Sajna Ve
**Prerna and Anurag are engaged by their families.. while Prerna being self reliant works for Rishabh Bajaj.. she works as speech therapist for kukki.. Bajaj is not trying to destroy Basu openly but certainly creating a few troubles here and there for senior Basu in business..**
Prerna was free from her work early today.. looking at the car parked outside she knew that Mr. Bajaj is home early as well.. she looked for her phone to book for a cab only to realize that she has forgotten her phone in the backyard while playing with kukki.. she walks back into the garden only to hear some hard sounds coming from the practice area.. she peeped in only to see Rishabh practicing his kick boxing and in turn hurting himself aswell.. she got teary to see him burning in anger god only knows what was wrong with this man.. one minute he would be sweet as honey smiling at her thanking her for her efforts with kukki, making her go weak in her knees with his demeaner and next moment he would look at her as if his eyes are blaming her for something bad that she has done to him..
without thinking any further she rushed and stood next to him with bottle of water.. she extended her hand softly saying “Bas kariye Mr. Bajaj.. khud ko aur kitna dard doge..?"
He ignores the water saying “Mere dard se kisko farak nahi padta Dr.Prerna toh aap bhi yahan se jaiye aapki duty khatam ho gayi hai.. ghar jaiye rest kariye..”
“Mujhe farak padta hai..” she fumbled and covered up “I mean mujhe aur aapki family ko farak padta hai Mr. Bajaj.. yahan aise log hain jinko apke dard se dard hota hai..”
He gave her a sarcastic smile and mocked at her saying “ya right.. sabko farak padta hai.. Lekin sirf isiliye kyunki I am of their benefit..kisi ke liye ATM machine hoon.. toh kisi ke liye golden future ki ticket..” he said throwing away the water bottle in anger..
“Aksar hume gusse mein apne aas-paas ka pyar nahi dikhta Mr.Bajaj.. kabhi thande dimaag se sochkar dekhiyega.. kya pata jis pyar ko aap pichle kuch saalon se duniya bhar mein dhundh rahe ho voh kahin aur aapka intezaar kar raha ho.. kya aapke liye Sneha kaafi nahi apne jeene ki vajah banane ke liye..?” Prerna softly asked and left a confused Rishabh behind thinking “Mujhe aapki baatein kabhi samajh kyun nahi aati doctor..? aapki nazar kuch aur keh rahi hoti hai aur aapke lafz kuch aur..”
He picked up his robe and left towards the lounge.. he was about to go to his study but he stopped behind a pillar seeing Massi and Tanvi there.. he was about to turn and go but when he heard his name he stopped..
“Rishabh aajkal bohot zyada disturbed hai.. ghar aane ke baad gayab ho jata hai.. Office ke staff se pata chala ke aajkal voh meetings mein bhi ajeeb se mood mein rehta hai.. infact kaafi loss hue pichli 2 deals ke na hone se..” Maasi said..
“Sab humari galti hai Mom.. humein pata tha ke Rishabh ke yahan aane ka kya maqsad tha.. hume pehle dhyaan dena chahiye tha ke Basu family ko milke voh emotionally weak ho jayenge.. you should have forced him to get married to me before coming here..” Tanvi said complaining to her mother making Rishabh smirk as their selfishness.. but what they said next shocked him as hell.. “aap jaldi kuch kariye mom.. lekin uske pehle Kukki ki therapist change karni hogi.. yeh Dr. Prerna ka Rishabh ki taraf behavior dekh ke mujhe aisa lagta hai jaise voh pyar karne lagi ho Rishabh se..”
“Dr.Prerna mujhse pyar karti hai..?” Rishabh whispered to himself and Started going to his room in anger.. he stopped at his door only to hear Maasi saying..
“Aap bhool rahi hain Tanvi ke hum yahan Rishabh Bajaj ki baat kar rahe hain.. voh itna ruthless hai ke Prerna usse pyar toh kya dosti tak ke khwaab nahi dekh sakti.. he is immune to all those emotions now.. voh doctor jitna chahe utna try karle lekin humara Rishabh nahi aane vala inn sab baton mein.. Rishabh Bajaj doesn"t know how to love someone..” Maasi said making Tanvi smile and Rishabh think in pain how easily everyone around him thinks of him to be so stone hearted that he cant even feel any love now..
Saajan saajan main karun
Mhaaro saajan jeev jadi
Soorat likha doon, jood le
Baachun ghadi ghadi
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It has been a week that Rishabh has come across the fact that Prerna might be in love with him.. all this time he was making sure that she is no where close to him.. even if he sees her in the corridor he walks away in the other direction.. While on the otherhand, his behavior was worrying Prerna a lot.. Even though Rishabh was hell bent on pushing her away she kept checks on his routine in her own way..
It was late Evevning when both Rishabh and Prerna were at bajaj mansion.. Prerna was just winding up for the day while Rishabh sat in his study holding his head that was bursting due to restlessness.. He looked up when he saw a steaming mug of coffee in front of him.. his gaze traced the arm only to find a non-plussed Prerna standing there.. He was surprised to find her there..
“Confusion mein baad mein ghoorna lena Mr.Bajaj.. Pehle apne dimaag ko thoda rest dijiye..” Prerna said in a sarcastic way placing the mug near his hand..
“Mujhe koi coffee nahi chahiye.. aur aap iss waqt yahan kya kar rahi hain Dr.Prerna..? aapke sessions toh 4 baje finish ho jate hain na..?” Rishabh said in a rude manner..
“Sneha is a child.. as a therapist I have to deal with her mood swings and yet keep her stress free.. mujhe pata hai mujhe aapse poochna chahiye tha.. lekin agar main aisa karti toh aap phir aaj mere jaane ke baad hi ghar aate..” she replied in an equally rude manner surprising him..
“and why do think you affect me at all Dr.Prerna..? aapke yahan hone na hone se mujhe koi farak nahi padta.. yahan roz aana aapki job hai and I am paying you pretty well for that.. mujhe isse zyada koi baat kyun discuss karni hogi aapse.. main aapke timings dekhke kyun aunga apne ghar..?” he asked with his jaw tightening..
“Kyunki darte hain aap.. darte hain kisi ke apnepan se.. kisi ke kareeb aane se.. main jaanti hoon ke aapko pata hai ki main aapse shayad pyaar karne lagi hoon.. par main yeh kehne se aur maan-ne se darti nahi hoon aapki tarah..” Prerna said as a matter of factly..
“Aap shayad bhool rahi hain ke 2 mahine baad aapki shadi hai Dr.Prerna.. aur mere paas iss pyaar vyaar ki bakwaas ke liye bilkul time nahi hai Prerna.. jao yahan se aur akela chhod do mujhe..” he said in a frustrated tone.. He expected her to retort back or atleast say something but next moment he froze when Prerna kept his scrapbook in front of him.. She has very neatly taped those torn pages with cellotape and made them readable again.. He remember tearing it off in anger and dumping it in the backyard..
“Pyaar ko aap toh kam se kam bakwaas nahi keh sakte Mr.Bajaj..jis insaan ne kabhi itna toot ke pyar kiya kisi se ke uske pyaar ke dhoke ki aag mein aajtak jal raha hai voh pyar ko bekaar nahi keh sakta.. mujhe pata hai maine galati kari aapki personal scrapbook dekh kar.. lekin ismein Sneha ki mom ki photos aur aapki mom ki photos dekh kar koi bhi keh sakta hai ke aapko kitni zaroorat hai kisi aise insaan ki jo aapko bata sake ke you are loved and needed..”
Rishabh’s fist tightened as Prerna said that.. he was feeling more humiliated rather than angry because Prerna knew him in and out because of his Scrapbook now.. He at once pushed back his chair and pulled her by her shoulders and spoke in a dangerous voice “Tumhe kisne haq diya meri zindagi mein dakhal dene ka..? main kisi se bhi pyar kar hi nahi sakta hoon..na Menaka se kiya tha.. na tumse kar sakta hoon aur na hi kisi aur se.. mujhe mere haal par chhod do aur chali jao meri zindagi se..” he jerked her away.. She smiled at him and looked at him with tears.. she at once turned and walked towards the door..
She stopped for a moment saying “Fikar hai aapko.. bas maanenge nahi kabhi kyunki aapko lagta hai ki agar aapne kisi aur se pyar kar liya toh aapko ek aur dhokha milega jo aap nahi seh payenge.. aur yeh mujhe kisi scrapbook ne nahi bataya..” She turned and looked at him in the eyes saying “I know it Mr.Bajaj..I can feel the same.. jis tarah aapke pyar ne aapko thukraya ussi tarah mera pyar bhi mujhe khud se dur kar raha hai.. aur rahi baat Anurag ki toh usse meri shadi ka faisla meri family ka tha.. he is the only guy that I have known since I was a kid so even I said yes.. yeh rishta aaj ka nahi hai Mr.bajaj we were bound to get married when we were kids.. I had no choice.. coffee pikar hi sone jaiyega please..” she said in a pain stricken voice..
Rishabh thumped into the chair.. he wiped afew tears that were threatening to fall any moment.. he was surprised at the depth with which Prerna understands his every gesture.. He was getting this kind of care and attention for the first time in his life and that scared him.. he was not able to understand what this feeling was.. if it was love then why didn’t he feel so with Menaka.. and if it is just friendship then why was he so scared to accept it.. “Tum kabhi meri samajh mein nahi aasakti Prerna..” he said sipping the coffee in confusion and distress,thinking of her confession on her imposed marriage with Anurag..
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Mann baawraa hua jaaraha
Kaisi lagan ye lagi
Mujh mein kahin bhi main nahin
Tu hi tu hai mujh mein har kahin
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Next morning
Rishabh was at the reception of his office checking his meeting file for a deal.. He choked onto the water he was drinking when he saw a red rose kept in his file.. He quickly looked here and there and then threw the flower away into the dustbin.. He was walked to his cabin mumbling to himself “dimaag kharaab ho gaya hai iss ladki ka.. peeche hi pad gayi hai..”
A few hours later he was walking into the house when he saw Prerna standing at the entrance on call with someone.. He walked away not looking at her but was surprised when she didn’t do anything to get his attention this time.. he looked at her only to see her busy in a serious conversation with someone.. He got to see a completely new aspect of her personality in the way she was talking on the call..
“aap fikar matt kariye.. mujhe yaad hai ki main yahan apni job ke liye aayi hoon aur main Anurag ke siva kisi aur se shadi nahi kar sakti.. abhi kuch waqt lagega mujhe yahan aur.. aap apna khayaal rakhna kakima..” she said in a very soft and a respectful tone.. Rishabh hid himself behind the piller as she turned and walked away..
“Tum mere liye ek mystery banti ja rahi ho Prerna..” Rishabh thought to himself and went to his home to take some rest before he went to spend sometime with kukki..
NextMorning
Rishabh stood at his doorstep with his jaw hanging.. he saw a big bouquet of roses with a small card saying “Inn sabko samhaal ke rakhiyega kal vale rose ki tarah fenk matt dena..” He sighed in frustration and was about to kick the flowers but then picked them up and threw them in the car asking the driver to drive for his office.. this scene was witnessed by both Prerna and Tanvi.. while one smiled softly the other burnt in jealousy.. as Tanvi turned to go to Prerna and ask her to back off she was informed by a servant that today kukki was visiting the hospital with prerna for her session with a senior therapist..
“Har jagah har waqt mere dimaag mein aur meri aankhon ke aage rehne lagi hai yeh.. jahan jao ya toh vahan khud hoti ya koi nishaani..aafat hai yeh ladki mere liye..” he said to himself.. and looked longingly at his tab.. he knew he was hungry but was very angry on Maasi for asking him to marryTanvi, hence he left without breakfast.. he huffed and got down from the car,making up his mind to settle for a sandwich and tea.. reaching his cabin he was about to order for his sandwich when someone knocked his door..
“lagta hai aaj breakfast milega hi nahi..” he mumbled and ordered the person to come in.. he saw his peon there standing with a tray.. “yeh kisne bheja hai..? I haven’t ordered for my breakfast yet..” he asked with authority..
“Pata nahi sir.. packed lunchbox tha, aapke driver ne diya tha aapko abhi serve karne ke liye.. shayad aaj jaldi mein nashta reh gaya hoga, toh ghar pe fikar toh hogi na aapke khane ki..” the man said and left.. Looking at the plate Rishabh knew this was not made in bajaj mansion.. Once again Prerna’s face crossed Rishabh’s mind.. he had guessed that Prerna might have given her lunchbox to his driver when she came to pick kukki for her advanced session.. he for once thought to throw it away but then it was smelling too good for him to do that.. he made a face and took a bite.. unknown to him that Prerna, who has dropped Kukki for her session was hiding there looking at his expressions and enjoying his confusion..
Kisi raah bhi main chalu, tujhse hi aake milu..
deedar karke tera taaron ki tarah main khilu..
Khata maaf rabba kare, sajde mein tere jhuku..
teri ek hasi pe yaara bina mol hi main biku..
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Following week Rishabh was sitting in the backyard recollecting how whole week Prerna has been making her presence felt around him.. every time he would hurt himself she would be there to stop him or takecare of him.. unknowingly all week he only thought of Prerna but the pain inside him was not going away.. one thing that worried him was her serious conversation.. he was confused at her behavior.. one minute she will be all around him chirping and making his soul happy and the other minute when she is alone she would cry holding the tiny pendant in her chain.. “Kya maqsad hai uska yahan aane ka..? kya dard chhupa rahi hai voh apne andar..?” he asked himself..
He felt a hand on his shoulder but he jerked it away saying “kuch waqt ke liye mujhe akela rehne do Prerna.. main ab akela baith ke kuch soch bhi nahi sakta kya..” but next moment he was shocked when he heard kukki’s giggle..
“Aap Dr.Prerna ko kyun yaad kar rahe hain..?” she said smiling in her hand gestures..
“nah.. nahi beta.. main toh aapke bare mein soch raha tha..” Rishabh fumbled looking away..
“Kukki ussi ki baat kar rahi hai jiske bare aap soch rahe the sir.. vahi jo aajkal aapki har choti se choti baat ka dhyaan rakhti hai.. vahi jo har waqt chhup-chhup ke office mein aake aapko dekhti rehti hai.. vahi jisse duniya se yeh kehne mein darr nahi hai ke voh aapki kitni fikar karti hai..” Mehra said as a matter of factly interrupting the father and daughter duo.. Rishabh looked at him only to see him smiling.. “Sorry to interrupt you both like this sir.. but these are some facts that I think you should also know by now..” he said giving Bajaj a file labeled as Dr.Prerna Sharma..
“Main kuch nahi sunna chahta hoon Mr.Mehra.. you please leave for the day.. meri zindagi mein kisi aur ki jagah nahi hai ab.. and FYI she is engaged already..”
“voh toh pehle hi aapke mann mein hai sir.. aur isiliye maine aapse bina pooche unki saari history nikalva li hai iss file mein.. agar aapka past bura hai toh sir unki bhi kuch majboori ho sakti hai life mein..” Mehra shrugged his shoulders as Rishabh saw him questioningly saying “I think its time for the world to see another side of this ruthless business man..”
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Afew days later In the Evening
Rishabh was all day long thinking of his conversation with Mehra in the backyard that day.. He had not seen through the file that Mehra got him about Prerna because he wanted Prerna to tell him all her obligations and compulsions on her own.. he realized that Mehra was right in a way to say that he was a totally different person now.. he sulk more than he smile now a days.. He smirked at the thought when he compared himself to what Prerna has been doing around him.. “Voh har ek koshish kar rahihai ki main uski taraf react karun.. har waqt mere dimaag mein rehne lagi hai..sab kuch vaise hi kar rahi hai jaise main chahta tha kisi apne se..” he told himself and it was then that he realized that she was giving him a taste of his old life.. He shook his head lightly and smiled looking at his scrapbook laid on his table.. he caressed his mother’s picture with love.. he quickly got upfrom his chair and took his jacket on his arm.. He rushed home looking at his watch thinking of catching Prerna after her session today..
On reaching home he asked the guard who told him that Dr.madam is still here.. he went to get fresh ignoring Maasi and Tanvi.. he quickly went to kukki’s room after changing only to see Kukki asleep while Prerna sat there curled in a ball with a few tears swimming in her eyes.. He reached her with heavy steps.. he had many things to clear off before letting anyone into his life now.. he stopped when he saw her sobbing in the corner..he came by her and kept his hand on her shoulder startling her..
“Aap iss waqt yahan..? voh kukki abhi abhi soyi hai.. main bas ja hi rahi thi..” Prerna said quickly wiping off her tears hiding her weakness from Rishabh.. “Kyun ro rahi thi aap..?” he asked directly..
Not getting any response from her he took her by her hand and took her to the terrace.. not listening to any of her protests.. he settled her on the bench there and settled besides her and looked up in the sky saying “Ms.Sharma aap kehti ho ki aap mujhse pyar karti hain.. par bharosa toh bilkul bhi nahi karti na..? har waqt meri zindagi asaan banane ki koshish karti rehti ho.. par aaj tak nahi bataya ki tanhai mein kisko yaad karke itna roti ho..”
She looked at him as if she was seeing a ghost.. there was not an inch of coldness in his voice rather he spoke all that very calmly..“Main nahi bata sakti kisi ko.. bas itna samajh lijiye ke apni buri kismat pe roti hoon..” Prerna said painfully “Sabke saath hokar bhi akeli hoon.. Apni zindagi ka sabse bada sach main kisi se share nahi kar sakti..” she completed in trance confusing Rishabh like hell..
“Kya matlab..? Pyar na sahi ek dost ki tarah toh bata hisakti ho na..” Rishabh said..
“Dost nahi hain aap mere.. usse bohot badhkar hain mere liye.. yahan aana meri bhul thi.. Kuch din apni zindagi apne hisaab se jeene aayi thi.. par ab choice bohot mushkil ho gayi hai mere liye.. ya toh selfish hokar khud ka sochun ya kisi aur ke baare mein sochkar sab kuch bhul ke chali jaun yahan se chup chaap..” Prerna said crying abit..
Rishabh quickly held her hand asking “Chali jaogi chup chaap ka kya matlab..? aap kahin nahi ja sakti apni job chhod kar..”Colored TextColored TextColored Text
Prerna smiled at him sadly saying “Aapko toh khush hona chahiye Mr. Bajaj.. na main rahungi yahan na aapko koi har waqt pareshaan karega.. Mr. Basu ke mujhpar bohot ehsaan hain aur unke bête se shadi karna meri majboori hai kyunki Anurag ko main pasand hoon..”
“Aur yeh tumhara tareeka hai unka ehsaan chukane ka..? Kya tumhe pata bhi hain ke main kaun hoon..? Mujhe sab sach batao Prerna.. Kya hai aapke mann mein.. Jo pyar ka daava aap karti hain kya nibha payengi meri asliyat jaanke..?” Rishabh said in a frustrated tone..
“Rishtey nibhane aate hain mujhe Mr.Bajaj.. Parivaar hai vahan mera.. jisko fikar bhi nahi ki main zinda hoon ya nahi.. papa ki death ke waqt mujhe pata laga ke meri family ne Mr.Basu ke paas humara sab kuch mortgage kiya hua hai.. I wanted to work and repay but my brothers took the easy way out.. they agreed on getting me married to Anurag against the loan.. main maan gayi thi tab kyunki mujhe lagta tha ke main anurag ko jaanti hoon.. zindagi mein pyar ka ehsaas nahi hua tha kisi ke liye..lekin ab jab aap mile hain toh sab itna complexed hai ki unse kuch bolne se hi dar lagta hai..” Prerna said sobbing..
“Aap aayenge mere saath unko samjhane..?” she asked with a ray of hope in her eyes..
“I cant do this Dr. Prerna.. mujhe vahan dekh kar koi samjhega nahi par aapke upar aur sawaal uthayenge.. aapne apna sach bata diya lekin aap mera sach nahi jaanti..” he said looking at the clouds and sighing at his fate..
"Kya hai aapka sach..?" she asked but her question met with his silence.. “Its Ok Rishabh.. I understand.. jab mujhme hi ab aur ladne ki himmat nahi hai toh koi aur mere liye kyun ladega.. aap kyun ek aisi ladki ke saath aana chahenge jiske sir par itni responsibilities hain..” Prerna said getting up “Kal main ja rahi hoon vapas apni job quit karke.. Anurag ne pehle hi kaha tha ke I wont survive without his name for 6months..”
Pal.. do pal ki kyun hai zindagi
Iss pyaar ko hai sadiyan kaafi nahi
Toh khuda se maang loon
Mohallat main ek nai
Rehanaa hai bas yahaan
Ab door tujhse jana nahi...
Jo tu mera humdard hai
Suhaana har dard hai
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The night was really hard on Rishabh.. he finally got courage and got rid of his so called family when he saw Tanvi mistreating kukki.. after a lot of melodrama Rishabh finally told maasi to leave with her scheming daughter if she wants rishabh to keep paying for their necessities.. Maasi knew this was their final show down and went away to London with Tanvi.. Next morning Rishabh came to prerna’s hospital in a hurry, he looked terrible as if he has not slept all night.. he quickly ran to the dean’s office as he knew he would find Prerna there for the last time.. he sighed of relief when he saw her through the glass door.. he waited impatiently for her to come out and as soon as she stepped out he pulled her to his car not listening to her any word of protest..
He stopped the car when they were on a deserted road.. she got down as soon as he stopped the car.. he got down after her and caught hold of her hand saying “Pyar ka dawaa karke bhaag rahi ho haan..? mujhe yeh care aur apnapan jata ke dhoka hi diya na tumne bhi..” Rishabh said in anger pinning her to the car..
“Maine dhoka diya..? apna dil khol ke rakh diya kal maine aapke aage.. aur aapne.. aapne kya kiya..? darr gaye mera saath dene se.. apne liye toh pyar chahiye aapko lekin mere bare mein sochna bhool gaye aap Mr.bajaj.. mera haath thaam ke sabko jawaab dena padega aapko.. apni family ko,apni beti ko aur saari duniya ko.. mera saath chahte hain aap par apna sach nahi batana chahte mujhe..”
That led Rishabh to extreme now.. he jerked her away shouting “Aapke liye kal chup raha main.. humare saath aate hi mujhse zyada jawaab aapko dene padenge prerna.. aap nahi jaanti mera past.. voh Anurag nahi jaanta ki aapko unke naam ki koi zaroorat nahi hai aur na hi voh kabhi yeh samajh payega kyunki power ka nasha Basu Family ke sir pe chadh ke bolta hai..Main yahan Moloy Basu ko barbaad karne aaya tha Prerna kyunki uss aadmi ne mujhe tab akela chhoda jab mere paas koi nahi tha.. Aapka precious Anurag Basu mera step brother hai aur Moloy Basu unfortunately mere Father.. he ditched my mother for money..” Rishabh spat with extreme hatred in his words and his eyes burning with fury..
It all came as a big blow to Prerna.. it took her afew minutes to register what Rishabh has claimed.. she looked at Rishabh who sat on his knees sobbing badly.. and the only question in her mind was “If she was ready to leave everything behind and move ahead with him..” she bent besides him and hugged him saying “I’m sorry Rishabh.. maine itna hurt kiya aapko..maine aapko galat samjha.. mujhe farak nahi padta ki aap Anurag ke bhai ho ya nahi.. par main vahan har waqt uske saath nahi reh sakti yeh jaante hue ke mere dil pe aapka naam likha hai.. mujhe bhi apne saath aane do.. ek mauka do mujhe ki main aapke pyar ko feel kar paun..”
Prerna just hugged him tightly and sobbed in his arms letting out all her pain and taking away his aswell.. He looked deep into her eyes and sealed the deal with a very gentle yet passionate kiss making her moan in his hold.. he kept on kissing her till she was not able to breathe.. coming out of the kiss he hugged her close trying to believe that this is not a dream.. They never said those three words of love but they knew each other now.. It took them afew hours to finally decide and move to Delhi together toget hold of their lives away from where they both felt vulnerable.. They both felt weak and vulnerable infront of Basu Family to start afresh and shape their new lives together.. So they stepped out and started sticking the torn pieces of their lives together in Delhi..
Noor chaand mein hai naya, Nayi hai fiza mein nami
Tum jo aaye thhe naa meri, Zindagi mein thi har kami
Jab se teri sangat hui Duniya meri jannat hui
Badalne lagi rut jaise Khuda ki ibadat hui
Sajna ve, Sajna ve
Rabba tu hi apna ve
Dekhe mere naina jisey
Tu hi woh sapna ve
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