Hi Bhootnis!!! 😊
Sorry for the delay in today's Katha, I ended up having a busier day than I thought, so I've just re-watched the epi, taken my detailed Devu notes, and now I'm ready to get going!
I've called today's katha "part 1" b/c I'm assuming that tomorrow, with DPS's mandir/agni confession, Gannu Bhaiyya ki Pyaari Kaju will have no choice but to believe him. I've also realized while taking notes today that I concentrate solely on Dev and then use the other characters to simply map out my Devu's reactions to the people around him...didn't realize before that I do that...but, you can't exactly blame me either, can you? Anyway, I don't know if that will ever really change b/c I can't help but only really read into him when I'm watching, but I will try in the future to pick up equally on the emotions of the other characters...
Ok, so last week, on Thursday, we were left hanging with what might have been, undoubtedly one of the BEST performances ever delivered by Mr. Apurva Agnihotri...Dev Pratap Singh finally admits to Kaju, on the hill, none-the-less, that He is her Dev, and Not some Raju from Rajgini!
So we left off with a frustrated Dev...frustrated b/c he had no choice but to come clean with her. In the opening scene today, that frustration instantaneously melted into a deep concern when he realized that his Kaju was behosh. Lekin I'm so upset ke mera darr sahi nikla - my STUPID-SA Devu was talking to Behosh Kaju the whole time! Vaise, how hard did he slap the poor girl ki voh behosh ho gayi?! Poor Kaju!
Anyway, so Devu sees that his Kaju barfi is behosh, so what does he do? He looks around for Jyoti's Tabela of course!! Did u guys notice? He scanned the area to see if he could find a tabela, lekin nahi mila toh bechare ko beachouse se kaam chalana pada! 😆
Jokes apart...that song....is just incredible! It adds so much emotion to the already emotional scenes...its just absolutely perfect for these two! I absolutely am in love with it, and as Autumnji and perhaps a few others have already mentioned, I too think that it was written just for these two!😳
Cut to the next scene: When he lays her down on the couch...uff...that face...FREEZE that face guys...just look at that face! That deep concern in his eyes mixed with a passion like no other makes the smouldering depths of Dev Pratap Singhs eyes even deeper. What a beautiful combination. 😍 He is soooo concerned about Kaju here...he is already kicking himself for slapping her and causing this condition of hers. He's blaming himself yet again for everything she's going through. And then, gently, he cups her face and looks even more intensly troubled at her state as he remembers the moments they shared as they first met - both as DK and as RK.
Then, we see DPS do something he's never done infront of anyone else before...plead. He's pleaded to her before, and he has no qualms in doing it again. Mr. DPS, pleads with his lady love, his one weakness, the one person in this world that can make him vulnerable to please wake up. He begs her, all the while remembering the Massouri moments when he was ruthless towards her - and in doing this, punishes himself even more. Those memories torment his very being, but he remembers them, as if to punish himself for the pain he's inflicted upon her. 😭
He gently takes her hand in his hands...and slowly, lifts his eyes, almost apprehensively, as if he's her culprit and he can't face her, and looks at her with a love that is sighlently pleasding for forgiveness. And then, in true Armaan Suri fashion, Devu too, shuts his eyes in pain, trying to stay strong, and be brave in the face of the one thing that fears him the most - losing her. The agony of this thought forces his eyes to squeeze closed tighter, as if trying to banish the thought from his mind forever.
*sigh*...😍...in the next moment....the way he looks at her before resting his head near her...as he remembers slapping her, the look he gives her begs forgiveness and vows of his love at the same time....it also is a very knowing look...knowing in the sense that there is the slightest tinge of hope in those eyes because he knows that she too loves him more than life itself, and based on alone, she will forgive him everything.
When Kaju first wakes up, the initial happiness on this face reaches his passionate eyes. Its a short lived happiness and easy to miss, but very much there....happiness, mixed with a sigh of relief. And all of this, with her first words, dissappears, and is replaced with utter confusion and fear.
Gonna side-track for a quick moment and mention that I Absolutely LOVE any and every scene in which Dev has run behind his Kaju, grabbed her arm, and swung her around to face him! The anger and passion in the moment excites me so! 😳
Its Amazing to me how Apurva can go from emotion to emotion so QUICKLY! In one moment, he was happy and relieved, in the very next, he was confused and afraid, and now, not 5 seconds later, we see him irritated and angry. Apu, 👏 HATS OFF TO YOU MY DEAR!
So anyway, back to Devu...😃 - As I was saying, the moment Kaju jumps up off the couch, his happiness changes to confusion, and after he grabs her by the arm and makes her face him, we see the confusion has changed into utter irritation and anger, which has been ilicited by Her anger towards him! This is why this jodi is so intensly passionately in love. They're not afraid to express their anger towards one another. Its SO refreshing to see this! The anger in which he says "main Dev hoon" reciprocates her anger perfectly, but in the next 7-10 seconds, Apu must be comended again! His initial anger somewhat melts when he says "haq banta hai mera" (😳), and then again, melts even more when he says "Kaajjal mera yakeen mano...". Dev in these 3 sentences went from anger to love to desperation. The way in which Apurva is able to soften the emotions in such a manner in that scene is just mindblowing! 👏
What an emotional roller coaster today's episode was. In the next scene we see Dev's desperation turn to pain. Pain at Kaju's words...not because she's bad-mouthing him as Raju, not because she's again telling Raju he can never be like her Dev, but this time, because she doesn't believe him. Dev's Kaajjal doesn't beleive that he is telling the truth. And he's also in pain because she's unable to recognize him. The girl that once said ki voh Dev ki ahat tak pehchaan sakti hai...ab kya hua usse?
But poor Kaju...voh bhi ye Dev/Raju/Dev/Raju ke chakkar mein paagal ho gayi hai...poor girl has no idea what to beleive anymore...but she knows one thing - she can't believe him.
So, Dev goes into Convince mode! As he recites his monologue about bringing her to the beachouse, the passion/intensity in his eyes is mixed with desperation and the hope that he'll be able to convince her. When she doesn't believe his "Payal" story, the desperation in his voice becomes even more evident as he speaks of Lonavala. And then, he mentions Lohri...
Lets take a look at this for a moment. The three moments Mr. DPS decides to use to convince his lady love that he is who he says he is have SO much importance. He chooses the three episodes in their love story that where probably the biggest milestones. He mentions his wife Payal - this scene happened on a day when Dev was telling himself how much he loved Kaajjal before Ameesha walked in and reminded him of Payal (😡). Then he mentions Lonavala...the first time I'd say they really got to spend time together, talk, maybe get to know one another a little bit. He let his gaurd down with her a little bit for the 1st time in Lonavala - and in all the closeness while in Lonavala, it was perhaps the first time his heart felt a little tug each time they looked deep into one another's eyes. And the last moment he mentions - Lohdi day...the day he admitted to himself that he was in love with Kaajjal. The day DPS said to himself: "Bas - Ab main is ehsaas ko aur nahin daba sakta. Ye sach hai - mujhe tumse pyaar hai." -- WOW...the three DK memories DPS decides to use are, in his point of view, possibly three of the most important moments in his and Kaajjal's love story. I applaud the writers for writing it this way - whether they did it on purpose or not.
Next, when Kaju retorts that Dev would never have hurt her like that - he would never have been able to watch her cry like that and not do something abou it, Devu looks down, ashamed with himself, as he says "main majboor tha"...that scene killed me...he couldn't bring himself to look her in the face b/c he knew that he was her culprit.
Now, I'm confused about this accident. When Dev was on the phone w/ Kaju, his tires screeched, he swerved, and dropped the phone. In the flashback, there was no screeching/swerving, anything of the sort. Could there be another peice to the puzzle?
During the flashback, we see, for the second time in two episodes, a GUN pointed at APU! Guys, I swear, this sort of thing bothers me SO much. For atleast a few seconds, I seize to see the character and just see Apu instead. It upsets me SO much to see him standing there with a gun pointed at him...and they've not done it just once, but TWICE - in 2 DAYS! The same thing happened last Thurs when Apu had a gun pointed to him - I was in tears. I forgot all together that the gun was pointed at Dev. Thats so disturbing. And even afterwards, when I do come to my senses, and bring Dev back into the picture, its still heartwrenching to watch it. I don't ever want to see another gun pointed towards my Apu or Devu in the remainder of the show! Is that too much to ask?!?!
Ok, sorry about the tangent. The scene that depicted Karan talking about having Devu killed pulled at my heart! My Poor Devu! He looked in that scene, upon hearing his big brother talk of planning his murder, as though his entire world came crashing down around him. I'm amazed as to how he remained standing. I'm amazed his legs didn't give out underhim. My poor baby! That look on his face was too much to bear! But my Devu is strong, and smart - he'll show that Ravan!
"Kyounki main jaanta tha, Kaajjal ki, agar main kisike saamne kamzor pad sakta hoon to voh sirf tum thi Kaajjal, sirf tum." - Those words sent chills down my spine. Devu looked his Kaajjal in the eyes, and told her that she was his only weakness...just thinking about this scene brings tears to my eyes. All guards down, completely unashamed, ego aside, nothing mattered to him in that moment as he indirectly told her that she was his everything. 😭
😊...and in the next moment, DPS again, is enraged! The look on his face when she begins to degrade Raju. He was SO frustrated with her, and SO mad - not because of what she was saying about Raju - a character that Dev made up so he could get to the bottom of his brother's crime. He was mad because of what his beloved Kaajjal would force him to do next. He was enraged at the next step he would have to take to convince her. He was enraged that it had even come to that. He had hoped that she would believe his words - that he wouldn't have to resort to actions, but now, she had left him no choice.
And then comes, the scene of the day. My Devu drags his Kaju to the bedroom (What? He said "please" aur vaise - Usse haq hai! 😉😆) and proceeds to show her what he could have done, and how easily. Initially, the way he grabbed her dupatta...for a moment, my heart stopped beating....then, I realized what my Devu was doing. I realized that my Devu was hurting himself more than he was hurting Kaju. Just think about it guys. He was to once again pretend to take advantage of her...the way he once was forced to in a hotel room...after the torment he went through at having to do that once, just imagine the pain he must have felt at taking that same step a second time. Once I realized this, my heart cried out for him more than for her. And then, the PAIN in which he said "Kaajjal" and swung himself off of her...was too much to bear. (APU, BRILLAINT ACTING AGAIN!) It killed him to have to do that to her again...and afterwards, the look he gave her when he turned back towards her - seeing the state that she was in due to his actions killed him all over again. As he slowly picked up her duppatta and handed it back to her and said "main jaanta hoon meri vajay se tumne bahut aansoon bahaye hai...lekin mein hi tumhara Dev hoon"...the initial pain in his very being as he said that was unbelievable...and when he said "lekin main hi tumhara Dev hoon"...there was so much desperation there - he was so desperate for her to just believe him...trust him. And in a sense, his admitting that he is the cause of her pain aledges to his knowledge that perhaps he's lost some of her ability to trust him. And that adds to his pain.
His knowledge is again confirmed as she utters the very words he thinks: Kaajjal tells "Raju" "I Don't Trust You...I Can't Ever Trust You!"...Those words of hers pierce his heart like a thousand knives as he makes his decision to lock her in the room with a heavy heart, crying for her, all the while.
Upon doing so, the way he leans against the wall outside the door, trying to contain himself, keep himself from softening and going back in there and trying to console her...that was so hard to watch. This struggle of Devu's to control himself was mixed with intense pain because she won't believe him, but most of all because she's just on the other side of the door, in a lot of pain, that he has caused her.
The second best scene of the day - the two are standing, back to back with a door in between them, crying/yearning for one another...so close, yet so far away. I think this is the most deeply romantic yet heartwrenching/tearjerking scenes I have ever scene on Indian Television. ...and the lyrics..."nazron se nazrein milti hai, aise ehsaas jagati hai...mansil dikhti hai ek jaga phir rahe kyoun kho jaati hai"....as they both, remember the sweet memories they've shared. And both of them, at the same time, at the epitome of their tadap for one another, slide to the floor, in utter agony.. I think this scene was so beautifully done. Wonderful concept, brilliantly acted by Apurva and Surveen, and the cinematography as well as the flashbacks chosen - everything was just PERFECT!
The next few minutes of today's epi I'm not too keen on. This part of the epi irritated me and made me think "STUPID KAJU! DIL SE SOCHO!" I dunno whats going on with her. Ok, I understand, she thought the love of her life was dead, this causes mental trauma, and then there's the whole Dev/Raju/Dev/Raju back and forth confusion, BUT REALLY! This girl should NOT be bringing that brain of hers into situations like this...anyway, in situations like this, her brain always takes a little while longer to turn on the tube light (think back to when she found out about his kundali...). I dunno - I want the old Kaajjal back. I dunno what's happened to this Kaajjal. I just feel like its so stupid na? I mean, when Dev, just to cover up in front of Ameesha simply said "main Dev hoon", Kaju, without asking any questions, runs to his room late at night and throws her arms around him as if he's come back from the dead. And now, when he HAS come back from the dead, and that too, WITH PROOF, she refuses to beleive him, and pushes my poor baby away! Man this girl is getting on my nerves! She BETTER hug him tomorrow like they've been seperated for EONS and then apologize for hurting him so much!
Yes, I think she should apologize to HIM! I am sorry guys, I know Devu deserves a slap for keeping his raaz from Kaju for so long, lekin I am with Hema ji on this one - He has suffered FAR MORE than her in all of this. To have to watch her cry like that but keep himself at bay, to have her in his arms but keep control over his emotions, all the while dying inside seeing her pain, and also SO majboor that he can't say anything to her because on the other side, his brother is trying to take his life. I mean come on - who's going through more heartbreak and heartache here, really?
I thought you'd agree with me! 😃😉
On a final note for today's epi, the immediate concerned look on Devu's face the moment he woke up in the morning was So cute! How cute he looked when he woke up and his concern for his Kaju just added to his cuteness! SO adorable! 😳
And now, Tomorrow, as per the preview, I would like to continue this DK Milan Katha - and also END it - with a LONG hug.
Ab to Kaju ko maan na hi padega b/c Devu is smart - he knows the only place left to go to really convince her is the Mandir! 😃 Lekin as smart as you may be Devu dear, kam se kam mandi mein toh apne joote utaro! 😆
Ok...aaj ki katha yehin par khatam hoti hai, kal main phir vapis aaoungi to continue this Milan...
BUT, before I go....
Apu, once again, you've outclassed yourself...Hats Off To You My Dear...you really are the only actor that has ever been able to elicit such an emotion roller coaster in me. Your work deserves an applause (👏), a standing ovation, and an Oscar in my book. You mesmerize me with your talent...you've completely blown me away. You never seize to amaze me with each day that passes. You prove yourself to be better and better with each day that passes - even when we believe there isn't the possibility of "better" with your performances. Thank you for all that you do. I love you!
Surveen. I don't know what to say. You've really come into your own. You've embraced the escence of Kaajjal. Your performance gets better with each passing day. You compliment Apurva perfectly, and the two of you together create magic on screen. I applaud your HUGE improvement over the past 7 months as you've become the character you play. The emotions you portray as Kaajjal aren't easy to come buy, and you do it with such finesse. Your performance is commendable.
HATS OFF TO YOU BOTH! 👏
Ok, thats it from me, until...later today!
Love,
DEV KI DEEWANI,
~Payal
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