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tum kab samjho gii ??
I am going crazy, mad, insane..reckless ...tormented..jealous...I'm losing my mind...my life... here...and you--Sanam--you say that it's a small thing?
My feelings...emotions...heartbreak..my torment ... they are little to you?!!
How can you say that sanam ?
How can and how dare you?!!!
When will you understand ?
When ?
Why dnt you see what i can ?
Why dnt you feel what I do ?
Why ?
Why do i have to explain everything?!!
Why ? why ? why ?
Why dnt you understand that you have taken my heart?!
Why do the hell do you dnt get this simple fact straight ?
When will you understand ?
When ?
When ?
When ?
That was a scream coming straight out of Aahil's heart !
Yes ! That's how bruised Aahil was today and that is how tormented and mingled his feelings were!
Poor boy! I really felt bad for Aahil today. š
his ammi jaan "tanveer"
she believes Aahil can never fall in love! Because as she says 'I have never taught Aahil to love! And if ever he falls in love then it would be like blooming of flowers in a barren land ! Therefore the idea of Aahil falling in love is completely impossible!'
Well... we all know how frail her belief is as the colour of Love has already began to grow on Aahil ! But one thing in the above line is signyficant that it explains why it is so hard for Aahil to word his own feelings!
Why it is that he cant profess to Sanam what he wants!
Tanveer had left no stone unturned to kill his humane side before it could even bloom !
Poor boy has been made to learn to take revenge..he had been instructed to hate..he knows how to punish when someone back-stabs him in business but he does nt know how to convey the language of tangled emotions ! Because he had been a lot of things by his ammi but he has never been taught to express the ocean of love!
No one in that household is probably as unfortunate and plagued as Aahil !š No not even Sanam ! Because they all are aware of how to be humane..but Aahil--he only knows to lead a life that is nt his own ! A life that is a puppet in the hands of her ammi.
The little something he had learned is the way to deal with his pain...but the road...? No its nt what we usually do when we are heart-wrenched or sad ! Its nt seeking affection..care or consolation..or sharing, nor is it shedding tears ! It is to release pain through pain. It is to be drown in limitless liquor...and the worst is to be tormented through days..months and years without any hope or expectation of escape !
Yes the best Aahil could do or better say is been taught to handle his life..his troubles..is to divulge in endless goblet of liquor...and more liquor. And when it seems to not work, it is destruction ! The path that Aahil has opted now!
The path of not glory or blessing but a path of rage..agony and suffering and he wnt stop until his hands--along with his heart are burned & broken and torn to shreads !
And yet tanveer believes he is nt capable of loving ?!
Isn't it ironical..and a slap on tanveer's face ?
That glass in Aahil's hand was a mirage of his life and those Ice cubes were actually Ice nails that were being cramed against Aahil's heart...where his dreams..his desires...his entire life was facing a silent death and yet he was so helpless that in spite of losing everything he could do nothing to prevent it .
He had to watch all..as a mere spectator !
And what else is to expect from him if not angst and dispair ?!!
So as the inevitable result Sanam faces his wrath ! Poor girl! She has no idea what is happening or why ! And blame it on her stars that poor girl chooses the wrong time to fulfill his commands...to add to his misery she utters the wrong question and...oh..who could save her then?!
Aahil is terribly wounded and so the object who is both his death & his desire when questions him what is there to be so angry in such a little matter , she had him on fire !
Aahil Raza Ibrahim is at the verge of breaking down !
The moment he grabs Sanam and pulls her against him is the most passionate moment ever in SAahil equation till now !ā¤ļø the irrvocable longing...intense flicker of emotions of desire and pain in his husky voice reflects his helplessness and conflict ! It is soo immensely beautiful..yet heartbreaking...!
His hope to see that same equal desire in her eyes redifines the amazing chemistry of SAahil ! š³ ā¤ļø
And when Aahil lashes...
"tum kabhi nahi samjhogi! You will never understand !!"
the frustration in his voice is so clear and raw that it bothers even Sanam this time!
Sanam tries hard but she fails to understand the reason.
And guys a point to be noted here is that for the first time in SAahil takraar...when Rehan appears Sanam does not complain against Aahil ! And as far as i remember this is the first time she had nt done so !!
Knock! Knock !
Do we hear a sound coming from Sanam's heart ? š
For the first time Sanam was hurt yet she divurged not a word to Rehan !
Hmm...
That rings a bell...that something between them is there that even Sanam can feel but couldnt recognize !!
I wonder how much more time and proximity will it take for Sanam to see that it is she who gleams in the depth of those black Ocean ! š³
I cn't wait but hold my heart in anticipation for the future !...
I guess we all are in the same boat !
Isnt it ?š³
Take care guys..š¤ and thanks for reading...š¤
I am going crazy, mad, insane..reckless ...tormented..jealous...I'm losing my mind...my life... here...and you--Sanam--you say that it's a small thing?
My feelings...emotions...heartbreak..my torment ... they are little to you?!!
How can you say that sanam ?
How can and how dare you?!!!
When will you understand ?
When ?
Why dnt you see what i can ?
Why dnt you feel what I do ?
Why ?
Why do i have to explain everything?!!
Why ? why ? why ?
Why dnt you understand that you have taken my heart?!
Why do the hell do you dnt get this simple fact straight ?
When will you understand ?
When ?
When ?
When ?
That was a scream coming straight out of Aahil's heart !
Yes ! That's how bruised Aahil was today and that is how tormented and mingled his feelings were!
Poor boy! I really felt bad for Aahil today. š
his ammi jaan "tanveer"
she believes Aahil can never fall in love! Because as she says 'I have never taught Aahil to love! And if ever he falls in love then it would be like blooming of flowers in a barren land ! Therefore the idea of Aahil falling in love is completely impossible!'
Well... we all know how frail her belief is as the colour of Love has already began to grow on Aahil ! But one thing in the above line is signyficant that it explains why it is so hard for Aahil to word his own feelings!
Why it is that he cant profess to Sanam what he wants!
Tanveer had left no stone unturned to kill his humane side before it could even bloom !
Poor boy has been made to learn to take revenge..he had been instructed to hate..he knows how to punish when someone back-stabs him in business but he does nt know how to convey the language of tangled emotions ! Because he had been a lot of things by his ammi but he has never been taught to express the ocean of love!
No one in that household is probably as unfortunate and plagued as Aahil !š No not even Sanam ! Because they all are aware of how to be humane..but Aahil--he only knows to lead a life that is nt his own ! A life that is a puppet in the hands of her ammi.
The little something he had learned is the way to deal with his pain...but the road...? No its nt what we usually do when we are heart-wrenched or sad ! Its nt seeking affection..care or consolation..or sharing, nor is it shedding tears ! It is to release pain through pain. It is to be drown in limitless liquor...and the worst is to be tormented through days..months and years without any hope or expectation of escape !
Yes the best Aahil could do or better say is been taught to handle his life..his troubles..is to divulge in endless goblet of liquor...and more liquor. And when it seems to not work, it is destruction ! The path that Aahil has opted now!
The path of not glory or blessing but a path of rage..agony and suffering and he wnt stop until his hands--along with his heart are burned & broken and torn to shreads !
And yet tanveer believes he is nt capable of loving ?!
Isn't it ironical..and a slap on tanveer's face ?
That glass in Aahil's hand was a mirage of his life and those Ice cubes were actually Ice nails that were being cramed against Aahil's heart...where his dreams..his desires...his entire life was facing a silent death and yet he was so helpless that in spite of losing everything he could do nothing to prevent it .
He had to watch all..as a mere spectator !
And what else is to expect from him if not angst and dispair ?!!
So as the inevitable result Sanam faces his wrath ! Poor girl! She has no idea what is happening or why ! And blame it on her stars that poor girl chooses the wrong time to fulfill his commands...to add to his misery she utters the wrong question and...oh..who could save her then?!
Aahil is terribly wounded and so the object who is both his death & his desire when questions him what is there to be so angry in such a little matter , she had him on fire !
Aahil Raza Ibrahim is at the verge of breaking down !
The moment he grabs Sanam and pulls her against him is the most passionate moment ever in SAahil equation till now !ā¤ļø the irrvocable longing...intense flicker of emotions of desire and pain in his husky voice reflects his helplessness and conflict ! It is soo immensely beautiful..yet heartbreaking...!
His hope to see that same equal desire in her eyes redifines the amazing chemistry of SAahil ! š³ ā¤ļø
And when Aahil lashes...
"tum kabhi nahi samjhogi! You will never understand !!"
the frustration in his voice is so clear and raw that it bothers even Sanam this time!
Sanam tries hard but she fails to understand the reason.
And guys a point to be noted here is that for the first time in SAahil takraar...when Rehan appears Sanam does not complain against Aahil ! And as far as i remember this is the first time she had nt done so !!
Knock! Knock !
Do we hear a sound coming from Sanam's heart ? š
For the first time Sanam was hurt yet she divurged not a word to Rehan !
Hmm...
That rings a bell...that something between them is there that even Sanam can feel but couldnt recognize !!
I wonder how much more time and proximity will it take for Sanam to see that it is she who gleams in the depth of those black Ocean ! š³
I cn't wait but hold my heart in anticipation for the future !...
I guess we all are in the same boat !
Isnt it ?š³
Take care guys..š¤ and thanks for reading...š¤
CID
