Ashlok FF - ' Guilty Sins and Pleasures '

ASHLOK FF - " GUILTY SINS & PLEASURES "

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"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not f**k, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriends team and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring an not her kind and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane."
John Green, Looking for Alaska

"So she thoroughly taught him that one cannot take pleasure without giving pleasure, and that every gesture, every caress, every touch, every glance, every last bit of the body has its secret, which brings happiness to the person who knows how to wake it. She taught him that after a celebration of love the lovers should not part without admiring each other, without being conquered or having conquered, so that neither is bleak or glutted or has the bad feeling of being used or misused. "

-- Herman Hesse

Prologue :

Teenage .. is something.. all would have come across.. many new things.. new feelings.. new urges ..new interests.. new confusions..new confessions.. new trials and new errors..

MIND.. mind is a devils workshop..Mind at the teenage.. is is really a devil or the angel..

HEART.. heart is for those who are emotionally sensitive.. and who are more romantic.. But for people who pretend or have twin characters.. to LISTEN TO HEART OR OBEY TO MIND.. it becomes a problem. Neither you are here or there.. Some where stuck in mid with lots of confusions.. Mind Mumblings.. hearts ignorant dispersal..

SOUL .. In confusions.. Finally I listen to the Soul ..which is hidden underneath the layers of my heart.. I don't revel to anybody..Some one who can take the challenge of capturing my Soul with N number of tortures.. then I may say he is a MAN .. and MAN ENOUGH.. like wise .. I too want to find a Soul in the deep hidden abyss..

BODY .. All the other three may be in sync of disapproval or rejection..But finally the BODY.. to feel the pleasure ..to enjoy the pleasure.. can be cheated.. or cannot be cheated.. If one is in sync and the other not insync..

END UP IN CONFUSION and CONFESSIONS - OF GUILTY AS A SIN & GUILTY AS A PLEASURE WITH PAIN.. We will read in this FF about the same..

INDEX :

CHAPTER 1 : PG 2

Sounds very interesting dearest :D
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Originally posted by: GoWithTheRhythm

Sounds very interesting dearest :D
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Amel ..updated Poem for this..

Lovely poem darling...

Originally posted by: sathuraj

Lovely poem darling...

its so touching...

Thanks for the wonderful treat..

waiting for the OS...

Will update by evening

Originally posted by: deepavasudev

Will update by evening

lovely poem..
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Chapter 1 :

Aunty ...Pl send Astha Out , we our missing our team member..without her we cannot win..Pl send her out ...

Boys from down stairs were pestering kalindi to send Astha Out for playing..

Kalindi went and gave nicely by scolding them .. informing .. Boys she will not come out for some days.. she is not well and sleeping..so pl don't trouble her ..and go and find a new team member for ur team..She shushed them off and came inside...

The boys with a sad face stepped outside the compound wall, from some where a letter wrapped in a stone aimed by somebody from first floor , came and hit Raghav.. Aah..he yelled and turned to see from where the stone came..

All the boys same him suffer in pain .. but tiny Ayush .. took the stone and said ..hey boys .. see there is a letter..

Raghav .. saw upstairs.. It was Astha..clad in a Churidhar .. in a baby pink one.. with a bindi in face.. and some jewellery..Raghav .. wiped his eyes ..in disapproval of what he saw in front of his.. Ayush came and gave the letter to Raghav. Ayush yelled from down.. Astha what is this u have worn.. U look ..like .. something different..come down .. lets go and play.. he yelled.

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Raghav went thru the letter..

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Dear Rascals,

I don't know what has happened to KALINDI TIGER.. she is not allowing me to come out side. She informed me that I should not play with boys anymore and I need to maintain my distance..I don't understood what is with her.. Let me ask AVDHOOT.. and I will let u know when can I come and join for playing.. Ok .. let me wind up now..

I will join u boys after 3 days.. Im not well.Yesterday I had severe stomach pain and I have been lying on bed since then.. KALINDI.. told not to step out of house.. I want to step out,but since tummy is aching ..Im not coming too.. I will come and surely join after 3 days..

Yours Little Rascal ,

Astha..

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Raghav after reading the letter informed Astha thru sign language that See u in three days.. Somebody was covering Ayush's mouth.. She yelled from Up.. Bye BRATS.. miss u guys.. See you in short time she waved and came to her bed..

She lay herself on her bed .. She took out her Tab and started playing Temple Run..

Kalindi came inside.. and saw her.. Astha how many times to tell u.. Lie down to a side.. Don't lie flat.. Sit properly..Where is your odni..Y u dint drink your milk.. blah.. blah.. blah.. she started..

Astha.. took her ear phone and kept in her ears and dint give heed on what kalindi was telling ..She was concentrating on the game..All of a Sudden she gotup and started jumping on the bed ..yay.. I have won..I have won..

Kalindi came and gave one on her butt.. Astha.. this is the last warning Im gonna give you.. I have told you not to jump .. Pl behave..

Astha.. couldn't take it anymore.. Oh..pl KALINDI.. I cannot hear your bhajan anymore.. Im going down to your Husbands room.. To complain about you.. so better behave ..Im warning you.. She warned and went down..

The aggressive CAT.. now had a puppy face and went down straight to Avdhoots room..Hey Dad.. can I have a sec.. I need to launch a complain about your wife.. Who is not bothered about me at all..who doesn't care about me at all.All the time who keeps wining and shouting and yelling .. And I cant take it any more.. Pl send her to her Aayis place.You and I and Ajju can live peacefully for some days. Pl AVDHOOT.. can you do this for me.. she pleaded and poured out in one full breath..Oh my Rani.. slow .. Slow.. Take a deep breath.. Avdhoot uttered..

Oh..Dad.. Pl stop it.. Don't call me Rani.. How many times I have told you ...not to call me as Rani.. I will kill you once again If I here that name.. Ok fine baba...Mera Raja beta.. come here.. He called.. She went and sat on her Dads lap..Ok now tell what you problem is He asked..

Dad.. See .. I don't like to wear these clothes.. what is this.. Churidhar, a Odni.. Bindi.. bangles.. flowers.. anklets.. Oh ..god .. I cant take it anymore..She keeps bugging me all the time ..to wear .. one or the other thing.. See.. She put Mehndi on my hand..What do I say to my friends.. I cant take all these...you have to Sush her .. or divorce her.. let she go to her Aayis place.. She gave a big list and pulled out one white hair ..from Avdhoots mush .. He yelled.. Aah.. Oh what Daddy..U cant take this pain of one White hair which I removed from your Mush.. You are not strong at all ..Join Gym Dad ..She yelled and got up from her Dads Lap..

Kalindi was watching ..Dad and Dtr.. convo .. standing near the door.. She was enjoying her daugthers antics..Astha was sitting on the bed now.. Astha.. Astha...

What Dad..

Avdhoot came and told her closer.. what is the problem.. why are u talking bad about mama.. I don't want to all these pretending things..Im straight forward telling you.. You make her shut her mouth ..Or I will start fighting with her all the time.. I will not leave a single chance for her to open her mouth..

Upfront im telling you.. Avdhoot.. knew her ROARING daughters SKILLS .. he had to budge.. Avdhoot finally said.. Ok baba.. I will talk to her and ask her not to be stiff on you .. and My request to my dear Dtr.. Can you please for two days at least.. be in the same avatar.. As you know why .. im wanting you too..

Ok..AVDHOOT..its only for you I do this. Don't jump once I step out of the room in happiness that I agreed to ur small and insane request.. OF PRETENDING TO BE A GAL..

She gave a smirk and left the room ,ignoring Kalindi Royally who was near the door.. She went to the hall. Swithced on the TV and rested her Legs on the TPOy and was surfing the channels .. In 1 minute 20 channels she had changed..Finally her eyes set on DISCOVERY TURBO.. She was watching TOP GEAR..

It was dusk now.. All had dinner .Astha went upstairs ..Stil she was not talking to kalindi..She knelt down and pulled a suitcase from underneath the cot.. She opened it ..She took out a Diary, and started scribbling some thing..

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Three days got over.. her Rascals team .. Vanarasena team were standing down ..near the door step..

Kalindi.. Again you fellows came.. How many times.. I have told.. you..she will not come and play with u boys..Astha came down... Oh KALINDI.. Stop it.. You said three days.. and the days are done .. So pl be quiet ..or else I willask Daddy to divorce you..

Kalindi.. pulled her ears and starting..Oh.. U will .. and let me see who will win.. UR SILLY DAD OR ME..

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Step out but by 12 noon you should be in home..is it a deal..Ok MOMMY.. she said and took her bicycle.. RANGER..and joined the little rascals and went to the play ground near her home..

The clouds were slightly dark.. In October .. rain..yes.. it was sunny for sometime.. and all of a sudden it started with a drizzle and started pouring..These kidos they were setting the Badminton Net for playing .. saw the rain and ran towards the tree to find shelter..

Astha who was in her half trousers with a black sleevless tops and in a pony tail with short hair .. spread her hands free and started letting the rain drops kiss her cheeks one by one and finally to flow kisses over her fully body..

She was drenched..All her friends called her to come and stand below the tree.. But she dint..She played and danced in rain..She took her Bicycle now and started riding on the main road.. Towards the pot hole on the corner.. She dint mind about the slush ... splashing from other vehicles.. She enjoyed the splash..

She came fast and zarrr.. She came peddled her cycle into the pothole .. splashing the stored water to splash like a FOUNTAIN.. all over.. She got the adrenaline.. and now went straight and in no time ..came for another round.. she dint three times. She enjoyed the mud puddle, rain, splash and Fountain..

Fourth time.. She was about to step in the pot hole... from nowhere a GUY.. who was riding fast in the opposite direction ... inspite of her ringer her bell and he honking his horn.. and due to less visibility of things happening the opposite.. came and

DASH.. DASHED.. in the pothole.

The Ranger and CBZ.. BOTH Dashed and fell on the ground..

AStha got up immediately in her drenched and muddy avatar ..went to fight with that fellow.. how dare he.. he was in his helmet.. he got hurt .. and was about to get up.. But he was hurt ..in his legs and hands..he needed support..Angry Astha who was angry with the Stupid ..Idiot.. Fellow came in a fierce to pull and shake his collars..

But seeing in pain.. he OFFERED HER A HAND.. for help to make him get up..

NOW THE boy or ADULT.. removed his helmet pushed her hand away and got up.. The time he pushed her hand off .. some sort of connection or a new sensation.. a jilt of electricity passed on thru her body.. She felt weird.. She was angry with him..

One reason .. he coming and dashing..the other .. he pushed her helping hands..He got up .. he removed his helmet and came closer to her..

AND YELLED..

ANDHI ..HO GAYI HO KYA..

SAAMNE KYA AATA HAI ..TUMKO DIKHAYI NAHI DETHA..

PAAGAL HO.. BEIRI..HO.. BAATH KARNA NAHI AATA..

HE was putting A to Z list for her to talk...AStha couldn't take it anymore.. She came close to him.. the proximity was so close..Both had a different feeling when they were close.They dint understand what it was..

She came closer..Hey u idiot..Just Shut up.. You Mom dint she teach manners.. She pulled his collars.. and started giving back.. U feel that ..Im blind.. Im deaf and Im dumb... Now see...

She left his collars now came very closer to his ears AND YELLED...MEIN ANDHI YAA.. BEIRI.. YAA.. GHOONGHI..NAHIII HOONNN..

She yelled so loudly that he had to close his ears and push her off in the raining water into the pothole out of anger and took his BIKE and started heading towards his direction and destination..

After he disappeared..AStha pulled her cycle..luckily it was not damaged much.. she was also hurt in her hand.. But somehow ..managed to walk along with the cycle and headed home..

On the way ..she was feeling on the UNEXPLAINED THOUGHTS.. what were those feelings..why did I get something weird running in my body.. Oh Stupid Crap..Why Im feeling different.. And Now ..My new target is to find out who this NEW GUY in the town was.. .

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This was their first meet..

Shlok and Astha..

Astha age 14 , Just now who became a big gal..who feels why she was born as a gal each and everyday. Naughty, aggressive, rude, WTH was her favourite words..

Shlok 16..Going to step into college ( PU)..in his 10^th final board exams..Rude.. Arrogant .. MCP.. Aggressive..Handsome and charming..W*F was his favourite words..

These two rascals.. life journey ..we will see from the Age of 14 to 18 of hers and his 16 to 20 ..

TEENAGE CONFESSIONS and confusions as GUILTY AS PLEASURES OR SINS...

Deepa, I liked the gitl very much.

She's closer to the boys than to the girls.
Sometimes it feels like she was born a girl by mistake but when she meets him
she realizes she was born a girl... still

I think teenage crushes are the strongest.
Kids are still kids thinking they are adults. Toughest time.
Child sould in adult body. I liked the descriprion oof her routine life, her letter to her gang😃

Thank you Deeps for the sweet memories😉

Nice concept and I like it😉