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Anby this is for you. Sorry for the delay was a bit busy and a bit lazy.
Note: In this story during the jungle scene, naira heard the train noise and got scared.
Kaira OS - Mere Dard Se Badh Kar, Tera Dard Mere Liye
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Phone convo
"Usse shak toh nahi hua Nani", Naira enquired
"Mana kar diya uss ne beta", Rajshri replied
"Kya, lekin ab is plan ka kya faida, jab woh hi nahi", Naira said sadly
"Ab kya karna ", Rajshri asked
"Main soch ke Phir phone karti hun", said naira keeping down the phone.
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"Kya hua Naira Di aap upset kyun hai", asked Mishti
"Karthik ne manna kar diya", naira pouted
"Ab kya hoga hum toh uska birthday manna ne ke liye ja rahe the", devyani asked
"Woh humesha humari family ke liye karta rehta hai, iss baar socha uss ke liye kare, Ab woh bhi nahi hoga", akshara said sadly
"Batoon mein uss ne mujh se kaha ke woh train mein kabhi nahi gaya iss liye socha yeh train trip plan kardo uss ke liye surprise hoga hum usko Kuch nahi bateynge bas saath le kar chalenge , hum sab aaj raat ki train se jayenge kal subhe phaunch jayenge kal, Rishikesh mein Karthik ka birthday celebrate karenge, wahan se uski bhi bahut yadein hai phir shaam ki train se wapas ajayenge. Us ne ane se hi manna kar diya", Naira pouted sadly.
"Lekin woh kyun maana kar raha hai Naira", asked Karishma
"Nani ne kuch nahi batiya chachi, Lekin humein usse mannana hoga, main surprise kharab nahi hone dungi", Naira said determined
"Didi ek baath pucho aap bff ke liye itna sab kyun kar rahi ho, kya woh aap ko ache lagte hai", whispered Mishri so that what she said was only audible to Naira
"Parungi Mishti bahut TV dekhti hai, dimag kharab ho gaya, toh toh bas karthik mera acha dost hai aur uss ne humesha humari bahut madad ki hai", Naira told the younger one who raised and eyebrow hearing her elder sister's reply
"Di aap mujhe batayegi nahi toh mujhe samajh nahi ayega kya, meri height choti hai dimag nahi", Mishti told herself and giggled happy for both her sister and bff.
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"Woh kaha hai Nani", asked naira as soon as she entered her mother's maternal house
"Naira beta aap yahan kyun ayi, hum uss se baath kar rahe hai", vishambar spoke
"Nahi Nanu mein uss mendak ko handel karungi, samjhte hai kya khud ko", Naira huffed and ran up the stairs to Karthik's room and banged on the door. After a minute or so he opened up
"Tum yaha", Karthik asked
"Mera nanhihal hai mera marzi kabhi bhi asakti hun, kabhi bhi ja sakti hun, Lekin tum batao tum humare saath kyun nahi arahe ho", Naira asked
"Main jahan bhi jao, jahan na jao meri marzi, uss se tumhe kya", karthik replied back
"Aye itna bhao mat khao", naira told him
"Mujhe nahi jana, waise bhi tum logon ka family time hai, mein beech mein kyun ao", karthik replied
"Tum family ho karthik", naira replied
"Main family jaisa khoon naira, fark hai", karthik told her
"Tum se kissi ne Kuch kaha kya, main abhi uski class lungi, uska naam bolo", naira asked angrily
"Missing Kuch nahi kaha, yeh sirf mein khe raha hun, yahan sab mujh se pyaar karte hai aur main un se sachai toh badalne nahi wali", karthik replied
"Kuch nahi sunna, saman bandho, tum ne wada kiya meri har bath manno ge, ab mein khe rahi hun tum humare saath jaoge matlab jaoge", naira announced not waiting for his reply, she waked up the cupboard and opened it a, frame fell from the top into her hands, she was about to turn it to see whose photo it was but Karthik snatched it from her hands
"Kissi ne sikhiya nahi tumhe, bina permission ke kissi ki personal chezzon ko haath nahi lagate", karthik told her
"Khud kar lo packing, ek ghante mein sab ho jana chaiye", naira ordered and left the room wondering what could be in the photoframe.
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"Kya hua naira Di", asked Kuhu
"Order de kar ayi hun, ab mein chalti hun Nani, thori aur packing karni hai", replied naira
"Maan gaya chalo achi baath hai", Rajshri replied
"Aap sab wahi arahe hai ne nani Phir hum sab saath railway station jayenge", Naira told and left.
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"Naira Di kya hua, bff maan gaye", Mishti ran to naira and asked her
"Akhir manna hi tha", naira said proudly
"Naira tu ne uske saath zabardasti toh nahi ki", akshara asked
"Arre mumma koyi zabardasti nahi ki, jab humari dosti hui us ne promise kiya ke meri har baath manega toh usse manna pada", naira said
"Isse zabardasti hi khete hai naira, main manti hoon hum sab uske liye Kuch karna chate hai, lekin jab uska man hi nahi usse force karna thik nahi, har insan ki personal space honi chaiye aur humein woh usse deni hogi, yeh bhi ho sakta hai ke woh apni family ke pass jana chata ho.", akshara made everyone understand.
"lekin mumma Maine phele pucha tha ke uske koyi plans hai ya nahi us ne mana kar diya, aur mein toh us ke liye kar rahi hun", naira replied sweetly
"Lekin Naira mami bhi Sahi khe rahi hai", gayu interfered
"Gayu Di mein nahi khe rahi hun mumma galat hai, woh bhi Sahi hai aur mein bhi apni jaghe Sahi, aur waise karthik mera best friend hai", replied naira saying the last part a bit possessively.
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One and a half hour later everyone was gathered at Singhania mansion and headed for the railway station, Karthik, Naira were left since that day one of the cars weren't working so both went on the bike.
"Karthik tum gussa ho", naira asked looking at her feet while sitting at the back seat of the bike", naira asked him cutely.
Karthik turned around to see Naira and than focused back on the road and replied, "nahi"
"Sachi", naira asked smilingly resting her shoulder on his shoulder
"Tum par naraz nahi ho sakta", karthik replied making Naira raise an eyebrow
"Kyun", naira questioned
"Of course marna thodi hai, tumhare haton se", karthik replied and giggled earning an angry glare from naira
"Tum bahut bure ho", naira said slapping karthik's back
"Ouch, but seriously naira are you sure train trip is the right thing, I mean annanya ke birthday par train ki awaz se hi tum uncomfortable thi aur yaha hummein uss se travel karna", Karthik asked and naira smiled happy for Karthik's concern.
"Uss din tumhi ne samjhaya tha ke Jo bhi hai mujhe bhulna hoga, agge badhna hoga, aur waise bhi train ki awaz se problem hai, main ear phones laga kar loud music baja dungi", naira said, making karthik smile
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Everyone reached the station, Naksh, Akshara and shaurya went to get the tickets. Naira and karthik were standing close half leaning on a pillar, that was far away from the train tracks. karthik was observing Naira and noticed how she was shivering and thought of distracting her.
"Toh yeh idea kiss ka tha", karthik asked
"Mumma ne socha family picnic ho jayega aur Rishikesh walon se bhi mil lenge", Naira replied silently praying that he would be buy it.
"Hmm, ache ideas unhi ke ho sakte hai, tumhare dimag mein toh ane se rahe", karthik spoke irritating Naira
"Tumhare birthday ka surprise mein plan karun, credit tum kissi aur ko do", naira mummered to herself
"Tum hi toh nahi bata rahi ho, main itna stupid nahi hoon ke sab mujhe ane ko itna force kar rahe hai, aur main yeh na samjhun ke iske peeche ka reason kya hai, iss surprise ka idea tumhara hai, bas tumhare mun se sunna hai", karthik replied to himself guessing what was going through her mind.
"Mujhe pyaas lagi hai, mein gayu Di se phuch kar aati hun ke paani kaha rakha hai", naira said about to leave.
"Mere pass hai", said karthik removing a water bottle from the bag hung around him and offering her
"Thanks", she said taking it
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Karthik's POV
Mujhe nahi pata mein Sahi kar raha hun ya nahi, bas yeh janta hun ke yeh tumhare liye zarrori hai, tum mere liye apne dar par kabo karne ki koshish kar rahi ho, sirf issliye kyunke mein ne tum se kaha ke mein kabhi train mein nahi gaya, tum ne yeh sab kiya, bina apne dar ke barein mein soche toh kya mein tumhare liye uss din ko muskura sakta jiss din mujhe sab se zyada taqleef hoti hai, kya ta ke tum apne dar par jeet hasil kar sako, mein kal ke din khush hone ka natak nahi kar sakta, krishnaji, ganga miyaa, main yeh sab Naira keliye kar raha hun. Aap please usse Kuch mat hone dijiye ga, uske maan se sara dar nikal dijiye. Mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai teen mahine phele hum annanya ka birthday manna rahe the, treasure hunt mein jab hum dono kho gaye, raat ko train ki awaz sunayi Di aur Naira kampne lag gayi, woh bikharne lagi, main uski woh halat nahi dekhna jahta, janta hoon ka ab bhi woh andar se toot rahi hai, chere par normal expression dikhane ki koshish kar rahi hai, lekin uski ankhe sach bayan karti hai, it is like she is physically here but mentally somewhere else. Ya bhi janta hun ke tumhe bhi Kuch hone laga hai, lekin woh ehsaas kya hai kya tumhe pata hai
End of POV
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"Waise naira train kitne bajye ki hai", karthik asked trying to engage her in a conversation once again
"11:55", naira replied while looking on the floor
"Kaha likha hai mujhe dikhaye nahi de raha hai", replied karthik keenly looking at the floor
"Kya dekhne ki koshish kar rahe ho", asked Naira confused
"Aree tum neche dekh kar timing bata rahi thi toh mein ne socha ke shayad tumhe zammen par Kuch train schedule nazar araha hai", karthik replied smirking
"Mujhe phele se timing ka pata hai", replied naira
"Toh mujhe dekh kar bhi khe sakti thi, mere shkal Itni buri nahi hai, ke isse dekhne ke bajaye floor ko dekh rahi thi", karthik told her
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Naira's POV
Kaise tum se ankhon mein ankhe dal kar baath karun karthik, jhoot pakad loge tum mera, mera chera dekh kar maan samjh jate ho tum, jitna salon mein koyi samjh nahi pieya woh tum Kuch mahino mein samajne lage ho. Meri pasand na pasand sab jante ho, meri smile ke liye har mumkin cheez karte ho, tumhari har aada par mein kurbaan, jiss tarhe tum mere parivar se pyaar karte ho usse dekhti hoon toh aur pyaar ata hai, haan, ab dosti pechee rahe chuki hai, pyaar ho chuka hai, apne mendak se is mendaki ko pyaar ho chuka hai, uski khushi ke liye har haadh par karne ke liye tiyaar hoon, apne har dar ko bhulne ke liye tiyaar hun, bas yeh nahi pata akhir kar uske dil mein hai kya. Kya woh bhi mere liye woh feel karta hai jo mein uske liye karti hun, nahi janti but mein humesha usse pyaar karti rahungi, uski khushi meri dua hai, uska pyaar apne liye nahi jhati, bas uski khushiyon ki wajhe banno yeh jhati hoon.
End of POV
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"Naira, kahan kho gayi ho panch minute hi rahe gaye train ke liye, chalo dekhte hai sab yahan hai ke nahi", karthik got up from the floor and offered his hand to naira to get up, she took it and he pulled her up just then a kid ran into them, and karthik landed on the floor with naira on top.
"Ouch", karthik exclaimed rubbing the back of his head
"Zor se lagi, dard ho raha hai", naira asked cutely
"Nahi iss tarhe girunga toh mujhe dard bilkul nahi hoga", karthik sarcastically replied, karthik tried to get up, but since Naira was so lost into him she stayed in the same position while he moved a bit up until their was no place in between them.
"Yehi rahne hai pura din", karthik questioned her
"Not like I mind", he told himself
"Tum jaho toh I don't mind", naira mummered and got up
"Tum dono yahan ho, train do minute mein aati hogi, chalo jaldi", said akshara and with that the three left
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The train arrived at the platform, everyone went to it, Naira tried forwarding her steps towards it. Karthik noticed her. He felt bad for her, he could have stopped this, he could have disagreed to come, why did he think to overcome her fears, so stupid he was somewhere responsible for what she was going true. Closing his eyes and taking a deep breath his strengthened his resolve about let her overcome his fears, he walked next to her, held out his hand.
"Chalo, ek jaghe kyun khadi ho, train achuki hai, uske jane ka intezaar kar rahi ho, tumhari wajhe se mein apni train nahi miss karuga", he said excitedly and pulled her along with him.
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Both entered the train, karthik noticed she was uncomfortable still.
"Pura train ride khade ho kar guzarna hai", karthik asked
"Chalo bethte hai", karthik took naira by the hand and went near their seats
"Bff mujhe Kuhu ke saath baithna hai, toh aap yahan bethoge naira Di ke saath", asked mishti
"Haan why not", said karthik extremely happy as now he would be easily able to watch over Naira.
"One minute", mishti whispered in Naira's ear and took her seat opposite to them next to Akshara and Kuhu
"HAAPY BIRTHDAY", Naira screamed as it showed 12 on her phone and hugged him tight, forgetting about everything, their surroundings, her past, her fears, all seemed to be gone when she was in his arms, she didn't want any questions so she broke the hug. Akshara, Mishti and Kuhu looked smilingly on to the duo.
Soon everyone started wishing him and Karthik thanked everyone with a smile, but Naira noticed something missing, the sparkle in his eyes each time he smiled wasn't there, this wasn't his real smile. He had it on his face to keep everyone happy, he himself wasn't and that thought saddened her.
"Kahan khoyi hui ho", Karthik asked her
"Ankhe kharab hogayi, samne hoon, tumhe nazar nahi aati", Naira answered sarcastically
"Kaash in dono ko ehsaas hota inke beech kya hai, main janti hun in dono ke dil mein ek dusre ke liye Kuch hai, lekin shayad khae nahi pa rahe hai. Akshara ab tum hi Kuch karo warna tumahri yeh beti aur hone wale damad sau cheezon ke barien mein baath karenge lekin Jo khane hai nahi kahenge, bhagwanji app kuch kijiye", Akshara mummered to herself.
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She closed her eyes but sleep seemed far off. So she opened her eyes and had a look around, Her mother and younger sisters all had slept. Even the random people on the other side were on deep slumber. Suddenly she felt a nudge.
"Need nahi arahi hai", he whispered softly
"Hhmmm", she responded looking at him
"Mujhe bhi", karthik responded
"Kyun", naira enquired
"Kyun, nahi lag sakta. Kuch logon ko plane se travel mein Dar lagta hai. Kuch ship mein travel karne se sea sick hote hai. Toh agar mujhe train se dar lagta hai toh kya", Karthik responded
"Tumhe train se kyun Dar lagta hai", she asked
"Agar train patri se utar gayi, ya dusri train samne akar takar maregi", he spoke innocently and Naira burst out laughing and he looked lost in her.
"Aisa thodi hota hai Karthik, train ride mein darne jaisa kuch nahi", she said in between the laughs.
"Aagar Kuch nahi toh tum itni dari kyun ho. Kya lagta hai nazar nahi ata mujhe, tumhara kampna, tumhara sirf ek jaghe concentrate karke, har taraf na dekhna. Jab hum wait kar rahe the train ki awaz sunte flinch karna. Akhir kyun Naira. Kya mera itna bhi haq nahi yeh janne ka hua kya. Kheti ho best friend hoon tumhara aur Phir bhi secrets rakti ho", Karthik asked pain evident in his voice.
Naira turned her head towards the window not facing Karthik. She began to speak "Seven years earlier, we all had gone for a picnic, mere dost Sukanya ayi thi humare saath. Uska uske boyfriend ke saath breakup hua tha, uske boyfriend ne humein follow kiya. Picnic ke samye usne mujhe cliff se push karna jaha but Sukanya ayi usne peeche se Vicky ke sar par mara aur wo behosh ho gaya, tab sirf mein, sukanya aur gayu Di the. Sukanya nahi batana chati thi yeh sab baki sab ko, usse laga mama usse jail bhej de gi. Main bhi confused thi, ek taraf Sukanya batane se manna kar rahi thi dusri taraf Gayu Di saach bolna chati thi. Humien toh yeh nahi pata tha ke Vicky zinda hai ke nahi."
"Uske baad kya hua Naira", asked Karthik keeping a hand on Naira's shoulder.
"Jiss bus mein hum aye the woh kharab ho gayi, dusri nahi mil, humein suggest kiya gaya ke hum ghar wapas train se jaye, sab ne socha ek different experience hoga. Tha bahut hi different, apne ankhon ke samne apni dost ko maut ke mun mein janne ka experience. Uski maut ka ilzam khud par lagne ka experience. Bahut naya tha aur darawna bhi. Aaj bhi sochti hoon uss pal ke barien mein toh", Naira broke down in tears
"Aisa kya hua", Karthik questioned wiping the tears that rolled down her eyes seeing hers
Naira took a deep breadth and continued, "main sach bolna chati thi, sukanya ne mujhe dhamki Di agar mein aisa karungi toh woh kud jayegi, mein usse convince karne ki koshish kar rahi thi, Phir woh apne kadam peeche lene lagi, isse phele mujhe Kuch samjh ata woh train se...main Dar kar chup gayi... uss waqt mujhe nahi pata tha Vicky mere peeche khada tha usse dekh kar Dar gayi sukanya, usse laga woh ek bhoot hai. Hadse ka effect mujh par hua traumatized hogayi, ek din himaat kar ke neeche ayi aur mamma ko yeh khete sunna ke woh mujhe jail bhejegi, mein toot gayi, aisi feeling ayi Jo tab ati hai jab rakshak bhakshak ban jata hai. Main chali gayi bhag gayi, aise hi ek train se Rishikesh. Iss train ne mujh se sab cheena"
Getting a hold in himself, Karthik turned her to face him and asked "kya cheena hai. Zindagi kissi ke haath mein nahi. Uske jane ka waqt agaya woh chali gayi, galti nahi thi kissi ki. Manna ke iss train ne tumhe apne parivar se dur rakha. Magar train mein akele travel karne ka faisla tumhara tha. Uss waqt akeli thi, aaj hum sab hai. Dar bhul jao darne ki wajhe khatam hui. Uss din tum apno se dur ja rahi tu. Aaj apno ke saath ja rahi ho. Look around".
Karthik turned her face infront and showed her Akshara resting with her eyes closed between and Kuhu and Mishti sleeping on either side of her shoulders. He than took her by the hand and they walked more into the train and saw all the family members peacefully sleeping with a smile on their faces, A smile automatically came onto both of their faces.
"Dekha Naira. Aaj khushiyan hai, ansuon ki koyi jaghe nahi, dar ki koyi jaghe nahi, bhul jao, saath salon phele jo bhi hua uske barien mein bhul jao ab. Tum ne kaha ke saath saal kho diye hai, right. Lekin ab tum kya kar rahi ho, yeh special pal bhi gwa rahi ho. Aur waqt barbad karna chati ho," he questioned her.
She nodded her head negatively
"Toh ao apne sare dar ko mitao", he forwarded hi hand for her to take and than took her to the edge of the train, he felt her shivering.he cupped her face and looked her in the eyes.
"I know you can do it, do you think you can", he asked her, she nodded positively and he smiled. She steped infront of the open door letting the breeze hit her she smiled, which even went broader as she felt his arm protectively catching her from the waist. She turned around while he still had an arm around.They stood very close. Tears pouring down her eyes, his arms still at the same place.
"Thank you", she said in a breaking voice resting her head on his shoulder.
Holding her close to him he lifted her up and walked towards their seat and seated her near the window she looked at him with immense love.
"Kaise karte ho yeh karthik har bar mujhe yeh lagta hai ke tum se aur zyada pyaar nahi kar sakti, lekin har baar tum kuch aisi harkat karte ho ke aur pyaar ajata hai", she thought and smiled
"Jab bhi tumhari muskurahat dekhti hoon toh maan mein sukoon aata hai. Tumhari khushiyon mein hi meri khushi", Karthik thought to himself.
"Ek sawal pucho", asked Karthik
"Kya hua", Naira responded
"Mere liye yeh sab kiya. Mere liye train se darne ke bawajud train ride ka plan baniya, kyun. Akhir kyun Naira, jawab do", Karthik asked
"Best friend ho tum mere", she answered back
"Sirf best friend Naira", he asked looking into her eyes.
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The train landed at Rishikesh at 9 in the morning. Negi uncle, pungi and chandu had come to pick everyone and take them to Sparsh Ashram. A soon as they reached in all the kids came up to Naira and hugged her. Naira smiled happily, went on her knees and whispered in their ears something immediately they all crowded near to Karthik and screamed, "happy birthday Bhaiya".
"Come on ab cake kat te hai, Negi uncle apne chocolate cake baniya ne apko mein ne batiya ke wo karthik ka favourite hai", Naira asked
"Haan jaisa tum ne kaha waisa hi bana hai, bacho jao cake le kar ao", Negi uncle spoke
The kids bought in the cake. Karthik cut it and than fed Naira.
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Time passed sight seeing it was mid day while the family came to visit the ghaat while the big puja was going on everyone was awestruck by the calmness and purity of the place in between Naira saw Karthik leaving she slowly left behind him making sure no one sees the two. She followed him secretly until he stopped within a narrow lane corner and saw him crumbling to the ground. She ran faster to support him. His face was filled with tear marks, his eyes were red and filled with tears.
"Kya hua karthik", she asked tears now pouring down her own eyes as well.
"Kuuch nahi", he stuttered but held Naira strongly in his grip and rested his head on her lap as they both sat on the floor.
"Mujhe nahi batoge", she said caringly running a hand through his hair he stayed mum he didn't reply but took her hand and tightly held it, she could feels his hands shiver, his condition was making her extremely restless.
The guy who she loved, the guy who was always her protector and supporter, was know in such a horrible state. Seeing him like this was killing her at that moment the only thing she wanted was to get rid of his pain. She slowly lifted up his head from her lap, cupped it in her hands.
"Karthik batao mujhe kya hua, mujhse chupao gaye, apne best friend, apne Naira sa, bharosa rakho mujhe mein sab thek kar dungi mujhe batao kya hai, please Kuch bolo", she asked him calmly.
"Mujhe aaj ke din se nafrat hai, khud se nafrat hai", he said breaking down into tears once again.
"Khud se nafrat mat karo, kissi ke nafrat ke liyak nahi ho, khud ke bhi nahi, don't worry nahi phuchungi ke wajhe kya hai, pata hai kyun, kyun agar tu mujhe bata jana chate the Jai, apni Veeru ko bahut phele batate, itna saara dard apne dil mein nahi dabata, iss liye mein phuchungi nahi, kyun ke shayad mera koyi haq hi nahi hai", Naira stated hurt visible in her voice
"Main acha nahi hun, meri wajhe se meri mom ki death ho gayi, meri wajhe se unho ne dard saha, unki har taqleef ki wajhe mein tha, ek bohut bura beta hun", karthik cursed himself as tears rolled down his eyes.
"Mere bff ke barien mein kuch mat bola, woh ek bohut acha insan hai", Naira said protectively
"Nahi, woh selfish hai, log khete hai, bacha maa ko nayi zindagi deta hai, maine bhi di, dard bhari zindagi, ek aisi zindagi jaha unhe roz dard sehna bhi para aur dard sehe kar chup rehna para. She would have left behind my father, she would have left behind their abusive relation, she would have left the man who tortured her day and night, but she stayed back because of me, she stayed back so that I have my father's name, she stayed back till the day she couldn't take it anymore and she killed herself, saab ko lagta hai unho ne suicide kiya, but I know, I killed my mother, I killed her", Karthik spoke, continuing to repeat the last line.
"Tum ne kuch nahi kiya, nahi marra kissi ko, nahi ho tum galat", she said hugging him tightly
"Nahi, main ne hi sab kiya, main ne unhe mar dala, mein hi galat hun, pata hai, mujhe sachai kabhi pata hi nahi thi, I loved my father, he was my everything, jab mein university ke liye abroad chala gaya, main ne maa ki diary apne saath liya, ta ke woh humesha mere pass rahe, ek din mein ne woh dairy padhni shuru ki, pata nahi tha uske akhri panne par phonch ne tak mere liye rishton ke mainye badal jayenge. I started hating the day I came into this world", karthik replied removing himself from the hug, turning the other way and talking.
"Listen to me (she turned his face towards her) I am not going to repeat myself, you were never at fault. You didn't kill her, okay. Tum ne dairy padhi, tumhe yaad hai ke uss mein kitni baar mention kiya gaya ke tumhari choti se muskurahat tumhari maa ki sab se bari khushi thi, tumhari har ek saas, har ek dhadkan unhe jeene ki wajhe deti thi, kya yeh nahi likha tha uss dairy mein baar baar, Phir kaise ilzaam laga rahe ho khud par, jab khud unho ne tum par koyi ilzaam nahi dala Phir tum khud ko saza kyun de rahe ho", she told him not having control on his emotions he hugged her and she hugged him back.
"Kyun nahi batiya yeh sab mujhe phele, mujh par bharosa nahi tha, ya mera koyi haq nahi tha", Naira asked after some time.
"Bharosa bhi tha tum par, haq bhi tha tumhara, bas tum train ride se dari huyi thi, I didn't want you to get more upset", Karthik answered
"Kyun kiya mere liye, kyun ta ke mujhe aur dard na ho, itni taqleef sahi, kyun ta ke mein khud ke dard par jeet hasil kar sakun, apne dard ko chupiya", Naira asked him.
"Yeh sawal main ne tum se phele pucha, jawab tum do Phir mein dunga", jewellery said and turned to was away
"Naira kahe de, warna yeh nahi kehne wala", she though
"Jawab sunne bina hi ja rahe ho", she called out and ran towards him.
"I love you, I love you Karthik", she said aloud putting her arms around his neck.
"I love you, I love you the most in the world Naira", he said putting his hands around her waist.
"Thank you bhagwanji", said akshara joining her hands as she looked at the duo.
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Note: In this story during the jungle scene, naira heard the train noise and got scared.
Kaira OS - Mere Dard Se Badh Kar, Tera Dard Mere Liye
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Phone convo
"Usse shak toh nahi hua Nani", Naira enquired
"Mana kar diya uss ne beta", Rajshri replied
"Kya, lekin ab is plan ka kya faida, jab woh hi nahi", Naira said sadly
"Ab kya karna ", Rajshri asked
"Main soch ke Phir phone karti hun", said naira keeping down the phone.
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"Kya hua Naira Di aap upset kyun hai", asked Mishti
"Karthik ne manna kar diya", naira pouted
"Ab kya hoga hum toh uska birthday manna ne ke liye ja rahe the", devyani asked
"Woh humesha humari family ke liye karta rehta hai, iss baar socha uss ke liye kare, Ab woh bhi nahi hoga", akshara said sadly
"Batoon mein uss ne mujh se kaha ke woh train mein kabhi nahi gaya iss liye socha yeh train trip plan kardo uss ke liye surprise hoga hum usko Kuch nahi bateynge bas saath le kar chalenge , hum sab aaj raat ki train se jayenge kal subhe phaunch jayenge kal, Rishikesh mein Karthik ka birthday celebrate karenge, wahan se uski bhi bahut yadein hai phir shaam ki train se wapas ajayenge. Us ne ane se hi manna kar diya", Naira pouted sadly.
"Lekin woh kyun maana kar raha hai Naira", asked Karishma
"Nani ne kuch nahi batiya chachi, Lekin humein usse mannana hoga, main surprise kharab nahi hone dungi", Naira said determined
"Didi ek baath pucho aap bff ke liye itna sab kyun kar rahi ho, kya woh aap ko ache lagte hai", whispered Mishri so that what she said was only audible to Naira
"Parungi Mishti bahut TV dekhti hai, dimag kharab ho gaya, toh toh bas karthik mera acha dost hai aur uss ne humesha humari bahut madad ki hai", Naira told the younger one who raised and eyebrow hearing her elder sister's reply
"Di aap mujhe batayegi nahi toh mujhe samajh nahi ayega kya, meri height choti hai dimag nahi", Mishti told herself and giggled happy for both her sister and bff.
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"Woh kaha hai Nani", asked naira as soon as she entered her mother's maternal house
"Naira beta aap yahan kyun ayi, hum uss se baath kar rahe hai", vishambar spoke
"Nahi Nanu mein uss mendak ko handel karungi, samjhte hai kya khud ko", Naira huffed and ran up the stairs to Karthik's room and banged on the door. After a minute or so he opened up
"Tum yaha", Karthik asked
"Mera nanhihal hai mera marzi kabhi bhi asakti hun, kabhi bhi ja sakti hun, Lekin tum batao tum humare saath kyun nahi arahe ho", Naira asked
"Main jahan bhi jao, jahan na jao meri marzi, uss se tumhe kya", karthik replied back
"Aye itna bhao mat khao", naira told him
"Mujhe nahi jana, waise bhi tum logon ka family time hai, mein beech mein kyun ao", karthik replied
"Tum family ho karthik", naira replied
"Main family jaisa khoon naira, fark hai", karthik told her
"Tum se kissi ne Kuch kaha kya, main abhi uski class lungi, uska naam bolo", naira asked angrily
"Missing Kuch nahi kaha, yeh sirf mein khe raha hun, yahan sab mujh se pyaar karte hai aur main un se sachai toh badalne nahi wali", karthik replied
"Kuch nahi sunna, saman bandho, tum ne wada kiya meri har bath manno ge, ab mein khe rahi hun tum humare saath jaoge matlab jaoge", naira announced not waiting for his reply, she waked up the cupboard and opened it a, frame fell from the top into her hands, she was about to turn it to see whose photo it was but Karthik snatched it from her hands
"Kissi ne sikhiya nahi tumhe, bina permission ke kissi ki personal chezzon ko haath nahi lagate", karthik told her
"Khud kar lo packing, ek ghante mein sab ho jana chaiye", naira ordered and left the room wondering what could be in the photoframe.
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"Kya hua naira Di", asked Kuhu
"Order de kar ayi hun, ab mein chalti hun Nani, thori aur packing karni hai", replied naira
"Maan gaya chalo achi baath hai", Rajshri replied
"Aap sab wahi arahe hai ne nani Phir hum sab saath railway station jayenge", Naira told and left.
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"Naira Di kya hua, bff maan gaye", Mishti ran to naira and asked her
"Akhir manna hi tha", naira said proudly
"Naira tu ne uske saath zabardasti toh nahi ki", akshara asked
"Arre mumma koyi zabardasti nahi ki, jab humari dosti hui us ne promise kiya ke meri har baath manega toh usse manna pada", naira said
"Isse zabardasti hi khete hai naira, main manti hoon hum sab uske liye Kuch karna chate hai, lekin jab uska man hi nahi usse force karna thik nahi, har insan ki personal space honi chaiye aur humein woh usse deni hogi, yeh bhi ho sakta hai ke woh apni family ke pass jana chata ho.", akshara made everyone understand.
"lekin mumma Maine phele pucha tha ke uske koyi plans hai ya nahi us ne mana kar diya, aur mein toh us ke liye kar rahi hun", naira replied sweetly
"Lekin Naira mami bhi Sahi khe rahi hai", gayu interfered
"Gayu Di mein nahi khe rahi hun mumma galat hai, woh bhi Sahi hai aur mein bhi apni jaghe Sahi, aur waise karthik mera best friend hai", replied naira saying the last part a bit possessively.
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One and a half hour later everyone was gathered at Singhania mansion and headed for the railway station, Karthik, Naira were left since that day one of the cars weren't working so both went on the bike.
"Karthik tum gussa ho", naira asked looking at her feet while sitting at the back seat of the bike", naira asked him cutely.
Karthik turned around to see Naira and than focused back on the road and replied, "nahi"
"Sachi", naira asked smilingly resting her shoulder on his shoulder
"Tum par naraz nahi ho sakta", karthik replied making Naira raise an eyebrow
"Kyun", naira questioned
"Of course marna thodi hai, tumhare haton se", karthik replied and giggled earning an angry glare from naira
"Tum bahut bure ho", naira said slapping karthik's back
"Ouch, but seriously naira are you sure train trip is the right thing, I mean annanya ke birthday par train ki awaz se hi tum uncomfortable thi aur yaha hummein uss se travel karna", Karthik asked and naira smiled happy for Karthik's concern.
"Uss din tumhi ne samjhaya tha ke Jo bhi hai mujhe bhulna hoga, agge badhna hoga, aur waise bhi train ki awaz se problem hai, main ear phones laga kar loud music baja dungi", naira said, making karthik smile
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Everyone reached the station, Naksh, Akshara and shaurya went to get the tickets. Naira and karthik were standing close half leaning on a pillar, that was far away from the train tracks. karthik was observing Naira and noticed how she was shivering and thought of distracting her.
"Toh yeh idea kiss ka tha", karthik asked
"Mumma ne socha family picnic ho jayega aur Rishikesh walon se bhi mil lenge", Naira replied silently praying that he would be buy it.
"Hmm, ache ideas unhi ke ho sakte hai, tumhare dimag mein toh ane se rahe", karthik spoke irritating Naira
"Tumhare birthday ka surprise mein plan karun, credit tum kissi aur ko do", naira mummered to herself
"Tum hi toh nahi bata rahi ho, main itna stupid nahi hoon ke sab mujhe ane ko itna force kar rahe hai, aur main yeh na samjhun ke iske peeche ka reason kya hai, iss surprise ka idea tumhara hai, bas tumhare mun se sunna hai", karthik replied to himself guessing what was going through her mind.
"Mujhe pyaas lagi hai, mein gayu Di se phuch kar aati hun ke paani kaha rakha hai", naira said about to leave.
"Mere pass hai", said karthik removing a water bottle from the bag hung around him and offering her
"Thanks", she said taking it
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Karthik's POV
Mujhe nahi pata mein Sahi kar raha hun ya nahi, bas yeh janta hun ke yeh tumhare liye zarrori hai, tum mere liye apne dar par kabo karne ki koshish kar rahi ho, sirf issliye kyunke mein ne tum se kaha ke mein kabhi train mein nahi gaya, tum ne yeh sab kiya, bina apne dar ke barein mein soche toh kya mein tumhare liye uss din ko muskura sakta jiss din mujhe sab se zyada taqleef hoti hai, kya ta ke tum apne dar par jeet hasil kar sako, mein kal ke din khush hone ka natak nahi kar sakta, krishnaji, ganga miyaa, main yeh sab Naira keliye kar raha hun. Aap please usse Kuch mat hone dijiye ga, uske maan se sara dar nikal dijiye. Mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai teen mahine phele hum annanya ka birthday manna rahe the, treasure hunt mein jab hum dono kho gaye, raat ko train ki awaz sunayi Di aur Naira kampne lag gayi, woh bikharne lagi, main uski woh halat nahi dekhna jahta, janta hoon ka ab bhi woh andar se toot rahi hai, chere par normal expression dikhane ki koshish kar rahi hai, lekin uski ankhe sach bayan karti hai, it is like she is physically here but mentally somewhere else. Ya bhi janta hun ke tumhe bhi Kuch hone laga hai, lekin woh ehsaas kya hai kya tumhe pata hai
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"Waise naira train kitne bajye ki hai", karthik asked trying to engage her in a conversation once again
"11:55", naira replied while looking on the floor
"Kaha likha hai mujhe dikhaye nahi de raha hai", replied karthik keenly looking at the floor
"Kya dekhne ki koshish kar rahe ho", asked Naira confused
"Aree tum neche dekh kar timing bata rahi thi toh mein ne socha ke shayad tumhe zammen par Kuch train schedule nazar araha hai", karthik replied smirking
"Mujhe phele se timing ka pata hai", replied naira
"Toh mujhe dekh kar bhi khe sakti thi, mere shkal Itni buri nahi hai, ke isse dekhne ke bajaye floor ko dekh rahi thi", karthik told her
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Naira's POV
Kaise tum se ankhon mein ankhe dal kar baath karun karthik, jhoot pakad loge tum mera, mera chera dekh kar maan samjh jate ho tum, jitna salon mein koyi samjh nahi pieya woh tum Kuch mahino mein samajne lage ho. Meri pasand na pasand sab jante ho, meri smile ke liye har mumkin cheez karte ho, tumhari har aada par mein kurbaan, jiss tarhe tum mere parivar se pyaar karte ho usse dekhti hoon toh aur pyaar ata hai, haan, ab dosti pechee rahe chuki hai, pyaar ho chuka hai, apne mendak se is mendaki ko pyaar ho chuka hai, uski khushi ke liye har haadh par karne ke liye tiyaar hoon, apne har dar ko bhulne ke liye tiyaar hun, bas yeh nahi pata akhir kar uske dil mein hai kya. Kya woh bhi mere liye woh feel karta hai jo mein uske liye karti hun, nahi janti but mein humesha usse pyaar karti rahungi, uski khushi meri dua hai, uska pyaar apne liye nahi jhati, bas uski khushiyon ki wajhe banno yeh jhati hoon.
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"Naira, kahan kho gayi ho panch minute hi rahe gaye train ke liye, chalo dekhte hai sab yahan hai ke nahi", karthik got up from the floor and offered his hand to naira to get up, she took it and he pulled her up just then a kid ran into them, and karthik landed on the floor with naira on top.
"Ouch", karthik exclaimed rubbing the back of his head
"Zor se lagi, dard ho raha hai", naira asked cutely
"Nahi iss tarhe girunga toh mujhe dard bilkul nahi hoga", karthik sarcastically replied, karthik tried to get up, but since Naira was so lost into him she stayed in the same position while he moved a bit up until their was no place in between them.
"Yehi rahne hai pura din", karthik questioned her
"Not like I mind", he told himself
"Tum jaho toh I don't mind", naira mummered and got up
"Tum dono yahan ho, train do minute mein aati hogi, chalo jaldi", said akshara and with that the three left
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The train arrived at the platform, everyone went to it, Naira tried forwarding her steps towards it. Karthik noticed her. He felt bad for her, he could have stopped this, he could have disagreed to come, why did he think to overcome her fears, so stupid he was somewhere responsible for what she was going true. Closing his eyes and taking a deep breath his strengthened his resolve about let her overcome his fears, he walked next to her, held out his hand.
"Chalo, ek jaghe kyun khadi ho, train achuki hai, uske jane ka intezaar kar rahi ho, tumhari wajhe se mein apni train nahi miss karuga", he said excitedly and pulled her along with him.
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Both entered the train, karthik noticed she was uncomfortable still.
"Pura train ride khade ho kar guzarna hai", karthik asked
"Chalo bethte hai", karthik took naira by the hand and went near their seats
"Bff mujhe Kuhu ke saath baithna hai, toh aap yahan bethoge naira Di ke saath", asked mishti
"Haan why not", said karthik extremely happy as now he would be easily able to watch over Naira.
"One minute", mishti whispered in Naira's ear and took her seat opposite to them next to Akshara and Kuhu
"HAAPY BIRTHDAY", Naira screamed as it showed 12 on her phone and hugged him tight, forgetting about everything, their surroundings, her past, her fears, all seemed to be gone when she was in his arms, she didn't want any questions so she broke the hug. Akshara, Mishti and Kuhu looked smilingly on to the duo.
Soon everyone started wishing him and Karthik thanked everyone with a smile, but Naira noticed something missing, the sparkle in his eyes each time he smiled wasn't there, this wasn't his real smile. He had it on his face to keep everyone happy, he himself wasn't and that thought saddened her.
"Kahan khoyi hui ho", Karthik asked her
"Ankhe kharab hogayi, samne hoon, tumhe nazar nahi aati", Naira answered sarcastically
"Kaash in dono ko ehsaas hota inke beech kya hai, main janti hun in dono ke dil mein ek dusre ke liye Kuch hai, lekin shayad khae nahi pa rahe hai. Akshara ab tum hi Kuch karo warna tumahri yeh beti aur hone wale damad sau cheezon ke barien mein baath karenge lekin Jo khane hai nahi kahenge, bhagwanji app kuch kijiye", Akshara mummered to herself.
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She closed her eyes but sleep seemed far off. So she opened her eyes and had a look around, Her mother and younger sisters all had slept. Even the random people on the other side were on deep slumber. Suddenly she felt a nudge.
"Need nahi arahi hai", he whispered softly
"Hhmmm", she responded looking at him
"Mujhe bhi", karthik responded
"Kyun", naira enquired
"Kyun, nahi lag sakta. Kuch logon ko plane se travel mein Dar lagta hai. Kuch ship mein travel karne se sea sick hote hai. Toh agar mujhe train se dar lagta hai toh kya", Karthik responded
"Tumhe train se kyun Dar lagta hai", she asked
"Agar train patri se utar gayi, ya dusri train samne akar takar maregi", he spoke innocently and Naira burst out laughing and he looked lost in her.
"Aisa thodi hota hai Karthik, train ride mein darne jaisa kuch nahi", she said in between the laughs.
"Aagar Kuch nahi toh tum itni dari kyun ho. Kya lagta hai nazar nahi ata mujhe, tumhara kampna, tumhara sirf ek jaghe concentrate karke, har taraf na dekhna. Jab hum wait kar rahe the train ki awaz sunte flinch karna. Akhir kyun Naira. Kya mera itna bhi haq nahi yeh janne ka hua kya. Kheti ho best friend hoon tumhara aur Phir bhi secrets rakti ho", Karthik asked pain evident in his voice.
Naira turned her head towards the window not facing Karthik. She began to speak "Seven years earlier, we all had gone for a picnic, mere dost Sukanya ayi thi humare saath. Uska uske boyfriend ke saath breakup hua tha, uske boyfriend ne humein follow kiya. Picnic ke samye usne mujhe cliff se push karna jaha but Sukanya ayi usne peeche se Vicky ke sar par mara aur wo behosh ho gaya, tab sirf mein, sukanya aur gayu Di the. Sukanya nahi batana chati thi yeh sab baki sab ko, usse laga mama usse jail bhej de gi. Main bhi confused thi, ek taraf Sukanya batane se manna kar rahi thi dusri taraf Gayu Di saach bolna chati thi. Humien toh yeh nahi pata tha ke Vicky zinda hai ke nahi."
"Uske baad kya hua Naira", asked Karthik keeping a hand on Naira's shoulder.
"Jiss bus mein hum aye the woh kharab ho gayi, dusri nahi mil, humein suggest kiya gaya ke hum ghar wapas train se jaye, sab ne socha ek different experience hoga. Tha bahut hi different, apne ankhon ke samne apni dost ko maut ke mun mein janne ka experience. Uski maut ka ilzam khud par lagne ka experience. Bahut naya tha aur darawna bhi. Aaj bhi sochti hoon uss pal ke barien mein toh", Naira broke down in tears
"Aisa kya hua", Karthik questioned wiping the tears that rolled down her eyes seeing hers
Naira took a deep breadth and continued, "main sach bolna chati thi, sukanya ne mujhe dhamki Di agar mein aisa karungi toh woh kud jayegi, mein usse convince karne ki koshish kar rahi thi, Phir woh apne kadam peeche lene lagi, isse phele mujhe Kuch samjh ata woh train se...main Dar kar chup gayi... uss waqt mujhe nahi pata tha Vicky mere peeche khada tha usse dekh kar Dar gayi sukanya, usse laga woh ek bhoot hai. Hadse ka effect mujh par hua traumatized hogayi, ek din himaat kar ke neeche ayi aur mamma ko yeh khete sunna ke woh mujhe jail bhejegi, mein toot gayi, aisi feeling ayi Jo tab ati hai jab rakshak bhakshak ban jata hai. Main chali gayi bhag gayi, aise hi ek train se Rishikesh. Iss train ne mujh se sab cheena"
Getting a hold in himself, Karthik turned her to face him and asked "kya cheena hai. Zindagi kissi ke haath mein nahi. Uske jane ka waqt agaya woh chali gayi, galti nahi thi kissi ki. Manna ke iss train ne tumhe apne parivar se dur rakha. Magar train mein akele travel karne ka faisla tumhara tha. Uss waqt akeli thi, aaj hum sab hai. Dar bhul jao darne ki wajhe khatam hui. Uss din tum apno se dur ja rahi tu. Aaj apno ke saath ja rahi ho. Look around".
Karthik turned her face infront and showed her Akshara resting with her eyes closed between and Kuhu and Mishti sleeping on either side of her shoulders. He than took her by the hand and they walked more into the train and saw all the family members peacefully sleeping with a smile on their faces, A smile automatically came onto both of their faces.
"Dekha Naira. Aaj khushiyan hai, ansuon ki koyi jaghe nahi, dar ki koyi jaghe nahi, bhul jao, saath salon phele jo bhi hua uske barien mein bhul jao ab. Tum ne kaha ke saath saal kho diye hai, right. Lekin ab tum kya kar rahi ho, yeh special pal bhi gwa rahi ho. Aur waqt barbad karna chati ho," he questioned her.
She nodded her head negatively
"Toh ao apne sare dar ko mitao", he forwarded hi hand for her to take and than took her to the edge of the train, he felt her shivering.he cupped her face and looked her in the eyes.
"I know you can do it, do you think you can", he asked her, she nodded positively and he smiled. She steped infront of the open door letting the breeze hit her she smiled, which even went broader as she felt his arm protectively catching her from the waist. She turned around while he still had an arm around.They stood very close. Tears pouring down her eyes, his arms still at the same place.
"Thank you", she said in a breaking voice resting her head on his shoulder.
Holding her close to him he lifted her up and walked towards their seat and seated her near the window she looked at him with immense love.
"Kaise karte ho yeh karthik har bar mujhe yeh lagta hai ke tum se aur zyada pyaar nahi kar sakti, lekin har baar tum kuch aisi harkat karte ho ke aur pyaar ajata hai", she thought and smiled
"Jab bhi tumhari muskurahat dekhti hoon toh maan mein sukoon aata hai. Tumhari khushiyon mein hi meri khushi", Karthik thought to himself.
"Ek sawal pucho", asked Karthik
"Kya hua", Naira responded
"Mere liye yeh sab kiya. Mere liye train se darne ke bawajud train ride ka plan baniya, kyun. Akhir kyun Naira, jawab do", Karthik asked
"Best friend ho tum mere", she answered back
"Sirf best friend Naira", he asked looking into her eyes.
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The train landed at Rishikesh at 9 in the morning. Negi uncle, pungi and chandu had come to pick everyone and take them to Sparsh Ashram. A soon as they reached in all the kids came up to Naira and hugged her. Naira smiled happily, went on her knees and whispered in their ears something immediately they all crowded near to Karthik and screamed, "happy birthday Bhaiya".
"Come on ab cake kat te hai, Negi uncle apne chocolate cake baniya ne apko mein ne batiya ke wo karthik ka favourite hai", Naira asked
"Haan jaisa tum ne kaha waisa hi bana hai, bacho jao cake le kar ao", Negi uncle spoke
The kids bought in the cake. Karthik cut it and than fed Naira.
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Time passed sight seeing it was mid day while the family came to visit the ghaat while the big puja was going on everyone was awestruck by the calmness and purity of the place in between Naira saw Karthik leaving she slowly left behind him making sure no one sees the two. She followed him secretly until he stopped within a narrow lane corner and saw him crumbling to the ground. She ran faster to support him. His face was filled with tear marks, his eyes were red and filled with tears.
"Kya hua karthik", she asked tears now pouring down her own eyes as well.
"Kuuch nahi", he stuttered but held Naira strongly in his grip and rested his head on her lap as they both sat on the floor.
"Mujhe nahi batoge", she said caringly running a hand through his hair he stayed mum he didn't reply but took her hand and tightly held it, she could feels his hands shiver, his condition was making her extremely restless.
The guy who she loved, the guy who was always her protector and supporter, was know in such a horrible state. Seeing him like this was killing her at that moment the only thing she wanted was to get rid of his pain. She slowly lifted up his head from her lap, cupped it in her hands.
"Karthik batao mujhe kya hua, mujhse chupao gaye, apne best friend, apne Naira sa, bharosa rakho mujhe mein sab thek kar dungi mujhe batao kya hai, please Kuch bolo", she asked him calmly.
"Mujhe aaj ke din se nafrat hai, khud se nafrat hai", he said breaking down into tears once again.
"Khud se nafrat mat karo, kissi ke nafrat ke liyak nahi ho, khud ke bhi nahi, don't worry nahi phuchungi ke wajhe kya hai, pata hai kyun, kyun agar tu mujhe bata jana chate the Jai, apni Veeru ko bahut phele batate, itna saara dard apne dil mein nahi dabata, iss liye mein phuchungi nahi, kyun ke shayad mera koyi haq hi nahi hai", Naira stated hurt visible in her voice
"Main acha nahi hun, meri wajhe se meri mom ki death ho gayi, meri wajhe se unho ne dard saha, unki har taqleef ki wajhe mein tha, ek bohut bura beta hun", karthik cursed himself as tears rolled down his eyes.
"Mere bff ke barien mein kuch mat bola, woh ek bohut acha insan hai", Naira said protectively
"Nahi, woh selfish hai, log khete hai, bacha maa ko nayi zindagi deta hai, maine bhi di, dard bhari zindagi, ek aisi zindagi jaha unhe roz dard sehna bhi para aur dard sehe kar chup rehna para. She would have left behind my father, she would have left behind their abusive relation, she would have left the man who tortured her day and night, but she stayed back because of me, she stayed back so that I have my father's name, she stayed back till the day she couldn't take it anymore and she killed herself, saab ko lagta hai unho ne suicide kiya, but I know, I killed my mother, I killed her", Karthik spoke, continuing to repeat the last line.
"Tum ne kuch nahi kiya, nahi marra kissi ko, nahi ho tum galat", she said hugging him tightly
"Nahi, main ne hi sab kiya, main ne unhe mar dala, mein hi galat hun, pata hai, mujhe sachai kabhi pata hi nahi thi, I loved my father, he was my everything, jab mein university ke liye abroad chala gaya, main ne maa ki diary apne saath liya, ta ke woh humesha mere pass rahe, ek din mein ne woh dairy padhni shuru ki, pata nahi tha uske akhri panne par phonch ne tak mere liye rishton ke mainye badal jayenge. I started hating the day I came into this world", karthik replied removing himself from the hug, turning the other way and talking.
"Listen to me (she turned his face towards her) I am not going to repeat myself, you were never at fault. You didn't kill her, okay. Tum ne dairy padhi, tumhe yaad hai ke uss mein kitni baar mention kiya gaya ke tumhari choti se muskurahat tumhari maa ki sab se bari khushi thi, tumhari har ek saas, har ek dhadkan unhe jeene ki wajhe deti thi, kya yeh nahi likha tha uss dairy mein baar baar, Phir kaise ilzaam laga rahe ho khud par, jab khud unho ne tum par koyi ilzaam nahi dala Phir tum khud ko saza kyun de rahe ho", she told him not having control on his emotions he hugged her and she hugged him back.
"Kyun nahi batiya yeh sab mujhe phele, mujh par bharosa nahi tha, ya mera koyi haq nahi tha", Naira asked after some time.
"Bharosa bhi tha tum par, haq bhi tha tumhara, bas tum train ride se dari huyi thi, I didn't want you to get more upset", Karthik answered
"Kyun kiya mere liye, kyun ta ke mujhe aur dard na ho, itni taqleef sahi, kyun ta ke mein khud ke dard par jeet hasil kar sakun, apne dard ko chupiya", Naira asked him.
"Yeh sawal main ne tum se phele pucha, jawab tum do Phir mein dunga", jewellery said and turned to was away
"Naira kahe de, warna yeh nahi kehne wala", she though
"Jawab sunne bina hi ja rahe ho", she called out and ran towards him.
"I love you, I love you Karthik", she said aloud putting her arms around his neck.
"I love you, I love you the most in the world Naira", he said putting his hands around her waist.
"Thank you bhagwanji", said akshara joining her hands as she looked at the duo.
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