'I don't want him to be another Abhishek Awasthi (her ex-boyfriend) in my life. Yes, we're engaged. I like him a lot. But how can I hand over my life to someone who isn't earning a proper living? 'That's why we're going on another reality show to see whether we're really as compatible as we seemed on 'Rakhi Ka Swayamvar'. I didn't get enough time with him on that show. You and I saw his best face. Now I want to see the real Elesh.'