[NOTE: Not Proof-read, oblige errors if any...]
You are My Sunshine,
My only Sunshine...
"One day you will kiss a man you can't breathe without, and find that breath is of little consequence."
"...Love had that lasting effect Ishu, I know now you are too broken and shaken, but one-day it will all come back to you... you would once again love, once again you would feel this emotion and trust me, with more intensity and more seriously than this one." He looked at her, and then continued, as he wrapped his arms around his shoulder, while her head on his chest, sobbing uncontrollably, "This wasn't love, if it brought you down to tears, Love never breaks one, it strengthen us, believe me Ishu, you would love once again..."
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She was still in shock, she didn't know what to do, how to calm herself, how to make believe that all that was happening was nothing but a delusional fact or rather an instance that was making her scared, 'Why would he do this to me?' was the only question that was echoing in her mind, she didn't know what to expect any more from her fate, she had lost much in this lifetime that now she was left little with strength that could conjure up enough to live her life alone.
She couldn't help but remember all the time with him in past months, his disdainful attitude to start with, him thinking as a kidnapper, his deceitful opinion of her, his worst behavior regarding anything near Ruhi and him, his accusations, his tears, his anger, his possessiveness, his impervious actions, rather an unpleasant tongue, his touch, his lips on her skin, his warmth of arms around her, his protective nature, his forgiving stance, that banter, her name on his lips, his smirk, that glint in his eyes, his appreciation, his speech for her, that dance under rain- their Kuch-Kuch hota hai moment, everything seemed to roll before her eyes as the tears made their way down her alabaster cheeks.
Her heart clenched with pain, and fear of losing, like her life was going away, never to return, the papers in her hand that she had clutched too tightly, she didn't know what to do with, she just wanted him infront of her, 'Why this Taxi had to be so slow? Why her car's tyre had to puncture just that day? Does God want to punish her yet again? Does he want them to separate,' but she decided, she won't let that happen, not this time! He was bit too precious to be left, this feelings this relation was bit too beautiful to be broken and let him walk off, so this time she would take the stand and fight for it, she won't let his reckless one sided thinking break it, she would rather fight him, she would give him piece of mind, perhaps one more lecture might help! She smiled at the rueful thought knowing full well about his dislike to those lectures. Too bad! He had hit the wrong side this time, and she decided not to spare him this time.
Then a thought rolled through her mind, 'Does he not love her enough to know that she loved him?' she thought as a small tear escaped from her eye. But then anger filled at such infidel thought, 'Why? Did he had the decency to consult her first before throwing divorce papers on her face via Neel and then running away without facing the consequence? How Dare he!' she seethed in anger, her fist tightened and then she disdainfully looked at the crumpled paper of absolutely no significance, a vile joke altogether and threw it on the seat beside her.
"Raman Kumar Bhalla, I am not going to let you do this to me, I won't sit back and enjoy your stupid outlook work this time, you might to broken by everything but it doesn't mean that I would let you play with my love, I won't, not even let you decide on it anymore!" she murmured to herself with finality. And then turned towards the driver and said, rather rashly for the tenth time, "Kya kar rahe hai bhaiya...? Jaldi chalaiye varna koi faida nahi hoga wahan jaane ka..." and then murmered, "Woh Ravan Kumar bhi haath se nikal jayega!"
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After a most nervous and fear-filled journey of twenty minutes she reached the airport, she was in anxiety of where to find him, she had to find him at any cost, she just couldn't lose him, and further more she could let him lose her either, they were life of each other, whether or not he thought like that, but she knew it very well!
She started to catch a glimpse of him, every man in suit, her eyes darted from person to person, like she was searching for a Sanjivani, she couldn't let anyone go without a proper look at them, he was bit too precious to be looked for without apace scrutiny.
Her heart hammered behind ribs with an unknown fear and all the bed thoughts started easing in her mind, 'What if he had already left?; what if she would never be able to see him again?; what if her last chance was gone?; what if... her love-story again ended incomplete?!!'
This was not Bala Jiju proposed that evening, she clearly remembered his each word, 'She would find him, she would fall in love again, that was not her true love but that will be...', how can, then it end into such an agony? This was not what she wanted, this was not what she had always dreamed of, all she wanted was a simple love-story, a man who would love her to core, who would understand her unsaid words and implications, her heart beats and read her eyes, but this was definitely not what she wanted, the man who she loved, and who probably loved her too, should leave her? Should go away on pretext of giving her happiness? 'What happiness was he talking about, anyway?' she thought while running here and there trying to locate him.
And then...
There was the last minute announcement of the flight he was boarding; he was on the way to terminal when she saw him, how can she not recognize him in million, she definitely could, he was one person he could always recognize in infinite crowd, he was unique, but just as she saw him, his back towards her all the time, her feet found speed and she rushed towards him, with an impeccable speed, her eyes glistening with tears of hurt, complain and love, her stance filled with undeniable fury, as she stood behind him keeping her palm on his shoulder to get his attention, he turned towards her, his eyes went wide in surprise, while his whole face changed from sullen to confused one, and then came the one thrash via paper that landed on his chest, hurting him more than any slap would, her tear filled eyes, her complain, her broken self, everything filled him with guilt, he stumbled back involuntarily as the second thrash landed almost on same spot, and her name came out of his mouth in a surprised voice, "Ishita..."
"What? Aapko kya laga ke mai aapko mujhe chodne doongi? Haan?" and then landed another thrash on his chest, while he looked around embarrassed and called out to her again, "Ishita... kya kar rahi ho... sab dekh rahe..." but he couldn't complete, when she started again,
"Dekh rahe hain toh kya? Tamasha toh aapne bana diya hai mera..." and then she sniffed and he looked at her guiltily.
While she continued, "Aapki Himmat kaise hui yeh Divorce papers bhejne ki?" she almost scolded him, and then without giving him a chance to speak continued, "Aapko kya lagta hai... koi jhel sakta hai aapko mere alawa? Koi aur nahi jhel sakta hai aapko... Samjhe aap..."
While he looked down, ashamed and said, "Janta hoon, isiliye toh... tumhe azaad karna chahta hoon..."
While she looked at him, he was as broken as she was, her anger mellowed down, she could have done anything but hurt her love, she knew that he was doing this for her, maybe he was accusing her of every problem in his life, after all he bestowed her with his daughter solely in her care and was leaving, going away, away from where he had initially come, his world of darkness filled with alcohol and loneliness. And she knew just that moment and he would not allow him to leave her, not now, not when she was on verge of starting a new journey and she said, what she felt was the need of the hour, "but..." she said rather tired of all the rushing, fighting, making him understand,
"I Love you... I love you Raman!"
While Raman just stood there surprised, he knew somewhere, he knew it, he had already heard it, but along everything, every phase, this fact was long forgotten, she was in love with him, not from yesterday but from many days, before Mani, before the lady-killer, before the injection case, before everything, and he loved her too, before Amma's accident, before he understood about her goodness, before she helped him indirectly to come close to Ruhi, before she married him for his daughter, May be they did loved each other since they started to hate each other.
And he smiled to her simple confession and rather nodded and said, "I Love you too..." may be this was the time to let go of the ego and for once stand on the same ground.
And then she looked at him with a smile, and he did what he felt mirroring in her eyes too, he came forward and took her in his arms, enveloping her away from the staring of people that surrounded them, away from people who hates to see them happy, away from all the past that was not as pleasant, into the future that both knew would be much promising and dreamy like none others.
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Okay that's it...
Okay now, tell me guys... Am I huddling? I know I am posting too many fics at the same time, but this IshRa are not helping me either, and my readers are not complaining... so I feel confident enough to continue posting all kinds of stuff... I hope its worth reading though...
Many times I feel that you all will be bored by so much reading me... I hope it's not true though...
I just wanna say in the end, I Love you guys... I really do!
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