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Dear all
please find below Asad's response to the letter Zoya wrote. It didn't come out as I had hoped. But hope you like it all the same. Please leave a comment if you get a moment.
Here is the link to Zoya's letter
http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=3654802
Saima
Dear Mis...no not Miss Farooqui, it's Zoya.
It has taken me quite some time to assemble myself and finally put pen to paper. My efforts here are in vain as I still don't know where you are and I don't know if you will ever read this.
For the first time I have come to realise how powerful words can be and when put together how they can not only break your heart but destroy your soul. I read you letter a hundred times if not more and every time I did it pierced my heart, it suffocated me beyond belief.
I look towards your room with every passing moment still not quite able to believe you have really gone. Zoya I am going to say now what I should have all those months ago, I don't know if it will hold any weight but I assure you that every word comes with honesty, sincerity and from the bottom of my heart. There probably isn't a single word you wrote that I could stand up and disagree, with you are right...and you always were. It was my own insecurities my lack of trust that caused me to callously distance you from myself.
Saying sorry would not mean anything, it is too small a word to even begin to cover what I have done to you. But for what it is worth I am sorry Zoya, truly sorry, but more than that I need to say one more thing and that is that I Love You...
I love you Zoya, it's the truth and one that will forever remain. I always loved you an will do so until I breathe my very last breath. From the very first moment I saw you something inside me switched, I began to feel things that were alien to me and when these feelings got stronger I realised what was happening, I was falling in love with you.
You have become a part of me but one that I now will have to live without, if only I could bring you back, if only I could have one more chance to show you to prove to you that Asad Ahmed Khan lives for one thing only and that is you. I raise my hands before Allah time and time again praying that where ever you are, you are safe and happy, but more than that I pray for you to find it in your heart to come back to me.
Yours and only yours
Asad
