JNDSD~My take~ Sunday 2.4.17~ Down in the doldrums..
Being in the doldrums is about showing signs of sluggishness. seeing atharv seemingly well.. I was reminded of the phrase in terms of slow progress, as seen through Vividha's eyes.. cv's have shown a degree of realism as regaining memory, a retention of impressions of someone, eventscan be a slow progression.. it will be a daunting wait for Vividha to get back her real Atharv..
People around him reckon he's well even his mother reckons her joy is complete seeing him well. Atharv walks into his room.. alone.. he's unsure if he is all there? Ravish was correct when he told Vividha, wait for the drugs to wear off she'll find her old Atharv. His big. bold eyes appear glazed. He stares vacantly into space sees himself vowing some allegiance to Suman, yes he is Atharv Suman! Suman who diluted stuff that still hold his memories captive .. now he knows it's not the case she.. shouted in his face he is Atharv Sujata ! yes so he is! but beyond that, there is the stumbling block. She... the girl in his dream.. the song always come with her face, depart not from my heart my beloved. The heart takes over as he hauls himself up and his feet carry him to her room.. his eyes behold her fast asleep with Madhav clasped in her arms. Softly he sits at the foot of her bed and studies her.. mother and child his brain signals to the eyes. The heart cries out before being this content sleeping mother she is your Vividha! the one who was in his dreams . his memory triggers off him and Vividha.. those vows he took, that removed all disparities between them that could possibly divide them. yes he can see she was, is Vividha! he smiles his eyes glisten those days will come again.. depart not from my heart my beloved..his soul cries out to an asleep Vividha. Her arm lay off the bed.. awkwardly seen.. as if waiting for him to fold her with his caring touch. His heart is sure she is the one who he wants should never depart from his heart ..yet his mind stubbornly still holds back from him the extent ,nature of their bond.. his heart craves for sweet memories of her with him. his mind refuses to be compromise .How long before he can remember all that they were about?
Mealtimes moments when family come together. Seating is interesting Atharv , Vividha and Uma all sit together . While Ravish sits at the head of the table. Is this as an order of respect? or the fact that the house is called vashisht house ? whatever it is? while all take life in a stride Ravish joins in but shows signs of grief. In contrast Madhav , bless him! adds in some comic relief by teasing Atharv. Calls him grouch! for which Ravish admonishes him , that's no way to speak to elders. Madhav's reply brings up the status and question of who will be Madhav's dad.The boy in his simplistic humorous differentiation explains if he called Atharv dad, Ravish too would have responded and both would be in a muddle! All look on, as Ravish instructs Madhav to call Atharv dad. Madhav wants to know what should he call Ravish? Resigned, he explains, Madhav can call him uncle.. Vividha and Atharv look on at Ravish ,after the announcement .Only a child brings up issues that need fast solutions, where adults tend to procrastinate in unpicking them..
Unknown girl heads towards Vashisht house..finds a vantage point and clicks photos of the family the dining table. One family member that escapes the shot is Madhav. But Madhav fails to escape the outcome of the pat a palm game with Atharv , when he passes out on the floor. Both fathers run to his side, two symbols of protection. Madhav's illness , prompts the doctor to come, once Atharv's DNA is matched treatment would begin. Where Ravish is proactive with the medical side of things . Atharv seeks out Vividha in the kitchen to give her solace and in return receive from her confirmation of disjointed facts and possible prompts to his memory as well. In short his heart carries his feet to place she was.. He comes to tell her he is here for her..some simple questions, was it her as Ramkali.. come to collect DNA samples. Vividha confesses . One look at his face she can see how much he knows not about .. Madhav's illness. But worst still she can read his existing vagueness of their past as well. On the odd occasion like now he shows inference and admits pity he was of not much use when she came as Ramkali.. that she bore the worry of Madhav's illness all alone. With a note of resigned sadness Vividha admits it's in the hands of destiny what it gives and takes..good memories replaced with severed ties .. she has had enough! now she only wants to hang on to what she's got. Atharv's heart feels a mothers's fear and he peers straight into her eyes and almost commands her to believe him.. nothing will go wrong with Madhav! Vividha senses her Atharv in his voice ..
Depart not from my heart my beloved.. seeing her anxious ,to Vividha the old Atharv starts lecturing her about what life taught him. That either one gives up and lets providence play her frivolous games.. or a person chooses and decides to make his or her own destiny. He strengthens her, Madhav is a strong lad watch! how he makes his own destiny.. Vividha smiles as her heart sings amid her worry ,depart not from my heart beloved. Suddenly Vividha and her beloved seem to connect as she tells him, these words, he remembered!! he used to utter them when he was young. Something again smarts within him ,in her face he can see her desire for all his memories to return, Atharv's heart wants to offload his worries with her. He tells her she cannot even imagine how he spent his life, his mind ,his memories all kept captive by Suman. He yearns for the return of his memories! it was a painful loss that cost him being a father to his son! He almost cries out he sees her love..sees it right now! yet fails to understand ! Suman created such a deceptive world round him that now he knows not his bearings! Bitterly Vividha reaches out to him does he feel that now too all around him are duping him? Atharv pours all that he feels for her, her face, her eyes , this very face that lit up the doomed darkness within him, in his distant hazy dreams. Atharv surrenders himself before her, even if she did lie before her now, he would still do all to make her happy.. to reinforce his gush of sentiments ,he almost places his hand on her shoulder..yet something within him pulls him back and he turns and leaves.. Vividha holds tears in her eyes. Heavens!!give me strength getting Atharv back will be along haul... depart not from my heart my beloved..
Doctor arrives, bearer of worrying news..Atharv's DNA is a mismatch. Hence Madhav's treatment looks delayed.. Vividha, Ravish all look shocked.The assumption that all go by, proves negative. Vividha requests for a second test as once may be faulty. But there is no fault. Ravish insists vividha tell the truth. Before all .vividha is too shell shocked! she runs up to her room. Atharv comes and confirms tests are a mismatch .. the way both Atharv and Ravish look at each other is interesting. For Ravish its concern for the truth. For Atharv its Madhav s life when he almost commands Ravish , DNA is needed from Madhav's real father.. hamlet53 3.4.17
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