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\/\/\/\/\/\/\/My Unsung Personal \/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
Mann mann ki sunta jaaye, Sunta nahin mann waalon ki
Mann hi mann mein banay Duniya ek khayaalon ki..
Paas koi aave, door koi jaave
Hota hai kyun ye, koi samjhaave
Mann hi mann mein banay Duniya ek khayaalon ki..
Paas koi aave, door koi jaave
Hota hai kyun ye, koi samjhaave
Being the girl with all the pep talks and positivism, I hardly shocked people when I agreed to let go the person who has been my best friend, lover or life partner for 9 years...when he got a big scholarship in a big school but in a different country... the person with who's partnership I managed to bring two families together...with the memories of beautiful past, and with the desire of more beautiful future... I let my present to be a bit lonely, a bit compromised, a bit sad... with the 5 months of long distance... I gave the pep talk most to myself... concealing the pain from the close ones... specially from the one who is distant... I kept giving him pep talk more... with time when his time slot for me at internet started to feel low... I found other ways to handle frustration... so that I show less...
I found peace in pain of others... addiction to MaNan became a pain sharer... and also started doing harmless cheating on him with this forum... 😉... it was not that bad to explore some undiscovered passion of writing... and less of fights and expectation that gives you more moment to relax
but I made a mistake... I forgot the limit...when body fails you and makes you sick and helpless ...life stops to be overwhelmed by your addictions to all the beautiful things... you miss the life partner who was solution to all your problem... the person to complain and demand... I made a mistake I could not get back... I demanded with msg..."I wish you were here."..And then I said "sorry I said that"...another mistake... And he understands and hurts me back with his pain.."I hate that I am not there...for you"...
I video call him and joke...cheer him..."just joking...I am fine...just wanted to see guilty you...my guilty lover... "...as i now have become a person who unconsciously searches everything around for calming self... affected by trying to find the hidden elements of KY2 ...😆... I had to go out for the university where I research now... where we studied different subjects...my lonely ride reminds those rides with him to the place... the place does it too... but happy memories always calms me instead of occasional some tears...
I come home ... I head to clinic... and nothing serious... just stress...that's nice...I come back and watch KYY
And then I am angry... MaNan dears... you two...when you are going to realize that you are so lucky to be together... stop paining each other... I wish you get separated and realize the importance of other's happiness...I am happy that I let you feel separation in my FF...But I calm self... you are just jealous... you had your time of fun, fights and nights... and then it comes... with a Bang!
Yeh Dooriyan
In Raahon Ki Dooriyan
Nigahon Ki Dooriyan
Hum Rahon Ki Dooriyan
Fanah Ho Sabhi Dooriyan
Kyun Koi Paas Hai
Door Hai Kyun Koi
Jaane Na Koi Yahan Pe
Aa Raha Paas Ya Door Mein Ja Raha
Janu Na Mein Hoon Kahan Pe
Yeh Dooriyan
In Raahon Ki Dooriyan
Nigahon Ki Dooriyan
Hum Rahon Ki Dooriyan
Fanah Ho Sabhi Dooriyan
In Raahon Ki Dooriyan
Nigahon Ki Dooriyan
Hum Rahon Ki Dooriyan
Fanah Ho Sabhi Dooriyan
Kyun Koi Paas Hai
Door Hai Kyun Koi
Jaane Na Koi Yahan Pe
Aa Raha Paas Ya Door Mein Ja Raha
Janu Na Mein Hoon Kahan Pe
Yeh Dooriyan
In Raahon Ki Dooriyan
Nigahon Ki Dooriyan
Hum Rahon Ki Dooriyan
Fanah Ho Sabhi Dooriyan
I say as Manik..."seriously can't believe this... matlab har bar , bar bar tum kaise kar leti ho..."... out all freaking song.. this one? ...and out all day... today?...are you revenging my seperational FF? Stop shaking broken delicate things...
and I don't get back to good mood again... nothing calms me down... I act badly to people around members... they take my sickness as cause and ignore
Than he video calls returning to his flat... and starts flaunting his newly developed cooking skill when away ... "see I don't need to eat your shiitty cooking anymore... see how I cut chicken" and starts making fool of himself... and I join the witty fight...he is trying to cheer me up...he is there for me... my stress is out... and I feel sleepy...
And my emotions say... who said our present is not beautiful...
So people ...life is beautiful...like my life is... even in pain... even in dooriyaan
Like Manik's beautiful... Nandini don't say his smile is only so beautiful... his pains are sexy too
Agree girls.?.😉
Hi I am Sana ...and this was a piece of my life and an event on yesterday ...
And those who know me...
So I am back...back with a bang... to my imaginations...as promised... don't believe what I wrote ...just kidding? it was just a imaginary story ... KY2 effect... not my reality🤔...mystery it is...entertained? I am sure
Sana
Live, Laugh, Love
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Like P.S.Secret Out: And it is a true event...because ppl did not get I was joking at last para...as they have too much faith in my imagination ...😡...I am bowled out...I guess you still don't believe... I am a joke...(ranting )
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