EDITED
THE FIRST STEPS...Arnav and Khushi
The night past had given me so much relief,
My heart was light with a sense of disbelief.
The worst was over, a feeling of new vigor,
A new hope, the new dawn seemed to augur.
His every word, so heartfelt and so sincere,
Bit by bit to ease my heart, I slowly savor.
A slow release of our past so scarred,
Bad memories to let go were very hard.
His strength gone, a man he was broken,
Crumbled down, begging to be forgiven.
He is the man I shall love now and forever,
Our very souls beckoned to each other.
How then could I not see his pain!
How could I ever let him suffer in vain!
Hurting together, to heal, I must forgive,
His words give me the comfort to live.
Past hurts would not allow hope however.
Afraid I am, to let inner feelings take over.
To move on, the past I have to leave behind,
I suspect though, the fates have us entwined.
Hatred gone, my true self I must again find,
For my family, the future, and my peace of mind.
A new dawn, a new hope beckons;
A NEW resolve is rising with the sun.
I hear myself talk, while breakfast I make,
My laughter now does not sound fake.
My heart is light and free of care,
When with family, the morning meal I share.
I feel his gaze on me so very keen.
Wondering to myself, what could it mean?
Relief I sense in him and also a calm,
Could it be the one before the storm?
Not a word had he spoken since last night,
But he would not move out of my sight.
Surprised I am and disappointed perhaps,
About us and our future, as time elapsed.
A hope tiny remains, however hard I suppress,
Why do I still expect something, what do I wish?
The past dealt with, it is best forgotten,
The future of my family looms uncertain.
'Tis time for me to get new business,
That would help with our expenses.
Life was finally moving on track,
So Payal decided, to our parents, we'd go back.
Visiting them, for just a couple of days,
I would learn to live without seeing his face.
Two days flew by and soon it was time,
Akash had come to take us to dine.
He'd not come, the one I sought,
His reasons I knew now, his every thought.
Away from me, he was bent upon staying,
Frustrated and mixed up is what I am feeling.
Trying to move on, to deal with life alone,
A month or two, and I would be back home.
The very thought of it makes my tears flow;
How would I ever let our families know?
I stop and breathe, for this is not the time,
I need his help, together we must climb,
Mountains of deceit and a charade to break,
The very foundations of our families would shake.
Back now and I slowly walk to our room,
The spectre of a bleak future seemed to loom.
Lost in my thoughts, I move on inside,
Only to be met by the most stunning sight.
Empty it had seemed with curtains drawn ,
But with sparkling lights, the ceiling shone.
Like a sky studded with sparkling stars,
Tiny pinpricks of light blinking from afar.
Slowly moving, looking up in amazement,
Crashed into a warmth ever-present.
Around me then, his warm hands went,
Steadying my fall, his support he lent.
I step back quickly, my eyes asking questions,
Blinking like the stars, every other second.
His deep caramel eyes always make me melt,
Even though I now didn't know how I felt.
I watch him walk to turn on the light,
My eyes were drawn to another amazing sight.
His room...'twas not like his, not anymore,
It's bright yellow splashes suited me more.
A memory immortalized of us together,
A dance unforgettable, moments of desire.
I look at it, then at him, and then at the picture,
What is happening here, I begin to wonder.
By the French windows hung my wind chimes,
Soundless now with no wind nor rhyme.
As I walk closer to a wall nearby,
A poster of my favorite actor I spy.
I smile then seeing his photograph,
Since it came with his signed autograph.
Questions spill from me in excitement,
To him I look...my heart with pain is rent...
ARNAV
Breaking down, with pain, her voice resounded,
Her pain I know..I can feel in me compounded.
My heart is broken again at her tears,
Must confess now lest I give in to my fears.
"Pain is all I gave you from the start,
I know, you have decided we should part."
I gulp, I need to breathe in some,
I am now completely overcome.
I go on, "In only another month or two,
The end will come, leave if you want to."
I will not stop you and will never force you,
Into something that you don't want to do.
In the past, I've done too much of that,
Demand I cannot, force you I just cannot.
But I will always hope and keep on hoping,
Khushi, I love you and will keep on loving."
Tears filled her beautiful eyes hazel,
To take her pain and make it all well,
Wished with all my heart I could do so.
But all that came was, "Khushi, I love you so.
Always, I did... it seems like forever,
A fool to have recognized it never.
I will strive now to get my love back,
Will do my best to fix every crack.
I want you badly, back forever in my life,
You complete me, truly my better half."
KHUSHI
I speak then, in a voice all teary
I feel so beaten and so weary
"Stop, I beg you, I won't stay back,
I can't stay-the strain is making me crack.
I cannot bear it ..not ever, not again."
Gathered me close, as I crumbled then.
His hands on my back sought to soothe,
His words of love had been the truth.
Calming down, I then move away slowly,
Confused I am by his behaviour utterly.
Words he says to my question unspoken,
Sounding like a man equally shaken.
"I will never ever stop you from leaving,
But I will keep showing you my every feeling-
How much I love you, not words merely,
Everything I do, I will do it for you surely."
"To stay back I shall give you reasons many,
To complain, a chance you won't have any.
You may hate me, want to pack and run,
Strive I will to make you love me again.
I know I am not at all deserving
But you are my life, my everything."
With these words, he walks to the curtains near
Drawing them open, to that poolside dear
Lights there were twinkling all around,
Just like on a Diwali night we had found.
That had been a night of very deep regrets,
Tonight had been a promise to let those rest...
Edited by chitrajay - 10 years ago
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