery was ON POINT! The desperation was clear in her voice, but at the same time... so was her pain... her pain not only to not be able to say it... but also the pain of him leaving. It is so, so hard to bring out multiple shades of emotions at the same time...and Divyanka is such a powerful actress, she seems to always do it with such ease. SUPERB!! This scene was amazing, and I just grow to love Divyanka more and more everyday. She is a STAR!
Raman-Ruhi card scene: Oh god... I was choking up here now. So cute, so precious but oh so painful! Raman's pain was ALL OUT in this scene. KARAN!! My god! The way he said "thank you..." the pain in his voice was unbearable! And the kiss! It was such a mushy one! (UFF CAN YOU KISS ISHITA LIKE THAT PLEASE haha sorry I couldn't help but think haha) Ruhanika was TOO GOOD in this scene too!! She is really a gem of a find! So talented! Loved her.
But OMG. When Raman draws the family without himself... my eyes seriously welled up with tears. Ishita is watching them now, and she too feels suspicion. She feels that there is more to why Raman is leaving... he is trying to distance himself on purpose. But why? This was really, really well done by CVs! Ishita needed to have her first little moment of suspicion and realization that something is wrong... so that there can be a slow buildup to the divorce papers. What better way to do it than with a Ruhi moment! The essence of this show, after all! The significance of this is the realization that Raman is trying to break himself apart... and then the immediate reaction from Ishita to stop him, SHOW him that they can never be apart. Which is why, right after this, Ishita walks in and we see the meaning of YHM: The IshRaRu moment. Their happiness is together! PERFECTLY depicted! WELL DONE TEAM!
OH MY JESUS. Then, DivAn completely TAKE OVER the episode. The next few scenes were HEARTWRENCHING... but OH MY GOD... Divyanka & Karan seriously just BLOW MY MIND with their immense performances. Just... cannot handle their brilliance.
Raman going through the packed suitcase, sees the pillow and that's when Ishita walks in. Main aapke saath nahi hongi na...isiliye apne kandhe ki jage, yeh pillow saath behj rahi hoon. OHHH GOD! HIT STRAIGHT AT THE HEART! What a start to the scene!! In an attempt to dodge the emotions... they go to nohk-johk with the balm. But not once... not once does the pain and distress leave from their voices! Ishita rushes to tell him what she has been desperate to say... and Raman looks anywhere but in her eyes in an attempt to avoid this topic. Karan was BRILLIANT... but my god, Divyanka STOLE this scene!!! The way she tries to make him look up... the way she emphasizes her words, begins talking about the meaning of marriage as her tears start to well up... the NEED for her to get her feelings across to him... it was all so, so real... WE could FEEL her pain and desperation!!! Just watching her was unbearable! AHHH!!
She threatens to come to him in Singapore if he wants this to be a long time away from home. She can't be alone with Ruhi... Uski teedhi meedhi harkaton ko, sirf uske teedhe meedhe Papa sambhal sakte hain.. Aur uske teedhe meedhe Papa ko...? She knows the answer... but she wants and NEEDS Raman to say it. She is ready to express her love, but she needs to know he is ready to hear. She needs him to look into her eyes! Raman says... Uski... seedhi saadhi Ishima... with a sad, painful smile. Ishita comes straight in front of him... face to face. This is the moment... looking straight into his eyes.
But Raman... he still can't look at her. He can't handle this. He brings his file up between them, trying to get out of this painful situation. Ishita takes it away, and looks back at him. DIVYANKA!! The annoyance, pain, NEED... the welled up tears... TOO GOOD!! She gives a cute pout... looking at him, almost pleading to let her say it. Ruhi comes with news of Pathak's arrival. Ishita cannot take it!! She needs to say it now but just does not understand what's going on! First, Raman is not looking at her, and now these god forsaken interruptions! ENOUGH! She needs to say it NOW! Voh intezaar karenge beta... jaake bol do... intezaar karenge ... voh intezaar karenge Raman!! AHHH THE WAY DIVYANKA SAID THIS!! My heart was just GONE now!! It was like she is at the brink of breaking down!! My god... so, so, SO GOOD! Raman says its important... Ishita is distraught. Mujhe..! But no... Raman is still not looking straight at her, and she knows he is not ready to listen. BUT WHY? She can't understand. He lifts his hand to move the single strand of hair on her face... she wants to cry... she closes her eyes. The welled up tears fall... one single drop from each eye... but each equivalent to a river of tears. Raman hesitates... he can't help it, but he needs to go. THIS. SCENE. OHMYGOD. I could literally FEEL MY HEART THUD. DIVYANKA AND KARAN... YOUR CHEMISTRY IS REAL. I am speechless. This was just... uuuggghhh!!! And the dialogues!! JESUS!! Papa bahaot cheezein chod kar jaa rahe hai na? Isiliye pareshan hai... Miss karenge na... apne saari cheezein
CANNOT. HANDLE. THE EMOTIONS. Both love each other so much, but can't say it. The most painful situation to be in. So, so well performed by DivAn! I find it so, so hard to believe that this is all acting.
Raman leaving with Pathak scene: MY HEART LITERALLY STOPPED in this one moment!!! Raman turns for one last glimpse of Ishita. Shayad akhri baar tumhe dekh raha hoon... Oh my god... and Ishita's tears!! You know... from the on location videos that we got of the shooting of this scene, I don't think Divyanka and Karan where actually there together. I think Divyanka was just imagining him standing there, and same for Karan. EVEN THEN. EVEN THEN this scene came out to be so, so powerful. Divyanka's tears seemed so real!!! THIS is proof of DivAn's brilliance!!!
Raman breaks down: Alone in his room, he tries to stay strong. He remembers all his moments with Ishita. He picks up IshRu's picture and hold it close to his heart. He wants to say so much to Ishita, but he can't. So he starts talking to her picture... Sirf yeh soch ke, ke tumhare mun se Raavan Kumar nahi sununga kabhi... meri jaan nikaal jaati hai... The pain, the tears... all coming out. KARAN!! KILLING IT! MINDBLOWING! I was crying with you Karan. It was hurting to see you like this... and THAT is power. YOU. ARE. OUTSTANDING!! The whole "you will never smile with me" and "accept Mani" part was absolute BS... and EXACTLY the reason why I needed a break from the show... but KARAN... BECAUSE OF YOU, I could STILL feel the pain of Raman, even though I find all of this stupid. You were just that convincing!
Raman is willing to sacrifice everything for Ishita. He is willing to give her his entire life if it means her happiness. THAT IS REAL LOVE! He is ready to not only give her away to Mani, but ALSO give RUHI away... ALL FOR HER happiness! He will live a life equivalent to death, if it means her happiness. Even though I don't like the way this is done, it is important for CVs to show this intensity of his love. Remember when IshRa talked about their first love? Raman had said the meaning of first love is different for everyone. CVs have BRILLIANTLY brought this back here now, in this scene... this moment. Ishita is Raman's FIRST LOVE... and THIS is proof of why. He will destroy himself for her. Shagun destroyed him, but he fought back. If she was his first love, he would have seen her go off with Ashok and just happily have let her go... because that is what true love is. But NO...that didn't happen... instead, intense hatred grew for her. If she was his first true love, he would have happily destroyed himself if that meant her happiness with Ashok. But no. It was not his true, real first love.
Raman has TRULY fallen in love with Ishita for the FIRST time. And we know it, because he is destroying his life for her... completely.
But I love you yaar... I really love you.
That's it. I am a broken mess at this point. So overwhelmed by the sheer excellence of DivAn's performance... I have nothing else to say.
Divyanka and Karan... you two are spellbinding. Individually, you two are superb... but when you come TOGETHER... its like, God's divine miracle.
I love you immensely, DivAn.
xx Riah
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