He Spoke the Unspoken...She Broke being the Reason
Yesterday!!!!
For the first time saw a pure soul's confession
For the first time saw a pure soul's confusion
A teary applause for the powerhouses, Meejay proved that they need no special settings, need no special ambience, need no special costumes to set the screen on fire..
A normal night, abnormal situation, serene calmness, the souls were screaming but I was freezing within myself.
Just that scene I want to share...
Sukor's confession has always been something out of the world...but ... this is not my sukor and there is no confession...
It was a moment where the pure, unadulterated soul, which had to face such a situation where he had to speak those unspoken as she is shaken with those words of Tejaswini.
He spoke what he did not want to speak as he knows his maidam is shaken but after he spoke she was broken not because he spoke but because she was the reason for those unspoken words.
(confusing my lines isn't it, yes first even I too felt confused but slowly got fused into the soul ...that soul which spoke all his heart out)
He knew she was disturbed, she did the unexpected, showed her anger on her little angel... she ran, wanted to run away from everything, to her Suraj but she couldnot as their symbol of love is holding her...but all she wanted is some alone time as life is posing a big question in front of her..
Raaghav the pure soul knew what was going through her, ran behind as the little angel was upset...
She spoke out making him see where he stands but he said he will not leave as she is parishaan!! And he knows the reason of her worry as Amma has told him!!
The shock in her eyes, the shock that he knows and maybe was expecting an affirmative answer and that range of emotions which brought out
I will not accept... Suraj is still in every part of me, he is the essence of my breath, and I was, is and will ever be of Suraj... You are an outsider, for me and for my daughter so stay away... Her anger, her frustration came out, she calmed,
I thought he would shout but I was taken aback when he said if you are done with your anger can I speak?
Chakor is Chakor she decides that everything is over so she wanted to leave, but the next line, you have spoken, but let me speak now... No... but that pull started to speak those unspoken words, those unshared emotions, his soul started to rattle which came out so calm. He did not crash her on him but did hold her close, he is pure so he did not feel uncomfortable and he spoke... He spoke... She broke at every word of his, as everything was unfolding in front of her she broke as she began to feel that she was the reason...
Those words with such soul soothing modulation...
The first confusing line... Looking straight into her eyes...
Maidam you should marry me, your life will be good with me... she was confused... Amma told this.
You did not want to spend your life with me... You told this, You spoke everything but
What did I do...I did not speak anything, Did I... and thus he spoke , he unfolded those words which made me freeze...
Did I say that... When I look into your eyes, I forget the world...I did not na
Did I say that ...When you smile I just think whether I should even breathe or not...I did not na
Did I say that ---after you came into my life, my life's direction has changed..I did not na
Did I say...When you are not near me, I feel everything around me is blank... I did not na
He spoke those words which was deep inside his soul, and as he spoke she broke for she saw the truth in his eyes, the unadulterated love in his eyes, she could see his heart through those eyes which was looking so innocent, so pure... she broke as she started to realise those emotions, feeling which was not supposed to be... She was breaking...
I started to feel more for him as this carefree, rustic rowdy has so much hidden in his heart, never brought it out as he knew that she was in deep pain and constantly made to remember that he is imposting Suraj and not her Suraj, but at the base of his heart he is yearning for Suraj to come into him... I reminisced those moments when my dude said he has no life of his own as he has become her... he breathes only for her...
I got shaken like Chakor for a sec when she was brought back when he said you are angry with me fine but angry with our daughter... The reality dawned... Dawned upon her she spoke her agony, hiding her shock... he is an outsider to her and her daughter but those words of his, first time he raised his voice not he was angry on her but angry on himself as he knows he is an outsider but his heart does not, as it considers the little angle, that little princess as his own, the bond he is cherishing, relishing which he does not want to forego and the bonding he has created with his Maidam...
Those words reverberating...Galti, Galti, Galti yes he is wrong
For he is loving her
For he wants to start living for her
For he wants to start owing his life for her so that she is his...
When he spoke there was only love, no lust or passion for he was just speaking those unspoken emotions piled within him, which he was concealing as he knows he cannot be her Suraj but... wants to be...
He has done a mistake, he accepts it, its not his mind but his soul (I remembered my dude who never shy to accept mistake)... and that thapad that slap which brought out her anger on herself which was shown on him, disposed self agony in psychological terms!?!
She soon realized this pure soul is not at fault for she was the soothradhari of the whole thing, she was to be blamed and when she said I know something was cooking but could not identify, I am to be blamed and not you... that second his face was shocked, changed as he does not want her to feel guilty (I remembered Suraj when she felt guilt of running away from him during the Benaras track, his expression changed for he cannot make his chakor feel guilty).
She realized that this pure soul has hidden all his words inside and was still with her as he knows his Maidam Ji is always selfless. She felt guilty and she broke as she has unintentionally been the reason for those words which was unspoken but just spoken.
Raaghav stood tall in front of my eyes as even after the slap, he was calm, understanding her agony, her guilt feeling and was wanting to be there for her.
I donot want chakor to feel guilty nor I want Raaghav to feel heartbroken as for one I was sure Chakor will not move on with any melody till she is in harmony which is only with her Suraj,
I am praying to almighty to hear my well spoken words and bring a reason to turn Raaghav into Suraj for otherwise this pure soul will forget to live...
Hope my prayers be a reason for the unspoken to become well spoken!
(Sorry girls... I know it is too long but... Nikki I owe this to you dear are you are the reason for these written words of mine🤗)
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