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Today , we realized that even though Sid-Riddz have agreed for this 'marriage of honour' - they both stand on different banks of the river.... totally different.
Sid - a good man with a heart if gold is embarking on this journey with a new hope , new beginnings. He is looking at this marriage as a giant step in his life that he is still coming to terms with. But the walkie-talkie candyshop that he is , he is trying to spread sunshine into this awkward phase of life. He is being optimistic and hoping against hope that him and Riddhima will perhaps not live like two slabs of ice thrown together. Sid is about warmth, joy , compassion , hope and that is what he wants to spread to Riddhima's life....
Riddhima - a shattered , heart broken woman in a dicey psycho-emotional state who is embarking upon this journey in the hope that she won't live to see the next day and release everyone - herself, Shashank , Paddy and Sid. She is numb and is not thinking at all - she is at the verge of succumbing to herself. She is all about sorrow , grief , sadness, pessimism , hopelessness and abyss like darkness - a black hole that threatens to not only consume her but everything and everybody around her......Separation from Armaan and Armaan seeming to have receded away has finished her - she is all hollow inside.
And yet these two people are going to marry .... marry for all the wrong reasons....
But Sid has resolved to make everything right.... right for Riddhima.
Today , as Sid stood at his farmhouse , making sure that all arrangements are in place - flowers, decorations and the works , you could see that he is trying to start on an optimistic note and that Riddzie's happiness matters very much to him - he doesn't want her to feel ashamed of this marriage.
The expressions with which he looks at that lovely ring in his hands thinking fondly of his grandmother - you can see that he is giving it to Riddhima because she is important - she is going to be his wife - and the giving if the ring symbolizes Sid's whole -hearted acceptance of Riddhima into his life. When he sees Riddhima's car arrive , he asks his granny if that is a sign that he is doing the right thing?
Sid's friends are sure impressed with him , especially Naina. They seriously believe that Sid is in love with Riddz while we know that Sid is still dealing with his sentiments towards Riddhima.
As Riddhima comes in , you realize that Sid-Riddz still don't know how to act around each-other. A formal 'hi' is exchanged and the awkwardness sets in again as the excited gang watches. You wish they go back to calling each-other Buddhi Chudail and Bloody Molester ....rather than this unnerving silence.
Sid wants to finish this hesitance and awkwardness and the friendship was the first step towards it. He actually treated Riddhima like a queen today even though she is too numb and distressed to feel anything - surrounding her with moons and stars that are kind of symbolic of his promise of happiness to her - making her comfortable and telling her in the sweetest manner possible that today is a big day for them and she does mean a lot to him - going on his knees and formally proposing her with the ring - telling her that it is only today that he noticed how beautiful she is - TODAY because he is becoming sure of his decision and accepting her as she is. Riddhima , at first overwhelmed by the efforts that Sid had done for her looks away in discomfort and hesitance - what do i tell him? I cannot relate to anything here - I am going to die and he is making promises that my death won't allow him to keep....
But that ring had to slip onto Riddzie's finger and it did - the rejoicing gang made it happen. Riddhima's eyes filled with tears and that struck Sid... somewhere he knew why she was crying but the pathos was dissolved in the surrounding joy.....
Sid plans to look after Riddhima like he has taken care of nobody else and you could see that in the smiling promising confidence with which he told a teasing Anjali that he is not even that much a kid. He can look after Riddhima and he will.
And as Riddhima, sat like a mannequin in the haldi ceremony and Sid looked at her from upstairs - you could see that shift of feelings happening - he knows he is slowly crossing the boundaries that separate him from Riddhima emotionally - it is the beginning of a love that is going to cause him nothing but suffering with no promise of light at the end of the tunnel as of now - you feel kind of relieved when he tells himself that it is 'liking' , not 'love'.
That is the problem with human emotions - you don't even realize when you cross the line and by the time , you do , it is too late. It is kind of hard for writers and creatives to depict the opaque and complicated psycho-emotional state of these two characters - they falter at times but i hand it to them for keeping Sid and Riddz in their characters.
Tomorrow, Riddhima is again going to scream at Sid and drive the point home that nothing will ever connect them and that she will always love Armaan. Sid will be hurt but he will deal with it and keep his commitment. There is no fighting , no turning back - now whatever it is , they are in this together.....Ajnabi modh hai. Seriously.
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