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Hii deshianz''..
I am back with an OS''.. I know the epilogue of my
FF is on pending''. But I will update it as soon as possible'''. so here is a
new OS, hope u will enjoy'''.
PS : kindly forgive the mistakes as I have'nt make
any proof reading''..
NOTE
: I couldn't find a nice name for this OS. So I need your help. Please suggest
a nice name for this OS. Both English and hindi names are welcomed. But if u
are suggesting any complicated hindi words then please explain the meaning also
as many of u very well know about the condition of my hindi. Those who couldn't
find any names can vote for the names suggested by others as it will help me to
select the best. Hope u all will help me'''
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I
stood on the balcony staring at the twinkling stars; my eyes' having the tear
drops which are twinkling like the stars of the sky above and My heart so heavy
that it found very difficult to beat inside the cage of ribs. It's being hours
since I was scanning the sky. If I had attempted to count the stars I would
have completed it by now. But I hadn't done it as it was not my aim. I need
shooting stars. It is said that if we desire for something after seeing the
shooting stars our wish will be fulfilled.
I
have one wish '''' my last wish'''
Suddenly
my heart jumped with boundless joy as my eyes caught a shooting star passing
through the bundle of stars of the black sky. I pulled down the curtains of
eyes to ask my wish without wasting a second.
"god,
I have cheated prem by hiding the greatest truth of my life. Now he is not
talking to me. Please bhagwaan, please solve the misunderstanding between us. I
don't want any misunderstandings between as there are only few days left
for''''"
"
HEER BETA''' HEER''."
I
turned back immediately without completing my wish when I heard mom calling me
aloud. I went downstairs at once on realizing the scary tone of her voice. When
I asked the matter between my deep gasps she became hesitant to tell me. I saw
the shadow of something really scary on her face. On my continuous bugging she
informed me that prem met with an accident and is now in the intensive care
unit of the city hospital due to his critical stage.
I
felt my heart beat stop for a moment and I was unable to think anything
further. All I knew is I wanted to see prem and I was about to run out of the
house on hearing the news. But mom and dad stopped me. They were not ready to
take me anywhere as doctor had insisted strict bed rest for me. But I was
adamant and was not ready to hear their advice and at last they agreed to take
me to the hospital.
Thanks
to that big hole of my heart'''
Because
of this hole of my heart, my parents always fulfilled my all demands. There is
not even a single wish in my life which is kept unfulfilled, other than having
freedom.
***********************
While
sitting inside the BMW which dad gifted me for my last birthday, old memories
started to flood into my heart. I wiped the moist on the glass of the window to
have a better view into my past. As the car took me ahead towards prem, my
heart moved backwards my past memories''.
It
is said that when I was born, the doctor had informed that I can't be alive
more than 20 years. So obviously my parents were too protective towards me. Dad
changed all his business and properties on my name. Mom was always beside me to
take care of me even though there four other maids and two home nurses
appointed by dad exclusively for me.
My
parents knew that their child will have only a very short life span so it may
be the natural that they were too protective towards me. But little did they know
about the suffocation I was feeling inside that frustrating atmosphere.
Mom
was the only support I had in the home. But she is such a goody wife that she
won't even take a single step against her husband. If mom was not there with me
don't know what would have been my condition'.
When
I was a baby there stood a minimum of 4 maids to around my crib. When I started
to go school home nurses followed me to the school and stood outside the class
room in such a way that they can observe me through the window. I was never
allowed to play like my other classmates; there were even limitations for
talking to them.
It's
not that my parents didn't love me. The problem was their love always reminded
me that I am a patient and I have only a few days left in the earth.
In
my childhood I was a girl whose room is filled with hundreds of Barbie doll and
expensive toys but was never allowed to play with them. Sympathy is what I got
in countless bundles in my life and this is what I hate most about my life. On
those days more than the chest pain the sympathy shown by others was my
greatest anguish; I preferred death over those cheap sentiments shown by
others. Each day I prayed to bring my death as early as possible.
When
I reached seventeen, dad decided to tighten my restrictions as I am nearing my
last days on earth. Even after passing with highest scores in the schools dad
decided not to send me for higher studies. This made me to take the toughest
decision of my life. I decided to leave the house for ever.
There
was only three more years left in my life and I wanted to live it with full freedom.
Hearing my decision dad gave up as he knew very well that I will do what I said
as I had also born from his own blood. From there dad permitted me to continue
my studies and also loosened the chains of protection around me.
From
there my life changed upside which down give rise to an entirely different turn
over in my life. This happened three years back when I first stepped into the
st: xavier's campus.
while
entering the campus I was in a pleasant mood because of the slight reduction in
my protective rules but at the same time I was also feeling awkward for being
in a completely different atmosphere.
When
I reached the class room there was already many students each of them occupying
their own seats and engaged in mingling and chatting with their new friends.
Without giving much attention to the chatting gangs, I went directly towards an
empty seat near by the window. Some of them came towards me to have some
introductory talk with me. But I just told my name and cleverly avoided further
questions from them because I didn't want to get close to anyone. I was sure
that if I get into friendship with anyone slowly my identity will be revealed
and I will have to face the same old sympathy dramas once again.
After
some times the bell rang and an old bald headed professor with a huge belly
entered the class. Giggling was echoed from different directions as he entered
and when he started his boring introductory speech the whole class started to
sleep. But the whole class or at least all girls including me jumped out of their
sleep when an extremely handsome guy entered the class.
He
was wearing dark blue jeans and white and green tees and sports shoes. His
slightly brown long shaggy hair falling over his forehead was covering 3 by 4th
of his forehead. Earphone of I pod fitted in his one ear and other one lying
over his broad chest. His tight tees made easy for me to scan over his muscles.
But what I found most attractive in him was his chocolate brown eyes which were
having a spark of naughtiness.
"
Prem juneja"
My
lips murmured his name when he introduced himself to the whole class. Suddenly
I found him winking at me which made me to blush and I lowered my head to escape
from his eyes further. It was then I realized my jaw had slightly dropped while
glaring at him. I felt awkward to face him as I was sure that he had noticed
her staring at him shamelessly. I didn't look up for sometime but soon I felt
him coming towards me.
I
understood that he is going to sit beside e as there was no other vacant seat
in the class room. I moved little bit so that he can sit comfortably even
though I found uncomfortable in his presence.
"
hii, I am prem juneja'." Told prem smiling at me; a trade mark smile of a big
flirt.
"
heer' heer maan'" I replied acting to be concentrated in the class.
"
wow'' beautiful name''. just like u''.u r so gorgeous''" he spoke without
taking his eyes from me.
Hearing
his words I sighed confirming that I was not wrong.
************************
That
was a new beginning in my life. From there I started to realize that life means
not just sorrows or pain; but happiness and fun is also a part of it. From
there I started to enjoy my life forgetting all my sorrows, pains and panics.
Everything
because of prem. I can't explain the influence he had on me and on the whole
campus in just one month time. He was the heartthrob of the all girls of the
campus. With his extra ordinary performances in sports activities, charm and
not but the least his flirting skills he got the title of the handsome chunk of
the campus. But the funniest thing is that the boy who is the prince charming
in the heart of all girls was carrying me in his heart.
Right
from the day one prem was trying to get close to me but I always tried to avoid
him even though I was enjoying it from the core of my heart. It didn't take much
time for him to propose me, that too in front of everyone in the canteen. But
coolly I rejected it since I was very much aware of flirting nature. I didn't
take it seriously and I never knew that he was serious. But he never gave up;
each day came up with new tricks to impress me. I always thought that he is
doing it all for fun. But the best thing is that he always stayed in his limits
and he never gave a chance for me get angry on him.
Days
and months passed'''. Along with the passing days he was getting more and more
attracted towards him. I never knew that when I take one step away from him my
heart was taking two steps closer to him.
I
don't know when or how I started to like him, I know I liked him''' I special
kind of liking which I hadn't felt for any of my friends''' or I can say he is
my first and only friend'''he is the most person to get close to me other than
my family members''.. I actually I was confused what kind of feeling I have
towards him''..
Was
it just a friendship?
Prem
used to tell that I loved him but I am denying it. On those days I didn't knew
whether he was right or wrong, because I neither experienced friendship nor
love. So I was totally confused about my feelings'''
I
loved when he scribbles on my note'' I loved when he snatches my chocolate''. I
loved when he makes fun of me''.. I loved when he flirts with me'''.. I loved
when he writes my name on his hand''''' I loved when his gaze falls on me'''...
I loved when he winks at me''''..I loved
when he tucks my falling hair behind my ears'''' I loved when he puts his hand
on my shoulder'''. I loved when he takes shelter under my umbrella when it is
raining'''
And
above all I loved when he tells I LOVE U to me'''
I
loved the chilling effect my heart feels when he speaks those 3 magical words.
Actually whenever he opens his mouth to talk my ears sharpens to hear those
words. That was really a sweet experience which can't be explained with words.
I loved almost all things which are related with him, but there was one thing
which I hated in him'''
FLIRTING
WITH OTHER GIRLS'''.
Not
only flirting. I hated whenever he talks with other girls'''.. And he too knew
that very well. So I was a time pass for him to flirt with the girls, just to
make me angry'''. And this is what I hated in him the most'''
But
I never knew that it's all because I loved him. It took almost 2 years for me
to realize it. I can never forget that day; the day on which I realized my love''..
I
lowered the glass of the window to feel the chill air of outside on my face.
The chill air of the night can fresh up the memories than the A/C of the car.
Leaning backwards I lay on the cushion of my seat I gently closed my eyes in
order to drool completely in the sweet memories of that day''..
FLASH
BACK
February
14 ' 2010
Valentine's
Day celebrations are going full fledge.
Slow
romantic music is played in the back ground. Couples are dancing with their
partners and enjoying the precious moment of their togetherness. Even the
people who haven't found their partners were also enjoying as they are having a
memorable moment of celebration.
But
there was one girl who is fuming with anger and she was none other than heer
maan. her was heart crying making her eyes to shed tear drops but more than the
tears burning anger was more visible in her eyes.
Actually
she was not interested in any kind of celebrations especially something which
is related to love. She had came there only because of the continuous bugging
of prem. For him she had wear that dark red sleeveless frock as it was his
favourite. Today she had taken 2 more hours to get ready, only to her from him
that she looks pretty'''.
But
look at him, he is busy in dancing with that stupid ash. She always hated ash
not only for always running behind prem but also because of her cultureless
dressing sense. It is going to be one hour since she had come here, but prem
didn't even get time to make glance at her. How can he? He is busy in romancing
with that idiot girl.
Glaring
at them with fuming anger she moved towards the dance floor to pull out of the
hold of ash. It is then she noticed that ash drawing invisible line on prem's
face starting from his forehead and then down towards the cheeks while prem is
simply smiling at ash keeping his hands on her waist as if he is enjoying it.
This
is the limit and she can't take it anymore. She was sure that if she stays
there for one more second surely she will lose her control and may blast at
them. So it was better for her to leave from there. Heer turned back and
started to move. But after taking two steps she again turned back in order to
have a last look on him with her teary eyes.
It
is then she found ash's fingers reaching his lips. Rage arouse from the bottom
of the spine shooting her body into action. The next moment she found herself
flitting towards the dance floor and dragging prem out from there. Everyone was
looking at them with their jaws dropped in shock and the crowd spitted into two
giving way to them.
"
heer...... what are u doing?"
prem asked as they reached outside the hall.
Heer suddenly realized what she was doing and left his hand.
"
ss'.sorry'." she whispered looking at her feet.
Prem
took one step close to her with a naughty smile. She found it really hard to
face him again, so without a second thought she ran away from there just to
escape from his eyes which have a immeasurable effect on her.
Heer
sat on a wooden bench of a nearby park allowing the tears to flood out of her
eyes. It's getting late and her parents will be getting tensed. But she didn't bother.
She wanted to be alone for some time. There was only moon light to console her.
A
shocked heer turned back when she felt a hand curling over her shoulder. Heer removed
his hand out of her shoulder as she found prem sitting beside her. But prem was
not in a mood to leave her. He kneeled in front of her and wiped her tears. But
heer found a smile playing on his face which multiplied her anger thinking how
he could smile while she is crying.
Heer
again pushed his hands which brought an even wider smile on his lips. He sat
again on the bench and made heer to face him.
"
feeling jealous'.?" He asked looking straight into her lowered eyes brimmed
with tears.
"Why
should I ?" heer shot back
"
then why did u pull me out of the party?" prem asked acting innocent.
Heer
struggled for few minutes unable to find proper answer as she is also being troubled
the same question.
"
I just wanted to save you''. I knew you were not feeling comfortable with ash''"
heer replied knowing very well that it's a lie.
"
oh, hello'' who told you this?.......... actually I was enjoying it" he told stressing
on the word enjoying with a naughty smile.
"
THEN WHY ARE U HERE?" heer shouted " go and enjoy the party with your girl
friends'.." heer hissed.
"
I won' t''. because I love you''." Prem told cupping heer's face lovingly.
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will update the Next part in one or two days''.
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