Sid (Part 1):
"Smack, Smack, Smack" this is the only sound I hear, whilst standing in this desolate basketball court. The sound is being emitted from the basket ball as it smacks against the depressing grey tarmac. One word keeps zooming through my mind like an insistent bee..... "Why"
Why did you do this ridzy? What possibly compelled you to go to lonavla? Was my request simply too bland for you? Was it so terrible that you were instead lured to the orphanage where Ammy is? Here I was waiting like a fool for your arrival, wondering whether you would show, and then there's you who decided to ditch me and go to lonavla! Did my feelings mean so little to you, that you didn't even find it the slightest bit necessary to inform me of your departure? I was willing to have a meaningful conversation with you regarding our future, to attempt to start afresh, so that we could begin our relationship again, But No! It seems you had a different agenda altogether! WHY? I hate myself for questioning your motives, for doubting you, but ridzy you are compelling me to do this, what else am I to make of your actions? I go out of my way to insist on talking to you, even asking you to meet me on the terrace, and then you go gayab on me! And who do I gain my answers from? None other than stella the gossip lover of sanjeevni! Argh! I am going to drive myself insane with all these questions, I need to go to lonavla myself, and find out the truth, from you and you only.
Sid (Part 2):
No this can't be, how could this have happened? Ridzy why? Do you even realize the absolute pain I felt when seeing you in Ammy's arms? I know I had suspicions of your feelings towards him but never for a moment did I stop to think about what I would do if they were true! As I stood and watched in horrified, stony silence, whilst he carried you tenderly in his arms, I felt like someone had shot me several times over, I felt like my world was crashing down at my feet, the pain of it all reverberated through me like a ping pong ball in a glass cage and YOU! You didn't even protest!! Then suddenly, I felt, anger, anger like I have never felt before, what right did Ammy have to hold you in such a manner? Granted yes he still loved you, and you may still love him, but you were the one who kept telling me that he was your past, so are you insinuating that it is justified for your past to hold you in such a manner? To look at you in that way? Ridzy I have come to gain answers from you, and this time I will not leave until I get them, I love you of course I do, more than anything in the world, but I cannot suffer this pain any longer, I cannot live in this limbo like state waiting on the outskirts for you to choose me, because there is a chance that you may never do that, I need to know where I stand, if you plan on going through with the 7 month ultimatum, and more importantly what your heart wants, Ridzy seeing you in Ammy's arms destroyed me, but it also gave me a steely form of resolution, I Will Not Give Up, I Need My Answers From You, && Need To Know How You Feel, Soon Ridzy, I will approach you soon. I Love You.
By Tazzy
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