If there's one thing that stayed with me from this episode, it was Hanuman's hurt....so very beautifully enacted by Anirudh👏
Since yesterday I've been thinking about expectations....the expectations that form when you love someone.....you start expecting some things without even realizing it.....Hanuman too was overcome by these expectations today.....expectations make you hope....and that makes you vulnerable as well.
HS's emotions were so jumbled in that scene.....it built up from the humiliation of watching that CD, comments being passed comparing him to Ashok.....seeing Babita's state....all of it would hurt anyone.....yes, even a person otherwise as sorted as HS....he is but human at the end of the day....aur pehle kuch khone ko nahin tha......but now he's formed love and attachments again.....toh dukh bhi hota hai.
He followed Babita into the room and hurt as he was, he tried to focus on her hurt, tried to give her strength to brush aside all this.....and then the hurt overcame him enough for him to wonder about his place in Mini's life.
I think the moment the scene really kicked into high gear was when Mini walks into the room and instantly runs to console Babita.....since yesterday, there has been a sense of no one even thinking about HS's emotions in passing.....yes ofcourse the old memories would be a huge blow to Babita but even Mini never spared a thought for how HS would feel about it.....for some reason, in that scene, I felt a sense of hurt emanating from him over that neglect....and that is the hurt that manifested itself towards him asking Mini if she even wanted this wedding to happen.....I got this acute sense of HS feeling adrift in that moment.....his equation with Mini was his anchor.....rock solid for a long time except for that one spell in b/w.....Babita is the one that has been on shakier ground with him longer but he counted on Mini more....hence the expectations from Mini more......and somehow she let him down in this scene.....that is where his hurt was coming from.....he felt alone.....daughter was there for mother....and he couldn't help but wonder about his place.....if there even was a place for him.....and that is why he wondered if Mini could indeed hurt him.
HS-Mini have clashed before also....they both have tempers, they are both stubborn....but what was different in the past was the stage their relationship was at......since the father declaration, they never really took the chance to know each other more.....they instantly fell into a pattern and made presumptions about each other......presumptions that got challenged today as HS saw a numb and confused Mini in this CD incident.....perhaps he was looking for assurance.....a definitive declaration from Mini....and it never came.....hence the hurt churning inside him......it really was the most heartbreaking part of the epi.....the way he asked Mini in that heartbroken voice to tell him what she really wants.....and Mini's hurt face in response......where there is immense love, there is such a capacity to hurt as well.
As for Babita.....she managed to burst out with all her years of stored resentment, but what's the point....she's going to guilt trip about it all next day.....LOL.....although I liked the dialogue about how the Khuranas managed to twist her majboori into mahaanta and she started believing in her own mahaanta and the baggage of being ideal bahu.
And maybe it's just me....but it pinched me that in the end, Mini was moving towards the Khuranas for a bit.....is it just that she's at a vulnerable stage now that she feels more of a pull towards her grandparents or is this how it's going to be? Whitewashing of the Khuranas ka behavior to keep the side drama going? The Mini who used to blast all the Khuranas for their selfishness and petty thinking is now all torn cuz Babita told them to buzz off? Ah well.
Bechara HS.....shaadi waale day pe jaake hi, he got to listen to a full rehash of Babita's emotions throughout her marriage to Ashok.....her craving to go live with Ashok, her loneliness etc.....what timing.....lol
Anyways, for now, I want to see how HS and Mini manage to bridge this chasm that's opened up between them.....Mini's tendency to try to "solve" things by just laughing away the tears is not the solution....and HS's hurt runs super deep....clearly they both need to open up to each other about their understanding and expectations of each other.....this family dynamic is very naazuk....it cannot run on presumptions and skewed equations....Babita-Mini cannot exist in a silo where HS is always an afterthought.....HS-Babita cannot run a marriage on the moods or whims of what Mini wants....LOL@ Babita trying to break off the wedding again today....kya bolun....anyways.....and HS-Mini need to have frank conversations about what being father-daughter actually means in this family.
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