Suprabhat Bhagininno! 🌻🌺🌻
Thank God Bappa! They actually have a new verse for the navra baiko jodi and I hope they don't go back to that cringy anjaan rishatay again except for family 😅
Thank God Bappa! For the most important sentence has been Spashthly spoken -- "Aapke dimaag me bhoosa bhara hai" 😂😂😂 it was more important to say this, Sai, than even saying I love you!
And thank God the man accepted, "Mere sar me bhoosa bhara hai" 🤣
Ab diagnosis ho gayi hai toh please start the treatment.😝
So, the episode had friendly vibes... The slip up of "Wo akeli Kahan jayegi" is recorded and will hopefully find an answer -- pleasant or not -- later.
Today, to me, the word of the day is: Hesitation. Two contrasting scenes played out but so deeply connected to one another. The word that stands out is the "hesitation" -- for all the four lives involved in this story. The hesitation of accepting the truth of life in one and the hesitation of acknowledging the acceptance in the other..
One may spend years of their life trying to understand love -- because love continues to bring constant challenges and conflicts for its renewal. It is not a feeling that can be acquired and stored away. It is something that needs to be won over and over again. Which is why some people are so guarded against it -- they don't want heartbreak and condition themselves to believe they might be better alone and they don't need love. But love is not something you can resist.
Sai's resistance is strong yet weak -- may be I should say she is able to show it as strong. There is no denying that she's beginning to grow deeply attached to Virat -- I don't think it is love yet because there is so much hesitation. But there is a pull, a very, very visible attraction now and also a very mild feeling of expectation. She doesn't express for the reasons known, but it is there.
It is said that if someone hesitates to choose you in love, you must know they are not meant for you -- that truly applies to Bade Bhai ki wife in context of her expectations from her husband's cousin and imaginary husband. There was no love to begin with (more later)
But, in case of Sai and Virat, the hesitation is of acknowledging the choice that has been made due to the fears. It is unlike the reaction that a human mind comes up with when a visible threat is in sight - for eg: screaming and running away from a lizard when you are petrified 😅 (sometimes, falling straight into zimmedari arms, yes😂).
The hesitation arises from unseen issues like fear of abandonment or the fear of intimacy, of being controlled or even losing one's identity to the other. It would keep someone from acknowledging the 'love' that is already there.
Today the navra baiko finally had deeply intimate moments and thankfully it looked effortless too and it was a definite jalebi making contest where they decided to finally hold hands and make one big jalebi together 😂😂 but they were able to reconnect their snapped wires.
Right from tending to her feet, to the slight annoyance at Aai getting credit for the care 😅 to the sudden palpitation at hearing her say "Main Kisi aur se bhi pyaar Karti hoon" and then the crestfallen "oh I thought so" to the tender feeding session -- Chavan Saheb got it all correct, today.
Also perfectly bowled his "Mujhse bhi Nahi" ball (Mujhe pyaar do, mujhe pyaar do, dil bekarar hai pyaar do... playing in the back ground 😆)
I am glad and rather surprised that Sai managed to answer it coolly after overcoming her initial visible frozen moment with, "Ho Sakta hai, Aapke sapno mein" I almost thought, she'd say "Didi tera devar deewana" and send the man flying like a frenzied ostrich. But no, the answer was not so heartbreaking either for the "Ho Sakta hai na..." attached to it.
It was also a veiled reminder that it is he who needs to dream and change things in the ground. The wall was placed by him -- Sai has only added the bricks to fortify it. If he needs her to pull down that wall, he will have to remove the base on which it stands to make it crumble in one go... But he will have to begin removing one brick at a time to breach it wide enough to cross over -- I think today was a start. ❤️
But Sai, Sai, now if you find Chavan Saheb unwilling to wake-up, turning and twisting too much on the other side of Sinhagadh, you must know you're visiting him in his dreams 😂 don't do it too often but, he anyway daydreams at work most of the times 😉
I loved the fact that they are both 'aware' of their mutual gaze. They -- Sai mainly -- are not breaking the eye contact due to awkwardness anymore, there is no shift in the face but just holding each other in the moment like looking at self in the mirror-- that is where passion ignites - a definite sign of progress. Today, their gaze did more than that -- the blowing on her feet and the very palpable desire. The platonic stage of the relationship is officially over.
Those morsels of love, the hesitation, the offer to withdraw and the rightful holding back and finally the assurance, "Mujhe bura Nahi lag Raha hai"... "mujhe accha lag Raha hai"...
It was significant how the comparison made to her Aaba was today an indication of moving on -- "Kisi aur ne khaana Nahi Khilaya". Chalo, Chavan Saheb thinking, he's accomplished another 'first' with Sai -- waise must say Chavan Saheb doesn't miss the cues in such times. Baiko said Aaba used to feed me when I would study and he got down to it immediately saying 'i understood' but ultimately padai toh Kuch aur hi ho gayi 😉 kitaabein bohat si padhi hongi tumne, magar koi chehra bhi tumne padha hai... Nazar se..😛
Oh and he offered to dance too 😅 he wouldn't want her to dance with someone else first.. 'dance for/due to' se hi itna drama ho gaya, Bappa!
But well, thanks to Sai's positive way of rejecting the 'mujhe pyaar do' request, he's now verbalising his insecurity in words to an extent -- "Alta Apne Pati ke liye Nahi lagaya but Aai ke bete ke liye lagaya"😂 Chavan saheb is good at identifying jalebis that didn't go perfectly round 😂🤣 and of course the million dollar, "aap IPS kaise bane? (Yehi sawal toh hum last 65 episode se pooch rahe Hain 😂) dono ek hi toh Hain" 🤩🥳🥳
Good mood mein he understands the jalebis and he happily swallowed this one too!
Now, only if he takes it a step forward to tell her the context to his "mujhse bhi Nahi?" question of the pyaar... Doesn't he gauge that the walls of the fort are extremely permeable. Only light showers of sincere love will eventually do the trick...
But, the man has Aniket on his mind -- even giving away that he has checked out the competition -- Sai is smarter than you think! 😂 But Chavan saheb actually lied! 😯 Pyaar me insaan kya kya Nahi Kar jaata -- nothing as compared to a navra petrified of his Baiko's belan throwing and sar pe plate maarna skills 😂😂😂😂
But jhooth ki umar toh ginti ki Hoti hai... I can't wait for next week. Bappa shappat, I have never found any other next week teaser such a cliffhanger as this one is! 🤣😂🤣😂 Please, come soon next week!
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Contrary to common perception, I like the fact that there are a couple of added scenes between Virat and Vahini. It is much needed to bring in a gradual closure -- it can only slowly happen unless an incident causes Virat to snap all ties as a reaction. I am sure all of us who are discerning of the story would agree that there was no hint of guilt or pull that Virat felt for Patralekha. It was just like a well wishing family member --not even a friend -- advising her to accept her life and not give up on hope.
Her "Maine bhi Atla lagaya, Kisi ne Nahi Dekha... Main Badi bahu hoon, rudrabhishek Karna Mera haq tha, Sai ne cheen liya... Main yahan kiske liye hoon... Kya tum karte ho -- parvaah"(actually singing, mujhe pyaar do mujhe pyaar do Dil bekarar hai pyaar Do..😅) were such open evidences of her delusional state, backed by "Samrat ke liye mere mann me koi feeling nahi hai.."
So aadarniya Didi, you consider yourself Badi bahu as the "first wife" of your imaginary husband 😂😂
I thought I would feel some sympathy for her today.. obviously, she's aware no one loves her and she's lonely because she knows she doesn't love anyone either. It will be foolish to think there is any love anyone has for her. It's a very simple trade off of use and throw -- who gets thrown first will be revealed later.
The scene brings out the exact nature of this woman, who wants to portray herself as a victim. Why don't I blame Virat for her state -- she's responsible for the choice she made back then as much as she is responsible for the state she is in. She can clearly see that her imaginary husband is really Sai Ka Pati in every which way. She knows the hesitation he felt in accepting her back then was strong enough for him to abdandon his pursuit of her and so, he is definitely not worthy of her love. Not that she has any love, actually but even if it is hypothetically assumed.
The conversation was an eye opener for Virat because she was brutally honest to his face. Samrat means nothing to her. She is not waiting for Samrat. "Main suhagan hoon bhi ya Nahi" was not even meant for Samrat -- she is talking about her imaginary marriage because she married the mannequin of Virat and not Samrat. And so, that is all she has now -- the mannequin in her imagination because Virat has moved on and accepted his new life.
His advice to her about accepting the twist of "Zindagi" was a very genuine one. But he knows too that she's not up for it. And if you think of it, her hesitation towards her marriage to Samrat is enough to conclude that Samrat doesn't deserve her too, at this point.
I loved, however, the fact that he left his concern for vahini in the balcony and entered his room like there had been no interruption. That space in that bedroom needs deep sanitising and a big barbed wire at the door when the occupants are inside 😅
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As we live our years, the tragedies or injustices to that we meet can stunt our hopes and the willingness to trust, pushing us into an abyss of denial and deep hesitation in taking the step forward.
But, actually the only thing one must really do is to keep grabbing opportunities to take the big leaps without looking back. The walls only exist in the minds where we can't see what we have already achieved in the process...
And of course a bad day with a cuppa of coffee ☕☕☕ or tea 🍵🍵🍵 is better than a good day without it. Seriously! Add those free hugs 🤗🤗🤗 and lots of love ❤️❤️❤️ toppings and you are set!
Every morning deserves a second chance! Le hi lo.
Jump! But apni Hasi ki hifazat zaroor, zaroor karna! 💖
❤️ J
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