A two-chapter story on the current leap track of Imlie as I sway between enjoying well-made episodes and the crying over how out of character they've made our Aryan Singh Rathore. The story reflects that as he hangs between being out of character and in character!
The Parting Gifts
*** trigger warning: dark main character with suicidal tendency ***
Pagdandya - Present Day, Outside Meethi's Home
Imlie stroked Cheeni's hair in a zigzag pattern, trying to soothe her down to sleep. But the little girl had other ideas.
"Imlie?"
"Yes Cheeni?"
"School is fun, bohut too much fun," she giggled excitedly. "I went and learned something from all the classes while Naani talked to the teachers."
Imlie's heart ached a little, Meethi had gone to get Cheeni admitted to a school in the nearest town. That school was better than the local one in Pagdandya but legitimacy was an issue. Cheeni had no birth certificate. For the first time in 5 years, she contemplated a move back to a city. Cheeni deserved the best education. Can Imlie be a coward and deprive her of that? But she recalled Malini's face, Aryan's face and tried hard not to imagine their faces together even though that one news clipping burned her thoughts every single day. Cowardice was nice.
"Imlie, where are you lost?"
"I'm right here, Gudiya," the name slipped out as she hugged the tiny body closer to herself. They were lying on a cot outside their house and the sky was shining with bright stars.
"Do you know what that is, Imlie?" Cheeni said excitedly as she pointed at a star. "I heard it in school today when I was waiting outside a class! It's called Dhruvtara, it guides people in the right direction!"
"No it doesn't," Imlie replied automatically, flinching a little at a once cherished memory.
"Were they lying in school then?" Cheeni's eyes widened. Uh no. Trouble.
"No no, they don't lie. They are right, only it is supposed to guide you but you can't put your faith in it, because sometimes in your darkest night, he leaves you alone, hides behind a storm cloud so dark that it consumes you too, then you lose yourself, no, Cheeni, never trust in any Dhruvtara. Use a compass, or better trust in your own sense of direction."
"Imlie?" Cheeni yawned.
"Yes?"
"I've no idea what you just said. So many words," she yawned again. Imlie laughed. "And may you never find out my baby, now go to sleep, I'll sing you a lullaby."
***
Delhi - Present Day, Rathore Mansion
Aryan considered sticking his whole head inside the freezer when he found the ice dispenser empty. His jaw was throbbing. Then his eyes landed on the stack of frozen food and he grabbed a pack of nuggets. His nephew lived on these junks. Good lad. He could hardly feel the cold though, when he pressed it under his chin. He increased the pressure until a soft wince escaped his lips. Better. He knew he'd become a glutton for pain and punishment and it was unhealthy. F*** that, nothing in my life is healthy.
"Aru?"
He cursed inwardly, if his mother was awake at this time then it meant she was waiting for him only.
"Ma?"
"Did you just arrive," she came forward and glanced at him dressed up, "or are you leaving now?"
"Both," he replied shortly and threw the pack of nuggets back in the freezer. "See you in the morning."
"Wait, Aru, wait, listen to me," Narmada pleaded. "You need to stop Aru, what are you doing with your life? You spend all your nights out, doing God knows what, this is not the right way to live! You were my zimmedar son and now look at you! When was the last time you even went to work?"
"Kaisi zimmedari?" he demanded, "Biwi hai mera? Baccha hai? Nothing, nada, I don't have any responsibility, Ma. All I have is a truckload of money. So, I'm going to spend that money and have some good time, anywhere I want, with whomever I want, doing whatever I want. You can't stop me."
"I know I can't, but I can ask," she was in tears now. "What about your nephew? Don't you care about him?"
"Ma, my nephew has parents, parents who made it abundantly clear that my influence was not welcome in their kid's life."
"Aru, you know Arpi didn't mean it like that," Narmada sighed. "And what was she supposed to do, you were covered in bruises and blood."
"Whatever Ma, don't really care," he put his sunglasses on, he knew he looked like an absolute douche wearing those flashy glasses at 12.30am. He hesitated a little before kissing his mother's head, "Go to sleep, Ma. Don't waste your worries on me, you've a complete family with your daughter, son-in-law and grandkid. Let me be."
He pretended not to see her wiping the corner of her eyes as he strode out of the house.
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