credits: megha di
A SWARON OS : BY SHRUTIKA
A press conference was being held. A beautiful girl dressed in a pink dress looking as if an angel has stepped on the earth was answering the questions. She was a famous and well known writer. Her books were bestsellers. But this time it was different, she had wrote a book on her life on her LOVE. So this time what mattered for her was his reaction.
She hoped that he would read this book and forgive her, and would come back to her. He had left her years back. She always cursed for that day. She never wanted this to happen but destiny had some other plans. She had poured her heart to write this book so that her soul her love returns to her.
Her thoughts were disturbed by an interviewer. Interviewer asked , "So mam, what would you like to tell about this book. You always wrote suspense and thriller. Suddenly such an emotional Stuff was quite unexpected from you"
"My life was a roller coaster ride from past few years, that's why I thought of writing this book. I was not comfortable of expressing my personal thoughts before the world and she didn't knew how he will react. But the wait to meet him just once was killing her. So she made up her mind to write the book
Somewhere she knew he wouldn't be happy reading the book as his priority was seeing her comfortable and he knew she was never comfortable in sharing her personal feelings with the world. But still she felt a slight ray of hope that he would read the book and open the book once again.
Interviewer again broke her trail of thoughts "yaa maam, plzz continue." Sharon "My friend always said that 'WOHI KARO JOH DIL KEHTA HAIN. HUMESHA AAPNE DIL KI SUNO.' He knew me so well. So I just followed my heart."
The book is dedicated to him. I wrote what he meant for me. He was my LIFE, MY LOVE, MY SOUL, MAAN MERA.
He knew me in and out. Mein khudko bhi itna nahi jaanti thi jitna who mujhe janta tha. Woh kehta tha usse mere aane ki khabar aapne aap mil jaati hai. Pagla. Jaise who hi mera maan ho. Mere baare mein sab pata hota tha usse. Shayad hi koi aur itna jaanta hoga mere baare mein.
Woh humesha mujhe comfortable dekhna chahta tha. He used to even hurt himself for making me comfortable. But still meri comfort hi uski priority thi. Although at beginning we were not friends at the beginning, but still the way he made me feel comfortable left me speechless and started having an unknown attraction towards himself. I had a feeling that our souls are one, we are soulmates, as he when I was sad , what to do to cheer me up.
Even my friends failed to cheer me up, but he did by being my secret admirer. At that time I didn't even knew who he was, yet my heartfelt a connection with him.
His intention behind those gifts was so pure and selfless. But I misunderstood him. He always thought of making me happy, see me cheerful and I just kept on hurting him.
But he perfectly knew what my heart wanted, what it desired off, when it was hurt, when it was happy, when it was sad. How could he not know? After all it belonged to him.
I had lost the confidence when that shivam cheated our team. He helped me win my confidence back. I had thought of quitting dancing, but he made me realized the importance of dancing in my life. He was always there for me no matter how I treated him, how I insulted him ,still he stood there as my strongest support, as my strength, due to this I was able to perform solo at INDIA FEST.
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While performing the blind lift during the practice session too , I knew he would not let anything happen to me and he proved me right. With the blindfold I was not able to guess where he was standing, in what direction I had to go. But as our souls were connected, his heart whispered my name and my heart recognized in spite of all the noises around.
I also remember our first cycle ride. I was standing in the middle of the road as my car broke down, all helpless. I tried calling Rey and Vicky too but even they were busy. But as always he came there as my savior as if his heart knew that I was facing some problem. He was riding his cycle; he stopped as soon as he saw me standing there all alone. He was there to rescue me, make me feel comfortable as that had been his only job.
Our first college trip together, there was a challenge announced in which boys n girls were competitors and they had to prepare a presentation to help their respective teams win. As usual, he very well knew as what we girls were planning. I was stunned to hear his reply "Tumhe Kya Lagta Hai Mujhe Pata Nahi Tum Kya Karna Chahti Ho."
He used to always amaze me with his talks. How well he knew me. All my plans used to fail before him. He used to guess all my thoughts so perfectly.
The day I rejected him, he still knew what my heart wanted, it wanted to be with him, to have a relation with him, but I kept on stopping myself from accepting it. He knew me as no one else did. He knew what I actually wanted which even I failed to understood.
When that Shivam was enjoying his victory over his cheap tactics and I was all alone. Even my friends started accusing me of my fault that I did of being friend with Shivam, it was he who again gave me confidence, made me fight the destiny and helped me won the fight. He was the one who introduced me to my identity MY DANCE once again.
After the rejection too he always made me comfortable. He never crossed his limits. Although he knew that I was most comfortable with him, but still he always maintained the distance. He knew I was not comfortable in expressing my feelings, although I had always shared special bond with him, so for my comfort he always maintained distance. He had promised me that he wouldn't even talk about us getting together till the time I want to be us to be US and he maintained that.
When I visited his house and saw the Sharon's corner it left me speechless and mesmerized, as he cherished all those moments so beautifully. Never thought someone would do it for me, never thought someone would make me feel so special, but he was the one. He loved me even though I didn't reciprocate his feelings. He always loved me so selflessly. He was the man of his words. There was no photo in the Sharon's corner after the rejection as he had promised to shut the book.
Then the day when we decided to give ourselves a chance, to be in a trial relationship, still his priority was my comfort. He told me that I can leave him and go whenever I feel that am not happy and comfortable being in the relationship. At that time I thought he is a dream. Can somebody like him be for real? I so wished then that I had not misunderstood him before and have confessed to him then.
Everything was going so smoothly and in a pleasing manner. But then the FOOTLOOSE again distanced us, I failed to understand him, I thought he was supporting his team, but I forgot that USKA DIL TOH HUMESHA MERI HI SIDE LETA HAI, but as always I misjudged him. I never reciprocated his feelings, neither his love nor his trust. This all lead to our break up and tears started forming in Sharon's eye.
All this while Sharon had a smile on her face but now the break up memories made her sad. She remembered the words RELATIONSHIP STATUS CHANGE HONE SE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS TOH NAHI BADALTE.
She controlled herself and wiped her tears as she realized where she was present. She continued "But soon we patch up." HUM HUMESHA SAATH RAHENGE AUR HUMARA DANCE BHI HUMARE SAATH RAHEGA.
But destiny had some other plans for us. Doctor told me that I had asthma and I wouldn't be able to continue my dancing. I decided that I will go away from him.
I told him that I no more wanted to be with him and the next moment he was not there in my life, as his sole objective was to see me comfortable. He had left me, his friends, and dance, everything without even questioning me. I just hope and pray that he comes back and forgives me for my mistakes and never leave me alone.
She whispered Bas tum aa jao mere paas.
A guy standing at one corner of the room adored Sharon, was listening to her but was unable to understand what she was saying as he was lost in her.
When the interviewer's question brought him back to reality
"Can we know his name?" asked the interviewer.
"He is MY SWAYAM. MY LOVE. MY LIFE. MY SOUL." SWAYAM ' MAAN MERA'.the title of the book perfectly meant what Sharon felt about Swayam.
The guy took a mike from the nearest table and started reciting a poem
"Aasman se dharti par aayi
Ek sundar si pari
Humesha rehti ulzhi ulzhi
Aankhein uski kehti kuch aur hi kahani
Hai who sab se alag
Aadein hain uski aanokhi
Dance hai uski pehchan
Dost uski Zindagi
Aaj puchta hun mein usse
Kehta tha mein jise siren
Kya dogi saath humesha
Aur banogi iss Swayam ki sharon."
Sharon was jumping with joy seeing him. Her happiness knew no bounds. Swayam went to her took her hand in his hand and said "There was no day when I didn't miss you Sharon. I wanted to meet you, know about your well being, but the promised I made to myself stopped me. I can't see you uncomfortable and so I left from there the next moment to never return to you. But when I read I came here. I took the next flight and came here to meet you."
Sharon " Ek baar bhi tumne pucha nahi ki kyun hum saath nahi ho sakte. Aise hi chale gaye bina batein. Mujhe daatein, puchtein par tum aise hi chale gaye. Naa kisi ko baatein ke gaye, naa yeh bataya ki kaha jaa rahe ho. I SO HATE YOU SWAYAM" and starts beating him in his chest.
Swayam "OOUCH.Tum abhi bhi nahi badli naa, abhi bhi wohi purani siren.Will you be mine forever? I LOVE YOU MISS RAIPRAKASH. Will you be mine forever?"
Sharon "yes yes. Mein Banungi iss Swayam Ki Siren."
And they both start laughing and hug each other.
Edited by sweetcherry95 - 12 years ago
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