Hello all my dear friends... M back with another OS based on the last 2 episodesđ
Basically simplicity and realistic touch is the USP of YHM which I totally love... So I have tried to write a simple heart to heart conversation between IshRa which I would love to see onscreen as wellđ
Well this has not turned out the way I wanted it to be but I hope u all enjoy reading it... Apologies in advance for any mistakes...
P.S. : The title is actually one of my fav song by Enrique.. I dnt knw if it makes sense with this OS or not but it just popped up in my mind when I was writing this.. Here are the lyrics...
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be in the dark tonight
'Cause I can't read your mind
I need to know if what I'm doing is right
Ishita was tossing & turning on the couch trying to lose herself to sleep, but in vain... She was so restless that she couldn't sleep... The incidents from last night playing in her mind again and again in loop... Raman, her Raavan Kumar... He was really a puzzle in himself, she thought... The things he had said to Shagun in the party last night... The way he had reminisced their happy moments as a couple with Shagun, it really made her rethink about his feelings for Shagun and herself... Agreed that they were not exactly to be competed for a Fairytale Couple yet and their relationship status was far from a deeply in love couple but since last many weeks, she had felt a noticeable progress in their relation... They had obviously crossed the just Ruhi's parents line... Or atleast that's what she thought.. Coz the conversation she had witnessed last night in the party made her rethink it all again... She knew how much Raman loved and adored his kids... His children were his only weakness... She had seen the way his face lit up when he was talking about Adi's birth in hospital during Amma's accident... She cannot give him that happiness ever... She can never make his face light up with excitement that way... And yesterday she had seen him getting hurt by this same fact infront of Shagun... This was like a punch in the gut for her... She had endured lot of taunts and misbehavior from the society for her inability to conceive but nothing hurt her like the pain she witnessed in his eyes... He had never mocked her for her infertility but the pain was evident in his voice when he stated the fact to Shagun... She felt guilty for taking away his happiness... This was her problem, her inability... She cannot let him suffer because of her inability to conceive... And the way he was talking to Shagun about their happy life made her think again if he is really over Shagun yet... If he is really moved on and forgotten Shagun... Coz it certainly didn't seem so... True that he had told her afterwards in the garden that all this is rubbish and she is overthinking it, but he visibly didn't had any sensible answer when she had questioned him about Shagun... He seemed to just dodge the question in his own RKB way...
But then again, the way he had talked to her in hospital in the morning and the way he had held onto her during the blood test didn't make any sense if he was still not over Shagun... Such a confusing man he was... On the top of it, he had shamelessly asked her if she is in love with him... Ufff.. the nerve of this man... He had literally made her speechless with his bouncer... He was such a complicated and unpredictable man... She was so shocked to hear that question that she couldn't respond for few seconds... Although she had quickly covered it up or rather tried to cover it up, but he was not in a mood to spare her so easily... He had literally taken her off hook with his questions that followed... He bombarded her left right center with his seemingly innocent questions which again she had no answers to... Why ur tears dropped at wrong place?? Why were u crying when I was getting injected... Why were u affected by my pain... My god, she was not expecting this AT ALL... So she tried with all her might to cover it up... Wait a second... Did she say cover up??? That means is she trying to cover up the truth??? The truth... which is what???? That she really is in love???? No no no... This complicated man has made my life complicated too... I was thinking about his feelings for Shagun and I ended up thinking about my feelings for him... ayyo muruga... This man... what is he doing to me... She was lost in these thoughts when she heard him enter the room in his usual white nightwear with some files in his hands... She quickly closed her eyes shut tightly(A bit too tightly) to pretend to be sleeping...
But he saw the creases on her forehead and her eyes blinking slightly as she faked the sleep...
Raman : Why are u faking the sleep??? I know u r not sleeping so why acting??? I am not going to eat you...
Ohhh god... He truly has a hawkeye, she thought as she opened her eyes slowly and gave him a weak smile...
"bytheway why are you still awake?? Its 2 am already... Don't u feel sleepy??", he asked her casually as he settled himself on bed and merged himself in the files...
"Nothing... Just a bit headache... so not able to sleep..", she lied to him...
"Wahhh... For a change, the headache itself has a headache...", he taunted her in his usual way but she was quiet, lost in her own thoughts... It was her silence that made him look upto her coz generally a small nudge from him was enough for her to retort back angrily in her JKR avatar... When he looked at her lost in her own thoughts, he instinctively knew that she was upset, something was bothering her... And everything else vanished from his mind... He can't see her like that... He needed to soothe her pain.. So he kept the files on side table and called her, "Ishita, what happened??? Whats wrong??"... "Ummm.. Nothing Raman... Kuch nahi.. U carry on..", came a typical reply from her...
"Ishita, come here", he told her extending his hand the same way he had done in hospital during amma's accident... There was strange mixture of authority and plea when he said come here... Ishita knew immediately that there is no escape route now... So she got up from the couch and approached him taking his hand... He made her sit on bed beside him and asked gently, "Ishita, what happened?? See I am not very good with these civilized conversations, especially a civilized conversation with you...", he saw her smile meekly at this... Ahhh, finally this was working, he thought and continued, " So please don't make it more difficult for me and tell me.. Whats wrong?? Why are u upset??"
Ishita sighed heavily preparing herself and started, "I am not upset Raman... I am restless... I don't know whats going on in your mind and that's driving me crazy..."
This was a complete shocker for him... He had expected anything but this... "I am sorry, but m completely lost here Ishita... What are you trying to say??", he asked confused...
"Raman, I don't know how to put it in words, but the way you were talking to Shagun yesterday, are you really sure that you are over her?? Have you really moved on??"
Raman was visibly annoyed by the way this conversation was taking shape... "What kind of a question is this?? Offcourse I have moved on and I thought we have cleared it yesterday itself...", he replied annoyed...
"Raman please listen to me calmly for once... Don't be annoyed... I know we discussed yesterday but it was mostly about Adi n Ruhi, not Shagun... "
"Ok... So exactly which part gave you the impression that I am still not over Shagun??', he tried to tone down his voice but still the sting was visible...
"The way you were talking to her about your past... The moments you both had shared... The happiness she gave you in the form of your 2 children.. Are you missing all that happiness Raman??? You knew about my inability to conceive when you married me but still you married me only for Ruhi's happiness... But I don't want to force my problems on you and I certainly don't want you to suffer bcoz of my flaws Raman... You have every right to be happy and I don't want to take that away from you... So if your happiness lies with your children and Sha... Shagun," she was visibly on the verge of tears by now but she needed to do this... So she continued, "if your happiness lies with your children and Shagun then you should not compromise on it Raman... I know Ruhi will take some time to come in terms with this but she will come around Raman... I will make sure of it... Afterall, SHAGUN IS HER MOTHER... So you don't worry about how will Ruhi react... I will not let her distance from you again because of this..." He could see the tears trickling down her beautiful face as she was rambling on and on and that did it for him..
"Shut up and cut the crap, will you?? And never ever say again that Shagun is Ruhi's mother... YOU ARE RUHI'S MOTHER... DO U GET IT MRS. ISHITA BHALLA?? YOU-ARE-RUHI'S-MOTHER... Dnt forget that ever...", he shouted cutting her in the middle of her rambling and she fell silent immediately sensing his anger.. He realized he had been bit too loud scaring her so he sobered down and continued, "Ishita, whatever you heard last night was not meant in this way... You have got it all wrong..."
"Really Raman?? So please correct me then... Coz I certainly couldn't see it any other way..." Ishita replied with hurt plainly visible in her voice..
"Ishita... Look... There is a lot of difference in cherishing the past and missing it... I cherish my past with Shagun but I certainly don't miss it... And it surely doesn't mean that I am not happy now... Whatever I told Shagun was true... I was happy with her once upon a time... Very happy... And that fact will always remain whether we like it or not... I can't just cut it out from my past and throw it away... It will always be part of my past... But that's it... Past is past... And Shagun will always remain part of my PAST... She can never be part of my present and future... I don't want her to be...
"But, then you...", Ishita interrupted teary eyed but Raman cut her in d middle placing a finger on her lips to shush her... "Shhh... Hold your breath and let me complete... You are my present and future, Ishita... Don't compare yourself with Shagun, please... You both have different places in my life... With Shagun, I learnt to love... She was my first love... And there can never be a first time again even if I fall in love again... She gave me my first child, the feeling of being father for the first time... And there can never be a first time again even if I become a father again... But she also taught me the meaning of trust and cheating the hard way... She also taught me that life is not always a rosy walk as you want it to be... Whereas you... you taught me that life is not always a rocky bumpy travel either... You taught me to make peace with the past... You taught me that life can be enjoyable even if it doesn't always turn out the way we want.. But most importantly you gave me my most precious gift Ishita... The one which Shagun could have never given me... Shagun gave birth to my children but didn't make me a father... You made me Ruhi's father Ishita... You gave me my Ruhi... Before you came, I was a father for namesake as Adi hated me because of Shagun and Ruhi... Well, You know the story very well... We had married only for Ruhi's happiness, but we both can't deny the fact anymore that we are well past that "Sirf Ruhi Ke Liye" line... We wouldn't have been having this conversation in the first place if it was "Sirf Ruhi Ke Liye", So don't ever question your importance in my life again.. And as for Shagun... She is just Adi's mother for me... Nothing else... Whatever I told her yesterday was about Adi and only Adi... It was a conversation between Adi's father and Adi's mother, not an ex-husband and his ex-wife... If it gave you any other impression, then I am really sorry for it... That was never my intension... And as for Adi, its true that I miss Adi a lot, but how does that make YOU guilty Ishita??? As I have already told you, Adi n you both have different places in my life... So it has nothing to do with your inability to conceive... Even if you could have given me a child, I would have still missed my Adi...", his voice was choked up with emotions and unshed tears...
Ishita was beyond happy listening to this... She could sense the sincerity in his words... She could just manage to mumble softly, "I am sorry... I just thought you might be regretting marrying me..."
"Well, then u r wrong... yeah its true that, with the naturally hot looks that I possess, I could have easily got some hot chick like Sheila Ki Jawaani but I am more than happy with the Medium size Karela that I have got..", he replied with a smirk... The mischievous glint was back in his eyes..
"You can never change... Raavan Kumar... Aaarrrghhh...", Ishita said with gritted teeth...
"Bytheway, while we are on the topic of having children, I am curious about one simple fact which you seem to have forgotten", Raman asked her innocently... "What???", came her natural reply...
"Well, let's forget about ur problem of conceiving for a moment here.. Then how exactly do u plan to give me a child?? Order on flipkart??? Bcoz my little medical knowledge tells me that first the marriage needs to be consummated to have a child..." Ishita was dumb founded at this... A deep blush flushed her cheeks... Only this man had the guts to ask such embarrassing questions with so much ease and audacity...
"No... I mean yes... I mean no, I didn't mean it that way... It was just a IF situation...", Ishita replied looking at anywhere but him... He was clearly enjoying this to the core... Sharma gayi madrasan, he thought with a smile...
"Ohhh yeah??? Really??? See I was right about u in the morning... U are in love with me... You just cant miss a chance to touch me... See, that's why u r still holding my hand and on top of it you are discussing having children with me... You just cant keep your hands off of me, can you... I can understand... Afterall, Mr Raman Kumar Bhalla's charm is irrestistible"
Ishita couldn't believe the audacity of this man... She quickly removed her hand from his grasp... "What kind of delusional world do u live in??? hann?? And bytheway, you are the most shameless person I have ever met in my life...", she replied fiercely to his accusations...
Raman was elated to see her back in full form... He loved to tease her & bicker with her... And since today morning he had even started to enjoy flirting with her playfully... They both were mature adults to realize the simple fact that there was obviously something between them... The marriage which had started on all the wrong terms and reasons was slowly paving a way to Love... They were not there yet but the journey from Ruhi's parents to Husband-Wife has already begun and they both were enjoying it, specially Raman by pulling Ishita's leg... That's why he had even asked her playfully if she was in love with him... Somewhere deep down he had known the answer and he had also known that she will not reply truthfully... And as expected she had fumbled and dodged the question... But nothing can be missed by the hawkeyes of Raman Kumar Bhalla... So obviously her blush and her nervousness couldn't go unnoticed by him...
He thoroughly enjoyed her discomfort and her nervousness... He was glad to see his effect on her... "Yeah... You are having an open conversation with me regarding having kids and I am shameless & delusional.. Isnt it?? And bytheway, I totally remember you checking me out in the bathroom naked.. Was that also my delusion??", this was getting even better, he thought...
"That was a mistake and I saw nothing that day.. Nothing", she urged innocently... But Raman was totally enjoying this... "Ohhh... So now u r disappointed that u didn't see anything... haannn??? And what was that when you bumped on me purposely at the door after our salsa practice??? You also tried to massage my back afterwards... Wasn't that you seducing me?? Or you wanna term that as my delusion as well???", Raman was so proud of himself by now that he was visibly overjoyed...
"It was an accident.. I accidently bumped into u... Forget it... We are not having this conversation... This conversation never happened... I cant believe it... You are such a shameless, manner less man... Muttal... Paityhyam...", she got up from the bed cursing him under the breath...
"Where are u going???", he asked her instinctively... "I am going to sleep... You keep enjoying in your delusional world... I have patients to attend in the morning..", she spat still upset with him...
"Ishita listen... You can sleep on the bed if u want... No need to sleep on the couch... I know its uncomfortable sleeping there...", he had changed the mood of the conversation so suddenly that Ishita looked back at him with a surprise... Was he again teasing her??? This man was messing with her heart big time... But he seemed to have sensed her dilemma coz he continued in a sincere tone, "I am not joking here... Really... I am serious... Come on we both are mature adults to know our limits... Nothing is gonna happen just because we share bed... How long are u going to use that couch?? And as it is u sleep on bed when Ruhi's is there with us..." Ishita sensed the sincerity in his words and agreed to the same...
So she got her blanket from the couch and settled herself on the right side of the bed... Raman lied down on the left side and as she was about to switch off the bed side lamp, he said, "Accha listen... I know I am irresistible but please don't try to take advantage of the situation... Okay", she could see him grinning widely as he taunted her... This man can never change, she thought with a sigh... "Ohhh yeah... I will surely keep that in mind my oh-so-irresistibly handsome patidev... And I will try my level best to keep my hands off of you...", she replied sarcastically switching off the lamp... But he could have sworn that he saw a faint glimpse of smile on her face when she switched off the lamp...
The journey of love had begun and the destination didn't seem too distant to them now...
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