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Ok guys I had written this before Friday's episode but due to snow my internet was down n I could not post it. Friday's episode was pretty upsetting but still cant stay away from SaHil too long! 😆 Anyway this idea comes from a game we were playing where one of the questions asked by MrDarcyFan aka Mandy was "If you were Aahil, how will you try to find out why Sanam left on the wedding day?" I had jokingly picked "Tell Sanam that he will start drinking a bottle a day again if she dosent tell him why she left!" So once I thought about it (and I was just bored lol) I decided to write an TS lol Tho I would want things much differently in the show, this is just a cute n romantic scenario revolving just SaHil n the poolside 😆 Ok enuf of my boring descriptions lol Enjoy n plz do leave feedback! 😉
Kaise jiyu o rabba iss zindigaani ko,
yaar mila de rabba prem deewaani ko...
Kaise jiyu o rabba iss zindigaani ko,
yaar mila de rabba prem deewaani ko 💔
Aahil was tired. Of those pleading eyes. Staring at him with hope and disappointment! Begging him to trust her yet providing no answers! He could not ignore the nagging feeling in his heart and the painful twisting inside his guts. It was as if a strange guilt had consumed him! The guilt of not giving her a chance! Of not listening to her!
He was frustrated. Seeing her everywhere but near him! He couldnt stop loving her! It was not possible! She was now a part of his heart, his soul! He felt her presence everywhere yet when she came before him, he could not pull her close! If he did he would hold on and never let go! He would lose himself in her eyes which led straight to her soul! He would be in her control! But no! He could not let her make him weak again! Never!
But most of all he was hurt! Hurt that she left! That she rejected him and mocked his love! Despite him asking her so many times! Despite him apologizing for everything! Despite him trying to make things perfect! Despite it all she had left him on the most important day of his life! His nikah! Their nikah! A day he will never forget! She had run leaving behind such pain and devastation that he could not even explain! She had turned his biggest dream into a terrifying nightmare!
Aahil leaned against the pillar by the poolside as all the recent events flashed before him. His life had changed so much in the past few days! So many revelations! So many adjustments! So many questions! Sanam, without whom he couldn't even imagine a second of his life barely came before him, his Ammi whom he trusted more than his life had kept secrets from him and Rehan whom he had insulted so many times n treated like a servant was actually his own brother! Aahil felt terrible when he found out that Ammi had kept Rehan a secret for his sake! It made him loathe his Abu even more! It made him feel more guilty than he had before! He had kept Rehan away from his own Ammi! All those moments that were meant for Rehan, all those childhood memories, everything was taken by him! Rehan had never gotten to experience those precious moments with his Ammi. Yet he never complained! So much injustice was done to him and not matter how much Aahil apologized to Rehan, for mistreating him, for being rude, for not being a brother, he could not make things right! Ammi had done so much for him and he would forever be in her debt! But it still made him question! How could she let her son stay as a servant?!! Aahil ran his hand through his hair in frustration.
His Ammi never hid anything from him! Why could she not tell him after his father's death! Did she think he would be ungrateful enough to turn away from her?!! Did she think he was so cruel that he would push Rehan away?!! Aahil had spent his entire lifetime in loneliness and knowing Rehan was his brother would have made him more than happy! Yet his Ammi didnt trust him! Regardless of who put the certificate there, the truth was that he had unknowingly given his Ammi and Rehan more pain than he could imagine! He kept a mother away from her son! Maybe thats why Ammi didnt trust him! Was he so untrustworthy?
He couldn't blame her! He loved her more than himself! She was his world! She made so many a huge sacrifices for him! Even a real mother with think twice before doing this! But somewhere inside, it hurt knowing that she didnt trust him! It hurt a lot! But there was no one he could talk to! Not one person! The only person who once cared to listen was Sanam!
Sanam... He missed her presence so much! She was always there for him! Whenever he needed her! But now even she had left him alone! Without telling him why! Just like Ammi, Sanam didn't trust him! She didn't even bother to tell him that she didn't want the nikah. She just ran away! Did she think he would hurt her? That he would not let her go! It just seemed wrong! Sanam was not one to run away! But then why did she! Did she fear his reaction?!!
Aahil shook his head as he felt a twisted knot inside of him. He would have let her go. He would have set her free! He loved her! He wanted nothing more than her happjness but she would never understand! No one understood him!
Thats it! Aahil thought. He looked at his reflection in the pool. He could hardly recognize himself. His patience and strength had run out. He could not put up the act anymore.
"I cant take this anymore! If she wont give an answer, I will demand an answer! I will make sure she tells me! No more running away and not listening to her! Whatever her excuse may be I can bare with it! If I can deal with this pain, this rejection, this loneliness, I can listen to anything she has to say! No matter how much it hurts!" He muttered to himself. He moved towards the kitchen with the resolve to get his answers!
Sanam was cleaning up the kitchen. She had a small smile on her face as she remembered those days when she would cook for Aahil and he called her the world's best cook! But as the recent events flashed before her, the smile faded away. She has now lost all hope! Aahil could not see beyond his Ammi! They had failed big time! Sanam left Seher and Rehan to themselves and decided to clean the kitchen. After all she was declared the servant by her own husband. The man she loved! A bitter laugh escaped her lips! How ironic, she came into the house as a cook and then after everything, she was back where she was! But atleast she discovered a lot about herself, her family and about love! She loved Aahil and that was one painful truth of her life! Another was that he didn't trust her! But Sanam couldnt blame him entirely! She didnt try to tell him the truth! She just expected him to implicitly trust her! But he loved her! Shouldnt he be able to read her eyes, to feel her pain! She had so much faith in him but somewhere along the lines Sanam had forgotten about the magical hold Tanveer had over Aahil!
She hated and was disgusted by the woman who wiped out her entire family! Made her and her sister an orphan! Manipulated Aahil into being blind to everyone but her! But Seher and herself had vowed to bring Tanveer down and they would! With Seher and Rehan by her side, she knew that she couldnt give up! But what about her and Aahil? It hurt so much that Aahil didnt even trust her! Watching Seher and Rehan together made her realize how much she missed Aahil! She missed being around him, she missed fighting with him, she missed laughing with him! Whenever they ran into each other, there was anger in his eyes. He was cold towards her. The concern and love was missing! He said he wanted nothing to do with her! She could not tell him about her twin nor could she bare to see the hatred in his eyes. Sometimes a glimmer of hope would come but it would be washed away the next second. She would see momentary concern which would be replaced with anger, placing a great distance between them! It made her wonder if things will ever be like before! If Aahil will ever believe her and if she herself would forgive him for his actions! If their love had any future! But at the same time, Sanam knew she couldnt give up. She had to fight for her parents and not let their death go to waste! She had to fight for her sister! She had to fight for her love! But most of all she had to fight for herself! To prove her innocence! To prove that her love is pure! To prove that no one got away messing with Sanam Ah--Raza Ibrahim!
As Sanam finished putting away the last dish in the fridge she heard familiar footsteps behind her. Sanam turned around and the sight before her made her heart leap. There he stood. Her husband. Looking devastatingly handsome in a white kurta. She raised her eyes to meet his. The intensity that burned within them made her heart race. It made her face heat up. It made her weak. She opened her mouth to question but words refused to come on her lips. She could not look away from his eyes. Those deep drowning eyes that affected her from the very beginning! His face which was carved to perfection! His long lashed which innocently casted a shadow over his eyes and his hair which was messed up. She knew he had run his finger through it! He always did that when he was frustrated! How she longed to do that herself! Replace his hand with hers and touch his soft hair! He looked innocent yet dangerous! He had power yet never created fear! He was strong yet vulnerable! He was close yet so far!
As Aahil slowly proceeded towards her, Sanam started to back away. Not knowing why he was here and what he wanted, she had no idea how to react. She swallowed hard and tried to bring some strength in her voice.
She looked at him in the eye and asked, "Aahil aap? Itne raat ko kitchen mein? Kuch chahiye?"
He didnt say anything and just kept walking towards her.
"Aahil?" Soon Sanam felt her back against the wall. But that didnt stop Aahil. He moved closer and closer until his face was mere inches away from her. She could feel his hot breath on her face. It made her skin tingle and she grabbed the edge of the wall for support and looked away. His intense gaze was too much for her.
"Sanam" he said in his low husky voice. The way he said her name created a strange feeling in the pit of her stomach. She looked up. With him being so close she saw a strange need in his eyes. She could almost see a glimmer of the love that was there before the storm washed it away! Before she could even blink it was gone! It was replaced by what she dreaded! His anger! But she wasn't going to be bogged down by it! She was all too familiar with his anger!
He quickly stepped away from her and asked in an icy tone, "Latif kaha hai? Mujhe usse kaam tha."
"Latif so gaya hai. Aapko kuch chahiye to mujhe bataiye. After all iss ghar ki naukarani jo hoon." Sanam replied in an equally cutting manner. Suddenly a strange strength came back to her. After all there was no other way to deal with the Jallad Jin!
Meri justaju tu meri aarzoo,
bas tu hi tu mere chaar su...
Meri tishnagi tu meri zindagi,
tu hi khuda hai, tu hai bandagi...
Kaise jiyu tere bin, tere bin jiya jaaye na...
tere bin jiya jaaye na 💔
To be continued...
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