Unknown and Nameless-5
The words spoken by her cook Subhadra Bai were like some voice thundering from the heaven itself and Pallavi flinging her expensive heels away, just collapsed into the bed, weighed down by the words and the questions they were asking of her.
' What is wrong with me? why am I feeling so miserable?' she asked herself as she slowly cried herself to sleep and then they seemed to slowly dissipate as Ashok's face came into her thoughts and filled her dreams and she finally fell into a deep and deserved sleep.
Mahadevan heard the gentle snores of his wife and he smiled to herself and stood looking at her with care but also with worry for he knew that her addiction to alcohol was spiralling out of control. But, he did not have the heart or the guts to talk to her about for he feared the worst and that was losing her.
Not knowing what to do and how to go about it, Devan whispered, ' I am here baby but where are you?'
Pallavi woke up and saw that it was still dark and reached to touch her husband but found his side empty. Slowly, she reached for the lamp that was on her side and switching it on, cursed for the clock showed the time and it was " 11.00 AM" and late morning.
Late in the evening and at about 7.00 pm, she came downstairs and saw Devan sipping his green tea and watching BBC and greeted him.
' Oh no! you are leaving.'
Pallavi nodded and looked at him, her expression declaring to him that he knew that this was the time she went out to meet her friends.
' No problem. Have a good time and enjoy yourself.'
She smiled and bent and planting a kiss on his cheek, walked away into the night, her mind filled with more questions now than before.
Sitting in the car, she kept praying, ' God, let him be there. Please, let Ashok be there at his table.'
She saw him and knew that the Gods still answered her prayers and wondered if she deserved their attention when someone more in need could have used it.
Ashok looked up and flashed his polite and warm smile and waved and his smile filled her troubled soul and gave wings to her and she walked to him.
She sat down and saw that there was no drink in front of him and instead he was halfway through a sandwich and looked at him, ' waiting for me, Ashok.'
' Yes and also I was feeling very famished after skipping lunch.' pointing to the sandwich, ' they make a mean sandwich here and just like the way I like it. Lots of chicken and veggies and sans the mayonnaise and butter.'
Pallavi looked at him and thought to herself ' those are the exact words Devan uses' and smiled in the comfort of the similarities between Ashok and Devan.
Even before she could raise her hand, two large Citrus Salty dogs were brought to their table by Stella and placed on the table and she said, ' Courtesy of your friend, ma'am.'
They said cheers, tapped their glasses and Ashok raised it and toasted her, ' To Pallavi. May, she always remain blessed with all that is beautiful and that is good on this earth.'
Her eyes misted over with happiness and left a film of wetness in them and she smiled and said, ' I wish you the same, Ashok.'
After a few sips, both looked at each other in comfort and Pallavi looked at him and said, ' There is a saying that we women always spout and which is " all the good men are either taken or they are Gay."
Ashok studied her and finishing a few sips, asked her, ' why Pallavi? why do women say that?'
' because of men like you, Ashok. Most women would die to have a man like you in their life?'
' Does that include you?'
' Absolutely Ashok but then that would ruin this intimacy that I value more than you in my life.'
' But, I am already in your life, Pallavi.'
Pallavi who was just about to take a sip, placed the glass back and looked at him with a bit of irritation in her face and asked, ' How did you jump to that conclusion?'
Ashok smiled ' Why else would a classy and beautiful woman like you want to sit with me, talk with me and drink with me? Time is a valuable gift and you are a woman who would think not once or twice but a million times before you spend that time in the company of a total stranger like me. That shows you trust me and have accepted me as a friend and that is why I said I am already in your life as a friend.'
Pallavi clapped her hands softly and saluted him, ' boss, we women only read about men like you in books and see them in films but rarely in real life.'
Ashok bent his head in a bow and touched his right hand to his forehead and said, ' thank you, ma'am but I am just your garden variety man and nothing more.'
He leaned into the table and came closer to Pallavi and asked, ' Do I have your permission to ask a few questions about your life, I mean your personal life?'
Pallavi sighed and looked at her empty first round and whispered without looking up, ' please do for I need someone to talk to for I feel so lost and lonely.'
' Can you please describe your husband for me although I think I know a bit about him from you.'
Pallavi's eyes flared with confusion, ' what? But, I have hardly spoken about my husband to you? How can you form an opinion about someone without even meeting them? Isn't that presumptuous and wrong on your part?'
She waited for his reply and when he did not offer it, goaded him, ' well, go on then. Say it and be done with it for I think I know what you must be thinking of my husband and that too just after meeting me a couple of times.'
' I think your husband loves you very much and that you love your husband as much as he loves you.'
Pallavi had thought different and had expected Ashok to say that her husband was mean and wicked and was probably screwing around with other women and was bored with her and to get her out of the way, gave her all the money she wanted.
But, here was this stranger who had just spoken and spoken true and well and had not reached into her very soul.
Ashok looked at her with surprise, ' why that surprise look on your face?'
' Because I was expecting something else. Something mundane, cliched and creepy. Buuut.'
She took the napkin that he offered and gently dabbed her eyes whose dams were threatening to burst free and mumbled, ' You are right. But, off late, for more than a year, I have been sensing this growing distance between us and I don't know what to do or how to go about it.'
She had not expected him to reach and take her hand and she had not expected to feel so comforted by that simple touch and then all she could do was nod her head when he said what he said.
' If you trust me then you will do exactly what I tell you to do and without any doubts or questions.'
She looked at him and nodded her assent.
She watched him raise his glass in a toast to her and then they both sat quietly and drank together, nursing their drinks and their thoughts and made small talk about everything and that meant nothing.
Edited by radhu_kavita - 5 years ago
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