Hola amigosđ... I am Lakshmi aka Lachu...I am not a regular viewer though I know SwaSan have a long way to go before they become "the couple"...anyway i like them all rightđ...so here u go something from my part...basically just something really random on Sanskar's feelings after he gets accused ( I totally love his and Ragini's charctr, yeah u heard it right...I like the psychođ ...pure evilđ)...enough of rantingsđ here u gođ...
Time. A magician. Transcends all. Heals all wounds. Changes people. Changes perception. Look at himself, where is he now? Where was he a few months back? Of course time acts through people. People. He cannot understand people. He always thought of himself as a tactician, a genius who read people like a book. Funny how he was proved wrong. He felt like laughing at himself. A smirk appeared on his otherwise tired face.
The storm raged. Thunder sounded. He stood in the terrace drenching in the rain. He was exhausted. His mind had just completed a race. Running back through the folds of time precisely 5 years back, the fateful day of his wedding. He felt the weight on his chest increasing. It was a bad idea to think about her. But he couldn't help it , his mind had an incredible way of associating every pain with that day.
"Sanskar ne humare saath badtamezi karne ki koshish ki..."
The vile woman's voice echoed in the back of his head sending a fresh bout of anger across his system. He suddenly had the urge to scream. But he remained silent. Instead he closed his eyes shut suppressing all that he felt. Wrong move again.
"Sanskar itna ginawna harkat."
He felt the slap and his hand instantly went up to his cheek only to realize that it was just a memory. The memory seemed a thousand times more painful as he contemplated the look of despise of his family members. The disgust in their eyes pierced his heart like a bullet. Their misplaced trust in that vile woman, someone who entered their lives only a few days while their disbelief in him pained him the most. Of course there was his simple mother who loved him beyond reason but...He was a failure. He failed to earn the trust of his family probably their love too in the 24 years of his existence, what else did it mean?
A hand snaked up his shoulder. He felt the weight in his chest lighten at the mere touch for he understood very well whose hand it was. Swara. He remained standing in the rain with his eyes closed cherishing her touch. It soothed his heart. And he full well knew why. He knew it the moment he had witnessed her fight for him. He realized it at the moment he defended him against all odds. Yes, she knew the poison in the blood of that woman, but she also full well knew what he had done to her in the past. His wrong doings. Yet she never doubted him for a moment, oh yes he knew that for sure.
"Sanskar aisa ginawni harkat kabhi nahi kar sakta."
He knew why her presence mattered to him. He had fallen for her. Hard. He had fallen in love with Swara. Irrevocably so. The grip on his shoulder tightened. He realized he hadn't yet acknowledged his knowledge of her presence to her. He turned slowly, opening his eyes only to meet her beautiful ones. He had not yet fully understood the myriad of emotions residing in those eyes, but he could detect the sadness, the care and concern. He realized it was raining as he looked at her standing completely drenched. He was so immersed in his thoughts that he never noticed the rain.
"Sanskar..." Swara began. The kindness in her eyes warmed his heart. He knew she was the only person capable of understanding his plight. Sanskar looked at her for a moment, then hugged her tight as if his life depended on her, which for him it really did. Sanskar's heart fluttered as he realized Swara was not hugging him back, but it was only for a moment. He closed his eyes in contentment as Swara's hand snaked up his back. Time acted through people. But it isn't necessary that the actions are negative or the people bad. He was not a complete failure. He had someone who trusted him after alL. It may not be the case that she loved him but hopefully...someday...
The storm raged on.
