Feelings: Status Unknown
By: nlisa.
The story plot is mine, based on their first night in their apartment. The characters belong to the show's writers and creators. No profit is made off of this story. It's merely for pleasure.
Avni's POV:
I was so lost. Truth be told, I've been lost for many years, but this loss was more internal. I didn't know what or how to feel.
I've never felt these emotions before. I mean, if I was to think of it logically, then it would make sense. There had been no boys in my life before him. Well, except for Ali. But, I met Ali when I was young and we got seperated when we were young. I knew that he was my best friend and that was that.
But, Neil... It was a whole spectrum of emotions with him.
I couldn't really put it into words, I thought as I watched him sleeping next me. This was out first night in our home. Neil aur Avni ka ghar. That's what he had called it. I smiled a little. I've only had two homes. One with Ayesha ma and one with Neela ma. And now, I have another one. One with Neil.
I flexed my toes and grazed his foot. This simple movement sent a heat through my body and I moved my toes back. I looked at his face, aware that mine is flaming red. I was so sure that he could feel it, given that my cheek was resting on his hand.
And that made me blush more.
It felt so intimate; lying on his hand with his legs so close to mine that if I were to flex my toes again, I would touch him.
This was so confusing. I had to get up. And I tried to. But, Neil decided to move. His hand griped my shoulder, his body rolled towards me and his head was dangerously close.
I could feel his breath fanning on my face. I studied his face for a minute. He looked so young sleeping like this. His face was so innocent. There was none of that teasing smirk that I had been seeing for the last 24 hours. His big brown eyes were closed and so they were not staring at me and into me, like they have been doing recently.
I gulped. There was that damn heat again. And now, my heart was also pounding. So loudly that I was sure that Neil, being the top cop - I rolled my eyes at this- could hear it.
I gently tried to lift his hand off of my shoulder. I was awkwardly perched above him, and I felt myself slipping. Oh! f**k, I was so close to him. I gulped yet again.
He moved again. And rolled away from me.
I sighed of relief, yet felt strangely cold. " You're just hungry, I thought to myself. Yep, that was it. I was hungry and I needed some food in my system.
I got up and stalked to the bathroom.
Once the door was closed, I leaned against it and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair was in disarray and my cheeks were red. It was a good thing Neil was sleeping. I couldn't imagine him looking at me when I looked like a homeless person on a cold winter night.
I got in the shower and tried to drown my thoughts under the water.
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Neil's POV:
I heard the door click shut and opened my eyes. Rolled on my back, shook my head and laughed at myself. I was so stupid.
I was acting like a teenager.
But that was what she made me feel like I was. A teenager trying everything to get the attention of his crush. Avni didn't seem to be returning the attention though.
But giving up wasn't an option. I remember the last few days when she was living at Neela ma's, and had refused to come back home. With me.
I felt so lonely even with the whole family surrounding me. I felt alone at the police station where I usually seek refuge.
Nothing I usually did or liked distracted me. My thoughts were with Avni and she was all that mattered. Her absence resounded one thing loud and clear. I couldn't imagine my life without my wifey anymore.
I know our marriage had an unconventional start but that didn't matter. What mattered was that she was still here in this relationship. The sindoor on her forehead and the mangalsutra on her neck showed that she was mine. Every time she dressed herself, she chose to be mine. I took that as a good sign.
But, I still wanted to hear from her mouth those 3 magical words. I wanted her to tell me that she loved me. No matter what I will make her tell me how she feels.
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Indian Mythology
