Originally posted by: Tessaloni
Prol.
The use of imagery is so vivid that one can easily imagine
every scene as it draws you in. You feel every agonizing moment of Yash as he
pushes the boundaries just a bit more in his bid to feel closer to Arpita. And curiously,
when he is in his senses, he is aware of the effect it has on his family. He does
not like putting them through so much angst, but at the same time he is not
ready or willing to let go. But after this last episode, he is at least willing
to step in the direction of moving on for his family's sake.
But you have given great insight into not only Yash's
psyche, but also how it affects those around him. Why would the news report have
such effect on him, make him want to bury deeper into his agony? It is because
it symbolizes the present, lets him know that life has moved on without her,
and that it is demanding him to do the same. That he has to know about the
happenings of a world in which she does not exist.
That's why he clings all the more tighter to the frame even
when his fingers are numb, he does not let go. The smiling picture makes him
want to be a part of that frame, be in that time with her, in their happy
moments. But he is unable to, so he grabs it tighter causing him to bleed. But it's
nothing new, just the manifestation of his bleeding heart. He feels pain, whatever
he does, he is in agony because the one thing that will remove that pain, he
cannot have. He has to cause himself pain to hang on to reality by clenching
his jaw, just like he has pierced his palms holding onto the frame, in his desperation to be with his
love.
His family should have gotten rid of those pictures long ago
IMO. But he did lose the woman he loved, and each person grieves differently. There
is no timeline for it after all. Except when it results in the episodes Yash
has that can lead to self-harm. It cannot be easy to watch a loved one undergo
such agony. But at the moment Yash has no reason to move on from it; a part of
him must feel that no one in his family can really understand what he feels
because none of them went through the same. And this is where Aarti will be
vital.
Ch. 1
Aarti is a picture of despair. Those first lines before
reading her intent are so heartbreaking. She is so wholly lost to the world
around her, unaware of even her dupatta twirling in the wind to beckon her back
to life. No. she is already dead, just like her lank hair that not even the
wind can bring back to life. And of course the world judges, satisfied that her
condition is legit, uncaring about her state. And those willing to look a
little closer, unwilling to be drawn into that picture of darkness. So any hope
she might have of anyone showing her the beautiful side to life is lost as she
walks into the water, wading deeper until she can't anymore.
What would drive a woman to the point of ending her life
precisely when another is growing inside her? Initially she feels relieved as
she becomes weightless in the depths of the water, sinking deeper much like her
pain was sinking her deeper into misery. And the clouds above represented what
she wanted, not death, no, but to get out of the pit of pain and exist in the
light. To not be drowned under a storm, but to float above the clouds instead.
And only as death began to claw stronger did she realize that
she did not want it. Only then does she realize that whilst she has every
reason to want it, she has one very crucial reason to cling to life: her baby. Only
here does one realize that she was so far removed from everything good, pulled
deeper into despair that she forgot she had a life to safeguard. And when she
is reminded of it, she cannot do anything about it. Her own clothes tangle her
up and weigh her down, she is strangled by her mangalsutra, much like the
suffocating pain from the bond she wanted to escape. And she feels herself
drowning with no means of escape.
Ch. 2
So Yash is finally taking that one crucial step to let his
love rest in peace by immersing her ashes; it is not just any old place either,
but one that she loved, where they had wonderful moments. And once again, he
gets pulled into that world, imagining her touch on his lips. But he is able to
shake it off and remain in the present, and without pain to himself. And unlike before when he wanted to
escape his surroundings, and exist in an abyss pulling him deeper into his
world of agony; now he can fully take in everything around him.
Now he can sense that everything as tranquil as it seems,
the rippling at the far off spot beckons to him, makes him want to investigate
the source. And without a second thought he plunges into the depths of the
river, having perhaps for the first time in a long time, a purpose. And in
saving this one life, he feels like he is afforded a second chance to save her,
"I won't fail you. His whole body screams protests at these grave task which
could very well cause him his whole life, but this time he is determined to
succeed. To pull her out of the mud alongside himself, to emerge victorious.
In my view their journey starts at that precise moment when
in a sense they bring each other back to life. He, in giving her a second
chance at life to live for the baby growing inside her, and she, in giving him the
chance to save her, and making him see the colors of life he refused to see in
so long. Just like the murky water from which they emerged, a lot is still
unclear. But just like they swam to shore, and ended on dry land, they will get
pass the murk. The might suffocate in its depths, and as they steadily reach
the surface, they might stumble, but together they will reach dry land on which
they will form a steady foundation. And the beautiful colors of life will dance
around them, making their hearts light, and pain free. Well, that's how I see
their journey, (Sorry for the dramatics).
And Kittya, thanks once more for choosing to continue this beautiful
story of heartbreak, and healing, and of course love.
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